can't stop

"Sorry, it rained continuously at night, all flights to the island have been cancelled, you can wait until tomorrow!"

Huo Ying's ID and banknotes were handed out through the narrow window.

There are few people in the ticket hall of the pier, and the incandescent lights are dead silent.Because of the sudden torrential rain, people huddled in the house tacitly, and few people came here to run into a wall.

But Huo Ying had to touch, he had to go back.That's exactly what he did. He left the island the afternoon before, and rushed back tonight, and unexpectedly encountered a change in the sky, such a night of lightning, thunder and storm.He absolutely cannot leave Shi Yufeng alone at home at this time.

But that kid still doesn't answer the phone, he has a mobile phone and a landline, so the communication facilities on the island were damaged by lightning, right?Or when my childhood classmates turned into werewolves and went out to run around?Qiu Shili's exhortation, and sometimes Yu Feng's special physique made Huo Ying more and more concerned about it.He felt that he couldn't just sit and wait for the rain to stop, and the umbrella couldn't hold it up, so he bought a thick raincoat at the small supermarket in the pier, covered it tightly, and rushed outside into the increasingly dense rain curtain.

He remembered that during such extreme weather, there would always be boatmen who were not afraid of death in the small abandoned port on the coast. It rained continuously for a while the year before last, and he used this private boat to transport urgent cargo, and the transportation cost was three times the usual .Not to mention three times, thirty times is fine.Putting the mobile phone in a plastic bag, Huo Ying turned on the flashlight and walked along the shore to take pictures, and soon found a medium-sized fishing boat. In the closed cabin, only a hidden light was turned on. The crew members were not surprised by the huge thunderstorm. old hand.

After paying 600 yuan, Huo Yingcai was let in.I saw that there were only four seats left before it was full, and everyone present was in a hurry, and the owner of the ship was still unwilling to start.

Huo Ying asked in a good voice: "According to this posture, isn't it raining more and more in the future? You start early and finish work early."

The owner of the boat seemed to be impatient, "I will drive if the seats are not full, and you will pay for the loss!"

Huo Yingxin said that you make money so badly, but you are ashamed to tell me that you are losing money, and a dog barking is more reliable than you!He suppressed the annoyance and aggrievedness in his heart, smiled and said: "Okay, I will pay!"

So he paid another two thousand and four, bought the remaining four seats, and became the hero of the ship under the surprised eyes of the whole cabin.

Someone chatted with him, chatting about the weather and what he was doing in a hurry to go to the island, with deliberately relaxed tension.Huo Ying was not in the mood to chat with them, so he responded politely, and soon put on his headphones and pretended to be asleep.He sat by the window, and as the boat gradually went deeper into the sea, the signal was gone, and the lightning shone through the cabin, the thunder suddenly exploded, the small space was stuffy and hot, the rain on people's bodies turned into moisture, all of this All amplify the shocking feeling of the waves.

Or panic.

The voyage is expected to be three hours, and it has only been more than 20 minutes. Those who are not in good health have already started to vomit. The child is crying, and the woman is also crying, sweating profusely.For Huo Ying, although this sense of instability is far inferior to the weightlessness brought about by extreme speed on the track, at 400 kilometers per hour, the car directly floats up, and he can take the curve calmly.But now he still couldn't help the illusion - the people in their boat were like a grain of white rice, tossing and tossing in the boundless boiling water.

The smell of vomit diffused, bursts of pungent.Huo Ying started to listen to Suede's song, thinking of Yu Feng's face.Unable to remember, he turned on his phone and stared at the photo.He didn't know whether this brought him peace of mind or more anxiety.It's just that I suddenly regretted it. If I hadn't left yesterday, wouldn't there be no such troubles?

He can stay at home well, as Qiu Shili said, let Shi Yufeng hug and accompany him.

However, what makes Huo Ying feel helpless is that it is still necessary for him to leave this time.He had to go and put an end to something worse.These blatant incidents were caused by the accident three years ago. His right Achilles tendon suffered a sequelae from the anti-physics brakes. He would experience severe pain after running fast. The triangular bone in his left hand was also cracked. There may be more. The explosive bomb was waiting for him. In short, Huo Ying's body couldn't keep up with the strength of F1.

This is what the doctor said. Huo Ying didn't believe it at first. He lived on the island. When he was recovering for a year, Qiu Shili secretly took him to try it on the Mount Fuji track. He used someone's car.The car was not new, and its counterweight and steering were not as good as the one he adjusted himself, but Huo Ying was very excited. He drove around the not-so-rough track and was pleasantly surprised to find that the speed he was used to Still under his feet, whether it's the wind speed, or the wonderful weightlessness, the violent centrifugal force... Huo Ying knows that he hasn't slowed down too much.

So he bit his fireproof hood and laughed crazily. On the track alone, he survived again. He was so carried away that when the pain of his old injury hit him and the sense of danger out of control hit him, he still refused to stop. .

Qiu Shili seemed to see his abnormality, and kept telling him to stop, stop!Huo Ying finally braked the accelerator, and after seven laps, the tires were almost worn down to the skeleton. He staggered into the maintenance station, and the technicians immediately surrounded him.Seeing the half-broken tie rod and the blood on Huo Ying's gloves, they couldn't say a word——

Experienced old technicians have never seen anyone use so much force to break the tie rod, the jagged point is embedded in the palm of the hand, pierced into the flesh, blood seeps into such a thick glove, and it is still open.

Qiu Shili yelled "Are you crazy?", rushed up to lift his helmet, and pulled off his hood.Huo Ying had no expression, his lips were gray, he just sat in the smoking car, watching Qiu Shili's anger under the scorching sun.His Achilles tendon is so sore that he can't stand up, and his left foot can only step on the gas pedal habitually.No one made a sound, and there was a stalemate for a few seconds, as if something had suddenly collapsed, Huo Ying's eyes rolled down with tears.

He hastily covered his face with bloody hands, his shoulders were folded, and he was shaking violently. He shrank in this exhausted racing car like a baby trying to hide in the womb. war horse.

It was a silent cry, a suppressed, dying cry.A group of big men surrounded the former world champion, and they all shed tears. They all worked for this handsome and friendly ace in Ferrari's top team, and they all remembered his greatness, so they cried .Only Qiu Shili didn't turn his eyes red, he drove everyone away, helped Huo Ying out by himself, sat on the side of the track, and drank with him.

Qiu Shili knew people like Huo Ying, similar to Shi Zhanyang, the last thing they wanted was sympathy.

"Your single-lap speed just now is still the first in the world. I have taken over the team for more than a year, and I can't find another you. There is no more." Qiu Shili toasted him.

"I won't open it." Huo Ying took off his gloves casually, touching the open wound, he raised the beer with his wounded hand, and clinked glasses with Qiu Shili. "Goodbye." He smiled again, tears and blood stained his face.

Not far from Mount Fuji, clouds and smoke are curling up, and cherry blossoms are in full bloom.

Just giving up is much easier to say than imagined, but it is so difficult to do.The days are too peaceful, living on the island is like living in a warm fish tank, and without the adrenaline soaring, Huo Ying might not be able to survive.He also gave up, knowing that it is impossible for him to return to the F1 arena like this. Whether it is a hard body or soft public opinion, all kinds of gossip are still spreading in the past year.Said that he and Elijah never competed viciously before the game, said that he and Elijah were actually secret lovers and drove into the river to die for love, and said that he and Elijah both took high drugs and drove to accidents The... All in all, he was a murderer.

Irreversible, the name Howard is bound forever to the son of the dead Mexican drug lord, not his previous achievements.

Huo Ying was very unwilling.Everything was in vain, and he could only remain silent.One day he received a call from a well-known Chinese-American actor, who somehow got his contact information and invited him out for a drive.To be exact, it was driving instead of the big star. In the more entertaining Formula Three race, Huo Ying needed to wear a helmet to cover his face all the time. After the finish line, he had to hide in the rest tent and replace the actor. Wearing the same racing suit, he came out to meet Huo Ying's results.

"It doesn't have to be the best, you can just drive it casually, the level of the world champion is still too exaggerated," the actor said lightly, "The price is easy to negotiate, I only need to enter the finals. We can cooperate for a long time."

He is going to spend a lot of money to create a cool image in front of the public that he is still very active in racing as a side job.

Unfortunately, at that time Huo Ying just needed to make money.All of a sudden, the world evaporated like this, not to mention the insurance payout, even the previous bonuses have not been saved much, and he has to send a large amount of money to his hometown every month like he was in the spring breeze, and his brothers and sisters often call and write emails. He reminded him that he wanted to treat his father for some very expensive terminal illness, and that his father got sick because of his anger.An online shop is not a job that makes a lot of money, and his savings are about to fail. Driven by profit, the temptation of excitement, or giving up on himself, Huo Ying took this job by accident.

In this arena, it's not that he has never seen injustice, he was even the one who was treated the most unfairly, he gritted his teeth and persisted but never got through, and was even taken away by others!So why can't he foul, why should he keep clean? !

Huo Ying seemed blind at that moment.

Of course, Formula Three is not much lower than F1, both in terms of intensity and difficulty, so the sacredness and seriousness of the competition seem to be reduced.The big star bought all the staff in advance, and Huo Ying made easy money, just like someone who is used to flying a fighter jet to do civil aviation.He just finds it ironic that the track he played at the age of eighteen or nineteen is now back again, driving at a garbage speed without any effort, with other people's names written on the back of the racing suit, listening to cheers that don't match the name.

Sometimes when he gallops past the star's fans, he will feel sorry for them, happy to be cheated by the idol, and then think, come on, you are starting to ruin yourself, do you still have the heart to feel sorry for others?

In this way, Huo Ying was called to rescue the big star when he didn't have enough points. He went back and forth for a day or two, just like working part-time. Until January of this year, he played a total of eight games in place of that person.All the black money he earned was sent back to treat his father's illness, and what remained in Huo Ying's hands in the end was nothing but regret.

Yes, every time he would hate himself, the kind who wanted to use a knife.He didn't tell anyone about it, he was so suffocated that he was dying, but he couldn't stop, he couldn't refuse.It's not because of anything else, just tearing off my dignity and stamping it with my feet, poking it with a stick, smearing it with mud and splashing dirty water, watching the glory and pride of the past crumble into dross, it's so refreshing.

The more vulgar, bloody, and painful the reason for the fall, the happier Huo Ying laughed.

He said to the mirror, you are indeed crazy and shameless, who cares about you.

Until the end of March of this year, all this came to an abrupt end.At that time, Yu Feng suddenly appeared, bearing the imprint of the kiss three years ago, and said to him with a smile, you are my original intention to start racing, and you are my idol.

Huo Ying was stunned for a moment.Shi Yufeng is like a kind of concentration, the outside world is so rich, beauty, cleanliness, talent, talent, courage, perseverance, youthful vigor, success and fame...all of these.Shi Yufeng is the concrete nucleus they condense into, bright and sharp, piercing the air bubbles wrapped around Huo Ying with a single knife, reminding him of what kind of person you used to be.Huo Ying occasionally has the illusion that Shi Yufeng is like himself a few years ago, but he understands that this analogy should not be made, even if he is called an idol, he will be extremely ashamed.

At any time, Shi Yufeng's expression was so frank and sincere, but in Huo Ying's view, it was like pulling out a pair of wings that were about to fall out of the sewage, insisting that you are my purest angel.

Because of this, every day's happiness will make Huo Ying suffer, and Shi Yufeng's love will scald him. Every kiss, every smile, every chat, but he can't quit. Day by day, he becomes more and more addicted. He clearly saw that for a person like himself, it would not be enough to just reciprocate the same love, because Shi Yufeng trusted him and even worshiped him, while he was not even worthy of respect.

Huo Ying decided to end this state and didn't want to care about anything else.So, when the big star asked him to save the game for the game three days later, he spent half a day arriving at the game location in North Africa, facing the star who was going to pick him up at the airport, he said the words of refusal.

Having been placed in such an army, and afraid of being made public, the big star is of course extremely angry and distraught.That guy was still a hit star, Huo Ying was beaten up, but didn't fight back.After rinsing off the nosebleed in the bathroom at the airport, he bought the fastest ticket back home.

It was sunrise when boarding the plane, and Huo Ying looked at the rising sun like a newborn.But if it's wrong, it's wrong, if it's dirty, it's dirty, where does laundry detergent come from in life?Is he worth the so-called newborn?Huo Ying closed his eyes, avoiding thinking about it.He took off, greedily and cautiously, wanting to rot this matter in his stomach forever, all he wanted was to go home and hug Shi Yu Feng.

So Huo Ying was on this bumpy boat at the moment, exhausted, and even going home was not smooth sailing.It was late at night, and hot rock was playing in the headphones, and I didn't know which band I jumped from Suede to.It was almost burned out in three hours, and many fellow travelers fainted from vomiting and remained motionless.

If something happened and he died at sea, it might be God punishing him, and so many innocent lives were taken... Fortunately, Huo Ying's wild imagination is not reality.The crew members are experienced and determined. After a huge thunderstorm, the boat crossed a wave. The owner knocked on the porthole, "Hey! Wake up! If you have a signal, call your family, we will be there soon!"

Huo Ying sat up straight in shock, as expected he was very close to the island, the mobile phone signal had three bars, he tried to dial the number again, this time someone got through.

"Brother, Brother Ying?" Shi Yufeng's voice was tired and hoarse, but he spoke urgently, mixed with creaking noises, "Where are you? Why weren't you in the service area just now?"

"...I'm on the boat," Huo Ying's scalp was numb, and for some reason, he almost burst into tears. He squeezed his tear glands to avoid crying, "This thunder is too big, don't be afraid, I'll go back to accompany you right away, Don't run around in the house, I'll be right there."

"Hey! It's raining heavily!" Shi Yu Feng raised his voice, sounding more anxious, he had never yelled at Huo Ying like this before, "You don't want to die, right? Why are you fucking—"

The sound is cut off, the signal is unstable.Huo Ying lowered his body, covered his face, and finally leaned on his knees, shaking weakly with the hull.He wasn't frightened, or had an opinion on Shi Yufeng's attitude, on the contrary, he understood very well, and because of his understanding, he couldn't breathe.If he hadn't done that kind of thing, if he had stayed on the island honestly these three years, if he could have predicted that a person like himself could still fall in love with someone honestly...

This assumption is more like an excuse.This is also the reason why Huo Ying has difficulty breathing.

Swaying, slamming, the boat docked on the shore, and the owner was smoking at the door to drive people away.When getting off the boat, Huo Ying was in a daze, and left his umbrella and raincoat on the boat. After walking 200 meters, he realized that he and his backpack were drenched in the rain. He rushed home, but could only continue to drench.The air was much fresher than in the boat, but it was also very cold, and within two steps, he suddenly bumped into something. In the darkness, someone pinched his shoulder, and someone spoke to him in the sound of drum-like rain.

"...Go home! Come home with me!" The voice was Shi Yufeng, very irritable, fierce, but also very hot.The sound of the rain subsided, and it was time that Yu Feng held an umbrella for him.There are no street lights on this road, and it is still endlessly dark, just like the sea that can swallow everything beside the road.But Huo Ying seemed to be out of his body, he didn't need to see clearly, he was like a bird returning to its nest, terrified and nostalgic, he got into Shi Yu Feng's arms that were also wet by the rain, and hugged him tightly, " Go home," he wailed, all the bitterness, no matter whether it was self-inflicted or smashed, all broke out at this moment, because Huo Ying tasted what sweetness is, "You take me home!"