disqualified hero

5 month 10 day.

Tuesday, noon.

Today it was Kusama's turn to rest, and when Sasaki arrived at the office, he saw that there was no one on his desk.

Asuka asked him, "Is there any progress in the case?"

Sasaki nodded and said: "The area where the bones came from has been further narrowed down." He said, "I applied for a thorough investigation of the sewer pipes, and there may be other discoveries." He looked forward to finding bones stuck in other parts, or It was white powder. Ozawagawa tested the softness and hardness of the bones and told him that these bones could be easily ground into slag, and the prisoner only needed a broken machine.

This discovery brought him two problems. First, he realized that the bones found may be accidental, and there may be very few of them. Most of them should have been washed down the sewer as dust; Wondering why these broken bones are there?If the criminal has the corresponding chemical knowledge, can effectively separate the calcium in the bones, and owns a broken machine, he can almost eliminate all the evidence, why now, at this juncture, show the truth?

"Moses Moses—"

"Moses Moses—"

Sasaki had no choice but to raise his head to "connect" Shuji Tsushima's phone. The latter was tired of playing mobile games, and even read all the materials he had sorted out and brought home. Sasaki suspected that he knew a lot, but out of respect for He hesitated about "whether the child should be involved in a dangerous incident", but he didn't ask Shuji Tsushima what he saw.

"What a stupid and self-deceiving idea." Shuji Tsushima didn't know what the other party was thinking, and deliberately mocked, "Do you think that if you don't ask me, you can pretend that I didn't participate?" He always likes to use a soft tone It is because Sasaki quickly mastered the art of language and found joy in it when he got along with each other.

Shuji Tsushima knew for the first time how pleasant it is to scrape away the rotten meat and scrape off the pus and blood, and force others to look directly at the bony bones. Laughter and laughter must be attributed to the calm sea, and the human mask is nothing more than a dignified and elegant or serious smile. To become a politician who can't show emotions is the highest pursuit of his father's generation.

Even his current guardian, the man he should be called uncle, always puts on an inscrutable face. He will show a mocking smile, but he may not make a sound. He talks a lot of nonsense on weekdays, but at critical moments Very fond of keeping silent.

He didn't want to do that, and he didn't want to do that. Shuji Tsushima wanted to tell what he saw and tell the ignorant mediocrity.

"Look." He is persuasive, like the most qualified teacher, but this expression is really not suitable for his too young face, "If I am a mature, ruthless criminal who wants to murder a policeman If I spy on you and prevent you from further investigating the crime, then I, who often appear by your side and even read the file, will definitely become an obstacle that must be cleared."

"I've been with you almost all the time, and I know everything about the people you come into contact with, but if you die, I will be asked by the police who you have communicated with," Sasaki was listening, and he must think that Tsushima What Xiu Zhi said was right, otherwise why would he slow down his breathing, even the gas from his nose trembled, "The police will find me, why wouldn't criminals think of me."

"Your behavior is in the final analysis self-deception."

"People will die." Talking about death, Shuji Tsushima's eyes became brighter, like two green lights in the dark night, Sasaki stared at him, the more uncomfortable he became, the sense of fear welled up from the bottom of his heart, tracing the source His fear comes from the human being's awe of death. There are very few people in the world who can face death calmly, and he is definitely not one of them.

Sasaki is probably a little keen. He has a natural radar for dealing with danger in his mind, and it is easy to detect those high-risk people and is easy to be attracted. Shuji Tsushima showed similar characteristics even though he was young.

[When he talks about death, it's like talking about a favorite play, or introducing an old friend. ]

[I'm not sure what he meant, whether he was looking forward to seeing death, seeing his own death, or just having a child's curiosity about death. Some children are so fearless because of ignorance, and they always hang crimes, life and death, etc. Speaking of words, to be honest, I hope Xiuzhi is the latter, if he already understands the meaning of death but is still looking forward to it, it will scare me. ]

"In short." Facing the child's harsh words, he could only respond with a pale face, "Whether you think I'm hypocritical or cowardly, it may really be what you said." Sasaki said, "But I It will never let you get hurt, if you get hurt, I will definitely die first."

"For safety's sake, Mr. Xiuzhi don't ask any more questions."

Shuji Tsushima showed no sympathy. He didn't get along with Sasaki for a long time. At most, he thought that Sasaki was a mediocre good person, saying that there was no basis for his relationship at all. He didn't apologize for disturbing the other party's mind at all. On the contrary, he curled his lips, feeling very boring , I won’t say any more.

[Not interesting. ]

he thought.

Time crawled forward bit by bit, and the pointer revolved around the central axis in a circular orbit. One hour or two hours passed, and Detective Asuka did not come. Sasaki asked, and someone told him that Detective Asuka was out of the field. I called in the morning to say that I'm not here today, and I may send people to help later. I don't know the reason.

"I'll tell you something." Shuji Tsushima's voice sounded again, "My guardian, he hasn't shown up for two days. I guess he's with Mr. Asuka."

The gears in Sasaki's mind turned hard, and the gullies were filled with all kinds of messy information. For a while, he was worried about the comfort of his senior, for a while, Shuji Tsushima's eyes flashed, and for a while, he recalled the development of the case. Miss T His face echoed in his mind, the memory palace filled with fragments.

"Are... are you worried about him?" Sasaki asked.

"Worried?" Shuji Tsushima had a strange expression, as if he had accidentally swallowed bitter chinensis, his face wrinkled like a ball of paper, "No, of course it's impossible." He said, "I don't need to worry about him at all, You don't need to worry about Mr. Asuka either."

"That man can't be killed." He said, "Let's not say he is a vicious murderer, even if the gods and Buddhas enter the world, they can't do him any harm." Obviously we didn't get along for a long time, but Dazai left Shuji Tsushima Such an impression, he is unpredictable and unpredictable, and his life is so tenacious that it is not human.

"Even he can't kill himself." He tilted his head and said, "It sounds incredible, but he is that kind of person."

[Can't kill yourself? ] Sasaki thought with a pale face, [This is really a fantasy. ]

……

April 5

night.

Asuka has done many daring things in his life. After joining the military police, he hung his head on a steel wire for a long time. The fulcrum is too thin, and his balance is even more precarious. If he is not careful, his head will fall into the abyss. Not a single echo was heard.

[This is also crazy. ]

He didn't dare to say a word, he could only walk step by step behind Osamu Dazai, like a silent and majestic mountain, Asuka was tall and serious, and looked like a professional bodyguard. Now he took off his police uniform and wore black Suits, not much decoration on the face, if you meet "acquaintances" here, it will be miserable.

He suddenly felt that none of the previous adventures were a thing, and none was crazier than this time.

[I was brought into the Yokohama Mafia territory. ] he thought, [and made no pretense. ]

Yokohama is a place outside the law. There are military police stationed in the urban area, but they are all in charge of small troubles of the people. The main task of the police is to mediate the relationship between neighbors and husbands and wives. Their guns are not used to fire bullets.

The reason for this situation is not that the local security is excellent. On the contrary, Yokohama’s security ranks high in Japan. There are illegal immigrants, smugglers, orphans, people with supernatural powers, mafia gang members... especially the last one However, the mafia gangs do not present a dominant situation. Now several mafia gangs are on equal footing, and there are disputes and cooperation from time to time. From the general direction, the number of disputes is higher.They barely obeyed the rules, controlled the battles at the night port, and moved them to the slums. Normally, they would not disturb the lives of the people. The military and police were too lazy to manage them and could not manage them, so they simply regarded themselves as ordinary citizens. Look them up.

But in any case, the compatibility between the police and violent criminals is very low. The military and police in the city don't go to the mafia to trouble them, and the latter will send them to the door themselves, as if they are boasting of their existence.

Osamu Dazai knocked on their door this morning and said, "I want to go to Yokohama."

"What?" He didn't understand.

"I said that I wanted to go to Yokohama." He always said surprisingly, "After three years of marriage with Fujiwara Kiyomizu this year, the latter went to Yokohama alone to complete a one-and-a-half-year undercover mission." Confidential information has been covered up in the dust so far, and ordinary police officers are still unable to check it. Asuka has only heard about it. The specific records cannot be overly explored based on his current identity. Dazai Osamu is different. He and Sakaguchi Ango asked for absolutely confidential information, and applied to order Asuka The confidentiality agreement that was read at the same time was approved by the superior as expected.

"As long as you help us find those," said the farming chief, "we have to recycle."

"As you can see, the gang has been wiped out, but they have left very precious research materials." Osamu Dazai said, "I went to investigate the gang. They didn't start with traditional guns. They are more violent than violence." It’s like a group of mad scientists who came together to study subjects beyond the scope of the law.” He said, “Drugs that allow people to obtain supernatural powers in a short period of time, the origin of abilities, the realization of abilities, inhuman evil Spirits and the like, you'll never guess how rich their imaginations are."

"What does that have to do with the Mafia?" Asuka asked cautiously.

"They obtained some by-products in the process of research." Osamu Dazai said, "For example, poisonous gas, drugs that act on neurology, etc., and even substitutes for new drugs." He paused for a while, "They have a Pretty good pharmacist."

Asuka knew there was something in his words, but couldn't understand what he was pointing at, so he could only remain silent.

"Let's continue." Dazai narrated, "Because of its positioning, this gang itself does not have much internal force, but they produce medicines and provide new neurotoxins. Many small gangs rely on them for their lives, and the big gangs need these items. They simply sent their own teams to protect the temporarily assembled armed forces, which sounded like a fantasy, but it really happened, and Mr. Fujiwara sneaked into the small gang as an undercover agent and was sent to protect the Mad Scientist Organization."

"We have experienced a lot in the middle. In short, his mission was successful and the scientist was basically arrested." He picked up the glassware lying on the ground, which was a test tube with a wooden stopper, and the liquid contained in it was slightly overflowing It is yellow, the light is cold white, refracted in the liquid, the yellow becomes lighter, Asuka suspects that there are dangerous items in it, but who would throw the tube containing high-risk reagents on the ground?He's not sure.

"But I found that he probably didn't fully complete the task." Osamu Dazai said, "He hid a batch of medicine instead of not discovering it. As for the mad scientists at that time, there were also fish that slipped through the net."

"Let him hide the potion in the depths of Yokohama's slums, and hand it over to special personnel for safekeeping." The special personnel in his mouth must be members of the gang, "Now in order to piece together a complete case, and to achieve what I promised Mr. Farming earlier, we have to Bring those goods out."

"Hey?"

[Is that what I thought it meant? ]

"Just the two of us, Asuka," he said. "Complete this task and the case will be clear."

……

5 month 11 day.

day.

"What's going on, that bastard Kusama."

"Late for work? Does he know the importance of our work!"

"But it's really strange. Although he talks a lot, he is very serious about his work. He usually complains when he is asked to work overtime, but he will still come to the scene if he is asked. Today is no longer overtime. It is rare and too rare."

When Sasaki arrived at the office, several seniors gathered together to speak, he hesitated and asked, "What happened?"

"Ah, it's Sasaki." Nakamura said, "I was just talking about Kusama. He was told to work overtime last night. Isn't Asuka-senpai not here? Everyone is overwhelmed by the heavy workload. He didn't answer the phone at that time, so forget it , I can understand the reluctance to be called out on a rare holiday, but it's too much to look at today, right?"

Sasaki said, "Maybe it's illness?"

"Hey, in that case, you have to make a phone call."

"Speaking of which, will he go..." As soon as these words came out, the seniors all showed tacit smiles, and the corners of their mouths were raised in a vague and obscene angle. It's true that Sasaki is a newcomer, but he has heard related rumors , to understand what they are saying.

[Ah, it’s nothing more than going to a custom shop. ]

"But even if we go, it's impossible not to come back for two days, right? Did you drown in Ruanrouxiang?"

Nakamura said: "It doesn't matter, let's arrest him at his house after get off work today."

No one thinks that Kusama is missing or something else happened. He is tall, proficient in martial arts, and he is in the investigation team. Have a tip-off and wait for a chance of rescue.Not to mention that there were no shootings and attacks in the city yesterday.

Sasaki sat back in his seat. His relationship with Kusama was average. He said he was a senior, but the other party was very good at manipulating those who came later. Sasaki often had to help him with extra work, and even became a joke for his seniors. His personality Not bad, but it's hard to have a good impression of Kusama and others after too many times.

Sasaki's schedule today is also very tight. During working hours, he has to conduct on-the-spot exploration of the previously designated range of bone sources, and he has to go to an appointment at night.

Shuji Tsushima asked, "Did she tell you the location?"

"Not yet." Sasaki said, "Miss T will tell me in the evening."

"Oh." The child propped his hands on the table and stood on raised feet. He whispered, "Kusama, are you worried about him?" The next sentence immediately followed, "I'm sure you don't worry, Kusama has a bad temper. He likes to tease the younger generation, and always pushes the heavy work to you, but he knows how to protect himself wisely, and he doesn't take on the work that would attract too many enemies, and he is tall and good at fighting, so no one can hurt him."

"You think so, right?"

After a few days, Shuji Tsushima almost became the source of Sasaki's fear. Some of the words he said seemed not too serious, but they were full of weirdness in the aftertaste in his heart. He said boldly, "Isn't it right?"

"Hmm——" Shuji Tsushima said, "No, you're right." He was grinning. After leaving Dazai, the children's smiles became more and more frequent. Adults are busy with their own things these days, otherwise If Osamu Dazai sees it, he will definitely find out the clues.

He suddenly knew what is happiness and what is unhappiness, and also understood the true meaning behind the word joy. The shackles that were suppressed on his body were reduced with the departure of Osamu Dazai, and the desire to vomit that used to linger on his body has not appeared for a long time up.

Rather than being called a victim, he wants to be a perpetrator. Shuji Tsushima is such a child.

From the root, you can even say he is evil.

"Let's finish the work quickly." He said to Sasaki, "You have a date tonight."

……

5 month 11 day.

noon.

Sasaki ran to an old neighborhood. The houses were all built in the Showa era. At most, they were renovated once or twice, and the building area was much larger than ordinary one-household buildings.

There are not many residents here, and the old ladies in kimonos make up the majority of the remaining residents. All in all, it is a rather lifeless street.

A large shrine is hidden behind several houses. Shuji Tsushima, who came with him, seemed very interested. He went in to pay homage to the main god of the shrine, and circled around the sacred tree several times. There are not many in Japan as a whole, especially the bombed post-war cities, which are already old ancestors.

A woman stands behind a window.

She was standing on the second floor, the curtains half-covered the window, half of her face was covered, and the other half was exposed, her almond-shaped eyes were looking at them, at Shuji Tsushima and Sasaki.

Shuji Tsushima saw her, so he raised his head and showed a smile that his mother regarded as cute.

The woman left again, she was a ghost left behind.

Sasaki walked around the shrine, he felt that something was wrong, his back was thick, and he felt very cold.He looked up and found nothing. It can only be attributed to the fact that the shrine is too old and has a cold and quiet atmosphere. Or is it that the gods are staring at him?

"Sasaki." Shuji Tsushima suddenly called him, "I'm going to the bookstore on the corner."

"What?" The adult didn't understand his intention.

"It suddenly occurred to me that I wanted a book, which is the monster detective novel you mentioned earlier." He said, "I'm going to stand in the bookstore and read a book for a while. It's too boring to follow you around, aimless. Didn't find anything, nothing interesting."

[Ah, so it is. ] Sasaki suddenly realized, [Indeed, my work is too boring for ordinary children, even for Shuzhi-kun. After all, there are no books or mobile games to play, and there is nothing here for him to discover Yes, it's not a murder scene, it's normal to be unbearable. ]

"Then wait, I'll take you there." Sasaki said, "I'll say hello to the boss, let him watch you, you just wait in the store for me, don't run around."

……

5 month 11 day.

bookstore.

Shuji Tsushima raised his head.

The bookshelf was too high, he was considered tall among his peers, but after all he was just a child, and he couldn't get the books on the top shelf.There are folklore stories on that layer, with the words Jingji Xiayan on the side page. It is said that he was a very famous folklorist in the last century, but he has disappeared for a long time. Some people say that he is dead, and some people say that he no longer engages in folklore. Instead of studying, he changed his career to study other things.

"Do you want that book?"

Shuji Tsushima first looked up at the woman standing behind him, and he smiled obediently: "Yes, I'm sorry to trouble you, Mrs. Jin-year-old."

The book was delivered to him.

"This should be the second time we have met." This year's wife approved a large shawl again. She loves clothes made of cotton and linen. It is best to hang long tassels. This kind of clothing has a slightly retro meaning , From the appearance, it can soften her temperament.

"It doesn't count." Shuji Tsushima opened the book, "It should be the third time, you were still upstairs to see me just now." She said, "That should be counted once."

"Do you like this book?" Mrs. this year asked, her expression was gentle, and the emotion in her eyes was not false. When she got close to Shuji Tsushima, the child could even smell the lemon fragrance on her body. After entering this bookstore, Mrs. this year Suddenly there is a new identity - mother.

"I can't say whether I like it or not." Shuji Tsushima said, "This is the first time I've watched it, and it's also the first time I've heard the author's name."

"My son," Mrs. Jin-year-old said, "my son likes this kind of stories very much. They are classified into Japanese folk stories. They are all about Dajiangshan and the ghost king, the bride and the daughter of the emperor, the concubine Wenche and Yuzaqian, "Her voice is so gentle, as soft as singing a nursery rhyme, and her expression is calm, "I will show him Hiroshige's "53 Times of the Tokaido" by Utagawa Hiroshige, and you can see the top of Mount Fuji and the flying waves while sitting at home , the long wooden boat carrying the merchants was rolling with the waves, and they would be involved in it at some point, and the seagulls were flying at low altitude, their feathers were wetted by a series of water droplets."

"Hokusai's manga is full of everything, fish, insects, birds, beasts, mountains, rivers, seaweed, vast galaxies, and turbulent waves all appear in it, so I held him in my arms and told about the vastness and romance of the world, about people's strange things, and about the history of Edo. Architecture, and now the Sky Tree in Tokyo."

Her last words were expected by Shuji Tsushima. The woman said: "You are very similar to that child. If you think about it carefully, if he can live to the same age as you, you will be about the same age."

"So, from the first day I saw you, I felt joy in my heart, wondering when that man would bring you to visit me. I look forward to that day."

"I finally saw you today."

Tsushima Shuji said: "You are a bit like my mother."

"No, it might be more appropriate to call her mother." He said, "She is also an old Chinese." These words made Mrs. this year's expression change, and her smile was not sincere.

"Maybe she doesn't like her family background that much, but she doesn't hate it like you do. She puts everything she thinks is the best in front of me but doesn't care if I need it or not. She likes classical literature and Murasaki Shikibu but despises Nishi Ihara. Crane, merchant literature cannot enter her eyes."

"She can take other people's lives for nothing, and that's definitely not a big deal in her mind, and probably you are too," he said. She doesn’t even mind that I’m on the same path, and I’m also bound by the family.” He looked up at Mrs. This year, and the other’s body trembled slightly, like a white willow flower being blown by the wind and rain, “I think you are the same , but you seem to be different."

"You may be more faithful to yourself." Shuji Tsushima's eyes could not be said to be probing or envious, he showed the most naked curiosity in front of the woman and said, "I want to know, can killing people really bring you happiness? Or is it the desire for revenge that drives you forward?" He may not be asking Mrs. this year, the deceased mother, Ah Zhong, all those who have deprived others of their lives are standing behind Mrs. this year. The shadows change and even overlap with the refraction of the light. Osamu Dazai will not answer his question. That person doesn't like to talk about death in front of him, as if he is subconsciously guarding against something, so he can only find it in his own way. to the answer.

"Please tell me what is on your mind when death comes."

"Would you like to come to my house to drink a glass of milk?" Mrs. this year asked, "Do you like milk from Hokkaido?"

"it's OK."

……

I once had a child.

He is a very beautiful child, his facial features are very similar to mine, so he has fair skin, purple grape eyes, curly eyelashes, Fujiwara Shimizu's hair is slightly curled and soft, which is inherited from Yage-kun the texture of his hair.

He is a very well-behaved child, a little sick but harmless, and very smart. I like to hold him in my arms and study, as long as he likes the books I read.

I don’t know if I really like him, but when you look at his eyes, you feel that your heart is at peace. His eyes are beautiful, black, but shining brightly. I looked at my eyes in the mirror, like A black pool of stagnant water.

So when he left in my arms, touching my cheek with a bloody hand, I knew my world was falling apart.

Shuji Tsushima interrupted her: "Then do you take pleasure in causing death?"

"Of course." Jin Sui said, "That's revenge, and revenge always brings short-term pleasure to people."

"Then what do you think?" Holding the spoon in his right hand, he digs through the almond tofu. The softness of the tofu is about the same as that of the brain. He sticks out his bright red tongue and dips it twice in the milky white tofu block. The flesh-eating ghost is eating blood. The dripping hot brain is probably the same as him.

"Do people feel happy simply watching death?" He said, "Standing in the boundary between life and death, feeling the moment of life disappearing, is too close to death."

"What's more, to kill people, a simple word can cause the death of several people..." He put down the spoon and entered his own world, "No, it's better to die more interestingly and meaningfully. Be more interesting."

"From my point of view." This year old lady has become the most reliable mother, patiently answered Shuji Tsushima's words, "As long as there is no neurohormonal abnormality and no stimulation of external hatred, people will not suffer from the death of others. Get happy, but there are always exceptions. For example, in the American murderer family, there will be murderers in every generation. After the autopsy, the doctor found that the brain structure of their family is different from that of ordinary humans. The abnormal brain structure Make them smarter, better learners, and get the pleasure out of killing people."

"For people with a basic conscience, it will be very painful. Generally speaking, if there is a trace of morality in the composition of the soul, it will not be able to become an unscrupulous murderer, but if there is not enough morality in the initial growth period Social education, maybe it will become a terrible monster in your mouth."

"Snapped."

In the vast void, Shuji Tsushima heard the sound of the chain breaking, and a question he had been thinking about for many days was finally answered.

"So this is ah."

[I finally discovered the difference between myself and Mr. Yandao. ] The Osamu Dazai in his memory is always very silent. When he discovers those crimes, when he sees death, he always puts on a smiling face that looks like a mask but not a smile. Shuji Tsushima will also feel it. The child was overjoyed, but he vaguely knew that he must not let Dazai Osamu see his abnormality.

[That person will not accept it. ] He vaguely felt, [He hopes that I will become a person with a bottom line of conscience, maybe he has a line drawn in his heart, so that he will not be so unscrupulous and let him become a person. ]

[I am different from him. ]

he thinks.

[He and I are two completely different people, I don't want to restrain my pleasure, that's fine. ]

[After all. ] Shuji Tsushima's brows and eyes are cold.

[No matter how many people die, what does it matter to me? ]