All men are like my ex

The affair ended in a hurry, but Shi Yinan didn't really touch Bai Yichen in the end.

In the long silent night, Bai Yichen leaned against his chest, closed his eyes and fell asleep peacefully.

And Shi Yinan hugged Bai Yichen in the dark, a little sleepy, but couldn't sleep well.Because he finally discovered that Bai Yichen had buried himself deeply in the tomb cast by memories. From then on, all he could see was the Shi Yinan when he left four years later, and when he came back four years later, he was not at all the same. Not the person Bai Yichen could see in his eyes.

So Shi Yinan changed his plan slightly, and asked Bai Weihuan to order someone to order a set of clothes the next day - the clothes he wore on the day he left four years ago.

He has indeed grown a little taller in the past four years, and the previous clothes can no longer fit, so it is better to make a new suit that fits, and then wear this suit to go home on his birthday, and propose to Bai Yichen.

After last night, Shi Yinan vaguely knew in his heart that maybe Bai Yichen didn't love him anymore, or he still loved him, but he loved Shi Yinan who hadn't had time to hurt him four years ago.

But it's okay, it's okay.

Even if Bai Yichen likes the former Shi Yinan, it doesn't matter, anyway, there is no one who is more like that Shi Yinan than him, as long as Bai Yichen likes it, he can always pretend to be that Shi Yinan.

On September 19th, Bai Weihuan handed the custom-made suit to Shi Yinan before leaving get off work, and wished him: "Mr. Shi, happy birthday."

When Shi Yinan heard this, he smiled at him: "Thank you."

On the way to send Shi Yinan back to the villa, Bai Weihuan couldn't help gossiping: "Mr. Shi, after tonight, are you going to change your name to Mr. Bai as 'Mrs. Shi'?" , and custom-made vase wedding rings and equity transfers and making a will, and today I changed my clothes specially for my birthday, so I should propose to Bai Yichen tonight, right?

After listening to Bai Weihuan's question, Shi Yinan just wanted to say yes, but when the tip of his tongue turned, the words changed into: "...not necessarily."

"Maybe he won't agree." Shi Yinan stroked the wedding ring in his bosom, his eyes dimmed a bit.

I didn't expect to get such an answer. The "Congratulations" that Bai Weihuan originally wanted to say could only be stuck in his throat, but he said in his heart: I don't know if I will agree to the answer, so I transferred the shares of the Shi family. If Bai Yichen doesn't Promise, what should we do if we break up in the future?

But this thought was fleeting, Bai Weihuan felt that Bai Yichen loved Shi Yinan so much, he probably would not refuse, when Shi Yinan got off the car, Bai Weihuan poked his head out of the driver's seat and said to him: "Shi Yinan Anyway, I wish you a successful marriage proposal—"

Shi Yinan twitched the corners of his lips, and said silently: "I hope."

He took a deep breath, held the bouquet of 99 roses he specially bought and rang the doorbell of the villa.

"Yi Nan, you are back, did you not bring the key...?"

Bai Yichen opened the door and saw Shi Yinan in this attire, and was stunned. He stood blankly at the door, and after a few seconds, he immediately looked at Shi Yinan's wrist, at the corner of his sleeve, as if he suddenly realized it. After seeing the familiar cufflinks, he laughed immediately, took the bouquet of roses, and asked him with twinkling eyes: "Is this a surprise?"

All his little moves were noticed by Shi Yinan, and Shi Yinan also knew that his bright and happy eyes were not because of this bouquet of roses, but because of the clothes he was wearing.But even though his heart was bitter and suffocating, Shi Yinan still had a smile on his face, and said softly to Bai Yichen: "Yes, do you like it?"

"Of course I like it." Bai Yichen answered him, paused for a few seconds, and still couldn't help stroking his clothes, his eyes were infatuated with nostalgia, and his eye sockets also turned slightly red, "This outfit... I remember this tie, I handed it that day tied for you."

"Yes, I remember too." Shi Yinan hugged Bai Yichen, kissed his forehead lightly and said, "I'm back, and I will never leave again."

"I……"

Bai Yichen raised his head and looked at Shi Yinan, there was water in his eyes, and he spoke several times before he spoke steadily, he said: "I've been waiting for you, I've been waiting for you to come back..."

It's just such a short sentence, but in an instant, Shi Yinan had the urge to cry, and before that, Shi Yinan had always thought that he was a person who couldn't cry.

why?Probably because it hurts too much.

It was as if his heart had been cut off and boiled in hot oil. Even after leaving his body, the pain continued to come, but the pain was far less than one-tenth of what he had brought to Bai Yichen. .

If one tenth of it hurts so much, how much pain will it have when Yichen commits suicide?

"Sorry……"

In the end, Shi Yinan couldn't bear to say sorry to Bai Yichen, even though he had already promised Bai Yichen that he would never say sorry again.

After hearing his apology, Bai Yichen shook his head and said, "You don't need to apologize to me. I won't blame you anymore when you come back... When I was waiting for you, I kept thinking... As long as you come back, I won't hate anything, I will continue to love you..."

"As long as you come back..."

"Yichen...I'm sorry..." Shi Yinan blinked, and the blurred vision became clearer.

Bai Yichen raised his hand to wipe off the water marks on his face, and said softly, "I love you, and you will love me forever, right?"

"Yes, I will love you, I will love you forever." Shi Yinan held Bai Yichen's fingers, his voice was hoarse and trembling cautiously, "I will never leave you again...Yichen, you Trust me one more time..."

"Of course I believe you." Bai Yichen smiled, suddenly grabbed Shi Yinan's hand, and led him to the studio on the second floor: "I prepared a birthday present for you, may I take you to see it? "

Shi Yinan immediately agreed, "Okay."

"I've been thinking about your birthday gift for a long time, but I can't think of anything to give you. You seem to have everything..." On the way up the stairs, Bai Yichen kept talking, "Finally I I finally thought of what to give you. I thought, I will give you this gift on your first birthday after you come back. "

When Shi Yinan heard this, his heart throbbed again, and he immediately said: "No matter what you give, I will like it."

Bai Yichen's eyes became brighter with Shi Yinan's promise, he led Shi Yinan into the studio, only then did Shi Yinan discover that all the paintings that Bai Yichen had carefully piled up in the corner of the studio were hung When they came out, the places that couldn’t fit on the wall were erected with easels. After a rough count, there were more than 40 paintings, all of which were painted on canvas.In addition, there are dozens of stacked sketchbooks and a few thick stacks of loose drawing paper, all of which are covered by a layer of hazy white gauze, and only the outlines of the characters can be vaguely seen in the canvas underneath .

Shi Yinan stared at them in a daze, and suddenly guessed who was drawn in these paintings.

"I remember that the day you left was also in September...your birthday was coming up at that time, but I haven't decided what gift to give you yet." Bai Yichen let go of Shi Yinan's hand and walked slowly to the paintings. In front of him, the voice seemed to echo in the empty studio, "And every day after you left, I miss you all the time, I really miss you, but I can't see you."

"So I started drawing you, and kept drawing."

Bai Yichen raised the corners of his lips, and tore off all the white gauze to reveal the portraits underneath.Then he turned around, as if showing off, and as if asking for credit, he took Shi Yinan's hand and took him to watch from the first picture: "I'm afraid I'll forget your appearance, so every month Will draw one, from the first month you left—"

While talking, Bai Yichen pointed to the time mark on the lower right corner of the frame for Shi Yinan to see.

And Shi Yinan stared blankly at those paintings. Bai Yichen's painting skills are superb, so he is so lifelike in the paintings. When Shi Yinan looked at those paintings, it was like seeing another self. He couldn't help stretching out his hand. Caress yourself in the painting.

In the painting, he either has a serious face, or has no expression on his face, or smiles tenderly and affectionately, but outside the painting, he gradually shed tears, and finally tears flowed all over his face.

He suddenly remembered the incident mentioned in Bai Yichen's materials: Bai Yichen stopped painting portraits for other people a long time ago.

No one knows why, but knowing Bai Yichen's condition, at first he just thought that Bai Yichen couldn't tell the difference between others, so he stopped painting. Now he understands, it's because Bai Yichen only paints him. A person——Bai Yichen thinks that what he paints is only him.

As Bai Yichen said, the lower right corners of those paintings are marked with time, and there is no lack of it every month, but after the painting, the person in the painting is no longer him, but someone else.

In these paintings are Xia Qi, Song Yuheng, Le Dong, some of their old classmates, and a strange man he doesn’t know, but there is no longer a picture of him. Counting the time, it was in Bai Yichen’s first after three suicides.

In the end, Shi Yinan walked to the last scene.

He remembered that Bai Yichen had been painting this painting since he came back. He had seen Bai Yichen paint it, but he had never seen the person in the painting. When Bai Yichen finished the painting, he asked him about it. Do you want to take a look, but he said no.

Shi Yinan withdrew his finger touching the painting, slowly clenched it into a fist, his manicured nails pierced into the flesh of his palm, and he didn't feel any pain.

Bai Yichen came over, took his arm to admire the painting with him, and asked him, "Do you like it?"

"...I like it." Shi Yinan looked at Shi Yiming on the painting, but still replied with a smile, "I like it very much."

"I still have a lot of your sketchbook and drawing paper, can I show you?" Bai Yichen let go of his arm and walked away.

But Shi Yinan seemed to be unable to bear it any longer, and slowly knelt down on the ground with his knees bent, tears streaming down his face.The roses that he helped to hold in his hands when he went upstairs were also scattered all over the floor, and the petals fell apart.

He looked at this studio and felt that this was a court. He was the murderer who was about to be sentenced to death for killing Bai Yichen in the court. The black and white writings contained conclusive evidence. Everyone in the painting who was not him was the judge of this trial. The jury, they all looked at him with disgust, reproach, and disgust, spat at him, accused him of being a bloody and cruel butcher, and asked the judge to send him to the electric chair for atonement.

But Bai Yichen, who was killed by him, still smiled and said that he loved him before he died.

Why do you still love him...why don't you hate him...

Shi Yinan couldn't control his emotions anymore, he fell down in front of the easel and wept bitterly.

Hearing his crying, Bai Yichen turned around quickly, put down the sketchbook in his hand, and helped him up: "...Yi Nan? Why are you crying?"

Shi Yinan stubbornly knelt on the ground and refused to raise his head, only the tears on his cheeks reflected the cold light.

Bai Yichen touched those lights with his hands, but was held tightly by Shi Yinan the next moment, Shi Yinan raised his head, his face was full of tears, his lips trembled, and he called him with a trembling voice as if pleading: "Yichen... ...one dust..."

"...Let's get married... shall we?"

"I have prepared a ring...and other wedding gifts...but now I only bring a wedding ring, you see—" Shi Yinan's fingers trembled violently, and when he took out the ring box from his pocket, he accidentally dropped it took it.

He knelt and climbed a few steps in panic, not a little arrogant and calm before, only flustered and helpless, he desperately grabbed the ring box back into his palm, and then opened it for Bai Yichen to see.

There were two rings in it.Platinum, with a circle of thorns engraved inside the ring, and the letter "Y" wrapped in the middle by the thorns, both rings are like this, the only difference is the size of the ring.

Bai Yichen picked up the smaller one and looked carefully at the light in the studio.

"I had this made to order...I know you don't like your name...so I just engraved a 'Y'...we both have a 'Y' in our names..."

"I don't know if you like this style or not. If you don't, I'll prepare other...and those gifts...or if you want anything, just tell me and I'll give it to you."

"No matter what, I will give you..."

Shi Yinan grabbed Bai Yichen's other hand hanging by his side, his weeping and weeping appearance was extremely strange to Bai Yichen, and his anxious and humble begging tone seemed like he had never heard it before.

Bai Yichen turned his wrist, and gently touched Shi Yinan's chin with his fingers, and Shi Yinan raised his head to look at him.