when you look at me

Yuan Yiping withdrew his gaze and looked at Wang Ying, who was drunk and confused: "You guys play, I'll sit over there for a while."

"Hey——" Wang Ying grabbed his arm and said softly: "You don't like this place? Then let me take you to clean up?" She looked at Yuan Yiping with winking eyes, with the kiss on her lips The watery light left by time.

"No need," Yuan Yiping flicked her hand lightly: "Go ahead and play, I'm leaving."

Wang Ying smiled, and wisely did not keep her.

At this moment, the bar was crowded with people, Yuan Yiping pushed aside the crowd and walked to the corner where Chen Shuo was sitting just now.He sat down and let out a long breath.

Regret came so quickly.

He regretted the moment he kissed Wang Ying's lips 2 minutes ago, not because Chen Shuo watched, but because kissing Wang Ying turned him into another kind of person he hated—he suddenly After realizing it, he was actually doing something similar to Chen Shuo.

Do intimate things with strangers.

Thinking of this, Yuan Yiping was almost disgusted, and the sweet taste on Wang Ying's lips also turned into a greasy feeling.

Yuan Yiping wiped his mouth vigorously, then thought again, Chen Shuo left, did he leave out of anger?If it pissed him off, that was fine.

"Why are you here?" At this time, a man in a white shirt walked over slowly, with a smile that was not a smile: "Didn't you flirt with girls?"

Yuan Yiping squinted his eyes for a long time before asking in surprise, "Tang Qingyu?"

"Didn't recognize it," Tang Qingyu laughed loudly, "Chen Shuo was also taken aback just now."

"……Why are you here?"

"I'm the chef here, oh—" Tang Qingyu sat down opposite Yuan Yiping: "I used to be."

The last time Yuan Yiping met Tang Qingyu was at the dinner party between Liang and Yi Wangyuan. At that time, Wang Yuan was a standard fat man in every sense, with a round belly and a round face like a fluffy egg pancake.As for Tang Qingyu in front of him, with a white shirt tucked into his belt, and a square face with corners and corners, although he could not be said to be thin, he was definitely not the fat man he was before.

"You two are really good at it," Tang Qingyu said with a smile, crossing his arms, "It's been so many years, you can really toss."

Yuan Yiping didn't know what to say, and stared at the glass in front of him silently.

There was half a glass of light blue wine in the glass, maybe Chen Shuo didn't finish it.He suddenly thought, during the time when Chen Shuo was driven away by him with the reason that "I made an agreement with my roommate not to keep anyone overnight", would Chen Shuo just sit here, drinking slowly by himself?

"I don't know what he wants to do," Yuan Yiping said earnestly, "We haven't met each other for five years. If we hadn't met in Changsha in May, maybe in the next five, ten, or decades, we We will never meet again, do you understand?"

"Come on," Tang Qingyu waved his hand: "You are - 27, right? How many five years and ten years do you think you can have in this life? To put it so lightly. Let me tell you, Chen Shuo just couldn't bear it." Stop it, you two haven't seen each other for five years, he has endured it for five years, he can't bear it anymore."

"Forbearance?" Yuan Yiping sneered: "What you mean by forbearance is constantly finding someone to sleep with? Or sweeping my brother's grave in the morning and finding someone to open a room at night?"

"Alas..." Tang Qingyu turned his face away and coughed twice: "Why do you seize this matter to make things difficult for you? It's enough for him to remain loyal after he's with you."

Yuan Yiping shook his head: "You don't understand."

Tang Qingyu looked at Yuan Yiping and said nothing.

Yuan Yiping knew that he must be thinking, why is a big man so hypocritical, Chen Shuo just slept with a few more people.Perhaps what Tang Qingyu didn't understand was how much suffering they had experienced in their lives.

Yuan Yiping believed that the death of Chen Shuo and Yuan Yizhi was a great suffering, which came unexpectedly and at the same time, it could not be resisted.At that time, they were all in pain, helpless, and collapsed.

However, Chen Shuo soon got out of this suffering and started his new life of sensuality.Yuan Yiping was left where he was, only feeling that he was the 17-year-old boy who was squatting in the corner of the hospital corridor and crying secretly. He was trapped in that kind of pain, helplessness and collapse, and he hadn't recovered for ten years.

Therefore, even though Yuan Yizhi introduced Chen Shuo to him at the draft beer stand ten years ago, Chen Shuo was special to him; even though now Chen Shuo quit his job for him and came out crazy. Begged for his tenderness and affection; but, no.

No.

He couldn't understand Chen Shuo.Understanding is harder than loving.

"Why are you so spineless!" Tang Qingyu suddenly scolded with a smile.

Yuan Yiping raised his head, and saw Chen Shuo standing a few steps away from him.With his shoulders slumped, he also looked at Yuan Yiping, but his eyes were a little dodged.

He actually came back.

Yuan Yiping stood up abruptly.

Chen Shuo seemed to be taken aback by Yuan Yiping. He didn't go any further. He just stood there and smiled softly at Yuan Yiping, and said in a low voice, "Yiping, have you...have you had dinner? Let's go eat something ?” Cautiously mixed with obvious flattery and embarrassment.

Tang Qingyu hated iron but steel: "Chen Shuo! Can you be a little bit promising!"

"... let's go," Yuan Yiping said, "go to eat."

Tang Qingyu smiled and said, "Don't just eat, both of you, do something else after eating..."

Opening the door and walking out of the bar, the air suddenly became bitter.The autumn wind was coming, Yuan Yiping turned his head and saw Chen Shuo was wearing a long-sleeved T-shirt, he didn't know if it was cold or not.

"Go and drink some soup." Yuan Yiping casually pointed to the mutton restaurant not far away.

"Well, good." There was a smile in Chen Shuo's eyes.

The two entered the shop, and Yuan Yiping ordered a large pot of stewed mutton.After a while, the mutton was served, and the two ate the meat and drank the soup, and neither of them spoke for a while.

Yuan Yiping didn't speak until the milky white heat emitted by the mutton soup gradually thinned out, and said, "You have to go to work anyway, it's impossible to be exhausted every day."

Chen Shuo nodded.

"Also, didn't your dad hurt his leg? You left your parents in Gancheng and ran out by yourself. You don't care about them?"

"I……"

"Chen Shuo," Yuan Yiping felt that he was very calm and gentle: "Let's have a good talk."

Chen Shuo pursed his lips: "Huh?"

"First, I don't want to be with you, I don't want to, understand? I think this should be made clear first. Second, it's meaningless for you to waste time with me here, and it will also affect your life ,right."

Chen Shuo was taken aback, and hurriedly said, "Give me a chance, let's try it out, we'll be evened out, we—"

"No need," Yuan Yiping interrupted him: "And I don't want to try with you, Chen Shuo, I don't like to 'try' casually."

"...I already know that I was wrong," Chen Shuo was silent for a few seconds, and said, "The things I did before were wrong...I already know, I admit it. I will not go out with others again...you can ?"

"But I can't forgive you. Chen Shuo, you can understand that I can't forgive you because of Yuan Yizhi, but Yuan Yizhi is my brother, and this cannot be changed."

After saying these words, Yuan Yiping suddenly felt relieved.It was impossible for him to forgive Chen Shuo, although at certain moments—like the moment when Chen Shuo went back to the bar to find him just now—he really wanted to hug Chen Shuo.

"I have to find a reason, maybe it's the wrong timing." Yuan Yiping smiled: "If you weren't with my brother ten years ago, the two of us knew each other first, and we might be able to get together. Chen Shuo, the timing is wrong , this matter is the same as my brother's illness, it is fate. Forget it."

Chen Shuo lowered his eyes, "...Yuan Yizhi has already left, and he will never come back."

Yuan Yiping knew what he meant, he wanted to say, is it because of a person who will never come back, that the lives of the two of them should be involved?

"Yes, my brother will never come back," Yuan Yiping said in a low voice, "so I can never accept you."