All men are like my ex

Nancheng Amusement Park is built in Zhou'an Park. It is the largest amusement park in Nancheng. It was developed three years ago and completed last year. It has been in operation for a full year so far.

The scenery near the amusement park is good, and the fees are not too expensive, so many people come here to play every day since the opening day.

But Bai Yichen only came here once, and never came here again.Because he sat on the wooden chair in the playground and cried for a whole day when he came here. I don’t know how many people’s attention was attracted during the period, and the security guard came to see him. He was afraid that he would be too emotional and fall into the lake in Zhou’an Park. suicide.Bai Yichen stopped coming here later because he was afraid that he would lose control of his emotions.

After all, the rental house where he and Shi Yinan lived together before is here.

Ye Wanxiang made Shi Yinan lose his job after he left. Both he and Shi Yinan were fresh graduates, they didn't have much savings, and it didn't take long for the money on them to disappear.Later, he even committed suicide by swallowing sleeping pills in the rental house. There was a lot of commotion, and the landlord let him continue to live here when his mind was flooded, and kicked him out after the rental contract expired.

Bai Yichen didn't want the place where he and Shi Yinan used to live to be occupied by another person, destroying the traces left by Shi Yinan. He and the landlord begged for a long time, promising him to move out, but the rent of the rental house was not paid by him. Pay as you please, as long as the landlord no longer rents the house to others.Anyway, the landlord finally agreed, and Bai Yichen started to make money crazily, hoping to save enough money to buy this small house as soon as possible.

It's a pity that before he could save enough money, the place was included in the demolition list by the government. Half a year later, this small house full of Shi Yi Nan's atmosphere about their past was pushed to the ground, just like their past, overnight Everything in between is erased.

After another two years, it became Zhou'an Park.

As soon as Bai Yichen turned off the car, the staff of the park parking lot came straight to him. She was a rather rich middle-aged woman with a kind smile.Bai Yichen didn't bring change with him, so he could only give her a whole hundred-yuan bill. The woman chatted enthusiastically with him while she was looking for the money: "Young man, come to the park to play?"

"Yeah." Bai Yichen replied with a smile.

The woman handed the changed change to Bai Yichen, and when she heard that she looked behind Bai Yichen and found that he seemed to be here alone, she asked him in surprise, "Are you here alone?"

"No." Bai Yichen put away the money and said with a smile, "I came with my wife, but he hasn't arrived yet, so I'll wait for him in the park first."

"Oh, that's it." Although there are indeed some people who choose to come to the park alone, they are a minority after all. After hearing Bai Yichen's explanation, the woman immediately understood, "Then I wish you all a good time."

Bai Yichen still smiled, and said warmly, "Thank you, we will."

Nancheng Amusement Park is in Zhou'an Park. Before Bai Yichen entered the park, he could hear people's cheerful laughter. These cheerful emotions permeated every corner of the park, making everyone who came here feel very happy. Then it gets better, but it may also breed the darkness deep in people's hearts, especially those who come to the park alone like Bai Yichen.

After all, the park was crowded with people, whether it was a warm and happy family or young couples in love. How could people who came here alone not be shocked when they saw this scene?

When Bai Yichen came here for the first time that year, he was greatly stimulated—the little family he once fell in love with Shi Yinan was overthrown and destroyed, while the people who stepped on it laughed so happily and happily, feeling so lonely and lonely. What irony and stark contrast he formed.

Even if Bai Yichen came here today, he still feels a little uncomfortable, because there are too many "Shi Yinan" here.

Those "Shi Yi Nan" were accompanied by gentle wives, and they even held cute children in their hands, as if Shi Yi Nan really married another woman after leaving him, and they had a happy and perfect Home, and he has nothing, this was once his most desperate idea.

Bai Yichen couldn't imagine what he would do if there was such a day. Fortunately, Shi Yinan was not completely hopeless, and he didn't make him despair to the end.

His eyes swept over "Shi Yinan" face greedily, and then left sourly - there is no way, he loves Shi Yinan so much, seeing "him" holding hands with other women, it is impossible for him not to be jealous .

So Bai Yichen frowned, and began to deliberately avoid the dense crowd, looking for men in a slightly open place, to see if there was a single "Shi Yinan" for him to admire and imagine.

For example, when I saw Shi Yinan rushing to the toll gate to buy tickets, I fantasized that he was buying tickets for two people, and then they would ride the exciting roller coaster together, or kiss on the romantic Ferris wheel; Shi Yinan, holding two ice creams on the table, can imagine that he bought them for himself, and they will sit on the bench together to eat, if he eats too fast, Shi Yinan will also give his ice cream to He ate it, if he accidentally got the ice cream on the corner of his mouth, Shi Yi Nan would smile and lean over to lick the ice cream from the corner of his mouth.

Just thinking about it like this made Bai Yichen feel hot all over, and the corners of his lips became more and more curved. He suddenly felt that it would be nice to come to the park to play more when he has time in the future.

Bai Yichen was so happy with his free fantasy, bought a cotton candy and went to the jumping machine, sat down on the wooden chair by the roadside, while eating, looked up at the jumping machine not far away—the location of the jumping machine, It is the place where he and Shi Yinan used to rent out.

Even though he hadn't been here for a long time, Bai Yichen recognized the wooden chair he sat on and cried for a long time when he came here for the first time. At this time, an old man with a cane was sitting on the wooden chair. Yichen sat beside him and smiled at him friendly, and the old man returned his friendly smile.

The spring in Nancheng is coming to an end, and the weather is gradually getting hotter, especially in such a sunny day, when the sunlight falls through the gaps in the leaves, it is like little golden stardust shining, projecting warmly on the Therefore, it didn't take long for the pink cotton candy in Bai Yichen's hand to melt.

The slightly melted marshmallow juice sticks together and condenses into small pink candy granules, which are decorated on the lighter-colored marshmallows. It looks very cheap and not very good-looking, but it is almost every child childhood memories, just like the significance of candied haws to children in ancient times.

However, Bai Yichen didn't have it in his childhood. He didn't have any change to buy this kind of food when he was a child, and it was even more impossible for him to have a mother or father who loved him to buy these snacks for him.

He has never seen his father since he was a child, and his mother would burst into tears every time she mentioned that man, crying so much that she wished she could die, and she did die later, committing suicide.

On a sunny day, she walked to the roof of the tube building where they lived in a snow-white dress, and jumped down from the height of the seven-story building, blood spattered on the gray-black concrete floor.

At that time, Bai Yichen was reading a book in the room on the third floor. It was a very worn-out comic book. The grandma next door looked at him pitifully and gave him a book written by her grandson.When the snow-white figure jumped down from the top of the building, Bai Yichen's line of sight briefly passed. He put down the comic book, walked slowly to the window, and looked down while holding onto two cold protective railings.

Bai Yichen could hardly recognize the woman, her limbs were spread out in a twisted posture, the white bones could be seen faintly, and the crimson blood slowly overflowed from under her body, staining her snow-white skirt—white It is the stamen, and the red is the petals, just like a blooming red flower, very similar to the red flower on a certain page illustration in the comic book that Bai Yichen read.

Thinking of this, Bai Yichen couldn't help closing his eyes, because the scene was really not friendly to him, so he stopped thinking about it and took two bites of the marshmallow.Those candies are soft and sweet and melt in your mouth, and sweets can bring a good mood.

While he was eating the candy, the jumping machine performed another ejection, and the people sitting on it heard piercing screams.

Bai Yichen recalled that he and Shi Yinan lived on the second floor at that time, and if he wanted to go, he would probably have to take the jumping machine, let alone taking the jumping machine, he would even feel the short-term weightlessness in the elevator. Dizzy and nauseous.Bai Yichen thought about it carefully, and felt that this might be the psychological shadow left on him by his mother's death, although Bai Yichen himself didn't think that memory had caused him a deep psychological shadow because he was recalling those memories He can be calm and calm like water, but his body has the most real psychological reaction to that part of the memory.

But Bai Yichen thinks this is not bad, just like a healed wound, although he can see the scar again, he will not feel the pain anymore, and the scar can also remind him not to forget that memory. good thing.

After Bai Yichen sat down, he sighed again and again, causing the old man next to him to look at him frequently, and finally couldn't help but ask, "Young man, are you alone? Are you here to play at the playground?"

"Yeah, but I didn't come here to play, I just came here to have a look." Bai Yichen replied, he changed his words this time, and didn't say that he has a lover who hasn't come yet, "I used to live here , the place where the jumping machine is."

Bai Yichen pointed to the jumping machine to show the old man, and said regretfully: "My wife and I live on the second floor, but later the house here was demolished, so I can only come here to have a look."

"Haha, what a coincidence, my wife and I used to live here." The old man laughed when he heard the words, "But we live a little further than where you live. After the playground was built, I often I come here with my wife, almost every day, and take a walk around the park after dinner in the evening. After all, those jumping machines, roller coasters... just the name sounds scary, neither of us dare to ride Yes, you can just sit on a chair and watch."

"Even if you dare to sit, the playground staff probably won't let you sit." Bai Yichen joked with a smile, he didn't ask the old man where his wife is now, just like the old man didn't ask him his Where is the lover now.

Because the memories are too good, I can't bear to break them.

"Yes." The old man sighed, looking into the distance, his eyes full of nostalgia, "We have never played with these things before, and she always said that if I could be younger, I would sit in these strange things once." Things are fine..."

Bai Yichen thought about it, and realized that he had never sat on these things before. He and Shi Yinan University had traveled to many places to play, but they had never been to an amusement park. After all, they were two big men and had no children. If you want to bring it, you will never think of coming to such a place to play.

The old man left the park when it was almost time for lunch. He probably went home for dinner. Bai Yichen ate a lot when he went to see Ye Wanxiang in the morning, and he doesn't feel hungry now.He remembered what the old man said, so he got up from the chair and walked slowly around the playground, buying some snacks on the way, looking around all the way, just like walking near the rental house before.

As he was walking, Bai Yichen's cell phone rang. He picked it up and looked, and found that it was Shi Yinan calling him.

"Yi Nan." Bai Yichen answered the phone with a gentle voice.

"Yichen..." Shi Yinan's tone was a little nervous, he didn't know if he was still feeling guilty for the accidental discovery last night, "I wanted to go to the studio to pick you up for lunch, but you're not here, where are you now? "

"I didn't go to the studio today." Bai Yichen told him, "I came to Nancheng Amusement Park."

"South City Amusement Park?"

"Well, it was just built the year before last."

"I haven't been there." Shi Yinan said, "I'll come to see you now, okay?"

Have you ever been there?

Bai Yichen pursed his lips, thinking that you must have been here, more than once, but he didn't say this, just lazily said: "Okay, but this place is a bit far away from your company, Do you have to go to work this afternoon?"

"No more." Shi Yinan said this without the slightest hesitation, and Bai Weihuan, who was checking the file next to him, widened his eyes when he heard this, and looked at Shi Yinan in shock.

But Shi Yinan didn't even look at him, and continued to whisper to Bai Yichen: "I won't be going tomorrow, I'll stay with you at home, you're in Nancheng Amusement Park right now? I'll be right there."

Bai Weihuan: "..."

Bai Yichen laughed twice, and replied, "Well, I'm in the amusement park."

"Then have you eaten? Is there anything you want to eat? I'll buy it for you and bring it here."

"No, after you come here, let's have lunch again."

"Okay." Shi Yinan paused for a few seconds, then softly called Bai Yichen's name, "...Yichen."

Bai Yichen raised his head and saw something interesting, while walking towards it, he responded to Shi Yinan: "Huh?"

"I love you……"

Shi Yinan told him.

So Bai Yichen told him with a smile: "I love you too, see you later."

"...see you later." Shi Yinan put down his phone in a daze, and when he looked up, he saw Bai Weihuan looking at him desolately like an abandoned woman.

Shi Yinan laughed out of anger, and the tenderness on his face disappeared instantly when he was talking to Bai Yichen, his deep black eyes were piercing, his eyebrows were high, and he changed back to the unkind Shi Yinan who was stalking and scrambling in the shopping mall. , he asked Bai Weihuan: "What do you see me doing?"

Bai Weihuan looked into his eyes, swallowed back the accusation welling up in his throat, and murmured: "It's nothing, it's nothing..."

"I'll be leaving in a while." Shi Yinan began to pack his things, "Call me if you have anything to do, I won't come to the company tomorrow, and I'll give you a raise when I come back the day after tomorrow."

Bai Weihuan was still desolate when he heard the first half of his words, but when he heard that the salary would be raised, everything recovered instantly.In fact, he thought it would be good for Shi Yinan to go back to accompany Bai Yichen, because although Shi Yinan did come to the company this morning, he was in a very bad state, and he was in a daze all the time, and his efficiency in processing documents was almost zero. Condensed, he didn't even dare to go up to him and ask him if he had quarreled with Bai Yichen.

But listening to that phone call just now, don't talk about quarreling, these two people love each other too much, okay?

So before Shi Yinan went out, Bai Weihuan said goodbye to him: "Mr. Shi, I wish you and your husband a happy day today."

"'Your sir'?" Shi Yinan paused, then smiled, "This new title is not bad."

Bai Weihuan also smiled at him when he heard the words.

Shi Yinan left with a smile on his lips, but when he was on the road, the smile on his lips gradually faded away, and his always frowning brows tightened even more. The first thing he did after sitting in the car was not to start the car , but holding the steering wheel, let out a deep breath of air.

His state today is indeed not suitable for continuing to stay in the company, and this state may even last for a while, so it is good for him to take two days off.

But once there was nothing to numb him, the scar he saw on Bai Yichen's wrist last night would reappear in his mind repeatedly and couldn't get rid of it.

Bai Yichen committed suicide.

Different from Ye Wanxiang's suspicion, although Shi Yinan is not a person who is easy to believe, but he understands Bai Yichen, he is the person who knows Bai Yichen's past best, he knows the kind of darkness Bai Yichen lived in in the past , he yearns for the light and lives more than anyone else.

But he still committed suicide because of himself.

It's as if he was an executioner who killed the person he loved with his own hands. As long as Shi Yinan thinks of this, Shi Yinan will feel that his heart is tightly grasped by a cold hand, and there is ice on the place where it touches the palm. The spread, accompanied by suffocation, stripped away the temperature and oxygen in his blood bit by bit.

Shi Yinan closed his eyes, opened them again, thought for a while, took out his mobile phone, and searched for the route to Nancheng Amusement Park in the navigation, but after looking at it, he found that he knew countless ways to go to The route of Nancheng Amusement Park is even better than the navigation. Even though there are many strange buildings nearby, some routes have been changed.

He knew this place so well because he had lived there with Bai Yichen for three whole years.

It was almost another home for him, how could he not remember the route home?

But he told Bai Yichen just now that he had never been to Nancheng Amusement Park, so he didn't know how Bai Yichen felt when he heard him say this.