disqualified hero

"Warm Spring"

2012 years.

/ Repair. /

/ Repair. /

/ Xiu Zhijun. /

[Stop shouting, you ghost! ]

Shuji Tsushima suddenly opened his eyes in the darkness. He propped up the mattress with his hands, and jumped up with an astonishingly terrifying expression.When he sleeps, he needs no light at all. The room is completely dark, and the blinds are drawn tightly. Whether it is the first ray of sunlight in the morning or the neon lights of Yokohama at night, they are blocked by thin plastic sheets.

He looked at his mobile phone, and there was a faint blue light on the screen. It was 3:45 in the morning, half an hour before the sun rose.

"You look so ugly."

At eight o'clock in the morning, Oda Sakunosuke came to visit him. It was not so much a visit as a visit to see if he was living a good life and whether he had done anything wrong with himself. When he came, he had two bags in his hand, one thermal bag , a big environmental bag: "There is crab porridge in the thermos bag, come and drink." He is four or five years older than Shuji Tsushima, maybe because his face looks old, but he is not yet [-], and he looks very mature, Tsushima Shuji moved slowly towards the table after being greeted. During the time he moved over, Oda had already walked back and forth to the kitchen, taking a ceramic bowl and a steel spoon.

"Here." Even the spoon was stuffed into Xiuzhi's hand.

Xiu Zhi got used to his care and began to drink porridge slowly.

When did their relationship start to become like this? Even Shuji Tsushima couldn’t tell. Anyway, since he escaped from the ghost ship, Oda Sakunosuke took the responsibility of taking care of him spontaneously. The other party often visited him. After entering university, Oda also started his literature study career, and at the same time settled down in Yokohama.When he was in college, Shuji Tsushima’s work and rest were healthier than now, because there is a cafeteria in Dongda University. If it is not delicious, it is not delicious, but at least he can guarantee two meals a day. After finishing his studies and moving out from Tokyo, his life will return to When he is in an unhealthy state, the so-called "eat when you think about it" refers to what he is doing now.

"What time did you wake up this morning?" Oda Sakunosuke took out several small glass lunch boxes from his bag, and each glass lunch box contained spicy curry. It's spicy curry."

"It's delicious." It's an honest and peaceful answer, "You won't get tired of delicious curry, and your sleep time..."

Shuji Tsushima reluctantly said, "45:[-]."

"Have you had a nightmare?"

[In a sense, nightmare is really an appropriate description. ]

"No, no."

"is it?"

"Yes."

The dialogue has reached a stalemate again. Oda Sakunosuke's tongue is not very dexterous. To put it bluntly, he is not a person who is good at using the art of language, so the novels he writes are plain. Connoisseurs say that he is good at using line drawing techniques, but you let Jin Shima Shuji said that he would only laugh and say, "He is so boring, so even the words he writes are like plain boiled water." When the two are having a conversation, as long as Tsushima doesn't want to talk more, Oda Sakunosuke can't extend the topic. .

[Actually, I know that Tsushima must be hiding something from me. ] Oda Sakunosuke thought, [But my relationship with him, it is very normal to say that there are concealments. I know nothing about his past. It can be imagined that it must be full of sadness and misfortune. past. ]

[Anyone who does a job similar to mine knows, "Don't try to pry into other people's past, let the secret become a secret." ]

"What are your plans for the moment." He asked.

"I'm planning." Tsushima's eyes drifted left and right again, "Speaking of it, it's true, I have graduated from college but I have nothing to do, I think about it, if I really want to say it, it's not bad to stay at home Choose, Odasaku, I am a young man born in a relaxed era, and it is normal not to want to work."

Oda said troubledly, "I don't have that name."

"Isn't it easy to say?"

"Don't talk about me. What have you been doing recently? You're still writing a novel. Would you like me to help you read it? Anyway, I'm also a former writer who won a newcomer award."

"Well, no, I'm still planning to accumulate more social experience." Oda said, "My experience is too little." He said, "If I continue to sit still, my savings will bottom out, so I still plan to work part-time .” He bought an apartment in Yokohama, which was not cheap.

"Part-time job? Convenience store."

"No, it should be a job with a slightly higher salary."

"That's great." Tsushima Shuji smiled hypocritically, "You won't have time to stare at me, Odasaku is like an old lady, it's so annoying."

"Ah," said the young man, "I'm so sorry."

He packed up and left.

……

"Missing?" Shuji Tsushima had a strange expression on his face. He looked at the familiar stranger outside the door, who was also stunned after reading his face with his eyes.

Detective Asuka, I met him and Osamu Dazai a few years ago. He must have offended someone, so he was sent to Yokohama. It's so pitiful, so pitiful. I don't know if he will have the chance to return to Tokyo in this life. .

At three o'clock in the afternoon, Shuji Tsushima was reading idly at home as usual. He didn't expect someone to knock on the door of his house. Although he was a boy living alone, he didn't take precautions. He opened the door without pulling the safety latch. The police ID adorned with the cherry blossom emblem was held up under his eyelids through a small slit, and he said that he was a policeman and wanted to know something.

"Ah." Asuka raised his eyebrows slightly, "It's been a long time."

Shuji Tsushima said noncommittally, "Come in."

"Oda Sakunosuke, a young man living alone." The photo was handed over, and it was still a one-inch headshot without a hat. "His neighbor reported to the police station that he was missing, and he might have been kidnapped. Now I come to you to understand the situation." After a rough investigation, they I found that Oda Sakunosuke's social relationship is very weak. This is the case with orphans whose parents have both died these days. The time when he had the most social contact was when he was an auditor at the University of Tokyo a few years ago. Shuji Tsushima was his friend in school. The neighbor said that Oda still often came to take care of his classmates at the time, so Asuka immediately asked someone to understand the situation.

Shuji Tsushima did not follow the usual path. He said with a smile, "I heard you right. Do you still need to investigate the disappearance in Yokohama? I thought it would go directly to Tokyo Bay and send fishing boats to salvage it."

[What words! ] Asuka frowned fiercely, [Where does it sound like something a friend would say, right? ]

"I'm serious. Japan is a society ruled by law. Of course we have to investigate someone missing." He emphasized, "Please cooperate with the investigation."

Asuka is a very easy-going person, and he admired the former Osamu Dazai very much, but to be honest, he didn't have a good impression of Shuji Tsushima. His proud subordinate died, and the death was very miserable. He was very optimistic about Sasaki back then. He has a righteous heart and keen observation skills. From the perspective of qualifications, he can have a bright future with a little polishing.

He wouldn't be angry at Shuji Tsushima, he's a child, right? He just dreamed back at midnight, and he couldn't help but recall Shuji Tsushima's posture. He stood not far away, looking down at Sasaki's body, with neither happy nor unhappy eyes. sad.

[Yes, it's like looking at a broken bowl. ]

Shuji Tsushima left a deep impression on him at that time, and he can't forget it until now many years later.

"Okay, okay." Shuji Tsushima raised his hands to admit defeat, "Let's talk about why he decided that 'maybe he was kidnapped'." He stretched out a hand as a gesture of demand, "The blackmail letter, The kidnapping letter, everything is fine, let me see it."

"you……"

"Let's think about it, under normal circumstances, the filing time for a missing person is 48 hours, right? Family members can go to the police station to file a case after two days of unsuccessful searches. Considering that Odasaku has no family members and is an adult male living alone, it is almost impossible to find him. Possibly, the neighbors will find out that he is not there, mostly because that guy is a good old man, and he will help single mothers take care of their children going to school for free, which is really something he can do." Oda Saku only talked to Shuji Tsushima about this matter. He mentioned that "the neighbor's children would come to him to play every day." He inferred that he was a single mother. He also told Oda at that time that the other party regarded him as a young man in his twenties. And tried to remarry him.

What was Odasaku's reaction? He just said seriously: "That's too bad. I'm not 28 years old. I'm only 19 years old now. Ms. Mitsuko is 33 years old. I don't have any idea of ​​marriage to her, let alone What's more, being associated with a man who is too small for me will also cause adverse social impact, so I have to tell her clearly about this matter."

As a result, Ms. Mitsuko was shocked when she learned about Odasaku's real age, and she seldom came to disturb her since then, but her son Tatsuo-kun still came to report every day. Odasaku could teach him to do his homework and take him Playing football on the wild grass next to the dam is really the perfect adult.

"That's right." Asuka had to admit, "Ms. Manko reported to the police, saying that Mr. Oda hadn't come home for three days. Earlier, Mr. Oda promised to take care of her son for a period of time after school. At the same time, recently One week, Mr. Oda was learning basic cooking from Ms. Manzi. She said that the other party was the person in charge of punctuality.

"Because being missing in Yokohama for more than three days means death?" Shuji Tsushima said a long-standing "joke".

Asuka didn't answer, but said: "Ms. Manko said that Mr. Oda has the habit of taking a walk in Yokohama Port, and he walks day and night. She is worried that the other party sees something that he shouldn't see."

"No, definitely not." Shuji Tsushima answered deftly, "You don't know him, Oda is far more cautious than you think, he can distinguish between safety and danger, and will actively avoid gray area transactions."

[…] Asuka thinks Shuji Tsushima's words are meaningful. He checked Oda's information before coming here, and it was quite clean.

/ Xiu Zhijun. /

/Go and see him. /

/ Xiu Zhijun. /

[do not bother me! ]

"Okay, okay, let me take a look." Shuji Tsushima stretched out his hand and said.

"what?"

"Letter information." He said, "Instead of asking you to come, let me find it faster. Although my relationship with Oda Saku is like that, if he really disappears, no one will help me clean the house and buy food. "After speaking, he blinked his eyes and threw a frivolous wink.

Asuka choked.

After a while, he said, "You are more and more like Mr. Dazai." It seems natural for a son to resemble his father.

Shuji Tsushima immediately restrained his smile, the corners of his mouth were raised, but his expression was cold.

"You said whether he would be happy or unhappy when he heard what you said."

[Did I say something wrong. ]

Asuka was even more embarrassed, but it was impossible for you to make him shut up and not speak now, so he bit the bullet and asked, "How is Mr. Dazai doing?" The parents lived together.

"Oh." Xiuzhi said, "The person you mentioned passed away many years ago." He added, "It was the year Sasaki died."

……

Shuji Tsushima was taken back to the police force.

"Hello." He happily greeted the old guard with a serious face, almost like a teenager. The old inspector naturally couldn't get used to people's smiling faces, especially in the majestic police station, he almost blew his beard and stared away. out.

Asuka almost touched his temple with his finger and sighed, what was he thinking, he thought Shuji Tsushima was not at all different from when he was a child, neither gloomy nor indifferent, the present appearance, the present appearance...

[Just like Osamu Dazai. ]

/ How much like me, Shuzhi-kun, look at Asuka's expression, he must think so. /

[To shut up. ]

Even after finishing the doctoral course, Osamu Dazai's voice still didn't disappear from his mind, and he didn't feel that he knew that man well.

[Even if we have the same growth trajectory, we are still different people after all. ] This thought made Tsushima Shuji feel a little relieved, and his mood relaxed a little. From that day on, Dazai Osamu's voice became less and his sentences became shorter.

But he still exists.

"This is the kidnapping letter." Asuka gave the evidence to Shuji Tsushima. It was a slightly old envelope with light yellow paper. This level of oxidation must have been stored for three or four years.

Shuji Tsushima turned it over and saw that there was a stamp on the upper right of the envelope, which was lawn, river and fireworks.

"Mr. Asuka," he asked, "do you know where the river on the stamp is?"

[It's strange how his voice is ambiguous. ]

Asuka nodded and said, "It's Edogawa, the Edogawa in Tokyo." Edogawa is a long river that flows through Ibaraki, Chiba, Saitama, and Tokyo. The end of the river is Tokyo Bay. , into the sea, Asuka can recognize it not because of the year and location of the stamp. They dealt with the Oda Sakunosuke incident as an ordinary disappearance case, did not conduct too in-depth investigation, but recognized it based on their own knowledge reserve , "When I was a child, I saw a fireworks display on the lawn. This stamp should also describe this scene."

Shuji Tsushima didn't speak. He took out a photo from the envelope, and the angle of view was probably taken by a smart camera on the street: "It's Google Maps." He narrowed his eyes and said.

When the map identifies shops or streets, local photos will be attached. The shooting years are different. Some are updated quickly, and the photos are in recent years, while others are updated slowly. The houses are old and in disrepair, and may be many years ago.

An abandoned building was shown in the photo, which was abandoned back then. Shuji Tsushima remembered that when the Japanese economy took off in the 70s, Jingrun Building used to be a landmark building in the area, but in 2000, no one lived there. Now it has become a dangerous building.

His predecessor was the Tokyo Securities Company Building. During the economic bubble era, people jumped from the top of Jingrun Building almost every day. Its premature abandonment may be related to this.

The back of the photo read: "He is in my hand."

Shuji Tsushima immediately turned on his mobile phone and searched Jingrun Building. This photo also appeared. He zoomed in, zoomed in, zoomed in, and finally saw a figure on the eighth window from left to right on the 43rd floor. The pixels were extremely low, but it was rare for him The hair color allows Shuji Tsushima to determine his identity.

"Let's go to Jingrun Building first."

……

On the first floor of the police station, he met a young man who looked like a child. He said that the young man inferred from the other person's facial features and figure, and said that he was a child because he saw a childish look on his face. The man just looked at Shuji Tsushima and said : "You don't have to go there." He said, "After eight o'clock tonight, people will come back."

Shuji Tsushima walked past him as if he didn't notice this person.

Edogawa Ranpo wasn't angry at all, he shouted behind Jindou Xiuzhi, "Maybe you don't want to know the truth!"

Shuji Tsushima recognized the handwriting on the back of the envelope.

It was written by Osamu Dazai.

……

/do you want to meet me? /

[To shut up. ]

/ Do you think I'm still alive? /

[Shut up, I just hate being kept in the dark. ]

/ Then change the subject, do you hate me? /

[Is there anyone who doesn't hate roundworms in their brains?You turned me into a real madman, psychopath. ] Shuji Tsushima sneered, Asuka sitting in front of him looked up at the rearview mirror, only saw a face as cold as ice.

[I went to kill you. ] He said to "Dazai Osamu": [I will definitely kill you. ]

Shuji Tsushima only heard a chuckle.

"arrive."

The elevator in Jingrun Building has been out of use for a long time. Fortunately, they are in good physical strength. They can only breathe a little when they climb the 43rd floor. It was empty, nothing but fly ash.

Detective Asuka also looked around, but he didn't find any suspicious blood, let alone broken bones. After looking around, there was still nothing, so he could only look at Shuji Tsushima to see what he found.

The young man's goal was very clear. He looked at the wall carefully. The light from the flashlight shone on the wall facing the window. Asuka asked, "What are you looking for?"

Shuji Tsushima didn't speak. Finally, on the high wall about half a meter away, 45 degrees to the left of the window, he found a small pothole. The hole was deeply sunken, and he pulled his mouth upwards.

This is the remnant of a bullet.

From the few years of getting along, he has long guessed what Oda Saku is doing. It is nothing more than a killer, a former killer. His killing skills must be very good. As for the reason for retirement, Shuji Tsushima is not very interested. Guessing the reason why the opponent appeared here a few years ago is nothing more than a mission, but this must be a thrilling mission. Not only does the opponent have a target to kill, but he has also become someone else's target.

He asked: "On May 2006, 5, did anyone important die around here?"

Asuka quickly checked and found: "The third generation president of Ibo Island Hotel died of heart disease." Ibo Island is one of the best hotel brands in Japan.

/ Really humorous. / The voice in my head said, / A hole has been pierced in the heart, of course it is considered a heart disease. /

[Shut up. ] Shuji Tsushima asked coldly, [What do you want to do? ]

/ How do I know, you should be very clear, I am not a real ghost at all, but just a fantasy in your mind. /

Shuji Tsushima shook suddenly, and it took him a while to stabilize his body.

"Are you okay?" Asuka asked.

"It's okay." Shuji Tsushima stretched out his hands to cover his temples, his head was throbbing with pain, well, he had more problems again, migraine, how long has he had it, a few months or a year?

He was too lazy to remember these things, Shuji Tsushima classified them as "psychological problems", and he had too many psychological problems to count.

"Now we can search two places." He said, "One is the place where the three generations of presidents died, and the other is the place where the sniper was shot."

"What sniper location?"

Shuji Tsushima was a little impatient: "Of course it is a sniper location that can threaten the people in this room."

……

"found it!"

A package was unpacked from the office of the Ibo Island Hotel. The contents of the package were so strange that Asuka couldn't figure out what it was.

Let me describe it in detail. It is a small frame surrounded by white paper, in the shape of an upside-down "日". There are two spaces on the left and right. Swallow it back into your mouth, but you can't see it anyway.

"Let's go, Mr. Asuka." Shuji Tsushima swallowed two pills with water. It is an advanced version of ibuprofen, a painkiller. His tendency to self-destruct has not exceeded the limit, otherwise he would have used morphine instead product.

"I know what it is." His expression became a little strange, "Let's go, let's go to Edogawa."

……

"Thank you very much, Professor Natsume." Oda Sakunosuke saluted Natsume Soseki, "Without you, it would be difficult for me to take precautions." It’s clean, but it’s just that ordinary companies in the society can’t find it, such as extrajudicial organizations, such as the Supernatural Secret Service Division, which has records. Of course, it’s not that the identity of the former killer is remembered, but it is recorded as the owner of the causal superpower .

In addition, it is impossible for his colleagues and enemies to forget the name of Oda Sakunosuke. Although the loss rate in the industry is high, it will not make his contemporaries die.

This kidnapping case, to be precise, is not just a kidnapping case, but a revenge by colleagues. Let’s call the enemy Mr. K. He accidentally found out the residence of Oda Sakunosuke and came to seek revenge. Natsume Soseki didn’t know Where did he get this information, and temporarily told Oda Sakunosuke to hide and kill Mr. K.

Mr. K is of course not dead. Oda Sakunosuke is determined not to kill anyone, so he really will never do it again. He is not a soft temper that others ride on the head. With Mr. K's character of being too penny-pinching, there are only many enemies in the industry. At least, he only needs to let out a little news, and more people can come to hunt him down.

"No, don't thank me." Natsume Soseki said, "Of course it's not my credit." He said, "It's Dazai, the message left by my student."

"A few years ago, before he boarded the ghost ship to be precise, he sent me two letters. The letter was very clear, asking me to open it five years later." He smiled a little helplessly, "I Of course, I also want to read the content in advance, but Dazai-kun has never missed anything, especially when it comes to people's hearts, I think it's better to listen to him."

"He asked me to send you a letter, and I sent it." Natsume Soseki said with a shrug, "That's it."

Oda Sakunosuke said: "I still want to thank you. Without you, Mr. K would have caused more harm." He was not worried about himself, but he was very worried about the Mitsuko family who lived next door.

also……

"Then I'll go first, Professor Natsume." He had a letter in his pocket, a letter he found at the sniper spot opposite Jingrun Building.

……

Edogawa.

3, 2, 1.

Start!

"嗖—嗖——嗖——" Several sharp piercing sounds spread in the air. Shuji Tsushima stood on the lawn and looked up to the sky. He saw orange, green, and blue, like brocade. Clusters of fireworks.

／Isn't it pretty, Shuzhi-kun. /

Pink, red, and fine dots fall from the dark night, starting from just a small dot, shooting star-like dots from bottom to top, when the firelight reaches its apex, they cannot bear the pressure from the inside, With a bang, it splashed around, and countless star fragments fell all over the sky. Those who were walking by the river, and the bird police detective who rushed over were all stunned.

Japanese law prohibits fireworks, unless they are officially released fireworks, so the fireworks festival in summer is extraordinarily grand. No one knows that there will be a huge fireworks festival in Edogawa tonight.

A little bit of fire landed in Shuji Tsushima's eyes, and those sparks suddenly changed into a different shape, turning into fireballs, popping out from his mind.He seems to have been opened the cage of memory, or his ability has finally matured, and finally showed his original appearance, nullifying the ability, and when he finds out what kind of ability he has mastered, he will think it is from A gift from the elders, I thought Osamu Dazai left everything to himself before his death, but the awakening was delayed due to external interference or various reasons, right?

He remembered, remembered everything that happened on the ghost ship, the disgusting Russians, the truth of the book, Osamu Dazai's mysterious smile, and the temperature of his palm.

[I thought his blood was cold, but I didn't expect his palm to be hot. ] The hot temperature penetrated the fabric of his body, penetrated the outer shell of the black suit, and penetrated into his blood.

It was too warm, too hot.

The missing young man, Sakunosuke Oda suddenly appeared behind Shuji Tsushima, and he asked a little confused: "I remember that it is illegal to set off private fireworks in Tokyo, right? It's too bad. I accidentally did something outside the law." thing."

"No." He heard Shuji Tsushima say, "Only criminals who are arrested by the police are criminals. Comrade, only crimes that are seen are crimes. If there are no witnesses, it is not a crime."

"So that's how it is." Oda Sakunosuke said, "Then there is no crime."

"Odasaku." Shuji Tsushima asked suddenly, "What do you think people will react when their elders die?" Will they be happy, or hate?

"I don't know." Oda Sakunosuke stretched out his fingers and scratched his face, "but ordinary people should cry when their father dies."

"Really?" "Yes."

The warm liquid flowed over his icy face, the temperature was like the warm sun in spring.

The ghost in his mind disappeared.

……

Spring tide refers to the spring tide. At a certain time, the sea water will fuel the flames and rise rapidly. Some fish will migrate and lay eggs when spring comes. They flow with the sea tide.

The tide at this time is stronger than in winter.

A fountain pen, lying quietly on the beach, with seaweed entangled in the cap.

He twirled the pen between two fingers and smiled.