disqualified hero

In the era of individuality, if a literary work, especially a literary work of non-heroic fiction, wants to become popular, it needs to have the right time, place and people.First of all, the characters need to have the charm of ancient times. The ancient times here do not refer to the ancient times of Heianjing, but only the prosperous period of modern literature; secondly, the content must have profound thoughts, and they should be able to impress ordinary people and make them resonate. The point is probably the most difficult; finally, the way to make the work famous in the shortest time is to win awards, preferably not domestic awards, but internationally renowned awards.

No matter how the society is broken or how high the crime rate is, the Oscars and Nobel Prizes are still standing. Besides, there are some scattered awards that are quite famous in China, as long as you get one of them , Even if it is not a hero, it is the pride of the country.

During the period when a small number of heroes struggled with Osamu Dazai's personality, his collection of works was quietly sent to an award meeting abroad. Awards that appeared in the domestic literary world.

……

Hawks stared at the screen of the phone, his fiery gaze was about to burn through the screen.

The female anchor has a pretty face, a sweet voice, and short hair just right to frame her round cheeks. After broadcasting several heroic activities, the scenes related to Dazai came late.

"Mr. Dazai's debut novel "In the Name of Love" won an Academy Award in a certain country. After 32 years, the laurels of the Academy Literature Award fell to our country again..."

He almost thought painfully: [You really can do it, that brat, but why at this time? ]

Turn on the phone, just enter the name of Osamu Dazai, and countless relevant web pages will be displayed. His remarks about the concept of a heroic society at the first work signing meeting were dragged out of the cold palace again. Netizens clicked Watched, reposted, and suddenly became a big hit.

#Dazai Osamu, "In the Name of Love"#

# Dazai Osamu, Hero Society#

#Work signing event, Osamu Dazai#

The screen is full of Dazai Dazai Dazai Dazai, and the eyes of those who watch it hurt.

"Dingling, ringing——" the mobile phone for work rang. Looking at the caller ID, it was called from Chubby Rubber. He didn't need to press the answer button, and he could guess what the other party wanted to say. Hawkes deeply He took a breath and connected the phone, "Hello, is Hawkes here?"

"Hawkes-kun." There was concern in the fat rubber voice, "I heard that Dazai-kun is going to Hosu City to hold a signing event?" He said before waiting for Hawkes to respond, "This Is it really good to go in time? Hero Killer is looking for Dazai everywhere recently, right? If there is a signing event, won’t he have a fixed place to sit and wait? Stein is different from other enemies, whether it is the use of personality or The ferocity of the attack is much better than others, even experienced heroes may not be able to catch him, now go to Hosu City, Dazai-kun's safety..."

"Actually," Hawks said, his slightly rising tone interrupted Fat Rubber's unfinished words, "We also think it is very inappropriate about this matter." The we he said were his and Xiongying High School's Teacher, "As you said, Dazai's situation will be even more unsafe if he goes to the signing event, especially now that we don't know why Hero Killer is looking for him."

"Some heroes have already gone to the Asahi Bunko to negotiate with the relevant person in charge, and before you made this call, we also contacted Xiao Zhuang, Dazai's editor." He went on to say, "Xiao Zhuang is in a bad mood, he said he I don't know about the arrangement of the signing meeting, and I am going to argue with the minister..."

"Wait, will the editor not know about the writer's book signing?" Fatty Rubber was very confused.

Hawkes is calmer than him, or he may have been irritable: "If the author deliberately bypasses the editor and communicates with the head of the sales department, it is okay." He said, "What is certain at the moment is that the signing will definitely It was Dazai who agreed, and maybe even pushed for it."

Chubby Rubber: "..." He didn't know what to say, but after thinking about it carefully, it was like this.If another person did this, Chubby Rubber might feel uncomfortable. They were worried, but the person involved kept doing things that would endanger their own lives. Even a hero would not feel so happy.

But if it was Dazai, his emotions could not be explained clearly in a few words.

Hawkes suddenly said: "I have a question." He said, "Plump Rubber, your contact with Dazai should be when the first signing took place. I remember Dazai also said that it is very challenging In terms of a hero’s point of view, besides that, do you have any contact with Dazai?” Even though his observation skills are not as good as Dazai’s, compared with other people who claim to be detectives, they are still much better. Speechless, "You asked me about Dazai at the Xiongying Sports Festival last time. I didn't pay much attention to it at the time, but after thinking about it, you don't seem to be a gossip guy." He said firmly, "So To make you care so much about Dazai, something must have happened between you, right?"

Fatty Rubber was silent for three seconds, and admitted: "That's right." He no longer accepted passive questioning, and took the initiative to attack, "I have a relationship with Dazai-kun, or he has a relationship with my friends before, that's why Worried about him."

[before? ] These two words touched Hawks' nerves sensitively.

"Did you know him three years ago?" This question shouldn't have been asked, but Dazai's blank past has troubled him for a long time, and it's rare to catch a clue.

"It was a long time ago." Chubby Rubber said, "but I'm sorry, I can't tell you what we said, Hawks." He said, "Since Dazai-kun became the current Dazai-kun, it proves that he has The past has nothing to do with it, and if he hadn't brought it up, I wouldn't have told you what we said."

Apart from the reasons he told Hawkes, Chubby Rubber had selfishness, and a certain thought flashed in his mind.

[Even in death, Tetsuna was a hero without taint, and if others knew that he was still trying to kill someone, it would damage his reputation even when he was dead. ]

[As a friend, I hope that these things he did will never see the light of day. Sorry, Hawks, I will not help you with this matter for the time being. If one day Dazai is interested in talking to you about his In the past, you could hear the whole picture from his mouth. ]

Phone, hang up.

Hawkes held back a little, his lips flicked up and down, and he made a "tsk" sound. The phone was dropped impatiently on the desk and slid half a meter away.Chubby Rubber's attitude of knowing but not telling him made him unhappy, but he had nothing else to do except feel bad alone.

He took a pen, bit by bit on the paper, silently recited Dazai's name in his heart, Dazai, Dazai, Dazai...

The ground staff girl made coffee, and it was already late, but Hawkes had no intention of coming out of the independent office. These auxiliary heroes had long formed a habit of making a pot of coffee in the middle of the night when they were working overtime. The heroes were sent, she knocked lightly on the door three times, then said "excuse me", and opened the doorknob, Hawkes was completely immersed in her own world, and didn't even know she was coming.

For fear of disturbing him, the girl became more and more light-footed. She subconsciously held her breath, walked forward on tiptoe, and then placed the coffee pot on the small space left on the table.Unconsciously, she glanced at the table, and the movement of the ground staff girl became very stiff. From her perspective, she could just see "Dazai" full of papers.

The handwritten characters were packed with paper from top to bottom, from left to right, some larger and some smaller, but they were all written unconsciously. The ground staff girl immediately realized that Hawke The source of Si's annoyance is Mr. Dazai, but seeing the current situation, even a pure-minded person can't help thinking wrong.

[How should I describe this situation? ]

She finally couldn't help it when she closed the door, with a confused face, and when she turned around, she took a peek at Hawkes, only to find that he was still thinking hard, with the signature pen in his hand writing down uncontrollably, probably in "" Dazai Dazai" draw the outline of the font.

[Emotionally, it is acceptable. Mr. Hawkes and Mr. Dazai are probably very good friends.But, writing another person's name on paper unconsciously, isn't this something that a girl in Huaichun would do?Mr Hawkes seemed completely oblivious to what he was doing.According to the category of friends, Mr. Dazai has put too much thought into Mr. Dazai. ]

[However, if it is that Dazai-sensei, it seems normal. ]

She interpreted the image of Osamu Dazai from her memory, and she didn't communicate much, just a few joking words, a mask-like smiling face, and soft words.

To women, he looks like a beautiful boy from a manga.However, when Dazai turned and walked away, his slender back in a black windbreaker, for some reason, was deeply imprinted in the ground staff girl's heart.

[To put it in more literary terms, is it the sense of loneliness that haunts Dazai-sensei? ] She thought [heroes, or hero assistants, often have higher sympathy than normal people. Of course, it doesn’t mean that they have sympathy for Dazai-sensei, but just looking at his lonely back, they will always want to hold people back, Being the same sex as him, pulling people out from the darkness of the ancients and bringing people under the sun. ]

Her thoughts were confused, like batter mixed together in a basin, the ground service girl was thinking in a mess.

[Mr. Hawkes's excessive concern for Mr. Dazai may be due to this. ]

……

"I object!" Editor Xiao Zhuang pressed his hands on the table, his voice was loud, almost like a growl, "Why do you have to hold a book signing at this juncture, Mr. Dazai! Don't you know that the hero killer is staring at you !"

Obviously he is the editor of Osamu Dazai, but he learned about the signing meeting from other people, which was a big blow to Xiao Zhuangsu. However, what really made him angry was that Dazai ignored his own life , to put him in danger on his own initiative.

"It's not just once or twice, Mr. Dazai." His attitude is rare and tough. Compared with the nanny-like man that Osamu Dazai is familiar with, Xiaozhuang now shows the side of a hot-blooded man, and the table is slammed Bang bang, "I know Mr. Dazai likes to pursue danger. After all, many writers in the past did this. Is it called an experience party? I didn't stop you when I assisted the hero in handling the case a few times before, or I stopped you. I can’t stand you.” He emphasized, “But this time, can it be the same as before? It’s a hero killer! Killer! And it’s definitely aimed at you, teacher. , why do you still do this!"

He came here from the library, and he had already talked with the person in charge of the library-related affairs before that.Osamu Dazai is now one of the pillars of the Asahi Bunko, and he has just won an international award. No matter from what point of view, Bunko regards him as a precious pearl. He can't wait to hire a strengthened bodyguard for Dazai to protect his safety. Don't say it pushed him into the pit of fire.

"We can't do anything about it!" The director who planned the event yelled back, "The event was requested by Teacher Dazai, and you are not an editor, don't you know that the contract that Teacher Dazai signed with us is a one-year contract, not five years A ten-year appointment!" He was also in a terrible mood, and his voice was so loud that it could knock down the door, "If you don't agree to the teacher's request at this juncture, what if he goes directly to a company that can hold a signing party for him! And Mr. Dazai’s will is very firm, there is no room for maneuver, instead of coming here to make trouble, you might as well talk to the teacher!” He accused, “I don’t know the teacher’s arrangement at all, how did you become an editor? of!"

The director of Xiaozhuang's editorial and planning department broke up unhappy.

……

Dazai recently lived in Tokyo. It is said that there are not enough heroes in Shizuoka. If something happened and he was worried that the rescue would not be timely, he moved his residence to Tokyo.

Heroes often live together, and the nature of their work needs to be kept secret, and they need to stay away from the interruptions of friends in the media. Simply put, they are the same as celebrities.The apartment he lives in now is like this. The neighbors in front and behind are all heroes, no matter how bad they are, they are also public figures. After Editor Xiaozhuang came out of the library, he took a taxi non-stop to his current residence.

Don't worry too much about Stein haunting Tokyo. The report came this morning that he killed two more heroes in a nearby city. It was because of the report that Xiao Zhuang was worried.

The furniture in Dazai’s new home is also pitifully scant, a refrigerator, a bed, a table, and nothing else. He nestles on the computer chair behind the table, watching people growl with a smile, until he has a good vent and is almost out of breath. When he got angry, he said unhurriedly: "Don't worry too much, Xiaozhuang." He said, "It will be fine."

[What do you mean nothing will happen! ]

The blood vessels opened and closed, and the excess blood flowed up his neck, rushing towards Tianling Gai. He felt so angry that he didn't know what to say.

[What are you talking about, Mr. Dazai, have you put your own life first, so you can’t cherish yourself...]

He had a stomach full of words, or a reprimand to say, but was abruptly held back by Dazai's next sentence.

"And ah." The young ghost writer said, "I'm not the kind of person who cherishes life very much. The love sacrifice I often talk about is not just talking about it. Don't you know, Editor Xiaozhuang?" The words were a bit bitter, but to the editor Xiao Zhuang, it was more sad, "Even now, I don't seem to find any benefit in living in the world. If I didn't die unsuccessfully, maybe I would have been gone long ago." gone."

He stopped talking after only a short paragraph, Dazai didn't like being analyzed his inner world by others.

"Anyway, let me do what I want this time." He put on a smiling face again, "I can assure you, even if you go to the signing party, there will be no problem, the hero killer can't hurt When it comes to me, he might even be caught there, I seldom make promises to people, and the promises I have made so far have all been fulfilled, so just turn a blind eye, Mr. Zhuang."

"I have something to do."

Editor Xiao Zhuang is like an ugly duck. He opened his mouth, wanting to "quack" to speak, but he couldn't say it very well. He just felt a powerless sorrow welling up in his heart. The components of his sorrow were very complicated, not only It involves myself who cannot persuade Dazai, and also targets Dazai-sensei.

[What do you want to do, Dazai-sensei? ]

Dazai opened up a new topic: "Recently, I suddenly had the inspiration to write a new book."

"What kind of book is it?" Editor Xiao Zhuang asked.

"How should I put it?" Dazai said, "Whether it's a novel or an epistolary essay, it's just a strange book."

"In terms of content..."

"Probably to talk about my own affairs, of course it is not the same as autobiography."

"Mr. Dazai is writing his autobiography now, isn't it too early?"

"Oh, yes." He said, "I've heard a saying that it's never too early to write an autobiography."

"Look, don't people often say the phrase 'time is the best medicine'? That is to say, people's experiences and memories will fade with time. If you record what you have experienced, and recall it many years later, it may become a different look." He said, "Memory can be beautified and deceived, and I don't want to keep those very deceptive things. Text."

"After finishing writing, I'll show you my autobiography, Mr. Zhuang."

"..." He nodded heavily and said, "OK."

Clouds weighed on his heart. For some reason, it was obviously an ending, casual chatting, but it made his heart heavy, just like the calm sea before the storm, the sky was a little dark , the water waves are calm, only the tense wind blows occasionally.

The rain is coming and the wind is all over the building.

……

Editor Xiaozhuang left, Dazai opened the door to see him off, took out a small handkerchief from nowhere, held it in his hand and waved it, put his right hand to his mouth, as if he was sending someone off on a long journey, but he The expression on her face was obviously happy, her face turned into a steamed bun face, with two blushes on her cheeks, to be honest, she was quite cute.

Aizawa Shouta's door was opened a crack, his smooth head squeezed out, and he said to Dazai endlessly: "Is everything okay?" The front is clean.

The sound insulation of the room is very good, but editor Xiaozhuang was too angry, and the sound of slapping the table was too loud, not only him, but also the nearby residents may have heard it.

"It's all right." Dazai shook his soft seaweed arm, "What's the matter? It's just that Xiao Zhuang's voice is a little louder, probably due to menopause, and their editors always face various troubles, such as Hair and the like, there is no way, he is born to be the kind of person who loves to worry."

You can never tell what Dazai is thinking from his face, there are emotional fluctuations, but some seem too fake.

Aizawa Yutasada fixedly looked at him several times, he was organizing words, the teacher's words, and had experience in dealing with students, but unfortunately Dazai is not a student in the ordinary sense, and his master's skills also failed on the other party .

"Dazai." Finally he said, "Young people should not carry too many burdens, some things can be handed over to adults." He said, "I live next to you, if you have anything, you can come to me. "

"Hey——" the person concerned didn't respond with the same serious attitude, "You are so gentle, Mr. Xiao." He said, "Ah, An, I will tell you if you have any questions. Remember to be with Mr. Xiao when the time comes There are cans of crab meat in the room, and I like to talk while eating."

[I bought it a long time ago. ]

In the depths of Aizawa Shouta's food cabinet, there are several cans of canned crab meat, which are the brands he asked the bar owner to bring. Dazai likes the canned food of that bar very much. It is said that it is not a local brand, and it will take some time to order it.

I don't know when, he started to store canned food in his house, but no one except Aizawa Shouta knew about it, even Dazai, he didn't mention it.

"Then, I'll close the door first." Dazai said, "I still have a lot of things to do, I haven't finished my homework, I only wrote three lines in the manuscript, and I just cleared the first level of the new game I opened yesterday." He said Pretending to be distressed, and these distresses are indeed what teenagers of this age will have.

"See you tomorrow, Taijun Xiao." He retracted his head, "Anyway, thank you for your concern."

"Crack-"

The door is closed.

Aizawa Yuta stared at the closed door, he didn't speak for a long time, and he didn't close his own door either, just watching, watching intently, not knowing what he was thinking.

He just had a vague idea.

[The door. ]

he thought silently.

[It's as if the two worlds are separated. ]

Dazai was inside, and all of them were outside.

[Body: Osamu Dazai]

[Synchronization rate: 85%]