Time flies, eyebrows become books

【30】

After saying goodbye to Lin Sha, I didn't call Ziqi immediately to inquire, because I wasn't stupid enough to believe that Lin Sha was as pure-hearted as she showed, but there is no such thing as trouble, and some things probably didn't come from nothing.I wanted to get this out of my mind, and I didn't look into it any more.But after all, I already knew it, and there was a hole in my heart. Even if I ignored it deliberately, it was there.Perhaps from the very beginning, I had an uneasy idea about our relationship, so I couldn't face the gossip calmly, and his calmness made me more unsteady.

I remember that day was the weekend, it was rare that we were all free, and we were going to go to the supermarket together.As a result, as soon as he arrived at the supermarket, Lin Sha called him and said that he needed his help.

"I have to go there for a while. I'll go shopping with you tomorrow, okay?"

"Must I go now? In such a hurry?" I was beyond upset by his reaction.

"She said she was in a hurry, and she couldn't say a word or two on the phone, so I'll go."

"It seems that you really care about her affairs!" I think my expression must be ugly at that time.

"You don't want to make something out of nothing, okay? She usually helps me a lot, and she is not the kind of person who complains about nothing. She hardly troubles me with anything. It's rare to find me this time. Can I not go?" It sounds reasonable, but in It seems to me that the taste has changed.

"You mean I'm looking for trouble and moaning without illness!" I admit that my reason has gone astray.

"Can you stop misinterpreting it like this? Is it worth arguing over such a trivial matter?" He became angry, and his volume was raised by one degree.In public, we would actually quarrel over this matter, which we did not expect.He was clearly aware of the situation, and pulled me to a corner, "Can we talk about it when we go back?"

"There's nothing to say, we don't even have basic trust. You said you'd take care of your relationship with her, and that's how it turned out. You said before that I don't have to worry about anyone because no one can get in between us , but you never reject the little nurse in the unit, how do you want me to believe you." As soon as the words came out, I was shocked, I thought I had forgotten, but in fact I always remembered.

"Are you crazy? Do you know what you're talking about?" He bit his lower lip angrily, which was his habit.

"Isn't it the truth? Why don't you deny it?" I'm like a combative fighter, grabbing hold of the opponent and never letting go.

"What do you want me to deny? Where did you hear the news? You would rather believe others than me. What else can I say?" He acted helplessly.

"Then did you do something to make me trust? Why would I know? Of course it's because Lin Sha, who would never make something out of nothing and moan without illness, said it." I never thought that I would be so vitriolic.

He was obviously shocked, paused for half a second, sighed and said: "That's it for today! Don't argue anymore." I didn't intend to argue any more, turned and left.

We have no contact for the next week, which can be regarded as a cooling-off period for each other.I also gradually realized some truths, such as small quarrels are pleasant, big quarrels are harmful to the body, and frequent quarrels are sad.Feelings really can't stand the toss, it's not that the more polished the more beautiful, but the more worn the older.Even though I still love this person very much, I always feel a little tired when I think about it.

This time I took the initiative to contact him. In my memory, this kind of situation is really rare.In the past, he was always the first to admit his mistake, or the first to break the deadlock.

I called him first and asked him to come back for dinner at night, and he agreed.I also encouraged myself to cook a few more dishes, but I was still a little disappointed when I saw his dark face when he entered the door.The boy who can erase unpleasant memories with a hippie smile is also quietly disappearing.

"Are you going to die forever?" I took the lead to break the deadlock.

"No, I've been a little busy recently." He didn't look at me, his eyes were fixed on the food, I knew he was guilty.

"Did you go that day?"

"Xiao Yu, I think we have misunderstood." He spoke softly, without confidence.I was also surprised, when did he start calling me "Xiao Yu", he didn't call me that way before.

"What misunderstanding?"

"I told Lin Sha about our relationship." He put the emphasis on the word "cai", and nodded unconsciously, as if confirming himself, and there were some more movements in his hands for no reason. Must be struggling with something.

"And then?" I tried to slow down my tone, showing enough patience.

"She is willing to help me. In fact, she has already guessed our relationship, but she is still willing to help me." He finally looked up at me with tired eyes.For the first time, I felt so pitiful for him. Where did that energetic and fearless boy go?

"I can't help you?"

"My mom is really sick, maybe I really don't have much time. I want to make her happy." What I was most afraid of was coming. I assumed all kinds of possibilities and even imagined the content of our conversation. But when he said it so vaguely, I actually felt relieved.

"I'm sorry, I know it's brazen for me to ask anything." Seeing that I didn't respond, he lowered his head and added silently.

In fact, you can ask, no matter what request, I will agree, but you didn't say anything, but it made me at a loss, like being pushed out by someone's palm, erratic.

"Let's eat! We've been under too much pressure recently, and we'll get better." I knew that I couldn't explore any more. I was the one standing on the edge of danger, and reason told me that pointless exploration would only backfire.But what about sanity aside?