can't stop

When he arrived at his hometown that evening, Huo Ying sent his father into the cremation furnace that night.

While waiting for the ashes in the reception room, Shi Yufeng looked at Huo Ying silently, but still couldn't see what he was thinking.He is not haggard, not at all. He said earlier that in order to see clearly outside the coffin, he was wearing a low-magnitude frameless mirror, and his hair was combed delicately. Made of silk fabric, the waistband is sharply modified, which perfectly complements the slender waistline.Like a flower that bloomed out of season, it was dying extravagantly. Huo Ying sat upright in the first row. From the moment of silence, to his elder brother's speech, to paying homage to the remains, etc., he was still calmer than stagnant water, let alone falling. Half a tear.

Due to the sudden arrangement, very few relatives and friends came, and now in the middle of the night, there are only four members of the Huo family and a few grandchildren left, plus a faceless Yu Feng.In the room, there are black tables and black chairs, decorated with white silk, and the ceiling fan keeps blowing, making it look very deserted.

The domineering elder sister on the phone was so crying that she couldn't speak, but Huo Ying's two brothers kept murmuring to each other, and then it seemed that they had discussed it. The elder brother crossed his legs and turned to ask Huo Ying: "Fourth, You have to do it in the middle of the night, what's wrong with preparing to send Dad away in two days in a beautiful way?"

Huo Ying was separated from him by a corridor, and his answer was simple and cold: "Because I'm leaving tomorrow."

The eldest brother said angrily, "I have to accommodate you for my father's funeral!"

Huo Ying didn't retort, "Whoever pays will accommodate him. I'll stay here, and he won't be able to walk comfortably in Huangquan Road. It's best for me to leave early."

The second brother got anxious first, he stood up, "What's your name!"

Huo Ying looked at him with his chin propped up, his expression remained calm, "Didn't Dad say that he would never want to see me? As soon as I'm buried in the ground tomorrow morning, I guarantee that none of you will see me again. His little inheritance, and your thousands of dollars." I will never ask you to pay back the hospitalization expenses and medical expenses that I have worked so hard to save."

The eldest brother also stood up, "Fourth, you are getting more and more fucking bastards or something!"

Huo Ying looked very puzzled, and a sinister atmosphere enveloped him, "No way, it's because I paid the funeral home and the cemetery myself, and you didn't get the last fortune, so I'm not welcome."

The faces of the two brothers turned pale when they heard the words, and the eldest sister cried even harder, because Huo Ying was telling the truth, and they couldn't refute it. "Unconscionable thing!" "I shouldn't have called you back!" "Dad is mad at you!" "It would be best for you to die on the field someday!". In the man's mouth, they stood in front of Huo Ying with the ashes of a declining industrial town. They had indeed reached the middle age that was about to rot. .

Shi Yufeng could see the impatience on Huo Ying's face, especially when they mentioned "the arena", he dug his fingers on the trouser line, and stared at his leather shoes with a fierce flash of eyes.

"It's not okay to make such a noise in the funeral home. Don't make noise about Dad." He raised his face.

The two brothers were so angry that they went out to smoke.

Huo Ying sat still, and when his head was touched, Yu Feng leaned on his shoulder for a while, as if he was fully charged, and his breathing was smooth, he stood up, and handed two tissues to his sister, "When my mother passed away, my father died. Said that when he dies, don’t make a big fuss, it’s best to burn it on the same day, and bury it with his mother, so that he can quickly find his wife.” He patted his sister’s shoulder comfortingly, “You should still remember. last wish."

The eldest sister was sobbing, "You just said that to the elder brother and the second brother, so you can't quarrel."

Huo Ying smiled, "I have nothing to say."

The eldest sister cried even harder, "Yingzi!" She wiped her eyes and called Huo Ying by her long-ago nickname, "We three, there is indeed something wrong between your brother and I..."

"Come on, come on, save some time for the burial tomorrow before crying, otherwise none of our family will shed tears," Huo Ying interrupted her self-criticism, abruptly and flustered, "I'll go first, see you at the cemetery tomorrow. Dad later The son came out, you take it home and let it sit overnight. I stuffed two soft Chinese pieces for the master, it should be burned through."

After finishing speaking, he tugged Shi Yu Feng's sleeve and led him out of the reception hall.The two older brothers were puffing at the door, and in the dark night, there were only two scarlet spots.

When passing by, Huo Ying was stopped.The eldest brother asked him in a low voice: "Hey, are you leaving now?"

Huo Ying said softly: "When you have smoked enough, go back and stay with eldest sister."

The second brother asked: "Who is this kid? I haven't brought a girl back for so many years, and suddenly there is a ghost at the funeral. Can this silent one speak Chinese?"

Shi Yufeng realized that this was talking about himself, and he pondered the feasibility of beating someone in the funeral parlor, but Huo Ying said without hesitation: "My boyfriend, Mandarin is better than yours."

The two elder brothers just didn't answer.

In the dark, Huo Ying should have smiled, and said again: "Speaking of ghosts in such a place at night, be careful that real ghosts will find you."

On the way to the parking lot, there was still a faint sound of cursing behind Huo Ying, which didn't disappear until he entered the parking lot.

"Brother Ying, you're very cool." Shi Yufeng pressed the car key, and the temporarily rented Volvo had its headlights flashing twice as soon as it was started. It was too bright in this dark night, as if it was the only one.

"I'm so tired." Huo Ying took off his glasses and put his hand on the passenger door.

As soon as the voice fell, there was a ding from the mobile phone, and the series belonged to Huo Ying.He opened it to look, squinting his eyes, his face was pale by the fluorescent light, and the black collar was even darker by the reflection.

Shi Yufeng felt that something was wrong, he went over and saw that it was a number that Huo Ying hadn't saved, and there were almost ten messages coming aggressively.

"You kid can do it, and you're still gay?"

"If you dare to bring it back, tomorrow you dare to lead someone to recognize your relatives in front of the grave!"

"I really haven't learned well after staying in the wild abroad. How do you usually play?"

"That kid is pretty? What do you think?"

"You are crazy!"

"Why is there such a lunatic in the Huo family!"

Contemptuous, mocking, naked and unsightly, his two elder brothers have never looked down on him.Huo Ying simply exited the SMS interface.He was speechless for a moment, not even concerned about embarrassment.He has almost forgotten the sweet feeling, his whole heart was twisted back and forth, but this day, when he returned to the so-called home, he experienced it thoroughly over and over again.

But he didn't regret it either, he never wanted to lie about Shi Yufeng.Not even a step away, absolutely not.

But Shi Yu Feng quietly opened the co-pilot's door, pushed him in, bent over and gave him a hug, "The wallet should have fallen on the chair, I'll be back in five minutes."

Huo Ying was stunned, he seemed to understand this sentence, and stuck it to Shi Yufeng's ear, "I'll accompany you, it's too dark." He also hugged Shi Yufeng back hard, but the man took advantage of the opportunity to insert his hand into it. Keys to the car, turned the lights to the brightest, and turned on the stereo, and Lao Chai's piano music came out, which they hadn't finished listening to when they got off the car.

Shi Yufeng stopped the hug, "I'll be back after listening. Just stay here and don't move." He was trying to force Huo Ying's acquiescence, a softness flashed quickly in his eyes, and then he closed the car door and walked away up.With the faint warm light coming out of the car window, Huo Ying turned around and saw the back of Yu Feng who was rolling up the sleeves of his shirt.

He froze on the chair, he did understand what Shi Yufeng said just now.What kind of wallet, wallet and passport are kept in Huo Ying's own handbag. The man obviously said "I will lose it myself or my wife is careful".

Huo Ying suddenly felt sore eyes. His eye sockets, which had been numb all night, were terribly sensitive at this moment, but there were still no tears, which made him ache.Tchaikovsky's melody and unhurried elegance surrounded Huo Ying, making him completely unable to hear the chirping of insects outside, let alone the sound of the door of the funeral home hundreds of meters away.

From time to time, he pressed the phone to turn it on, and then quickly turned it off. Time was passing, it seemed to be very slow, but it was only a few minutes.Just when Huo Ying couldn't hold back anymore and made up his mind to go and have a look even if he participated in beating his own brother at the gate of his father's mourning hall, the car door suddenly opened, and when Yu Feng sat in the driver's seat in a hurry, the headlights came on suddenly, A kick of oil drove the car out.

His expression was still irritated, his tie was undone, his shirt button was unbuttoned to the third, there was a scratch on his brow bone, it was dark red, and there were bloodstains and bruises on the back of his hand holding the steering wheel. Rolled up shirt sleeves dropped.But when he met Huo Ying's dazed eyes, his brows relaxed, and he was full of energy. He hummed softly to the violin at the end of the song "Andante Like a Song", and showed a simple smile.

On the way, they went to the 24-hour pharmacy to buy Yunnan Baiyao, and it was nearly two o'clock when they arrived at the residence.The Huo family's old villa has been listed online by the intermediary for sale. None of Huo Ying's three brothers and sisters live here, and Huo Ying himself has no intention of entering the house again. With a bunch of keys given by his sister, he Opened the single-family garage next to the villa, and Shi Yufeng walked in one after the other.

As soon as the switch on the wall at the door is pressed, the light tubes installed on the wall of the garage light up one after another.This room is longer than Shi Yufeng imagined, and it is also much more spacious. There is a single bed covered with blue sheets, a writing desk and a computer, a TV and a refrigerator, and even an iron workbench. Enough for a sedan, with jacks and toolboxes and such on the side.

The most eye-catching thing is a coffin, narrow and thin, with varnish on the beautiful wood grain, ignoring its weirdness, the design and materials are very exquisite.

And all of this has never been covered with dust, even under the bright white light, Shi Yufeng didn't see much floating dust.

"I heard that my dad regularly hired someone to clean up this place for me until last month," Huo Ying pulled the iron shutter door and leaned against a mountain bike at the door, "It's actually true. What did the old man think. He casually put his suit on the car seat, untied his tie and walked in.

Shi Yufeng put down all the luggage beside the bed, "I lived here all the time when I was a child?"

"Yeah, from seven to 17 years old. Living in a house is too uncomfortable," Huo Ying squatted by the side of the small refrigerator to look through. There were only a few cans of Coke. He stared at the wall of the can for a second or two before bursting into laughter , "Damn it, do you still dare to drink the Coke from ten years ago? It's still iced."

"Try it." Shi Yu Feng sat down on the edge of the single bed.

Huo Ying turned his face and gave him a blank look, "Forget it." He got up, sat on the edge of the bed, opened the carton and carefully applied medicine to Shi Yufeng, "Do you know what that coffin is for?"

Shi Yufeng moved his eyelashes, maybe the clean water and ointment hurt too much from the scratch, "Your mother's?"

"Yeah." Huo Ying had gotten used to Shi Yu Feng's various intuitions. After putting on the dressing, he started to deal with his injured left hand. It was also injured last night, and it just healed up this morning, and now it is like this again.With the utmost gentleness in his hands, he leaned on Shi Yufeng's shoulder, and slowly rolled the cotton swab, "At that time, my father tried his best to bring her back from the United States, and chose two coffins, this one was useless. I didn't sleep much in bed before, I just liked to lie in it."

Shi Yufeng said nothing, just kissed Huo Ying's hair lightly.

Huo Ying tidied up the wound, and started to roll up Shi Yu Feng's cuffs again, "As a result, I couldn't lie down at the age of 15. I was thinking, is it because my mother doesn't want me anymore?"

Shi Yufeng saw the group photo on the small cabinet next to the bed, next to the fiery red old-fashioned racing car, the woman in the fiery red team uniform, with a helmet under her arm, the darkness of the old photo could not hide her sassy smile.Beside her was an out-of-fit boy who looked like he was of a very different age even in color tone, one was film and the other was digital, but he had an extremely similar face to that woman.

Huo Ying noticed his gaze, and smiled wearily, "I used to be a P, and my skills were not very good, I'm very childish." His voice lowered a little bit, "Does it seem that I lack love? Live again The garage sleeps in a coffin and misses my old lady so much, but it’s not.” He moved swiftly and healed the wound on Shi Yufeng’s forearm. That's why I'm very self-willed, so I can't stand any setbacks, and up to now, it's just a group of Luthors."

Shi Yufeng thought for a while before he understood what "Luther" was. "No, you live very clearly and are very strong." He took Huo Ying's hand, which was still wearing ointment, and squeezed it tightly. "No one has the right to say that you have failed."

Huo Ying lowered his eyelashes and refused to look at him.

Shi Yufeng said again, firmly, "But I actually hope, Brother Ying, although it may be selfish—" He paused, "I hope you can vent it, don't be so tired, cry when you want, don't laugh .”

"...I can't cry."

Shi Yufeng hugged him silently, and took him to the single bed.

"Really, I can't cry! My eyes hurt, but I don't have any tears at all!" Huo Ying violently swayed in his embrace, arched his waist, and straddled Shi Yufeng's waist with his legs, pressing him down Unable to move, staring at Shi Yufeng with big eyes, he unbuttoned him one by one, leaned down and kissed frantically, "Let me cry, slap me hard, fuck me, whatever," he limp He fell on Shi Yufeng's body, trembling on his chest, "Let me cry until I can't say anything...It's best to be dumb..."