can't stop

When Yu Feng collected himself, he sat upright, trying to make himself appear more reliable, "Who died?"

Huo Ying wrung his hands tightly, and said hoarsely: "The one who wants me to die the most."

"...is that 'someone else?'"

"Yeah, it was my teammate at the time. His family background is very strong. It seems that someone's only son insisted on playing racing. Do you remember that there was a Mexican in the team at that time, named Elijah? He was the only one." Huo Ying intended to relax himself and relax the atmosphere. He picked up a piece of uncooled beef from the bottom of the bowl with his chopsticks and put it in Shi Yufeng's bowl. Let me release the water," he put down his iron chopsticks, and laughed self-deprecatingly, "Of course I don't agree. Although racing cars cost money, my salary alone is enough for two years. 3000 million is an insult to me. professional conduct."

"You wouldn't do such a thing with [-] million yuan." Shi Yufeng ate the beef, and said in a flat voice, as if repeating a truth, "Because the game must be fair, because you have dignity."

Huo Yinghong glared at him: "Some things don't need to be said so clearly!" He opened a third can of beer and said, "I was too young at the time...I felt that I was number one in the world, and I refused to agree to it even if I died. If you still call them bullshit, the little boy must be in a hurry. Isn’t it easy to find someone to move my car? For things like brake pads, if you create a crack in it, the centrifugal force on the track will split it apart. But I didn't die, after the finish line, I rushed a few hundred meters. I stopped the car."

That afternoon flooded my mind again.monaco.sunny.Nice Mediterranean city.The famous Monte Carlo circuit.At dusk the sky was half blue and half iris-like. At the age of 16, Yu Feng couldn't see Huo Ying rushing across the checkered flag. His view of following was blocked. He sat stiffly in the shadow of his second brother, facing dissatisfaction from both his boss and his relatives.

It turned out that in just a few minutes, such a thing happened.

It turned out that Huo Ying was as hazy and beautiful as a dream at that time, but she was even more sad than him.

"That was the last race, right?" Huo Yingqing's cold and dark voice pulled Shi Yufeng back to the present, "I should have been damned, but it turned out to be the first, and Elijah was second. The difference is even worse, more than [-] points, and I will definitely not be able to catch up in the finals, unless I withdraw. In fact, it is easy to understand when I think about it. The first and second points are all owned by Ferrari, so whoever wins the championship in the end will have no choice. There is no difference between the team and the sponsors, I am not anyone's only son, and there are not many friends in the team who are willing to talk to me, it is like being alone, there is a word for it—" Huo Ying suddenly Standing up, propped up on the edge of the table and leaning forward in front of Shi Yu Feng, there was a stupefied burning in his brows, "Who is it to me?"

Shi Yufeng looked at all his expressions cherishingly, but said coldly: "But you didn't retreat. You refused to be abandoned."

Huo Ying sat back and patted his thigh, "Ha! Don't imitate idioms with me!"

Shi Yufeng's composure was very tough, and he didn't allow Huo Ying to delve into irrelevant nonsense. He changed the topic back: "So why, you still left after all? You survived the cracked brake pads, and you are only short of the world champion." The last scene before..." He chose his words carefully, grasping the measure, he wanted to stimulate Huo Ying to tell the truth, but he was too scared, too scared, and made Huo Ying hurt again, so that in the end his tone Seeming no longer sure, "Did they force you to leave?"

"Yeah." Huo Ying nodded dumbly, "It's because I'm too careless."

"...How did you force it?" Asking this, Shi Yufeng suddenly felt that he could no longer sit still. He didn't want to blame it on the wine, but when he came back to his senses, he was already squatting on the bed. On the side of Huo Ying's chair, he heard himself saying, "Brother, it's okay, tell me everything."

Huo Ying seemed to be taken aback by him, stared straight at him and said, "Sit back.

"I do not want."

Huo Ying was stunned, stood up abruptly, pulled the chair aside, and squatted down next to Yu Feng, with his hot smell of alcohol and an expression of dripping water to freeze, "I drank too much...I can't tell you like this now..."

"I can talk. I'll listen." Shi Yu Feng shifted his angle and directly grabbed his two wrists.

Huo Ying struggled a bit, his feet were unsteady, "No!"

"Why not, tell the truth after drinking." Shi Yufeng held him between his arms, "I really want to know you, Brother Ying. For so many years, I have been thinking about...you. I want to understand more Are you OK?"

The person leaning on the shoulder seemed to have been greatly shaken, and he couldn't break free, but he refused to lean on him, but trembled forbearance, "Then don't tell others," he said in a childlike tone, "You You're not drunk, you mean what you say!"

"Not drunk." Shi Yu Feng smiled, tentatively wrapped him around, and hugged him even tighter. Due to the height difference, his hands are long and his legs are long, even if he squats and hugs him, he doesn't feel crowded, "My biggest advantage It’s honesty and trustworthiness.”

"...Then I'll say it." It was still the tone of the green pheasant, which caused Shi Yufeng to hold back and didn't touch the fluffy hair on the back of his neck. Huo Ying seemed to be brewing for more than ten seconds before speaking Changed, weak, but icy cold." On the night of Monaco, I removed the front left brake pad from a car I usually drive, a convertible Range Rover Evoque, and I cut a slit to put it back on. At that time, I was not sure that someone was trying to kill me, and I didn't want to be sure. I wanted to see if the brake pads would definitely have the same deformation after being artificially damaged."

After finishing speaking, Huo Ying pushed Shi Yu Feng, and Shi Yu Feng was a little further away, and Shi Yu Feng was able to see his face completely - Huo Ying's whole body turned gray, only his lips were bright red, and his eyelashes trembled quietly, Just look at him like that.

Shi Yufeng was taken aback, but fortunately Huo Ying spoke again: "I opened the garage and was about to drive out to try it out, but there was someone blocking the door of my garage, it was Elijah, and he knocked on the window, When I said I wanted to come in, I just wanted to scold him, so I let him in, sat in my co-pilot seat, and he brought up the finals again, and he told me that if 3000 million was not enough, he would do whatever he wanted. Here, he said that he has a dream, that he wants to be a world champion, and that he wants his father to impress him." Huo Ying paused for a long time, "Master Dream Chaser, he is really sincere...and very proud."

"He farted."

Huo Ying stared at the ground, helped the chair, and then he stabilized, "Anyway, in the eyes of others, the poor do this job, and they don't have much work all day long. They are 100% for making money... 3000 million I will pay you back." No, you're too ungrateful, right? I'm not someone who should have ideas other than making money. But unfortunately, I do!"

As soon as he finished speaking, he lowered his head even deeper, "When I changed my car, I almost spent all my money on buying the car, and I still owed the loan. I'm in Italy, renting a garage to live in, and the supermarket is closed every day. Going to grab expired food, go to the welfare agency to grab stoves and milk from homeless people, at that time I didn’t think about making money! So I just scolded him like that,” Huo Ying began to scold him in a low voice, in English, but Certain statements still opened Yu Feng's eyes when he grew up in an English-speaking area, and then he heard Huo Ying say: "I told that kid to cry, and said he was ashamed, and he actually said he wanted to kill me? Then he, Then……"

"Then what?" Shi Yu Feng clenched his fists, but his face remained calm.Huo Ying just cried on his shoulder. He felt that these memories made Huo Ying a little deeper.

Huo Ying may be drunk and squatting more and more unsteadily, or maybe he is afraid, afraid.He couldn't bear the fragility that he had been desperately holding on for too long, so at this second, the fragility was revealed in front of the boy who met for the second time.Because the boy seemed to have said to him just now, "I want to understand you."

He still woke up like a dream.Suddenly raised his face, grabbed Shi Yufeng's clothes corner, and said anxiously: "I won't say anything, I won't say anything!"

"No problem...Brother, brother!" Seeing Huo Ying staggering to stand up and run away, Shi Yu Feng stood in front of him one step ahead of him and dragged him to the edge of the sofa. Itching, and the strength was unstable, and finally the two of them fell together on the soft cushion. He pressed Huo Ying's shoulders and covered him under his body, "You don't have to be afraid, let alone run," he said without thinking, "You It's not wrong, it's them who are wrong, they are sorry for you! So you have to tell me the truth!"

Huo Yingkong opened his mouth and looked at him. After a while, he nodded heavily. Because of the sentence "I'm sorry", the wetness on his face almost made him cry again, and then he really shed tears, which was very uncomfortable. Proficiency, but also disappointingly shaking on the lower eyelashes, and then across the face, "You lend me your hand..." He lay on his back and stopped moving, just groping for Shi Yufeng's right hand in the dark, and grabbed it. , I covered my eyes, "I still feel too ashamed to let you see me cry like this."

Shi Yufeng held his breath, and supported his center of gravity with his left hand and knees without moving, but he didn't dare to exert any strength on the eye socket.He was sweating a lot.He knew that he was peeling off a secret, no, he was peeling off Huo Ying... Huo Ying was in his hands.Huo Ying moistened his eyelids and cheeks against his palm.

Huo Ying seemed relieved by being covered in this way, and his voice calmed down muffledly, "Elia...he didn't just talk, I drove him out of the car, but he actually took out a needle and pointed it at me, and then Tell me, this is what his father is doing," Shi Yufeng's scalp felt numb when he heard it, and he felt the soft and heavy eyelashes under his palm. Consolation, "Mexico, needles, big chaebols, I understand, poison, the biggest thing in my heart is not fear, but anger, I think I'm going to fuck your dad, I drove the car without thinking too much, and opened the hood... …I have to be in the crowd, and if he gets stabbed in the garage, then the high dose of morphine, I'm dead and no one knows."

At that time, Yu Feng only felt heartburn, and blood was pouring between his brows.He looked at Huo Ying's sweat-soaked hair and pale face right at his fingertips, and his eye sockets ached. His hatred and killing intent were faster than ever when he heard rumors about this person. It has made him feel numb.He is like a pious remnant who has lost the god he worshiped, full of debts, and finally wanders to the temple he has been looking for for a long time, but he saw with his own eyes how the only statue of the god was roasted, crushed, and smashed into dust .

And the most cruel thing was that the handful of fragments still carried the ethereal smell of the sky at this moment, right in front of him, they gathered again into a genuine but scarred god.

"Go ahead...Brother Ying." He gently stroked Huo Ying's half-dried tears, "Don't open your eyes, I'm listening."

Huo Ying rubbed against him obediently, recalling Xu Xu, "He didn't stab him right away, but he started to pull my hand from the steering wheel with great strength and rage, and scolded me in Spanish. There is a road outside the garage, On the other side of the road, there is a river. There are many pedestrians by the river. I can't hit them. I want to brake, but the brake pads have been broken by me. Then there is such a big off-road vehicle, which is on the narrow street of Monte Carlo. Twist," he bit his lip and said forcefully, "I have to avoid pedestrians... I quickly slid on the river bank and dived down, just like this, he was still pulling my hand. Bashimai ran into a waste Pier, Elijah was thrown into the river. I put on my seatbelt, my head was bleeding, I watched him struggle, sink to the bottom, and then I passed out. Woke up and I heard that he was dead."

After saying this, he pinched the one that Shi Yu Feng had covered his face with both hands, and took it off, his fox-like upturned eyes met Shi Yu Feng's brightly, "Okay, the worst I've finished talking, and I don't have any serious psychological shadows now," he smiled, "face blindness also has an advantage... Whoever died next to me, who still cursed my name before he died, I can completely forget Without him... I can forget about it, completely."

Huo Ying just sat up calmly.

Shi Yufeng also sat down beside him silently, his expression control had reached the limit, he didn't seem to feel that Elijah fell into the river so relieved, instead he was thoughtful, showing a creepy expression, "You said that there is a group of people. Who is this dead and in prison?"

Huo Ying was stunned, lowered his eyelashes, and said: "It's his team or something. To toss my car must have a technician. The truth came out later." Asked, Huo Ying took the lead and said: "Do you know who saved me? It was Qiu Shili, it's amazing. He took me from the Monaco police station to the hospital for treatment, and then found me on this small island. Even if I can't even remember his face, I wake up and ask him if he kidnapped me. Haha, I really thank him all the time."

"What didn't he ask you?"

"Asked me what?"

"Continue to drive the car."

Huo Ying answered very simply: "I asked, and I said I don't want to."

Shi Yufeng's eyes trembled.

Huo Ying said again: "Racing makes me miserable, but now I am very relaxed and happy."

Shi Yufeng resolutely said: "Happiness is not like this."

He clearly remembered what Huo Yingfang said - "Then you regret it, and you fucking regret it."

Huo Ying shook his head: "When you reach my age," he let out a long breath of alcohol and opened his eyes wide, "you will find that there are too many kinds of happiness. Then you may want to marry The daughter-in-law is having a baby!"

"You do not want."

"I mean you," Huo Ying blushed drunk, and raised a finger seriously, "I mean you might think about it."

Shi Yufeng cursed secretly, it was himself who scolded, and then he hugged Huo Ying tightly as if rushing into the fire, this second hug was much harder, and he pressed him into his arms with all his strength.What kind of shitty Mexican drug lord, what kind of crap is going to die or go to jail, he doesn't even want to care about the elder brother and sister-in-law in the next room, and irritably loudly said: "What am I thinking! Tell me again what I am thinking!" He He suddenly resumed murmuring, "I don't want anything, the last thing I want is to break you..."

"What's broken, Xiao--Feng-ah-" Huo Ying became very peaceful and limp in his arms, he dragged the end of his voice, and giggled again, "If you hug me like this again, you'll really mess me up." Broken!"

"Nonsense." Shi Yu Feng refused to let go.

"Why are you like this... Your hair makes me itchy." Huo Ying's voice gradually dropped, and he yawned as if he was exhausted, with a kind of sweet squeamishness, but more, It was fragmented impulsively and dazedly, and he accepted the repair exhaustedly in this strange embrace, "I'm so sleepy, I'm asleep, I have to sleep..."

He did fall asleep right away.

After more than ten minutes, Qiu Shili heard that the living room was completely quiet, and came out to check quietly.It was completely dark, and he turned on the wall lamp carefully, only to see that under the dim warm light, Shi Yu Feng was neatly dressed, lying quietly on the couch with his eyes open, and the person blocked by him between his body and the wall was a pillow. Huo Ying, who was sleeping peacefully on his chest and shoulders.

"How much did you drink?" Qiu Shili lowered his voice and pointed at his younger brother's flushed face.

Shi Yufeng made a "1", then frowned and pointed to the door of the guest room, which meant to tell him to go back quickly and stop harassing him.Qiu Shili was silent, sighed, turned off the wall lamp, and stood at the door for a long time before returning to the house. His eyes quickly adapted to the darkness. He saw the deep night through the window, saw the gray clouds, and heard the howling wind and rain again. , and in the sound of the wind and rain, his usually cold brother just put his arms around the exhausted man, so close, so tight, and so cherished, like a stubborn child hugging his last in the dark whirlpool. The innocence of love.