All men are like my ex

"It doesn't hurt anymore."

Upon hearing his voice, Shi Yinan came back to his senses, parted the corners of his lips and replied.

"It doesn't hurt anymore, let's take the medicine again later."

Bai Yichen looked for the hair dryer in the drawer with his head down, took it out and plugged it in, but found that the hair dryer seemed to be broken, and there was no response even after pressing the switch a few times.

Seeing this, Shi Yinan picked up a towel and walked towards him, saying, "Let me wipe your hair."

"Okay." Bai Yichen sat down in front of Shi Yinan, lowered his head and played with his mobile phone to browse Moments.

Shi Yinan wiped his hair silently, his eyes flickered to the scar left on Bai Yichen's left wrist, his pupils shrank suddenly, Le Dong's cursing at him during the day reverberated in the back of his mind, Shi Yichen Nan's Adam's apple slid up and down, and subconsciously apologized in a harsh voice: "Yichen...I'm sorry..."

Bai Yichen was stunned for two seconds when he heard his endless apology, then turned his head and asked him, "Why are you apologizing to me all of a sudden?"

Before Shi Yinan could answer, Bai Yichen laughed and joked with him: "You can't be cheating, are you?"

"...No." Shi Yinan said.

After a pause, Shi Yinan seemed to have finally made up his mind to be honest with Bai Yichen. He said, "I apologize because of... what happened four years ago."

Bai Yichen stopped his finger sliding the phone screen, and said softly, "Why did you mention that suddenly? It's been so long."

"It's been a long time, but it's my fault, I'm sorry for you." Shi Yinan cleared his throat, and said with difficulty, "At that time, my brother died in a car accident, and my dad died of stomach cancer, too. , Ye Wanxiang only has my son left, so she came to me and asked me to go back and inherit the Shi family."

"Oh, that's it." Bai Yichen replied lightly, "Then what about breaking up? Why did you tell me to break up?"

Bai Yichen didn't care at all whether it would be embarrassing to ask such a question, or if there was something he couldn't ask, the apology was started by Shi Yinan, since Shi Yinan had mentioned this matter tonight, he had to ask clearly Bar?

"Ye Wanxiang asked, she wanted us to break up, if it was revealed that I was gay, the company's reputation would be greatly affected, the board of directors would not support me, and my dad didn't like me very much...I, I have no other choice gone."

Bai Yichen knew something about Shi's family - in exchange for telling Shi Yinan about his past, Shi Yinan also told him about his family's affairs.

Ye Wanxiang and Shi Yinan's father, Shi Qingze, were in a commercial marriage, but Shi Qingze loved Ye Wanxiang from the beginning. Their eldest son, his brother Shi Yibei, was born at that time. They met in the north, so Shi Qingze named his eldest son Yibei to witness their love.

But Ye Wanxiang was too arrogant, she didn't like Shi Qingze very much, the gap between the two of them was widening day by day, Shi Qingze was tired of maintaining such a relationship, he didn't know if it was intentional or not, he cheated.

After this incident was discovered by Ye Wanxiang, Ye Wanxiang's revenge was also very straightforward. She also found other men, and she did not shy away from Shi Qingze and Shi Yinan at that time. Ye Wanxiang didn't even know Whose son is Shi Yinan, and after Shi Yinan was born, she deliberately took a name that had the opposite meaning to Shi Yibei, and used it to anger Shi Qingze, so Shi Qingze would like this son. .

When he was young, Shi Yinan was arrogant and hated his parents for ignoring him. When he left alone, he felt that he could make a difference by working alone. What happened?

In Shi Yinan's answer just now, he kept calling Ye Wanxiang by her name, as if he could separate his relationship with her, but four years ago, he chose to stand on the united front with Ye Wanxiang.

Bai Yichen sneered, but he laughed so lightly that he could hardly hear it clearly, knowing that the consultant said: "So, you agreed to her request?"

Shi Yinan closed his eyes, and finally spit out the word that seemed to weigh a thousand pounds to him: "...um."

So Bai Yichen started to play with his mobile phone again, and continued to say while playing: "Oh, that's why I sent you so many text messages and called you so many times, did you do it on purpose if you didn't answer them?"

Shi Yinan gritted his teeth and replied: "...Yes."

The truth is always so real and ugly.

It was the first time Shi Yinan confessed that he was a scum in front of him. Bai Yichen thought he would be angry, but he found that he was not angry at all, and he didn't feel sad.He thought it was probably because he already knew what kind of person Shi Yinan was, and now he was used to not crying in front of him, because when he most wanted to cry in Shi Yinan's arms, they were thousands of miles apart. miles away.

"So you come back now because you have become famous, but you still can't let go of my first love? Then you see me now and find that I still love you so much, and even committed suicide for you. Do you feel proud or satisfied?"

With his back behind his back, Bai Yichen said these words lightly, but Shi Yinan could hardly raise his head under the pressure, he stopped to wipe Bai Yichen's head, wanted to refute, but opened his mouth but couldn't speak.

What can he say?He wanted to say that he came back because he loved Bai Yichen, not because of these things, but he dared not admit it himself.

Compared with Bai Yichen's love for him, his "love" cannot be called love at all.

"It's not like this..." Shi Yinan said harshly.

"Then you came back because you love me." Bai Yichen turned around suddenly, raised his arms to hug Shi Yinan's neck, approached him with a smile, his lips almost touched Shi Yinan's, "Isn't it? "

Shi Yinan looked into Bai Yichen's eyes, but couldn't answer in the affirmative.

Bai Yichen still smiled and asked him: "If you didn't come back because you love me, then what do you mean by apologizing to me tonight? Do you hope I forgive you? I hope I can say 'I never hated you'. I've never told you', 'I still love you as before'? But I've said it all, you know, I'd never lie to you, do you think I'm lying to you? Do you think Am I still hating you, don't love you?"

Shi Yinan's lips twitched, and the word "no" sounded so low that he could hardly hear it.

Each of Bai Yichen's questions was like the bone-chilling cold of deep winter, burying him deeply in piles.Bai Yichen did say that he never hated him and still loved him as before, but Shi Yinan felt that Bai Yichen might as well hate him and stop loving him.And why did he apologize to Bai Yichen tonight?How could he have the face to apologize to him?

Shi Yinan's face was pale, his lips were almost bloodless, and his figure was also crumbling. Looking at him like this, Bai Yichen seemed to have a glimmer of water in his eyes, but the gleam disappeared in an instant, turning into a deep pool-like calm.

He looked deeply at Shi Yinan, raised his hand to caress Shi Yinan's face, stroked his eyebrows, stroked his eyes, it was the most careful touch since they met, so Bai Yichen He found that this Shi Yi Nan was actually different from the Shi Yi Nan he could "see".

When he came back, Shi Yi Nan's browbones became sharper, his eyes became deeper because of his age, his facial features became tougher and more handsome, but they were no longer the ones he could see, Shi Yi Nan was four years ago.

But he is still most like the Shi Yinan four years ago.

No one could be more like him.

They have common memories, common hobbies, like to eat the same kind of food, like to listen to the same type of music, like the same person, they are the most similar.

Bai Yichen closed his eyes and opened them again, without a smile on his face, he looked at Shi Yinan, and said slowly: "Shi Yinan, you are not only a liar, but also a coward, a scum."

"Sometimes I really want to see if you are wearing a mask, how can you be so deceiving, but you are obviously a scum." Bai Yichen gently grabbed Shi Yinan's face with his nails, with a little force, as if There was some blood spilled.

Shi Yinan didn't feel pain in his face, maybe it was really hurting, but the pain was less than one ten-thousandth of what he had brought to Bai Yichen, at least he didn't feel the pain to the point of committing suicide.His hands hanging by his side were trembling, Bai Yichen looked at his eyes like the strongest and brightest light, making him feel ashamed, he was almost unable to stand, and wanted to kneel down in front of Bai Yichen, but Not to beg his forgiveness, but to beg him not to leave himself.

Because what Bai Yichen said to him tonight was like a sign—a sign before breaking up. It seemed that they had torn away all the pretense of deep love and pulled out the bloody reality underneath.

"I'm sorry... Yichen... I'm sorry..." Shi Yinan trembled, and repeatedly apologized to Bai Yichen. He wanted Bai Yichen to slap himself a few times, or kick him directly, as long as he can calm down.

"It's my fault, it's all my fault...you can do whatever you want..."

He held Bai Yichen's hand, but he didn't dare to use any force. He just hugged Bai Yichen vainly, begging Bai Yichen: "Just don't break up with me... Please... don't leave me... I really know Wrong...sorry..."

Bai Yichen looked at Shi Yinan begging him in a low voice with cold eyes. While feeling the irony of this scene, he couldn't help feeling that the last remaining dignity he had back then was that he didn't kneel in front of Shi Yinan and begged him not to leave him. Now he saw Shi Yi Nan begging him so humbly.

So fine.

Bai Yichen almost didn't laugh out loud, after all, Yinan didn't answer any of his calls, he didn't see any text messages, and when the number was changed, all the corpses were wiped out, even he himself didn't remember the details of those text messages.

But now Shi Yi Nan is the one who is really ashamed and degraded, he even watched the live version.

"Yi Nan...go get me a cigarette." Bai Yichen didn't answer immediately, but let go of Shi Yi Nan, lowered his eyes and said softly, "My cigarettes are on the third floor, and the lighter is also there. "

Shi Yinan opened his lips, probably wanting to tell Bai Yichen that smoking is bad for his health, but how could he refuse Bai Yichen under such circumstances?

The cigarette was quickly brought over by Shi Yinan, Bai Yichen lowered his head and bit the cigarette, raised his eyes to look at Shi Yinan, Shi Yinan looked back at him, and lit the cigarette for him, in the end, Shi Yinan still Unable to hold back, he said, "Yichen... Smoking is not good for your health."