Bright Moonlit Night

A few days later, Zhou Chengyan was ordered by his parents to go to Jin's mansion and propose a divorce.

Mrs. Zhou told her husband about Jin Yi's troubles in Zhou's mansion. Mr. Zhou was angry at first and then sighed.But the matter has come to this point, the best policy is to stop the loss in time.What will happen to the Zhou family when the Jin family announces their divorce?Before the Jin Mansion could take any action, Master Zhou asked Zhou Chengyan to go to the Jin Mansion on his behalf, and proposed to withdraw the engagement. The reason was that Zhou Haoqing was seriously ill and invited an eminent monk to chant scriptures. The eminent monk said that this woman is not suitable for marriage in the past two years In order not to delay Jin Yi, the Zhou family is willing to voluntarily withdraw the engagement.

Zhou Haoqing's serious illness was true, but the so-called eminent monk's words were false. Zhou Chengyan didn't know why his parents did this. He even secretly asked his sister who was sick in bed. What surprised him was that Zhou Haoqing himself agreed to the divorce.

He persuaded everyone: "The matter has not yet reached that point. My sister's condition has never been so serious, not to mention that my brother-in-law is not such a selfish person. Even if it takes a year or two, he is willing to come."

Master Zhou knew that he and Fu Ming had a deep friendship, and he couldn't tell him what he and his wife and daughter had done, so he had no choice but to press his father's order.Zhou Chengyan had no choice but to go to Jin's residence.

Seeing Jin Yi's goodbye, Zhou Chengyan sighed inwardly, but after a month or so without seeing him, his brother-in-law actually lost a lot of weight, although it seems that the majesty and power are still there, but it is hard to hide his downcast expression.

As soon as they met each other, Zhou Chengyan felt that he seemed to understand his feelings, and he asked: "Brother-in-law, you too...you know too?" As soon as the words came out, his eyes turned red again.

Jin Yi also asked: "You already knew?"

Zhou Chengyan nodded, "Brother Ming left me a letter." On that day, he went to the outskirts of Beijing to see if Fu Ming was getting better, but what he saw was...he grieved for a long time, and with a few friends who knew After prudently worshiping Fu Ming, the mood gradually eased.But it turned out that it only calmed down temporarily. As long as the memory is awakened again, he will still be very sad.

Maybe it's because Fu Ming had a good relationship with Zhou Chengyan before he was alive, maybe it's because Zhou Chengyan still understands his feelings now, Jin Yi's attitude towards Zhou Chengyan is much more peaceful than other people in the Zhou residence.

Zhou Chengyan comforted Jin Yi for a few words and explained his intention to come back, Jin Yi agreed without hesitation.

Zhou Chengyan was surprised: "Brother-in-law, don't you think about it anymore?"

"Why do you want me to think about the divorce when you come here? Even if I want to think about it, I have already thought about it clearly, so I don't need to think about it anymore."

Zhou Chengyan persuaded again: "Brother-in-law, I know that although you and Brother Ming are reconciled, there is still a kindness. Now that Brother Ming... he is gone, you feel uncomfortable, but after all, the deceased is gone, you can't be impulsive because of this." Then I will give up my other marriage!"

But Jin Yi shook his head and said: "You don't need to persuade me anymore, my marriage with your sister is now void. If you want to know the real reason, you can ask Master Zhou and Mrs. Zhou."

"The real reason? Master Zhou, Mrs. Zhou? Brother-in-law, what are you talking about?"

"That's all I said, what you hear is the truth."

"Brother-in-law...Although I may not know why things are like this, do you really not think about it anymore? Although you always count what you say, marriage is a big deal after all. If Brother Ming knows, he doesn't want you So lonely and without a partner. He still said in the letter he left me..."

"What did he say?" This is the most emotional sentence that Zhou Chengyan has heard from Jin Yi so far.He recalled and replied:

"He said that he hoped that I could take care of you and Yan'er more based on my friendship with him and the Jin family, to the effect that."

Jin Yi smiled with tears, "Thank you for your kindness, but there is no need, I will take care of Yan'er. You don't have to worry about my affairs anymore, I have made up my mind that I will never marry again in this life."

"Brother-in-law..." Zhou Chengyan was shocked beyond words. He knew that Jin Yi was not the kind of person who would say "every sea was too difficult for water", but when he said that he would no longer accept marriage, he meant to die alone.

After a long time, Zhou Chengyan smiled miserably, "He is like this, and you are like this. Even if he has left Jin's mansion, even if he is dying, he still misses you. And you, for him, will judge the rest of your life on this... Only hate The sky has no eyes, the sky has no eyes..." Zhou Chengyan said, but he didn't realize that his tears were like two chopsticks.

The news of Jin's and Zhou's divorce gradually spread throughout the capital. Every family heard that Miss Zhou was seriously ill. The Zhou family offered to divorce, and the Jin family agreed. Years can't wait, after all, it's a bit fickle.

Jin Yi ignored the rumors from outsiders.After returning from the yamen every day, he just served the elders and accompanied Zhaoyan, and almost spent the rest of the time in Fangmanting.

He moved his residence to Fangman Court, and none of the original layout inside was changed, it was the same as before Fu Ming left.

Some flowers and trees in the courtyard were planted by Fu Ming himself in the past, so he will no longer pretend to be others, and must take care of them himself.Some birds came to drink and look for food, and he thought, maybe they were fed by Fu Ming, so he wanted to talk to them, as if only these "old friends" could understand what he was thinking.

Except for Bai Lu and other big maids, the little maids who used to be in his room were sent to serve other masters, and Fang Manting's little maids who followed Fu Ming were still able to stay.Jin Yi was admitted to the hospital sometimes, and when he saw them, he seemed to have walked into the Fangman Court.It's just that the person he wants to see the most will never stand under the tree, by the pool, under the porch or in front of the window waiting for him to approach.

At night, he often dreamed that Fu Ming was ill, looking at himself with sunken eyes, and said weakly: "Long borrowed, I'm in so much pain, please hold me." He hugged him pitifully in his arms , I found that he was so thin, and the thin bones hurt his chest.Sometimes I dreamed that he was going to the deep mountains without looking back, and I hurried up to catch him, but I couldn't catch up, and watched him disappear into the mist and mist.Occasionally, he would seek a famous doctor for Fu Mingbian in his dream. If he was lucky, it was a beautiful dream, and he would really be able to find a famous doctor who could bring him back to life. The doctor said that he would be able to cure Fu Ming, and they thanked the doctor together, and Smiling at each other, he was so happy that he couldn't bear it, and wept with joy...

Night after night, dreams are just dreams, nightmares will not reappear in reality, and dreams will never come true.Only memories allow him to confirm to himself that he really once had such a person, a person who often reads a book in the warm sun, and when he hears the sound, he raises his head and smiles at him, and tells him "come back!" "It's gone", and he approached him earnestly, like a breeze blowing on his face, an unparalleled person in the world.

From summer to autumn, the southerly wind turns into a cool breeze, the wind blows the bushes, and the shadows of the branches dance in front of the window. He woke up from his light sleep, thinking that Fu Ming was calling him in a low voice, waving to him.He hurriedly got up and pushed the window to look, but only the clear light of the cold moon filled the courtyard, no one was seen, never to be seen again... He wanted to fall asleep again, but he couldn't fall asleep again. After tossing and turning, he simply got up , Light the candle lamp, and read the poems and books that Fu Ming has read one by one in the dim light. If he encounters a place where he has made annotations, he will read it again and again until he can memorize it by heart.

He thought, how did Fu Ming face the spring flowers and autumn moon alone in this courtyard, and endured the indifference of human feelings day after day without saying a word, before they connected with each other?

He saw that poem in the collection of poems copied by Fu Ming, and there was a sentence in it that Fu Ming once read to him: "Swallows holding fish in their mouths can make each other thicker, and mud, dirt and moss can cover each other for its own reasons."What did Fu Ming say at that time?By the way, he said that this is the truth that his father taught him long ago. Where fate makes you go is often involuntary, but people can settle down by themselves.He also asked himself: Grandpa has broad shoulders and broad chest, can I settle down in this life?He promised, so firmly.In the end it was all empty.Next to this poem, Fu Ming commented: This flower already has a owner, and they can live together for the rest of their lives.

Jin Yi held the book in a daze, recalling this sentence and criticism all night, as if he had been tortured thousands of times, and it hurt to the bottom of his heart, but he still wanted to, and was willing to suffer from this pain.

The rest of his life is long, if he can repay it with this, will he be able to make himself feel more calm when he sees Fu Ming again in a hundred years?At this point, he finally understood what Fu Ming said that Buddha has compassion and wisdom, which can overcome suffering in people's hearts.He didn't believe it before, but now he is willing to believe in the reincarnation that the Buddha said.He is willing to seek each other sincerely, not for the other shore, but only for the next life.Or, use the pain you have endured in this life to seek a good beginning and a good end in the next life.

On holidays, if there is nothing important, Jin Yi will go to the suburbs of Beijing.

The roses in the corner were gone, and the tung leaves were falling, so Jin transplanted a few autumn chrysanthemums here. This is the variety that Fu Ming said he would plant last year.

Over the past few days, although he regretted that the most important person was lost forever, he gradually realized that he seemed to understand Fu Ming better.He himself once regarded himself as the queen of the general family, and believed that the purpose of a man in the world is to serve as a wise king, defend his family and the country, make outstanding achievements, and leave an immortal name. This is the value of his life as a human being.But Fu Ming married him. As a scholar, his official career was cut off and his future was lost.But when he followed Fu Ming's footsteps, glimpsed all the things he had experienced, and thought about what he thought, he realized that Fu Ming still had a passion that was not inferior to his own.Fu Ming once said that he has been fulfilling his promise to write down their hard work and fireworks life for those ordinary beings who are not recorded in history books.He reads and writes notes, many of which have sudden flashes of inspiration and surging emotions. He was originally such an affectionate and sensitive person, but he alone was able to silently bear all the things that fate imposed on him without complaining. Always holding his gentle and honest heart, being kind to others... He planted flowers and raised fish, Jin Yi once thought it was his leisure time, but read in his essays that he wrote flowers for flowers and fish, Fang Know how he treats these inhuman things...

Before he was alive, I never got to know him well. After his death, I finally understood him through all the things he left behind, which made him even more unwilling. He loves the world so much, but the world abandons him like nothing. .

Jin Yi wanted to go to that tomb to comfort Fu Ming, and he also comforted himself, telling him that he would remember this affection for him forever.

Along the grass-yellow-green mottled winding path, Jin Yi entered the mountain pass.But stopped far away.

He saw Zhou Chengyan, Yan Le and other five or six people sitting on the grass in front of Fu Ming's tomb, playing the piano, cooking tea and singing.It seems that this is not a wilderness, but a certain elegant place, and Fu Ming is also among them, making friends and sharing the same joys and joys.

Seeing this scene, Jin Yi felt complicated.He wanted to drive them all away, and he was the only one here to accompany Fu Ming forever, and there were only two of them in the world, accompanying and depending on each other.But he was also happy for Fu Ming, at least besides himself, there were people who remembered him and missed him, making him feel like alive even though he was dead.

In the end, Jin Yi neither spoke nor stepped forward, but stood quietly for a long time and then left quietly.