you lost me

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and Jiang Huanzhi was shivering from the cold.I really couldn't wait for the rain to stop, so I braved the rain and went to the supermarket to buy a box of instant noodles.

Close the door, the noise of the rain outside is reduced.

Jiang Huanzhi slipped his shoes and walked barefoot on the cold solid wood floor.

He turned on the water dispenser, went to the bedroom while waiting for the hot water to boil, and changed into a sky blue cotton velvet pajamas with a pink love heart on his chest.

Jiang Juanzhi didn't turn on the light, and it gradually became dark outside the window. Occasionally, a few houses in the opposite building turned on the lights, which prevented him from being completely plunged into darkness.

Sitting on the sofa with legs crossed, his head was drowsy, he stroked his forehead, the cold back of his hand seemed to be scalded.

"Have you got a fever? I don't know if there is any medicine at home." Jiang Huanzhi took a cup of hot water and reluctantly found a pair of cotton slippers to put on.

The slippers made a lot of noise on the floor, Jiang Huanzhi rummaged through boxes and cabinets to find cold medicine, the fever seemed to be severe, but it didn't affect his consciousness, only his head hurts.

After searching for a long time, I found that there was no other stock in the house except the medicine on the computer desk, so I simply stopped cooking instant noodles and went to bed hungry.

Uncomfortable to the extreme, but unable to sleep, the whole body began to feel hot, and after covering the quilt, it was like being in a stove.

"It's good to be sweaty." Jiang Juanzhi put the quilt over his head.

When a person is sick, he is more likely to feel lonely. He has no friends and takes out his mobile phone, staring at the phone number in a daze as usual.

It's only been a few hours since the last call, Jiang Huangzhi hesitantly pressed his finger on the dial button, and didn't dare to call to disturb him.

After thinking about it, I had to edit a text message: It is raining heavily outside, remember to wear more clothes and go home early.

But his home was never Jiang Huanzhi's home. Yu Ming's real home has the love of his parents and endless warmth.

"Is this the case for all people with depression?"

Jiang Huanzhi really didn't think he was suffering from depression. Apart from talking to himself often and repeating a sentence many times, there was nothing wrong with him.

"It's just what the doctor says, it's not a big deal."

Jiang Zhuanzhi didn't eat all day, because he had a fever and felt sick to his stomach, and couldn't vomit anything.After putting down the phone, I forced myself to sleep with my eyes closed.

The pendulum clock on the wall was specially bought by Jiang Juzhi, and it made a regular clicking sound every second, which could only be heard clearly when sleeping on the bed.

Yu Ming often complains: "Why do you buy this to hang on the wall? It's so noisy that I can't sleep."

Jiang Huanzhi laughed it off: "If you come here often, I won't buy it, and now I can't sleep without this sound at night."

The alcohol concentration in the air suddenly increased, and Jiang Huangzhi could smell it even if he was sick, so he muttered unhappily: "Yu Ming."

There was a rustling sound beside him, and a person lay down: "I am here."

Jiang Huangzhi thought he was dreaming, and slowly opened his eyes, it was really Yu Ming who was drunk: "Why are you here?"

"I was socializing around here. It rained heavily and I didn't drive, so I came here." Yu Ming took off his soaked shirt, exposing his wide shoulders and narrow waist.

Jiang Juanzhi sat up: "Didn't I tell you to bring an umbrella?"

"...forgot." Yu Ming's ears turned red from the alcohol, and he looked at Jiang Huangzhi with the most primitive desire in his eyes.Supporting him with one hand and one hand, he got closer and closer.

"How much wine did you drink?" Jiang Huangzhi felt that the hot air sprayed on his cheeks was full of alcohol.

Yu Ming pressed him on the bed: "Do it?"

"Do it." Even though Jiang Huangzhi was sick, he was still unwilling to refuse, because if he refused, Yu Ming would leave...

Because of the alcohol, Yu Ming's movements became much rougher, and the cotton pajamas were difficult to take off. He wanted to tear them off, but Jiang Huangzhi protected him: "Don't break this one."

Looking at the very ordinary blue pajamas with a confused expression, Yu Ming took off his clothes patiently, took the lubricant from the bedside table, wiped it a few times indiscriminately, and then entered the main scene.

"You're so hot today." Yu Ming rubbed each other's ears with him, and no one kissed anyone in tacit agreement.

Jiang Huanzhi gritted his teeth and endured, his body didn't feel happy, but his heart was happy, at least Yu Ming needed him right now.

Yu Ming spent an extraordinarily long time doing it that night. Jiang Juzhi's inexplicably hot body made him want to stop, and he didn't want to stop until the person under him fell asleep.

In the early morning of the next day, Jiang Juanzhi opened his eyes on time under the influence of the biological clock, his whole body was in pain like falling apart, and Yu Ming was fast asleep with his back facing him.

Jiang Huanzhi walked lightly to the bathroom, the mist blurred the person reflected in the mirror.After wiping it with his hand twice, he could clearly see the blue and black under the eyes, the whiteness of the lips, and the sickly redness of the cheeks.

"You need me." Jiang Huangzhi seemed to be stating, but also seemed to be asking questions.

A night of sex did not bring down his fever, but the heat of his body made the hot water feel like cold water.

After getting dressed, the hangover Yu Ming still hasn't woken up.He used to leave at this time, leaving hardly any time for breakfast.

There was only instant noodles in the refrigerator, and Jiang Zhuanzhi wrote a note and pasted it on the bedside.

I have something to go out. There is no breakfast at home. If you want to eat, just order a takeaway.

Jiang Huangzhi is a contradictory person, he likes to be lively, but the crowd makes him feel uneasy. When he saw someone behind in the queue for registration at the hospital, he automatically walked around to the last one.

More than two hours later, when the hospital was about to close at noon, Jiang Huangzhi waited in line at the window: "I have a fever, please register."

The nurse didn't look at this handsome man with strange eyes, and pointed to the window next to him with concern: "This is the psychiatric department, you go to the internal medicine department next door."

After she finished speaking, she left work.

Jiang Huanzhi looked up, and there was a sign that anyone who was not blind could see, with three characters printed on it squarely: Psychiatry.

"Are you used to seeing psychiatry, or are you confused? You actually lined up in this line." Jiang Wangzhi reluctantly followed the crowd next to him and continued to line up.

Fortunately, the internal medicine department does not take a break at noon, so Jiang Huangzhi waited in line for another two hours, and only after all the nurses at the psychiatric department were on duty did he get the number.

The doctor looked at the thermometer: "39 degrees 7, you can still be so energetic, it's not bad, but it's better to get an injection, and you don't need to take medicine soon."

"Okay." What the doctor said is right, you have to listen to the doctor.

Jiang Huanzhi was quite happy to hear that he didn't need to take medicine.Sitting on a chair, there were two bottles of potions waiting to enter his body on the shelf.

The nurse should have just come for an internship, and the young face was serious about giving him the needle. After the first needle was wrong, Jiang Huangzhi's hand trembled inaudibly, which was caught by the sensitive nurse.

She inserted the second needle more carefully, but it still didn't reach the correct position. When she pulled out the needle, Jiang Huangzhi gasped.

"Yes, I'm sorry, your blood vessels are too thin, why don't I call someone else, I'm sorry." The nurse apologized to him in a crying voice, "I'm sorry I didn't mean it."

Life is not easy, Jiang Juzhi smiled and extended his hand to her: "It's okay, you continue."

The liquid flowed into his blood vessels along the infusion tube, and the nurse took a thermos cup to apologize: "Sir, this is for you, you haven't eaten at noon, have you?"

Medical students can judge a person's state by observation.

Only then did Jiang Huangzhi remember that he hadn't eaten since yesterday, he took it without hesitation after thanking him, opened the bottle cap, and there was steaming hot milk inside.

The nurse handed him a cute cup with cartoon characters on it.

"Do you want something to eat? I don't have anything to do right now, so I can buy it for you." The nurse was working now, so she didn't dare to sit down casually, so she could only stand and chat with him.

Jiang Huanzhi took two sips of milk, and after his stomach warmed up, he held the cup, feeling the warmth spread from his palm.

"No need, the milk is already very good." Jiang Huangzhi rarely talked to strangers, but the kind gesture of the girl in front of him made him couldn't help but say a few more words.

"Did you just join the job?"

The nurse curled her lips and nodded: "Yes, I know all the professional knowledge, but I am very timid. I don't dare to speak up for the night shift, and I always make mistakes when I give people needles."

Jiang Huangzhi: "Looks like I'm not the first to suffer."

"Yes, I gave a girl an injection today, and the first injection didn't go right, so let me pay for her infusion." The nurse's face was round, with a little baby fat, and her eyes were piercing, like a doll.

Jiang Huangzhi took another sip of milk: "Accumulate experience, and you will be fine in the future."

Qin You hoped to make friends with this well-spoken and gentle man, and said without hypocrisy: "Sir, my name is Qin You, you are leisurely, what's your name?"

"My name is Jiang Huangzhi."

Qin You stroked his chin and repeated: "Jiang Huangzhi, hope?"

Jiang Huanzhi turned his eyes to the passers-by, and said with a broken smile: "Wonderful wishful thinking."