his substitute

But if you can't let go, can you treat what happened as if it never happened, and be together without any grievances?

Chi Yu asked himself, it was a fact that he couldn't let go of Xun Musheng, this man gave him a tenderness that he had never felt before, whether it was in normal relationships or in romantic affairs, he was considerate in every possible way.Compared with the care he received from Xun Musheng, the bleak situation when the truth was revealed seemed to be wiped out.

But if he couldn't let go of Xun Musheng, how could he let go of Wen Yun?

Chi Yu sighed secretly, knowing that it was the same with Xun Musheng.

For the two of them, Wen Yun was an insurmountable mountain, standing there majestically and motionlessly, an existence that could not be ignored.

None of them ever got Wen Yun.Because he couldn't get it, he fell into years of imagining, while Xun Musheng kept looking for Wen Yun's replacement in the vast crowd.They all regarded each other as Wen Yun's substitute, and they all became Wen Yun's substitute.

This absurdity cannot be erased, at least not yet.

As soon as Chi Yu thought that Xun Musheng's meticulous care was not for himself, and that he first accepted it because he saw the shadow of an old friend in Xun Musheng, his heart sank quietly into the calm sea of ​​ice.

Even today, he can't face Xun Musheng calmly, and even wonders whether his attachment to Xun Musheng still hides his attachment to Wen Yun.

As for others, Xun Musheng couldn't let go of him, did he have similar thoughts?

It's really strange that people can hold another person in their hearts while they can't let go of one person.It is often said in TV dramas that a couple loves to death, once they have each other in their hearts, they can no longer tolerate others.

Chi Yu sighed inwardly, if the reality can be like this, then everyone's life can be like a fairy tale.

Xun Musheng made the decision and ordered the shop's signature desserts and tea.It didn't take long for the waiter to serve the meal. Chi Yu saw that it was really as Li Xiao said, as exquisite as a work of art.

Xun Musheng divided the snacks and handed the spoon to Chi Yu.When Chi Yu took it, he touched Xun Musheng's hand, and both of them paused.

Chi Yu hurriedly shrank back, Xun Musheng put the spoon on his plate, and began to talk about nothing, introducing a table of delicacies jerky.

Chi Yu raised his eyes, and his eyes fell on Xun Musheng's eyebrows, the corners of the eyes, the bridge of the nose, and the chin...Xun Musheng was pampered and always meticulous in appearance, but now he didn't even shave his beard clean, his lips were a little peeled, and he was very tired right now obvious.

Looking at it, Chi Yu couldn't help feeling sad.Xun Musheng hurt him, and he also deceived Xun Musheng.Although they both regarded each other as substitutes, Xun Musheng didn't know about it at first, but he deliberately used Xun Musheng.

This muddled bad debt is probably not clear.

But how many emotional accounts in the world can be calculated clearly and clearly?

Chi Yu exhaled, forced to ask easily, "What's wrong with your hand?"

Xun Musheng's fingers stiffened slightly, "A while ago, I was driving carelessly and collided with another car."

"When did this happen?"

"Last month." Xun Musheng smiled, "It's okay, just remove the plaster and it will be fine."

Chi Yu's eyes moved slightly, "You..."

you lost weight.

Also haggard.

"Huh?" Xun Musheng asked, "What?"

Chi Yu swallowed the words that were on his lips, and forced a smile, "It's nothing, the desserts here are pretty good."

Xun Musheng lowered his eyes, and after a while, his voice became calmer, "If you like it, pack it and take it home."

Looking at the beautiful dinner plate, Chi Yu raised the corners of his lips and said, "Okay."

The two tacitly did not mention the reason for this "encounter", and they were tacit to each other.He didn't say any unnecessary or caring or ambiguous words, and the name "Wen Yun" became a kind of taboo, which was deeply suppressed in his heart, and even the agarwood wood beads became an existence that could not be mentioned.

It was completely dark, the waiter brought the packed snacks, Xun Musheng held it in his left hand, and asked tentatively, "Can I take you home?"

Chi Yu lowered his head and hesitated, Xun Musheng looked at his long eyes and slightly frowning brows, his heart was soft, he wanted to hug him immediately, but he was afraid of doing too much and making him angry.

The atmosphere was so good just now, Xun Musheng couldn't bear to spoil it.

"Thank you." Chi Yu smiled politely, "But I don't live in the place I used to be..."

"In Yuanfei Community, I know." Xun Musheng said eagerly, "On the way!"

I was afraid that if I spoke too slowly, Chi Yu would not take his car.

Chi Yu opened his mouth half in surprise, but after thinking about it, he felt that it was not surprising that he knew where he lived now.

"It's not easy to take a taxi here." Xun Musheng said again: "Put this snack in the refrigerator immediately, or it will melt."

Chi Yu looked at the dim sum, the little thing was wrapped in an ice pack, it didn't matter if it didn't go into the refrigerator overnight.When Xun Musheng said this, he just wanted to give him a ride.

A corner of my heart melted silently like a snack.Chi Yu nodded, "Then I will trouble you."

When he said this, he deliberately avoided Xun Musheng's eyes, and missed the sudden light in his eyes.

When Wang Ke saw Chi Yu, his eyes were straightened, never expecting that the boss brought this back.

It was inconvenient for Xun Musheng to open the door as he was carrying some snacks.Wang Ke was sitting in the driver's seat again, just dumbfounded.Chi Yu stood aside, a little embarrassed, and asked something that shouldn't be asked - "Are you sitting in the front or the back?"

Xun Musheng definitely had no reason to sit in the front, and was worried that Chi Yu would go to sit in the front, so he quickly said, "There is something on the co-pilot, let's all sit in the back."

Chi Yu opened the back seat door, let Xun Musheng in first, and said softly, "Okay."

Wang Ke looked at the co-pilot, but there was nothing on it.

When the car arrived at Yuanfei Community, Xun Musheng also got out of the car, and walked with Chi Yu to the gate, and then handed over the snacks.

Chi Yu said, "Thank you."

Xun Musheng really wanted to follow, and just as he was about to speak, Chi Yu said again, "Mr. Xun, rest early after you go back."

Xun Musheng's Adam's apple twitched, and he called out to Chi Yu from a few steps away: "Can I come and sit at your work place in the future?"

Chi Yu stopped, but didn't turn around.

"The dessert shop is separated by glass, and the angle is not good. If you go to the drink consumption area, I won't be able to see you." Xun Musheng was almost at the bottom of the boat, and his voice trembled: "Can I go to the bookstore to see you? "

The night is thick, in the late summer and early autumn, the cicadas have disappeared.A minute and a second was stretched, and in just a few seconds, it was like a round of four seasons for both of them.

"The people who come to the bookstore are all customers." Chi Yu said, "I'm just an ordinary clerk, and I'm not qualified to drive away customers who read books."

Under the street lights, the figures of the two were elongated.

A few days later, Chi Yu went to middle school, and as soon as he arrived at the bookstore, he saw Xun Musheng standing next to the best-selling booth.

Xun Musheng was facing the gate, holding a heavy book in his left hand, but his eyes were not on the pages of the book at all, he looked around for a while, and looked towards the gate for a while.

The bookstore has two doors, one is the door for welcoming customers, and the other is the work door for employees to enter and exit.Chi Yu usually walked through the gate, but today he walked through the work gate and did not run into Xun Musheng directly.

Back home that night, he suffered from insomnia until midnight, thinking a lot, his thoughts were complicated, and the more he thought about it, the more confused he became.

I can't draw any conclusions that can convince myself, so I can only take one step at a time.

Acquiescing to Xun Musheng's approach, I don't know whether it is for himself or for the other party's salvation.

"That guest has been standing there for a long time." The colleague said, "It's really strange."

Chi Yu said, "You don't see many people reading books standing up?"

"He's different." A colleague said, "He doesn't look like a 'cooker'. If he really wants to, he should buy a cup of coffee and go to the shopping area."

Chi Yu changed into her work clothes and walked towards the best-selling booth.

Where did Xun Musheng come to "crush the book", he clearly knew that he was in charge of the best-selling booth, so he stood there waiting for him.

When he got closer, he saw Xun Musheng's left hand was shaking slightly.

The book is too heavy, the injury of the left hand is not healed, and the right hand can't help. After holding it for a long time, naturally it can't bear it.

"Here we come." Chi Yu calmed down without showing any surprise, and the smile on her lips even carried a hint of relaxation.

But Xun Musheng became nervous, the book fell from his hand, and hit the ground with a "poof".

The corner of the book was knocked down.

Xun Musheng bent down to pick it up, looked at the corner of the book, a little embarrassed, "I'll buy this book later."

"The ones that were opened were all sample books, which were originally intended for customers to read." Chi Yu saw that Xun Musheng's left hand was still shaking, and felt a little sour in his heart - he had suffered a similar injury before, so he couldn't use his strength to pick up anything. The feeling of shaking after a long time is too familiar.

Xun Musheng held the book and thought for a while, "Then I'll buy an unopened one."

"Do you like reading this kind of books?" Chi Yu asked.

There are 6 best-selling booths in the store, and the outermost one displays youth novels and comics for middle school students.Xun Musheng just wanted to find a place with the best view, picked it up casually, and was not focused on the book, he didn't even notice that it was a fantasy court story with a pretty princess on the cover.

As soon as Chi Yu reminded him, Xun Musheng's face immediately turned pale, and he hurriedly put the book back, "I, I took it by mistake..."

This lie was outrageous, Chi Yu felt relieved and couldn't help laughing.

Xun Musheng was stunned, and wanted to explain, but felt that there was no need to explain.

"Come this way." Chi Yu pointed to the best-selling booth on the other side, the smile on his lips did not disappear, "You are blocking them from reading."

Xun Musheng saw that there were seven or eight children crowded on the other side of the booth where he was standing, and they were all sitting on the ground with books in their hands. Seeing him looking over, they all covered their faces with books.

Only then did I realize that I had robbed these children of their positions.

Chi Yu said in a low voice: "You are an adult, they dare not sit next to you, so they all squeezed together."

Xun Musheng couldn't think of words: "Are you laughing at me?"

After finishing speaking, both of them were startled.

Xun Musheng wanted to make amends, "I'm just kidding."

Chi Yu didn't pick up on this, "My hand was just right at the time, and it swelled after holding heavy objects for a long time. Your left hand is also about to heal, so don't hold it. There are sofas and tea tables over there, and there are few people and it is quiet. The only downside is that it costs money."

Xun Musheng casually picked up two books, "Then I'll go and sit down."

"Yeah." Chi Yu straightened her apron, "I have some books to read."

So I won't come to accompany you.

Xun Musheng understood, but turned around after taking a few steps, "Chi..."

No one here knew Chi Yu's real name, and Xun Musheng didn't want to call him another name, so he hesitated for a moment and frowned.

Chi Yu watched his expression and knew what he was struggling with.

The name "Wen Yun" was like a cold arrow that came from time to time, forcing both of them to feel uncomfortable.

"Can you make coffee?" Xun Musheng changed his name to "you" and looked at Chi Yu with burning eyes.

Chi Yu shook her head, "We have a clear division of labor here. The barista is the barista, and the librarian is the librarian."

As he spoke, he raised the sign on his chest, "I am a librarian."

"That's it." A gleam of disappointment flashed across Xun Musheng's eyes, and he smiled quickly and thoughtfully, "Then I'll go there, can I wait for you to get off work?"

Chi Yu hesitated for a few seconds, Xun Musheng thought he was going to refuse, and was about to help each other, but he said: "After get off work, I can use the tools at the bar to make myself a cup of coffee."

Xun Musheng's pupils suddenly darkened.

Chi Yuwen said softly, "It's okay to get you a cup."