All men are like my ex

Not long after Shi Yinan left, another guest came to Bai Yichen's villa, which was rarely visited by anyone.

When Bai Yichen opened the door and saw Shi Yinan's face, he almost blurted out the sentence "Did you forget to bring something?" After he saw clearly the clothes the visitor was wearing, he pursed his lips, the pale crimson lips Slowly raising it, a smile evoked.

Le Dong stood at the door, looking at Bai Yichen quietly. He was dressed very tightly, his straight legs were lightly wrapped in light gray trousers, and his snow-white shirt was neatly worn, even buttoned up. The top one on his body was full of abstinence, only his white toes stepping on the dark carpet and the crying mole directly under his eyes added a bit of eroticism to him.

The two looked at each other in silence. After a while, Le Dong suddenly lowered his head and laughed softly, and the laughter became louder and louder. When he raised his head again, his eyes were already red, and he asked in a trembling voice: "Bai Yichen...you Do you still know who I am?"

The smile on Bai Yichen's lips deepened, and his eyes that seemed to be soaked in water were full of affection when looking at the man's face, and he said softly, "You are Le Dong."

But Le Dong hated his eyes very much.

This person, in the past, would only look at Shi Yinan with such eyes, and he would not share any affection with others, happy, sad, angry, he would leave everything to Shi Yinan, and he followed behind him After so many years, when he finally got some emotion, what he looked at was still Shi Yinan.

"You still know who I am..." Le Dong's hand hanging by his side trembled slightly, and he murmured in a low voice as if talking to himself, and then suddenly raised his voice, "You fucking know who I am who!"

He grabbed Bai Yichen's left hand that was holding on to the door frame, pulled him into the room with all his might, and pulled off the white shirt that covered his left wrist, revealing the two hideous scars that looked like centipedes entrenched in the flesh. Come.

The transparent diamond buttons on the cuffs fell off the fabric due to the man's rough movement, refracted a faint flash of light in the air, and then fell to the dark carpet without making a sound.

"Yichen... If I don't speak, do you still know who I am? Is Shi Yinan really the only one left in your world..." Le Dong's voice was full of deep pain, holding Bai Yi Chen's palms kept tightening, as if he was trying to restrain the strong feelings that had been suppressed deep in his heart.

Bai Yichen looked at Le Dong's eyes without avoiding them, still full of affection, he continued to smile as if he couldn't feel the pain on his wrist, nor could he feel Le Dong's sadness, and even raised his right hand to stroke gently. Looking at Le Dong's face, he asked softly with pale lips, "Le Dong, are you sad?"

The young man's fingers brushed across the face, passing through the hair and caressing the man's head, his clear and transparent eyes did not blink: "Don't be sad..."

Le Dong waved Bai Yichen's hand away, staggered to the sofa and sat down, lowered his head, shook his head and smiled wryly, "Why would I talk such nonsense to a patient?"

Bai Yichen didn't care what Le Dong said, bent down to pick up the button from the carpet and said, "My shirt is very expensive."

Le Dong immediately said: "I will send you money later."

Bai Yichen smiled: "No need, for Le Dong, just treat me to a meal."

Le Dong turned his head away from Bai Yichen: "I don't want to treat you to dinner."

Bai Yichen shrugged helplessly, didn't continue to say anything, and turned to the dining table to continue cleaning the dishes.

"Did he stay here last night?"

"Ah."

"Are you coming tonight?"

"Well, maybe I will come every day in the future." Bai Yichen continued to answer, thought for a while and added, "Maybe it is like this."

Le Dong sneered, and said maliciously, "Maybe he left again in a few days."

Bai Yichen wiped the table without stopping, not even the slightest pause: "He said he missed me very much, he said he still loves me, he probably won't leave this time."

"And...it doesn't matter if he wants to leave again, he can't do without me." Bai Yichen brought a plate of peeled apples from the kitchen, inserted a toothpick and put it in front of Le Dong, looking down at the wrist That scar, with a sick smile on his face, solemnly said like an oath at a wedding: "...If he wants to leave, he has to take me with him."

Le Dong listened to what he had said no less than three times, but raised his hand to cover his eyes, leaned back in extreme fatigue, sat up for a while, and said: "Then let him bring you the next time." When you go, don't cut your wrists."

Bai Yichen inserted an apple, put it in his mouth and chewed it slowly, then smiled and agreed: "Okay."

Le Dong hooked the corners of his lips stiffly, and forced a smile: "I just ruined your clothes, so I'll treat you to dinner tonight."

Bai Yichen shook his head: "Not tonight, Yi Nan invited me to dinner."

Le Dong froze again: "Then you just said that you asked me to treat you to dinner?"

Bai Yichen spread his hands with an innocent expression: "I didn't say it was today."

Le Dong snorted: "Then tomorrow night."

Bai Yichen still smiled: "Okay."

Hearing what he said, Le Dong was still very upset, got up cursing, muttered something like "you were not so easy to talk before" and left the villa.

Bai Yichen stood at the door, waving his hand to watch him leave, then turned around and went to the studio on the second floor, opened the thick rose-colored curtains, and let the bright light from the window shine into the studio, through the huge French windows, Bai Yichen watched from a distance. Looking at the gorgeous red rose bushes blooming in the garden, he suddenly remembered the situation when Shi Yinan gave him flowers for the first time.

It was their first year together, their first Valentine's Day.

It was still the weekend, he was painting in the studio, when Shi Yinan called, his deep and pleasant voice tingled in his ears: "Miss me?"

The young man smiled, and drew a beautiful line on the canvas in front of him with a paintbrush: "Think about it."

The man smiled on the other end of the phone and asked him, "What do you think?"

What's your idea?

Bai Yichen looked at Shi Yinan's deep and handsome face on the canvas, licked his lips and deliberately lowered his voice, "I want you to appear right now...and then fuck me to death..."

"Baby, as you wish."

Bai Yichen had just finished speaking when Shi Yinan hung up the phone.Then there was a movement at the door of the studio, Bai Yichen turned his head to look, and saw Shi Yinan standing at the door of the studio holding a large bunch of Corolla roses, after locking the door of the studio, the setting sun was half blood red, half The golden Yu Hui, with a gentle smile on his face, walked towards him affectionately.

He walked up to him, squatted down and put the flowers in his hands, kissed the corner of his lips and said: "99 roses, the flower language is to love you forever."

"It's so vulgar to give me roses..." Bai Yichen said pretending to be picky while holding the rose.

Shi Yinan smiled, pushed Bai Yichen with his lower body, licked his ear pinna lightly and said: "Then give you my baby, okay?"

"Aren't I your baby?"

"You're a little baby, it's a big baby."

……

That day until it was completely dark and the stars were low, he and Shi Yinan walked out of the studio. He didn't take the bouquet of roses with him. They were scattered on the studio floor, forming a red carpet. He and Shi Yinan held hands Holding hands and walking through the red carpet, it is as if they have stepped into the church, kissed and swore in front of the priest, and agreed to join hands and stay together for a lifetime.

Bai Yichen suddenly gasped for a few quick breaths, covered his mouth and slowly knelt down in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, transparent and hot tears slipped down between his fingers, hit the carpet hard, and dripped out in circles without a sound. Dark water stains.

After Shi Yinan left, he kept telling himself silently in his heart - don't be sad, don't be in pain, you can't forget Shi Yinan now, it doesn't mean you won't be able to in the future.You have only been together for four years, you forget him a little every day, first forget the first day, then the first month, and then the first year... It only takes four years, and you can completely forget this person.

But he didn't.

He first recalled the first day they met, then the first Valentine's Day they spent together, and then the second, and remembered every minute, every second, every frame, every frame of their time together. picture.

Shi Yi Nan left him for five years, not only did he not forget him, he still remembered all the time and years they were together.

Sometimes he wonders if he has squandered all the happiness and satisfaction of his life in those short four years, so in the following days, he is so painful and unwilling, and needs to live with no end in sight. While waiting, desperately, eagerly, and humbly begging to see Shi Yinan again.

He couldn't forget Shi Yinan, really couldn't forget him.

No matter how many years it takes, he still remembers his appearance, his voice, everything about him, those things are deeply engraved in the depths of his soul and will never fade.

The reason why he is so painful and sad is because he can't keep Shi Yinan's back that is drifting away, so he deserves to stay here, remembering his love, his Shi Yinan, miserable and humbly.

It's because he doesn't want to let go, so he has to pay something.

It's just that these prices are too expensive, and he doesn't know how long he can last.