you lost me

Sleeping until midnight, awakened by lightning flashes outside the window, Jiang Juanzhi only turned on a small light by the bedside, and tried several times to send the long-lasting text message, but the result showed that the sending failed, the weather was too bad, and the signal unstable.

Glancing at the time, it was 2:56.

He must have slept.

Jiang Huanzhi shrank into the quilt and touched his forehead. The temperature was not as high as during the day, but it was still in a low-grade fever.There is also a penguin software in the phone, which contains some original friends.After hearing what happened between him and Yu Ming, they agreed tacitly and never looked for him again. Even if there were one or two friends who occasionally sent him messages, he didn't dare to reply easily.

After coming and going, there was no new news in the chat box, and he hadn't opened this software for a long time.

The wireless at home was not affected by lightning. Jiang Zhuanzhi updated the software, but he didn't know what to do when he clicked on it.I want to find some chat records to hurt the spring and autumn, but I found that the history records are kept for two years at most, and it has been six years since I left home...

In the space, the diary on the top is a long speech he posted six years ago about the pressure of the college entrance examination, the nagging of his parents, and the confusion about the future. Finally, there is a photo with a metaphor he drew. Ming, a black and white pencil drawing, very similar, and the final signature is: I will be a painter in the future, and my name will go down in history!

"It turns out that I used to have such a good literary talent." Jiang Huangzhi scrolled down, and every sentence revealed the relaxed and happy youth, and occasionally saw a group photo with his family.

There is a picture of the whole family together, with flour on their hands and giggling at the camera. It was Jiang Wangzhi's last birthday at home. The 19-year-old Jiang Wangzhi made it clear to his family within a few days.

"I have someone I like very much, his name is Yu Ming!"

……

"What's wrong with men? Who stipulated that men can't be with men?"

……

"I'm already this old, don't worry about me!"

……

After such a long time, I can still clearly remember the crying of my parents, as well as the last words they said.

"Get out, if you really want to be with him, never go home!"

"If I don't come back, I won't come back! I wish I couldn't see you, and I'll gossip all day long!"

……

The stubborn Jiang Huangzhi didn't shed a single tear in front of them, and finally went to the public phone booth to call Yu Ming.

"I have no home."

Yu Ming on the phone said with a smile: "Who said that I don't have a home anymore? You come to me, and you won't have a home if I'm here."

After crying for a long time in the phone booth, Yu Ming listened quietly.

Finally at dawn, Jiang Huangzhi stood downstairs in the brightly lit neighborhood for a long time, carrying his bag on his back, relying on his youth, tenacity not afraid of setbacks, and longing for the future, he resolutely left the familiar city.

Yu Ming came to pick him up at the station on purpose. The unfamiliar environment made Jiang Juzhi's eyes turn red, and regardless of the crowds, he leaped over all barriers and threw himself into his arms: "We are officially together today!"

"Well, today just happens to be Mid-Autumn Festival, a good day for reunion." Yu Ming hugged him, turning a blind eye to the strange eyes around him.

"Hello, my ginger painter."

"Hello, my Mr. Yu."

"Please take care of me in the future."

……

Everything in the past has been crushed by time to pieces, only Jiang Huanzhi is still in the illusory love, unable to get out, but weaving vague hopes for himself.

Among the Penguin contacts, there is a person who is particularly concerned about Yu Ming, who has a gray profile picture and has not been online for a long time. Click on the dialog box to view the chat history, and there are just a few from two years ago.

I'm not coming back today.

I'm not coming back today.

I'm not coming back today.

Intermittent intervals of a few days or a few days, like copying and pasting perfunctory, until the end there is no perfunctory.

"No wonder I haven't been on Penguin for so long."

The signal bar returned to full, Jiang Juzhi turned off the penguin, returned to the text message box, and called out the text message edited in advance to send to Yu Ming.

Jiang Huangzhi was a little surprised that he replied to the letter without even putting down the phone.

The content of the text message is very simple: [I am his fiancée, although I don't know who you are, but thank you for your concern, don't bother me in the future, he has me by his side, and I will take good care of him. 】

In a few words, Jiang Huangzhi learned a lot of information. The person who replied was Ruan Wei. Yu Ming didn't save his phone number. She told him not to send text messages to Yu Ming again.

The word "fiancee" is very eye-catching, Jiang Huanzhi squeezed the phone tightly, his fingertips were trembling a little, and he typed carefully, pausing and pausing.

【fiancée? 】

【Are you his friend?We're getting engaged next Saturday, you tell me your name and I'll send you an invitation. 】

Next Saturday happens to be the date of the plane ticket that Yu Ming gave him.Is this a coincidence or deliberate?

"Engagement." Jiang Huangzhi accidentally and calmly deleted the text message, trying to lie to himself that he didn't know about it.My heart was empty and there was no pain, and I went to the living room to look for medicine after being so bored and flustered.

The chicken seemed to be frightened by the thunder, so Jiang Juzhi let it out of the cage.

There are a lot of medicines, Jiang Huanzhi felt that there was plenty of time, and stuffed them into his mouth one by one like eating candy, and there was no water in the water dispenser.Waiting for the medicine to melt in the mouth and melt into the throat, there is no bitter feeling yet.

After flying around twice, the chick stopped on the coffee table, wanting to eat medicine.

"You are not sick, what medicine do you take?" Jiang Juanzhi poured the medicine into the palm of his hand like a baby.

Chick: "Take medicine! Take medicine!"

"Okay, I'll take the medicine." Jiang Huangzhi acted like a chick caring about himself, and threw the medicine into his mouth.

The bitter taste really stimulated the taste buds, Jiang Huanzhi rushed into the toilet, spit out the medicine and the noodles that he had just eaten, pressed the toilet flush button, sat down on the floor exhausted, and laughed at himself .

"Engagement is not marriage. I'm being hypocritical."

"Yu Ming, I won't listen to you this time. I don't want to travel."

Jiang Juanzhi stood up on his knees, took out his toothbrush and squeezed toothpaste on it, after rinsing his mouth, he definitely couldn't fall asleep, so he simply sat back at the computer desk and continued to draw.

The little chicken wandered from the living room to the bedroom, as if leading a visit, and landed on Jiang Huanzhi's shoulder.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" Jiang Huangzhi teased it.

The chick screamed, "Sleep!"

Jiang Juanzhi picked up the pen: "I don't sleep, I want to draw to make money."

"make money!"

"Yes, if you have money, you have everything."

……

Jiang Huangzhi was woken up by the doorbell, opened the door and Qin You brought out the delicious packaged meal: "I'm here to repay the favor!"

He was still wearing pajamas after painting all night, with messy hair and glasses, looking at Qin You with one eye open and the other closed.Only when both eyes were opened at the same time did he regain his senses: "Come in."

"Braised lion head, braised hairy crab, braised fish, braised beef..." Qin You took out a box of dishes from the bag and gave a name.

A table full of dishes made Jiang Huangzhi, who was still sick, unable to eat chopsticks: "Eat so greasy in the morning?"

Qin You finally took out a box from the bag: "What morning? It's already six o'clock in the afternoon, and this is dinner."

"Ah?" Jiang Huangzhi picked up a chopstick of rice and put it into his mouth, "Painters don't distinguish between day and night."

"It's such a coincidence, so does the editor." Qin You put the box aside, "The merchant gave you preserved egg and lean meat porridge as a gift, you shouldn't eat it."

Jiang Juanzhi lifted the lid, and the steaming porridge gave him a lot of appetite: "I'll eat this."

This confused Qin You, who was still working on the hairy crabs, and suddenly remembered that he went to the hospital for an infusion yesterday, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I forgot that you are still sick."

"It's okay, if you don't come to 'repay', I won't eat again today, thank you."

This meal was the best Jiang Huangzhi had eaten in the past few months. It wasn't because he was poor that he ate poorly, but because he had no appetite and being alone made everything simple.

Qin You is the same as Qin You, talkative and funny, his edges and corners have not been polished by life, and he has his own way of life after work.

Jiang Huanzhi chatted about one topic after another, but Qin You still persevered: "What are your hobbies?"

"draw."

"Draw one for me, and I'll take it back to ward off evil spirits."

"To ward off evil spirits?" Jiang Juan almost choked on a mouthful of porridge, "You're not ugly, but I don't draw people now."

"That's a pity, you draw so well, you only draw cartoon animals."

"I also draw illustrations." Jiang Juanzhi drank half a bowl of porridge, and put down the bowl when he felt full, "It's just an illustration for children."

"What have you been drawing recently?" Qin You put down the bowl and chopsticks.

Jiang Juanzhi supported the glasses frame: "A collection of stories about a little white rabbit."

Qin You felt that it sounded familiar. He rubbed his cheeks and thought for a long time, then clapped his hands and said, "Ah, I remember, you must be the painter in charge of my girlfriend, right? I heard her tell you that you never delay the draft."

"Your girlfriend?" Jiang Huangzhi thought of his editor, who seemed to be a young girl, and said with a smile, "That's a coincidence, you can still find a girlfriend when you are so busy?"

"It's a matter of time to start a family and start a business when you reach the age." Qin You said, "In the same company, the personality and everything are quite suitable, and they should be able to live a lifetime."

"So casual?"

Qin You raised his eyebrows: "This is not random, it is a responsibility to life."

Jiang Huanzhi clasped his hands on the table, ready to listen to his rationale: "What responsibility?"

"I like the freedom of life, but when I reach the right age, there will always be a voice in my heart ordering me to do something. For example, if I am thirty this year, then I should get married." Qin You continued, "This is also My family is looking forward to it, and I can't ignore them. Hey, but it's good, sometimes it's very tiring to be alone. There's nothing wrong with things like feelings slowly running in."

Jiang Huangzhi's understanding of Qin You rose a level: "Your girlfriend will be happy."

"Maybe." Qin You started to clean up the leftovers, "By the way, you seem to be single? Want me to introduce you?"

Jiang Huangzhi didn't know how to answer: "I... am single, is it obvious?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Qin You glanced at the shoe cabinet, there were only a few pairs of shoes of the same size, "It's good to be single, you can feel free."

Jiang Huangzhi left the chair: "I'm not single."

"Ok?"

Originally, I wanted to talk about Yu Ming, but I was afraid that he would find it too unbelievable, so I changed the subject: "I have chickens."

Jiang Juzhi stretched out his finger, and the chick in the unlocked cage flopped in this direction.

"Hahahaha, little chicken, you have a new love and forget the old love!" Qin You pretended to snatch, and the little chicken pecked at the back of his hand like a chicken pecking at rice.

Jiang Huanzhi saw him chasing chickens all over the room, and sat on the sofa to take pictures of this "harmonious" scene.