black under lights
Chapter 68 The Finale
They stood in front of the tombstone, suddenly the wind picked up, blowing the corners of their clothes, and after a while, they stopped still, like some kind of response.
And not far from where they were standing, Li Li was also holding a bouquet of flowers. She came alone, gently stroked her belly, looked at the two figures in the distance, and finally didn't bother her.
Knowing that the two had been away for a long time, Li Li walked out alone and placed the second bouquet of flowers in front of Li Que's tombstone.
"Father, my little brother has grown up, and there are people I like very much, and I really don't want to let go." Li Li's eyes were a little gentle, and after a while, there was a little pain mixed in, "But what about me? Did I do the right thing to keep this child? dad……"
Li Xueying and Xing Mo, who had gotten into the car and left, had already started the car from the side of the road. Li Xueying put on her seat belt, turned her head and glanced out the window in a hurry, but frowned.
Just as Xing Mo shifted gears, Li Xueying stretched out his hand to hold him down suddenly.
"how?"
But Li Xueying frowned and said nothing, just staring out the window.Xing Mo knew that something was wrong, but he followed his gaze and found nothing. Before he could ask again, Li Xueying had already pulled off his seat belt, got out of the car and walked in another direction.
Xing Mo immediately turned off the engine, got out of the car and hurried to catch up.He didn't know if Li Xueying noticed any danger, but Li Xueying's abnormality did make him very vigilant at this moment.
Take two more steps, Xing Mo has already discovered the clue without Li Xueying happening.Someone was hiding behind a big tree not far away, the sun was not too strong, but his shadow was still exposed under his feet, and his cuffs were also exposed from behind the rough tree trunk.
As the time approached, Li Xueying confirmed that the quick glance just now was by no means dazzled, and then some kind of terrible intuition attacked him, because the other party's behavior of avoiding them explained Li Xueying's delusion——
Li Xueying stopped suddenly when she was a few steps away from the tree trunk.Xing Mo didn't know what he saw just now, he frowned and wanted to stop him behind, and shouted at the person behind the tree to show his appearance.It's a pity that when the other party first heard his voice, his whole body trembled immediately, as if he had been subjected to some terrible torture.
Xing Mo was about to step forward, but Li Xueying grabbed his wrist.He was puzzled, and looking back, Li Xueying's face was covered with a shading object, so he couldn't see his expression clearly, but somehow it made people feel that he was like an enemy.
Her tongue was dry for a long time, and then she finally recovered her voice. Li Xueying even held Xing Mo's hand with sweat and trembling: "Liu Fangfang, is it you?"
The person behind the tree felt as if struck by lightning, and Li Xueying held Xing Mo's hand, which instantly made his veins swell.Hearing this name for a long time, Xing Mo didn't react for a moment. When he did, his muscles tightened inch by inch, and he rushed forward uncontrollably.
Xing Mo is not as good-tempered as Li Xueying, but Li Xueying seems to be trying her best to stop him this time. Xing Mo didn't see what Li Xueying saw, but he listened to him and stopped rampaging, but his eyes were red, and he didn't believe it at all. staring in that direction.
The silence spread strangely between the two parties, no matter whether it is the ancestors or the descendants, it is undoubtedly a kind of torture.Just like this, I persisted quietly, and finally recognized it as if I was gritting my teeth to make some kind of difficult decision, and walked slowly from behind the tree.
Xing Mo couldn't believe his eyes, he had fooled others with the trick of resurrecting the dead, and the most regretful thing was to let his A Yingping suffer, but he didn't expect that now that the roles were changed, such things would fall on him , I really know what it's like.
That face is no longer wrong, the eyebrows and eyes are faintly reminiscent of those years ago, maybe the name has been changed a few times, the unrestrained and carefree youthful spirit of the year has long since disappeared, and the rest of the skin is carefully examined, only the clothes are ragged and the face is full of vicissitudes. It is doubtful whether he is over forty.The most important thing is that the person who used to walk like flying, could not bear the loneliness, and always rushed to tell him the news, now only has one leg left.The empty trouser legs and a tripod are all the price of his walking.
Immediately, Li Xueying couldn't stand it any longer, she turned around and covered her mouth and nose to calm down.Many scenes followed. On the day when he saw Xing Mo for the last time, Liu Fangfang's movements were vigorous, and his whole body was full of masculine strength.
And now.
Xing Mo felt as if someone had smashed his brain, and he couldn't recover for a long time.After looking at him again, the person on the other side has lowered his head.Condensation between the eyebrows is depression, frustration, humbleness and pain.Many complicated looks flashed across his eyes, and he was quickly dismissed.
The sound of cicadas is amplified many times in this silent summer.
After a long time, the man seemed to have finally had enough torture, and almost swallowed: "Brother Mo."
"You...your legs..."
"It's okay, it's been five years, I'm used to it."
"Why didn't you come to see me?" Xing Mo gradually came back to his senses, with fire in his eyes and ice in his tone, "Knowing you and my brother for so many years, I searched the entire Repulse Bay but I didn't find your bones. Later, Luo Xiu's people said , I saw with my own eyes that someone pulled your bones back down the cliff, and even the gods of Da Luo couldn’t find them, so I slowly accepted this fact. These years, I thought you were dead! If you didn’t dodge on purpose, how could I have a little bit of death? Can’t even hear the wind?”
The night noise in the silent hut is particularly ear-piercing. There are laughter, cries and whispers. There are many truths in the world, but it is not easy to speak them out.The atmosphere among the three was a little depressing, Liu Fangfang and Xing Mo stood on each side, like a silent wrestling.Perhaps feeling annoyed at the situation of being unable to break the deadlock, Xing Mo leaned forward and pulled the window back.The thick glass blocks the hustle and bustle of the outside world, leaving only quiet breathing in the house for a while.
Rao Li Xueying was also shocked in her heart, and knew that this moment must be reserved for the two of them.When Xing Mo returned to Hong Kong after five years, it took even longer for the hurdle of mutual suspicion between them to be resolved.
"It's not that I don't trust you, it's that I can't trust myself anymore. If I knew you were alive, why wouldn't I look for you? You were the one whose heart was gouged out and thrown off the cliff!" Liu Fangfang said, losing his composure here, It took a long time to calm down, and said again, "I let you die in front of me. I am not worthy of brotherhood or Master Xin's kindness to me."
The hand hanging beside Xing Mo clenched it hard and then loosened it, the palm and the back of the hand turned red.Li Xueying followed from behind, inserted her five fingers into his five fingers, and put her palms together.Perhaps feeling his comfort, Xing Mo Zhou's tense anger relaxed, and then was replaced by an invisible self-blame and pain.
"Later, I got the news of your return to Hong Kong. I thought, no matter what the big boss becomes, I will meet him. But brother Mo is better than I imagined...much better. Busy with revenge, busy with getting rid of Feng Qing , and returned to the Xing family, how could I recognize you at that time! I have become such a ghost, and I can't bear to let you blame yourself? I thought about it several times, so be it, anyway, half of my life is over... Being a brother has this life or the next life, and I have nothing to do in this life, but it's better than letting you take care of an amputee for the rest of his life." Liu Fangfang finally said the words, and he seemed to have been aggrieved in his heart for many years. I couldn't hold back anymore, "I finally waited until you killed Feng Qing. I couldn't help but want to see you, but I followed all the way here. I never thought that you came to see 'me'..."
Maybe Liu Fangfang never thought that Xing Mo would never forget him in these years, and he was overwhelmed by the strong impact at this moment: "It's worth it. It's worth it to stay with Brother Mo for the first half of your life. I don't want glory and wealth in the second half of my life." , I just want to be safe. I thought I would have to bear the rest of my life if I had this knot in my heart. Seeing that you are living well, I can finally hold my chest up and be a man."
On the first night when he met Liu Fangfang, Xing Mo invited him to his house as a guest.The five years of torture and loss of life have not caused too much burden for Xing Mo. Liu Fangfang is willing to tidy up his outfit, and he is also willing to accompany him.But Liu Fangfang rejected Xing Mo's invitation and instead invited him to sit at his place.
Passing through the criss-crossing narrow streets, the oily smoke gradually increased.He is still working in a tea restaurant. There is a seat for him in the back kitchen. His legs and feet are handicapped and he cannot do any work. He has to help people wash the dishes day after day, and he is paid [-] yuan a month for labor.
Li Xueying thought about meeting with her boss to talk about working in a different environment, or treating Liu Fangfang more kindly and improving labor, but Liu Fangfang stopped her.He said that the boss is kind enough. Five years ago, he crawled to the highway with all his injuries and asked for help from kind people. That's when he met this boss.The boss paid for his medical expenses, and after he recovered, he worked here for five years.
When talking to Li Xueying and Xing Mo, Liu Fangfang huddled with them in a small corner of the crowded back kitchen, seemed extremely embarrassed, and invited them to talk to his bedroom on the second floor.Xing Mo watched Liu Fangfang from behind in silence, leaning on crutches to shuttle skillfully in a small space, avoiding obstacles, and saying hello to some people who passed by.He knew that the five years explained in just a few words were far less simple than what Liu Fangfang really experienced.
But who has really made it clear?
In the past five years, no matter if he was talking to Xing Mo, Li Xueying, Li Li, or Liu Fangfang, the outsiders would probably have nothing to say but only a few words.The simplicity of words is not because the story is simple, on the contrary, it is because it is too complicated to say or finish.
The two followed Liu Fangfang up to the second floor. The room was about five square meters, cramped and cramped, with a damp and musty smell.The daily necessities are all available. Although dilapidated, it can be regarded as tidy and tidy, which does not make people feel disgusted.
Xing Mo sat with Li Xueying for a few minutes, then Xing Mo patted Li Xueying on the shoulder, signaling to go downstairs to buy some beer.
After watching for another 10 minutes, he came back with nearly twenty cans of beer in his hand.
It must be that none of the three returned home that night.
Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang drank the most, and Li Xueying even went downstairs to buy one more drink.Liu Fangfang was so emotional that he held the metal can, drilled the thin metal sheet until it twisted and clicked, and cried bitterly and knelt on the ground, unable to help himself.Most of his narrations are lucky events in the past five years, which is also related to his nature.
Xing Mo was born with enough ginger (enough to grow), and Liu Fangfang was enough to be thunderous (enough loyalty), but everything in the world has a cause and effect, and people's words have more traces to follow.Under Liu Fangfang's bitter tears, as many times as "fortunately" he said, he must have experienced "unfortunately".
Only now did Li Xueying understand the sincerity of what Xing Mo said to him, "Fortunately, I didn't lose you".
Xing Mo's eyes were red, he turned his head away and drank up a can of beer, and smashed it against the wall with one hand, telling Liu Fangfang to get up and follow him to continue asking for a living.
But where else can I live?He is no longer his boss, and Liu Fangfang is no longer his pony, regardless of his status, vision or what he can do, everything has changed drastically.Li Xueying is still confused about where to go in the future, and Xing Mo must be more or less the same, how can he guide Liu Fangfang?
Later, Li Xueying couldn't help drinking too much, her head was heavy, and she was dizzy and said many truths that she didn't usually say. When Liu Fangfang went to the bathroom, he was pushed against the wall by Xing Mo and kissed.
In the middle of the night, Li Xueying curled up in a corner of the bed and fell asleep, but Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang passed away from alcohol, and the two gradually became sober.When he felt drowsy, he heard Xing Mo's deep and deliberately subdued voice, describing to Liu Fangfang his life during those five years, and his plan after returning to Hong Kong, and the process of Feng Qing's final admission to Shanshan.That voice sounded too plain and straightforward, without much emotion, but it inexplicably made Li Xueying feel at ease, and gradually fell asleep in such a pleasant magnetic wave.
After that, Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang got back together again. The first thing he did was to find a way to cheer up Liu Fangfang, so he actively discussed with Liu Fangfang about his future plans and work.
Li Xueying left Xing Mo for a few days to help her sister move.
Moving from the mountain to the mountain, it seems to others that Feng Shui may take turns, but only the two of them know what a good ending it is.
One time, she met Zhou Hui. When she saw her again, Zhou Hui was pregnant. She also looked at Li Li's slightly swollen belly, feeling very complicated.It seems that as a mother, those harsh words can no longer be said.Looking back now, was the malice she harbored towards Li Li at the beginning really just a heartache for her lack of self-pity and self-love?Not necessarily.Jealousy among women is the most terrifying, especially among close friends.Perhaps no one can tell how many people's hearts and stories are hidden in this small Hong Kong and mainland.
After Li Li also settled down, the two called on Inspector Xing Shihuai, Xing Shaofeng and Ji Yao one after another.
Since Li Que passed away, Li Xueying seldom sees Ji Yao again.In the next year or two, I didn't even meet him.Although he knew that Li Que's death shouldn't be blamed on ICAC or others, he couldn't be as unconcerned as he was back then. The second reason was that he had too many contacts with Ji Yao, which would cause trouble for both of them. He thought I can't even worry about myself anymore, let's stop worrying about other things.Now seeing Ji Yao with Li Li again, I have to sigh, he does look much older.
Ji Yao also visited Li Que in the cemetery by himself at other times.In fact, he would go there every year. He knew that it was not convenient for Li Xueying to see him, and he felt uncomfortable seeing him, so he deliberately avoided the day when the siblings went to the cemetery every time.Li Que's death used to be a worry for him to sleep and eat, but now that Li Xueying took the initiative to visit him, it made him feel much better.
In the past five years, I have lamented the long time countless times, but now Li Xueying and Li Li are standing by the Victoria Harbour, and suddenly feel that five years have passed so quickly.They acted as if nothing had changed, and as if nothing had changed.
"Sister, what are your plans for the future?"
"I just wanted to ask you too." Li Xueying smiled.
"I want to hear your plan first."
Li Xueying remembered that Xing Mo had told him before that it was fine to stay or leave, and it was up to him to make the decision.Speaking of it this way, if he was really asked to make a decision, how could he not consider Xing Mo at all?
Li Xueying thought of Liu Fangfang, Xing Shihuai, Xing Shaofeng, and Tong Qing, who was always weak and sick——
"Stay, I will stay." Li Xueying smiled, "If I have the chance, I would like to find a way to re-study the university that I did not attend."
"I'm afraid it's still difficult, right?" Li Li also smiled, brushing her hair that was blown by the wind behind her ears, "As for me, it seems that I have never been separated from you since you were born, and you have been with me since childhood. I spend more time with you than Dad."
"My sister..."
Li Li continued: "For me, your happiness is my only wish. Although I really want to stay, it's time to separate from you. Brother, I will probably leave Hong Kong. There are too many people and too many things here. I miss you, your sister is a sentimental woman, and this place is no longer suitable for me. I have considered Macau, mainland China, etc. If I really want to go, I should go farther away. I rescued a friend two years ago, and that is why we became friends. .He's in Chicago, I got in touch with him the other day, and he's leaving next year at the latest."
"Why so suddenly?" Li Xueying was surprised.
Li Li chuckled lightly: "It's not sudden. I still have a few months to prepare. I told him that I might make plans after giving birth to the baby. He will come to pick me up at that time. As for this decision, that's it. Not to mention sudden, I have been thinking about it for half a year, and now it is finally coming."
"That's right." Li Xueying exhaled after a while, and held Li Li's hand, "It's my only wish that you can be happy."
Li Xueying stayed at Li Li's house overnight, and he watched her fall asleep.The bright moon can be seen from the window of the bedroom, Li Li's lower abdomen is slightly protruding, and her closed eyes are still beautiful, as if the only thing that has been transformed by the years is beauty.
She is already a mother, at this moment, Li Xueying stared at her sister's face, but she saw the childishness and tranquility of her youth.
The next morning, before Li Li got up, Li Xueying had already prepared breakfast and left it on the table.
He pushed open the window.In the early morning, the sound of birds is crisp, and the clear sky is like a blue sky. The bay of Victoria Harbor flows quietly and slowly shimmers in the sun.In the distance, there are tall and low buildings intertwined with each other. The other side of Hong Kong has a new plan. I think it will have a new look soon, but the old district on the other side is still flowing. Too many stories come and go.The torrent of the times rolls by, like waves washing away many, and like waves leaving many crystal clear memories on the beach.
The breeze came suddenly and brushed away Li Xueying's hair, and he pulled down the brim of his hat to avoid the sudden strong sunlight that was not covered by clouds.He is still afraid of light, but he is no longer afraid of walking in the sun.Slowly, Li Xueying thought of her first half of her life, whether it was the scorching sun at the gate of the public school, or the cramped and dirty alleys, or the Nathan night when the lights were always on, or even on the gambling boat on the high seas full of desire. ...
Someone downstairs smashed his window with nutshells.
Li Xueying poked her head out, and saw Xing Mo half-riding on the motorcycle, wearing a wallet bunt, but he was wearing the relaxed look of a mature and restrained man.Hearing the sound, Xing Mo raised his hand to push his helmet, his handsome face was shrouded in the whitening sunlight.
Seeing the snow-white face of the young man upstairs, Xing Mo smiled, lit a cigarette casually, and held him with his eyes.
There was tenderness in his drooping eyes.
The author has something to say
This is the end of this story, thank you all, especially those who follow the article.I know this article is difficult to follow, the language is obscure, there is not much passion, and even the object is slow to get along.In the process of my writing, it was actually not as usual as before, and there was quite a bit of stagnation in the middle, please bear with me.I thought about choosing this subject several times in the middle, whether it was worth the difficulty of writing.When I closed my eyes, I saw Hong Kong with the first lights, heard the deeply affectionate Cantonese songs, and smelled the clean and salty wind of Victoria Harbour, I no longer doubted it.I have been partial to the atmosphere of that era for a long time, and I should write it with this sluggish pen once, maybe I can't achieve all the rigor and restoration, but I know that I have chased the wind, waded the river, and told it.I like everyone in the story, even though they may not be likable enough.These distant and vague memories are vague and difficult to capture. If they can leave even a shallow imprint on whoever has read them, it is worth it.See you in the next story.
"Yi Yi" "Black Under the Light" Tanabata episode
Today is rare, Yu Yi woke up earlier than Luo Lian.Luo Lian is usually very self-disciplined, but Yu Yi is sleepy, and usually sleeps until noon on weekends.
Yu Yiye liked to kick the quilt, so when Luo Lian just woke up in the morning, the first thing he did when he closed his eyes was to check if the quilt was covered.
Today, it was unexpectedly empty.
Luo Lian stood up and gradually became sober.After walking out of the bedroom, the faint sound of the piano came from the piano room - since the move, there are two other rooms in the new house, one is used as a darkroom and the other is used as a piano room.
It was a piece of music that Luo Lian had never heard before, and the melody was beautiful.
Like a sailor seduced by a siren, he pushed open the door silently.Yu Yi sat in front of the piano with a relaxed expression of enjoyment, his fingers fluttering, the music was smooth and natural, without any stagnation or stiffness.
Yu Yi closed his eyes, and when the familiar temperature and breath invaded from behind, the curvature of the corners of his lips began to widen, but his hand playing the piano didn't stop.
Luo Lian lowered his body, hugged him from behind, closed his eyes, kissed his neck, stroked his ears, and hugged his waist tenderly.
The melody was a little messed up, and every note trembled a little at the end.
Luo Lian just woke up with a hoarse voice: "What song? I haven't heard it yet."
"Do you like it?" Yu Yi finally couldn't bear the temptation, turned around to protect Luo Lian's neck, and kissed him.
"I like it." Luo Lian rubbed against his lips for a moment, "I like everything."
Yu Yi didn't go to work today, and said he wanted to go out and have breakfast with Luo Lian.Luo Lian followed him, and the two of them went out after tidying up.
On the way, Yu Yi smoothly tuned the radio to the music channel.Luo Lian didn't care at first, Yu Yi often listened to this channel on the road.
Later, the host's gentle voice came out from the radio: "...The following is the time for on-demand broadcasting. Today is Qixi Festival, I believe there are many friends who call the hotline. But today, before the on-demand broadcasting, we will play a special piece of music. It was written by a musician for his lover. A few days ago, he specially came to our radio station to arrange this matter. I have to say, I am very lover..."
The host continued to read: "He wants to say to his lover, dear Mr. Luo—"
Luo Lian listened quietly to the rest of the words.And that piece of music was played by Yu Yi this morning.Like running water, but full of infinite gurgling affection.
Without saying a word, Luo Lian parked the car on the side of the road.The two kiss.
After breakfast, the car drove in another direction, farther and farther away.Luo Lian's flight certificate was issued last month, and today he specially reserved a small plane.
Originally, a surprise was prepared for Yu Yi, but Yu Yi gave him romance first.
"This is not the way home." Yu Yi's heart was beating violently.
"If you don't go home, I will take you to fly."
Between the red lights, the two men intertwined their fingers.
When Li Xueying woke up, all she could see was endless blue.The singing of seabirds pierces the sky, setting off the long distance of the world.
He got up, suspected to be dreaming, his body was swaying, and his mind was not clear.
It took half a minute to wake up, it wasn't him dangling, it was the boat.This is a ship, and he is in the cabin, with floor-to-ceiling windows on three sides, which have been treated to isolate ultraviolet rays. The interior is dim, but the outdoor scenery is unobstructed.
He vaguely remembered last night, when Liu Fangfang celebrated his birthday, Xing Mo invited the Bafang brothers, what a grand occasion.Everyone was happy, he was infected without knowing it, and drank a lot of wine.
Follow... the body began to float, like walking among white clouds.
As far as I can see now, it is indeed clear water, blue sky and white clouds.There was no Xing Mo by his side, he put on a long gown, walked out of the bedroom, and stepped onto the deck.
Xing Mo was found on the deck, bustling around, bossing around, showing his quick-tempered side to the fullest: "This way, can you hurry up? You laid the tablecloth for an hour, and it hasn't been done yet? Flowers don't want roses, it's so tacky, change them." It’s like the one next to you! Crazy line, move to the room, how many times have you talked to him not to bask in the sun! OKOK, at most 10 minutes, everyone will return to their positions in the cabin, if you don’t hurry up, everyone will wake up!”
Li Xueying was still a little ignorant, but she also roughly understood the atmosphere, quietly went back to the room and lay down under the quilt without making a sound.
The sky is clear, but not sunny.Neither wind nor rain nor sunshine, Xing Mo must have checked in advance.
He closed his eyes, thanking fate for his kindness in his heart, feeling a little dazed with happiness.
Not long after, Li Xueying was dug out of the bed by Xing Mo.Hold kiss, hold sniff, hold sticky.
Li Xueying was half asleep and half awake, and smelled the sea breeze on him.Open your eyes, and cooperate with the re-enactment once you don't know where you are, surprised, happy, and moved.The surprise may have been missed, but the joy and touch are all sincere.
"Aying, today is Qixi Festival, do you know that?" Xing Moshou began to be dishonest again.
Li Xueying was kissed so softly by his waist, she gasped and said, "Go and touch my coat pocket to see if I know?"
Xing Mo dug out the pocket of his coat and found a palm-sized square velvet box. When it was opened, it was a Longines watch with a rough and beautiful style.
Li Xueying felt that Xing Mo's eyes lit up and put it on for him amusedly: "Sir Xing is a decent person now, how can he do without a good watch? After much deliberation, it is the only thing that can always accompany you from afar. around."
"I don't need a watch to accompany me, I want you to accompany me." Xing Mo looked straight at Li Xueying with fiery eyes.
"I'll be with you too, for a long time." Li Xueying stuffed the watch strap for him, lowered her head and kissed his wrist, "Happy Qixi Festival, my Xing Sheng. Thank you for bringing me to see the sea."
Xing Sheng, who has been through several times of wind and rain and life and death, was completely seduced by Li Xueying.
For a long time, he said: "The sea here is far away from Victoria Harbour. There are many seabirds and dolphins. If you are lucky, you can also see a large number of flying fish jumping and whales back. In the past, you were always floating on the high seas, but you never fell in love with it. Appreciate it. The sea and the sky are the same color. I feel distressed, so I brought you here today."
"But it's hard for me to see the sky, so you set up a semi-indoor room with floor-to-ceiling windows, as well as flowers and delicious food?" Li Xueying straightened up, took two steps on her knees and put her head against Xing Mo's who was sitting by the bed, with her palms on his chest, "You gave me a dream."
"As I said, it may not be impossible to see the sky forever, and there are many, many landscapes. I will show you through them slowly."
Xing Mo slowly covered Li Xueying's hand on his chest.The pulses, heartbeats, and drums of the two of them were beating.
And not far from where they were standing, Li Li was also holding a bouquet of flowers. She came alone, gently stroked her belly, looked at the two figures in the distance, and finally didn't bother her.
Knowing that the two had been away for a long time, Li Li walked out alone and placed the second bouquet of flowers in front of Li Que's tombstone.
"Father, my little brother has grown up, and there are people I like very much, and I really don't want to let go." Li Li's eyes were a little gentle, and after a while, there was a little pain mixed in, "But what about me? Did I do the right thing to keep this child? dad……"
Li Xueying and Xing Mo, who had gotten into the car and left, had already started the car from the side of the road. Li Xueying put on her seat belt, turned her head and glanced out the window in a hurry, but frowned.
Just as Xing Mo shifted gears, Li Xueying stretched out his hand to hold him down suddenly.
"how?"
But Li Xueying frowned and said nothing, just staring out the window.Xing Mo knew that something was wrong, but he followed his gaze and found nothing. Before he could ask again, Li Xueying had already pulled off his seat belt, got out of the car and walked in another direction.
Xing Mo immediately turned off the engine, got out of the car and hurried to catch up.He didn't know if Li Xueying noticed any danger, but Li Xueying's abnormality did make him very vigilant at this moment.
Take two more steps, Xing Mo has already discovered the clue without Li Xueying happening.Someone was hiding behind a big tree not far away, the sun was not too strong, but his shadow was still exposed under his feet, and his cuffs were also exposed from behind the rough tree trunk.
As the time approached, Li Xueying confirmed that the quick glance just now was by no means dazzled, and then some kind of terrible intuition attacked him, because the other party's behavior of avoiding them explained Li Xueying's delusion——
Li Xueying stopped suddenly when she was a few steps away from the tree trunk.Xing Mo didn't know what he saw just now, he frowned and wanted to stop him behind, and shouted at the person behind the tree to show his appearance.It's a pity that when the other party first heard his voice, his whole body trembled immediately, as if he had been subjected to some terrible torture.
Xing Mo was about to step forward, but Li Xueying grabbed his wrist.He was puzzled, and looking back, Li Xueying's face was covered with a shading object, so he couldn't see his expression clearly, but somehow it made people feel that he was like an enemy.
Her tongue was dry for a long time, and then she finally recovered her voice. Li Xueying even held Xing Mo's hand with sweat and trembling: "Liu Fangfang, is it you?"
The person behind the tree felt as if struck by lightning, and Li Xueying held Xing Mo's hand, which instantly made his veins swell.Hearing this name for a long time, Xing Mo didn't react for a moment. When he did, his muscles tightened inch by inch, and he rushed forward uncontrollably.
Xing Mo is not as good-tempered as Li Xueying, but Li Xueying seems to be trying her best to stop him this time. Xing Mo didn't see what Li Xueying saw, but he listened to him and stopped rampaging, but his eyes were red, and he didn't believe it at all. staring in that direction.
The silence spread strangely between the two parties, no matter whether it is the ancestors or the descendants, it is undoubtedly a kind of torture.Just like this, I persisted quietly, and finally recognized it as if I was gritting my teeth to make some kind of difficult decision, and walked slowly from behind the tree.
Xing Mo couldn't believe his eyes, he had fooled others with the trick of resurrecting the dead, and the most regretful thing was to let his A Yingping suffer, but he didn't expect that now that the roles were changed, such things would fall on him , I really know what it's like.
That face is no longer wrong, the eyebrows and eyes are faintly reminiscent of those years ago, maybe the name has been changed a few times, the unrestrained and carefree youthful spirit of the year has long since disappeared, and the rest of the skin is carefully examined, only the clothes are ragged and the face is full of vicissitudes. It is doubtful whether he is over forty.The most important thing is that the person who used to walk like flying, could not bear the loneliness, and always rushed to tell him the news, now only has one leg left.The empty trouser legs and a tripod are all the price of his walking.
Immediately, Li Xueying couldn't stand it any longer, she turned around and covered her mouth and nose to calm down.Many scenes followed. On the day when he saw Xing Mo for the last time, Liu Fangfang's movements were vigorous, and his whole body was full of masculine strength.
And now.
Xing Mo felt as if someone had smashed his brain, and he couldn't recover for a long time.After looking at him again, the person on the other side has lowered his head.Condensation between the eyebrows is depression, frustration, humbleness and pain.Many complicated looks flashed across his eyes, and he was quickly dismissed.
The sound of cicadas is amplified many times in this silent summer.
After a long time, the man seemed to have finally had enough torture, and almost swallowed: "Brother Mo."
"You...your legs..."
"It's okay, it's been five years, I'm used to it."
"Why didn't you come to see me?" Xing Mo gradually came back to his senses, with fire in his eyes and ice in his tone, "Knowing you and my brother for so many years, I searched the entire Repulse Bay but I didn't find your bones. Later, Luo Xiu's people said , I saw with my own eyes that someone pulled your bones back down the cliff, and even the gods of Da Luo couldn’t find them, so I slowly accepted this fact. These years, I thought you were dead! If you didn’t dodge on purpose, how could I have a little bit of death? Can’t even hear the wind?”
The night noise in the silent hut is particularly ear-piercing. There are laughter, cries and whispers. There are many truths in the world, but it is not easy to speak them out.The atmosphere among the three was a little depressing, Liu Fangfang and Xing Mo stood on each side, like a silent wrestling.Perhaps feeling annoyed at the situation of being unable to break the deadlock, Xing Mo leaned forward and pulled the window back.The thick glass blocks the hustle and bustle of the outside world, leaving only quiet breathing in the house for a while.
Rao Li Xueying was also shocked in her heart, and knew that this moment must be reserved for the two of them.When Xing Mo returned to Hong Kong after five years, it took even longer for the hurdle of mutual suspicion between them to be resolved.
"It's not that I don't trust you, it's that I can't trust myself anymore. If I knew you were alive, why wouldn't I look for you? You were the one whose heart was gouged out and thrown off the cliff!" Liu Fangfang said, losing his composure here, It took a long time to calm down, and said again, "I let you die in front of me. I am not worthy of brotherhood or Master Xin's kindness to me."
The hand hanging beside Xing Mo clenched it hard and then loosened it, the palm and the back of the hand turned red.Li Xueying followed from behind, inserted her five fingers into his five fingers, and put her palms together.Perhaps feeling his comfort, Xing Mo Zhou's tense anger relaxed, and then was replaced by an invisible self-blame and pain.
"Later, I got the news of your return to Hong Kong. I thought, no matter what the big boss becomes, I will meet him. But brother Mo is better than I imagined...much better. Busy with revenge, busy with getting rid of Feng Qing , and returned to the Xing family, how could I recognize you at that time! I have become such a ghost, and I can't bear to let you blame yourself? I thought about it several times, so be it, anyway, half of my life is over... Being a brother has this life or the next life, and I have nothing to do in this life, but it's better than letting you take care of an amputee for the rest of his life." Liu Fangfang finally said the words, and he seemed to have been aggrieved in his heart for many years. I couldn't hold back anymore, "I finally waited until you killed Feng Qing. I couldn't help but want to see you, but I followed all the way here. I never thought that you came to see 'me'..."
Maybe Liu Fangfang never thought that Xing Mo would never forget him in these years, and he was overwhelmed by the strong impact at this moment: "It's worth it. It's worth it to stay with Brother Mo for the first half of your life. I don't want glory and wealth in the second half of my life." , I just want to be safe. I thought I would have to bear the rest of my life if I had this knot in my heart. Seeing that you are living well, I can finally hold my chest up and be a man."
On the first night when he met Liu Fangfang, Xing Mo invited him to his house as a guest.The five years of torture and loss of life have not caused too much burden for Xing Mo. Liu Fangfang is willing to tidy up his outfit, and he is also willing to accompany him.But Liu Fangfang rejected Xing Mo's invitation and instead invited him to sit at his place.
Passing through the criss-crossing narrow streets, the oily smoke gradually increased.He is still working in a tea restaurant. There is a seat for him in the back kitchen. His legs and feet are handicapped and he cannot do any work. He has to help people wash the dishes day after day, and he is paid [-] yuan a month for labor.
Li Xueying thought about meeting with her boss to talk about working in a different environment, or treating Liu Fangfang more kindly and improving labor, but Liu Fangfang stopped her.He said that the boss is kind enough. Five years ago, he crawled to the highway with all his injuries and asked for help from kind people. That's when he met this boss.The boss paid for his medical expenses, and after he recovered, he worked here for five years.
When talking to Li Xueying and Xing Mo, Liu Fangfang huddled with them in a small corner of the crowded back kitchen, seemed extremely embarrassed, and invited them to talk to his bedroom on the second floor.Xing Mo watched Liu Fangfang from behind in silence, leaning on crutches to shuttle skillfully in a small space, avoiding obstacles, and saying hello to some people who passed by.He knew that the five years explained in just a few words were far less simple than what Liu Fangfang really experienced.
But who has really made it clear?
In the past five years, no matter if he was talking to Xing Mo, Li Xueying, Li Li, or Liu Fangfang, the outsiders would probably have nothing to say but only a few words.The simplicity of words is not because the story is simple, on the contrary, it is because it is too complicated to say or finish.
The two followed Liu Fangfang up to the second floor. The room was about five square meters, cramped and cramped, with a damp and musty smell.The daily necessities are all available. Although dilapidated, it can be regarded as tidy and tidy, which does not make people feel disgusted.
Xing Mo sat with Li Xueying for a few minutes, then Xing Mo patted Li Xueying on the shoulder, signaling to go downstairs to buy some beer.
After watching for another 10 minutes, he came back with nearly twenty cans of beer in his hand.
It must be that none of the three returned home that night.
Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang drank the most, and Li Xueying even went downstairs to buy one more drink.Liu Fangfang was so emotional that he held the metal can, drilled the thin metal sheet until it twisted and clicked, and cried bitterly and knelt on the ground, unable to help himself.Most of his narrations are lucky events in the past five years, which is also related to his nature.
Xing Mo was born with enough ginger (enough to grow), and Liu Fangfang was enough to be thunderous (enough loyalty), but everything in the world has a cause and effect, and people's words have more traces to follow.Under Liu Fangfang's bitter tears, as many times as "fortunately" he said, he must have experienced "unfortunately".
Only now did Li Xueying understand the sincerity of what Xing Mo said to him, "Fortunately, I didn't lose you".
Xing Mo's eyes were red, he turned his head away and drank up a can of beer, and smashed it against the wall with one hand, telling Liu Fangfang to get up and follow him to continue asking for a living.
But where else can I live?He is no longer his boss, and Liu Fangfang is no longer his pony, regardless of his status, vision or what he can do, everything has changed drastically.Li Xueying is still confused about where to go in the future, and Xing Mo must be more or less the same, how can he guide Liu Fangfang?
Later, Li Xueying couldn't help drinking too much, her head was heavy, and she was dizzy and said many truths that she didn't usually say. When Liu Fangfang went to the bathroom, he was pushed against the wall by Xing Mo and kissed.
In the middle of the night, Li Xueying curled up in a corner of the bed and fell asleep, but Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang passed away from alcohol, and the two gradually became sober.When he felt drowsy, he heard Xing Mo's deep and deliberately subdued voice, describing to Liu Fangfang his life during those five years, and his plan after returning to Hong Kong, and the process of Feng Qing's final admission to Shanshan.That voice sounded too plain and straightforward, without much emotion, but it inexplicably made Li Xueying feel at ease, and gradually fell asleep in such a pleasant magnetic wave.
After that, Xing Mo and Liu Fangfang got back together again. The first thing he did was to find a way to cheer up Liu Fangfang, so he actively discussed with Liu Fangfang about his future plans and work.
Li Xueying left Xing Mo for a few days to help her sister move.
Moving from the mountain to the mountain, it seems to others that Feng Shui may take turns, but only the two of them know what a good ending it is.
One time, she met Zhou Hui. When she saw her again, Zhou Hui was pregnant. She also looked at Li Li's slightly swollen belly, feeling very complicated.It seems that as a mother, those harsh words can no longer be said.Looking back now, was the malice she harbored towards Li Li at the beginning really just a heartache for her lack of self-pity and self-love?Not necessarily.Jealousy among women is the most terrifying, especially among close friends.Perhaps no one can tell how many people's hearts and stories are hidden in this small Hong Kong and mainland.
After Li Li also settled down, the two called on Inspector Xing Shihuai, Xing Shaofeng and Ji Yao one after another.
Since Li Que passed away, Li Xueying seldom sees Ji Yao again.In the next year or two, I didn't even meet him.Although he knew that Li Que's death shouldn't be blamed on ICAC or others, he couldn't be as unconcerned as he was back then. The second reason was that he had too many contacts with Ji Yao, which would cause trouble for both of them. He thought I can't even worry about myself anymore, let's stop worrying about other things.Now seeing Ji Yao with Li Li again, I have to sigh, he does look much older.
Ji Yao also visited Li Que in the cemetery by himself at other times.In fact, he would go there every year. He knew that it was not convenient for Li Xueying to see him, and he felt uncomfortable seeing him, so he deliberately avoided the day when the siblings went to the cemetery every time.Li Que's death used to be a worry for him to sleep and eat, but now that Li Xueying took the initiative to visit him, it made him feel much better.
In the past five years, I have lamented the long time countless times, but now Li Xueying and Li Li are standing by the Victoria Harbour, and suddenly feel that five years have passed so quickly.They acted as if nothing had changed, and as if nothing had changed.
"Sister, what are your plans for the future?"
"I just wanted to ask you too." Li Xueying smiled.
"I want to hear your plan first."
Li Xueying remembered that Xing Mo had told him before that it was fine to stay or leave, and it was up to him to make the decision.Speaking of it this way, if he was really asked to make a decision, how could he not consider Xing Mo at all?
Li Xueying thought of Liu Fangfang, Xing Shihuai, Xing Shaofeng, and Tong Qing, who was always weak and sick——
"Stay, I will stay." Li Xueying smiled, "If I have the chance, I would like to find a way to re-study the university that I did not attend."
"I'm afraid it's still difficult, right?" Li Li also smiled, brushing her hair that was blown by the wind behind her ears, "As for me, it seems that I have never been separated from you since you were born, and you have been with me since childhood. I spend more time with you than Dad."
"My sister..."
Li Li continued: "For me, your happiness is my only wish. Although I really want to stay, it's time to separate from you. Brother, I will probably leave Hong Kong. There are too many people and too many things here. I miss you, your sister is a sentimental woman, and this place is no longer suitable for me. I have considered Macau, mainland China, etc. If I really want to go, I should go farther away. I rescued a friend two years ago, and that is why we became friends. .He's in Chicago, I got in touch with him the other day, and he's leaving next year at the latest."
"Why so suddenly?" Li Xueying was surprised.
Li Li chuckled lightly: "It's not sudden. I still have a few months to prepare. I told him that I might make plans after giving birth to the baby. He will come to pick me up at that time. As for this decision, that's it. Not to mention sudden, I have been thinking about it for half a year, and now it is finally coming."
"That's right." Li Xueying exhaled after a while, and held Li Li's hand, "It's my only wish that you can be happy."
Li Xueying stayed at Li Li's house overnight, and he watched her fall asleep.The bright moon can be seen from the window of the bedroom, Li Li's lower abdomen is slightly protruding, and her closed eyes are still beautiful, as if the only thing that has been transformed by the years is beauty.
She is already a mother, at this moment, Li Xueying stared at her sister's face, but she saw the childishness and tranquility of her youth.
The next morning, before Li Li got up, Li Xueying had already prepared breakfast and left it on the table.
He pushed open the window.In the early morning, the sound of birds is crisp, and the clear sky is like a blue sky. The bay of Victoria Harbor flows quietly and slowly shimmers in the sun.In the distance, there are tall and low buildings intertwined with each other. The other side of Hong Kong has a new plan. I think it will have a new look soon, but the old district on the other side is still flowing. Too many stories come and go.The torrent of the times rolls by, like waves washing away many, and like waves leaving many crystal clear memories on the beach.
The breeze came suddenly and brushed away Li Xueying's hair, and he pulled down the brim of his hat to avoid the sudden strong sunlight that was not covered by clouds.He is still afraid of light, but he is no longer afraid of walking in the sun.Slowly, Li Xueying thought of her first half of her life, whether it was the scorching sun at the gate of the public school, or the cramped and dirty alleys, or the Nathan night when the lights were always on, or even on the gambling boat on the high seas full of desire. ...
Someone downstairs smashed his window with nutshells.
Li Xueying poked her head out, and saw Xing Mo half-riding on the motorcycle, wearing a wallet bunt, but he was wearing the relaxed look of a mature and restrained man.Hearing the sound, Xing Mo raised his hand to push his helmet, his handsome face was shrouded in the whitening sunlight.
Seeing the snow-white face of the young man upstairs, Xing Mo smiled, lit a cigarette casually, and held him with his eyes.
There was tenderness in his drooping eyes.
The author has something to say
This is the end of this story, thank you all, especially those who follow the article.I know this article is difficult to follow, the language is obscure, there is not much passion, and even the object is slow to get along.In the process of my writing, it was actually not as usual as before, and there was quite a bit of stagnation in the middle, please bear with me.I thought about choosing this subject several times in the middle, whether it was worth the difficulty of writing.When I closed my eyes, I saw Hong Kong with the first lights, heard the deeply affectionate Cantonese songs, and smelled the clean and salty wind of Victoria Harbour, I no longer doubted it.I have been partial to the atmosphere of that era for a long time, and I should write it with this sluggish pen once, maybe I can't achieve all the rigor and restoration, but I know that I have chased the wind, waded the river, and told it.I like everyone in the story, even though they may not be likable enough.These distant and vague memories are vague and difficult to capture. If they can leave even a shallow imprint on whoever has read them, it is worth it.See you in the next story.
"Yi Yi" "Black Under the Light" Tanabata episode
Today is rare, Yu Yi woke up earlier than Luo Lian.Luo Lian is usually very self-disciplined, but Yu Yi is sleepy, and usually sleeps until noon on weekends.
Yu Yiye liked to kick the quilt, so when Luo Lian just woke up in the morning, the first thing he did when he closed his eyes was to check if the quilt was covered.
Today, it was unexpectedly empty.
Luo Lian stood up and gradually became sober.After walking out of the bedroom, the faint sound of the piano came from the piano room - since the move, there are two other rooms in the new house, one is used as a darkroom and the other is used as a piano room.
It was a piece of music that Luo Lian had never heard before, and the melody was beautiful.
Like a sailor seduced by a siren, he pushed open the door silently.Yu Yi sat in front of the piano with a relaxed expression of enjoyment, his fingers fluttering, the music was smooth and natural, without any stagnation or stiffness.
Yu Yi closed his eyes, and when the familiar temperature and breath invaded from behind, the curvature of the corners of his lips began to widen, but his hand playing the piano didn't stop.
Luo Lian lowered his body, hugged him from behind, closed his eyes, kissed his neck, stroked his ears, and hugged his waist tenderly.
The melody was a little messed up, and every note trembled a little at the end.
Luo Lian just woke up with a hoarse voice: "What song? I haven't heard it yet."
"Do you like it?" Yu Yi finally couldn't bear the temptation, turned around to protect Luo Lian's neck, and kissed him.
"I like it." Luo Lian rubbed against his lips for a moment, "I like everything."
Yu Yi didn't go to work today, and said he wanted to go out and have breakfast with Luo Lian.Luo Lian followed him, and the two of them went out after tidying up.
On the way, Yu Yi smoothly tuned the radio to the music channel.Luo Lian didn't care at first, Yu Yi often listened to this channel on the road.
Later, the host's gentle voice came out from the radio: "...The following is the time for on-demand broadcasting. Today is Qixi Festival, I believe there are many friends who call the hotline. But today, before the on-demand broadcasting, we will play a special piece of music. It was written by a musician for his lover. A few days ago, he specially came to our radio station to arrange this matter. I have to say, I am very lover..."
The host continued to read: "He wants to say to his lover, dear Mr. Luo—"
Luo Lian listened quietly to the rest of the words.And that piece of music was played by Yu Yi this morning.Like running water, but full of infinite gurgling affection.
Without saying a word, Luo Lian parked the car on the side of the road.The two kiss.
After breakfast, the car drove in another direction, farther and farther away.Luo Lian's flight certificate was issued last month, and today he specially reserved a small plane.
Originally, a surprise was prepared for Yu Yi, but Yu Yi gave him romance first.
"This is not the way home." Yu Yi's heart was beating violently.
"If you don't go home, I will take you to fly."
Between the red lights, the two men intertwined their fingers.
When Li Xueying woke up, all she could see was endless blue.The singing of seabirds pierces the sky, setting off the long distance of the world.
He got up, suspected to be dreaming, his body was swaying, and his mind was not clear.
It took half a minute to wake up, it wasn't him dangling, it was the boat.This is a ship, and he is in the cabin, with floor-to-ceiling windows on three sides, which have been treated to isolate ultraviolet rays. The interior is dim, but the outdoor scenery is unobstructed.
He vaguely remembered last night, when Liu Fangfang celebrated his birthday, Xing Mo invited the Bafang brothers, what a grand occasion.Everyone was happy, he was infected without knowing it, and drank a lot of wine.
Follow... the body began to float, like walking among white clouds.
As far as I can see now, it is indeed clear water, blue sky and white clouds.There was no Xing Mo by his side, he put on a long gown, walked out of the bedroom, and stepped onto the deck.
Xing Mo was found on the deck, bustling around, bossing around, showing his quick-tempered side to the fullest: "This way, can you hurry up? You laid the tablecloth for an hour, and it hasn't been done yet? Flowers don't want roses, it's so tacky, change them." It’s like the one next to you! Crazy line, move to the room, how many times have you talked to him not to bask in the sun! OKOK, at most 10 minutes, everyone will return to their positions in the cabin, if you don’t hurry up, everyone will wake up!”
Li Xueying was still a little ignorant, but she also roughly understood the atmosphere, quietly went back to the room and lay down under the quilt without making a sound.
The sky is clear, but not sunny.Neither wind nor rain nor sunshine, Xing Mo must have checked in advance.
He closed his eyes, thanking fate for his kindness in his heart, feeling a little dazed with happiness.
Not long after, Li Xueying was dug out of the bed by Xing Mo.Hold kiss, hold sniff, hold sticky.
Li Xueying was half asleep and half awake, and smelled the sea breeze on him.Open your eyes, and cooperate with the re-enactment once you don't know where you are, surprised, happy, and moved.The surprise may have been missed, but the joy and touch are all sincere.
"Aying, today is Qixi Festival, do you know that?" Xing Moshou began to be dishonest again.
Li Xueying was kissed so softly by his waist, she gasped and said, "Go and touch my coat pocket to see if I know?"
Xing Mo dug out the pocket of his coat and found a palm-sized square velvet box. When it was opened, it was a Longines watch with a rough and beautiful style.
Li Xueying felt that Xing Mo's eyes lit up and put it on for him amusedly: "Sir Xing is a decent person now, how can he do without a good watch? After much deliberation, it is the only thing that can always accompany you from afar. around."
"I don't need a watch to accompany me, I want you to accompany me." Xing Mo looked straight at Li Xueying with fiery eyes.
"I'll be with you too, for a long time." Li Xueying stuffed the watch strap for him, lowered her head and kissed his wrist, "Happy Qixi Festival, my Xing Sheng. Thank you for bringing me to see the sea."
Xing Sheng, who has been through several times of wind and rain and life and death, was completely seduced by Li Xueying.
For a long time, he said: "The sea here is far away from Victoria Harbour. There are many seabirds and dolphins. If you are lucky, you can also see a large number of flying fish jumping and whales back. In the past, you were always floating on the high seas, but you never fell in love with it. Appreciate it. The sea and the sky are the same color. I feel distressed, so I brought you here today."
"But it's hard for me to see the sky, so you set up a semi-indoor room with floor-to-ceiling windows, as well as flowers and delicious food?" Li Xueying straightened up, took two steps on her knees and put her head against Xing Mo's who was sitting by the bed, with her palms on his chest, "You gave me a dream."
"As I said, it may not be impossible to see the sky forever, and there are many, many landscapes. I will show you through them slowly."
Xing Mo slowly covered Li Xueying's hand on his chest.The pulses, heartbeats, and drums of the two of them were beating.
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