catch the dream

"I don't care about my elder sister's opposition to subsidize Lin Xun." Liang Jinmin said, "At that time, I firmly believed that this was my soul mate in my life. Every day I was with him, I felt that the bright sun was shining on my heart. Soul, when I think about it now, it’s so beautiful. Yu Hao, you said I didn’t understand it, I really didn’t understand it, or from the bottom of my heart, I was always unwilling to admit my cowardice. It was this cowardice that made me fall into In the endless cycle of life tragedies..."

The living room was silent, Yu Hao didn't want to cry, but couldn't help crying. He could put himself in his shoes and feel that Liang Jinmin loved Lin Xun so much at that time, but thinking of her now, he felt extremely sad.

Chen Yekai's eyes were also red, and he could hear a faint sound of breathing.

Zhou Sheng looked at Yu Hao, Liang Jinmin took out a piece of paper, handed it to Yu Hao, smiled and said, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that."

"No." Yu Hao said hastily, "I'm sorry, Teacher Liang, my words are too presumptuous."

Liang Jinmin said: "Come, have some chocolate." He took out high-end chocolate from the coffee table and distributed it to them.

"Lin Xun and I supported each other, left home, and went to San Francisco to study, as stated in our wedding vows, whether healthy or sick, poor or rich, young or beautiful or old, we will always be close to each other and accompany each other." Liang Jinmin said, "Later, my eldest sister died of lung cancer four years later. The many trivial conflicts in our married life gradually began."

Yu Hao listened to Liang Jinmin recall every bit of the relationship between her and Lin Xun, the bloody reality and quarrels, all turned into a dream, the huge metal monster with knives, axes, blades, saws, hammers and many weapons on the mechanical arm .Gradually, the image of Lin Xun and her father merged into one, inseparable from each other.

"A girl who has witnessed a lot of domestic violence since she was a child, also fell into repeated tragedies when she grew up." Liang Jinmin sighed and said, "Is that a habit? Or yearning? I am very embarrassed to analyze myself, but On this night, under your sunshine and moonlight, I am willing to present my soul in its original form and accept the judgment."

Zhou Sheng adjusted his posture on the sofa, and said with a smile, "Sunshine?"

Liang Jinmin nodded and said: "I am a pessimist. Nietzsche mentioned in "The Birth of Tragedy" that the reciprocation of tragedy actually provides an aesthetic attitude towards life, allowing us to obtain ultimate relief. Long Sheng once bluntly said that in my subconscious, due to the psychological shadow of my original family, I had some kind of imperceptible self-pity, which made it difficult for me to escape this constant repetition.”

"Secondly, I think that the tolerance for Lin Xun stems from a sense of guilt and indebtedness towards my father after witnessing the whole process of my sister killing my father that evening. Accepting that my husband repeatedly and repeatedly Three's violent behavior, and endured it, formed a psychological suggestion of atonement."

Chen Yekai said: "If you let me go to trial, I only have one sentence, they all deserve to die."

Liang Jinmin looked at Zhou Sheng, but Zhou Sheng didn't express his opinion, he just said, "Go on."

Liang Jinmin said: "Living in this kind of native family, I have become accustomed to it. My mother also told me that all couples in the world will have quarrels and even physical conflicts. I used to believe in this. After puberty, I Once decided not to marry for life..."

"It's the same as me." Zhou Sheng replied, "I'm just afraid that I will be like my father, and one day I won't be able to control myself."

"You won't." Yu Hao said to Zhou Sheng.

Liang Jinmin laughed, and said: "But love is out of everyone's control. I persuaded myself countless times, boldly embraced the new life, and finally took that step, but I didn't expect that that step would lead to a new life." into the abyss..."

Yu Hao: "..."

"After Lin Xun made his move for the first time, when he knelt down to me and begged for forgiveness, I was still convincing myself that this is the normal state of marriage, although I know very well that this cannot be." Liang Jinmin lit the third cigarette and said, " I always feel that marriage in this world is like how my parents get along. I can’t imagine a happy and happy life. Later, Nicky and Takin fell in love, and I realized that a person can tolerate his lover so much, which makes him grow old together. , A future of unquestionable love has become possible."

Chen Yekai smiled wryly and shook his head.

"Is there any more?" The thought in Yu Hao's heart gradually surfaced, but it was still not real, he was waiting, waiting for the moment when it finally became clearer.

"If there is anything else, I think it is love." Liang Jinmin closed his eyes and said, "I was talking about the future with Nicky in the coffee shop that day, and I began to decide to make up for my mistakes and dedicate the rest of my life to me. major. But shortly after returning home, what you know happened..."

Chen Yekai said: "I remember you said that you would be ready."

"Yes." Liang Jinmin replied with the hand holding the cigarette, and pressed his ring finger on the center of his brow, "but I can't remember many things after three days, intermittently."

Zhou Sheng's expression suddenly became serious, but he didn't interrupt, and cast a glance at Yu Hao.At this moment, Yu Hao chose not to speak.

After a long silence, Liang Jinmin said again: "Yu Hao said today, I didn't think about it, yes, maybe deep in my heart, the remaining stupid love and expectations for him are hindering me, shielding me A certain memory of..."

"You're hindering yourself subconsciously." Yu Hao picked up the photo frame, looked at the photo of Liang Jinmin and Lin Xun on it, and said, "I don't want to send him to prison, even if he has become a murder fact, right?"

"I think so." Liang Jinmin opened his eyes and said.

Chen Yekai opened the mouth and said, "Yu Hao, it's useless to blame Teacher Liang, we can't control our subconscious mind..."

Liang Jinmin said: "It's okay, this is why I want to chat with you. For many years, I may never really know myself."

Zhou Sheng said, "So you were in the hospital that day, and after waking up, you kept thinking about it?"

Liang Jinmin nodded and said: "Yes, the result of the doctor's appraisal for me is that the long-term coma caused a fault in my memory. I was thinking all day, and Nicky and Officer Huang suggested that I could wait, but only I I know that the real reason is that I deliberately forgot about it.”

The hall was silent for a long time, and the cigarette held by Liang Jinmin's fingers burned to the end.

"Finally, let's conclude today's lesson with Nietzsche's argument, with some modifications." Chen Yekai said, "Under the light of Apollo, all things present a beautiful appearance, which changes the essence of tragedy and makes Its painful and mad side is eliminated, reflecting the magnificent light, which is our understanding of ourselves."

Zhou Sheng finished drinking the wine in his glass, put it down, and when he looked at Yu Hao again, he was still thinking.

Yu Hao said: "The day we met in the cafe, what else did you talk about?"

Liang Jinmin did not answer, thinking.

"At that time, I thought that the evidence you obtained might not be strong enough. I remember Teacher Liang said," Chen Yekai said, "'Then I will go back and continue to collect enough evidence until I send him to prison'."

Liang Jinmin said: "I believe I said that at the time, but the memory is already blurred."

Chen Yekai said: "This is just my inference. Huang Ting's analysis of this is that if Mr. Liang's last thought before coma was about some hidden evidence, then the moment of coma, Maybe it will make this memory..."

"Fragments." Zhou Sheng said.

Liang Jinmin nodded and said: "During the retelling process, when leaving the notes, I still remember Lin Xun's last sentence to me, and then knocked me unconscious, but I can't remember this sentence either."

Her eyeliner was smudged with tears as she put down her empty wine glass and walked into the bathroom.

And when Yu Hao heard the last sentence, many flashing impressions in his mind were suddenly linked together - from what he saw in the dream world, it was speculated that Liang Jinmin struggled against the metal monster, and in her cognition , the metal monster took away something that could protect itself from being destroyed...

He looked down at the photo in the frame, and Lin Xun's face overlapped with that metal monster in an instant!He had seen that "evidence" subconsciously!

It was a wooden Mayan sculpture!At that time, Yu Hao was still very strange, why only it was shining in the whole subconscious world!

Thinking of this, Yu Hao opened his eyes uncontrollably and trembled slightly.

"What did you think of?" Zhou Sheng was the first to notice Yu Hao's abnormality.

Chen Yekai frowned, looked at Yu Hao, Yu Hao said, "Is there a wooden carving used for decoration in this house before?"

"What?" Zhou Sheng didn't expect Yu Hao to say such a sentence suddenly.

"Teacher Liang!" Yu Hao got up immediately and said, "Do you remember a wood carving? It's about this big, brown-black, Mayan style..."

Zhou Sheng and Chen Yekai immediately got up and followed behind Yu Hao. Chen Yekai said, "I remembered! It was a handicraft that Long Sheng and I brought back for Mr. Liang four years ago..."

Liang Jinmin came out of the bathroom with a towel in his hand, and when he heard these words, he suddenly trembled uncontrollably.

"Teacher Liang?" Yu Hao didn't understand the meaning of this wooden sculpture until now, but when Zhou Sheng saw Liang Jinmin's expression, he knew instantly that Yu Hao had finally found a certain key core.

"Think slowly, don't worry..." Zhou Sheng said, "Teacher Liang! Don't!"

"Teacher Liang!"

"Teacher Liang!"

Liang Jinmin's eyes widened and his face was pale.

"I remembered. In the end, he said that he wanted to collect... what evidence? Your arrangement... can't be concealed from... I..." Liang Jinmin said tremblingly, and then he seemed to have suffered a heavy mental blow. Passed out.Chen Yekai and Yu Hao were taken aback, and hurriedly supported her, and there was a sudden chaos.Chen Yekai said: "Take her in quickly..."

Chen Yekai carried her into the bedroom, Zhou Sheng said, "What is that wooden sculpture? Kaikai! Do you remember what it looks like?"

"Wait..." Chen Yekai put Liang Jinmin away, everyone became nervous, Yu Hao said, "Not in the living room, I've already seen it just now!"

"It's in the living room." Chen Yekai said, "It was still there the last time I came here, what does that mean? Yu Hao, why do you know about it?"

"Don't ask!" Zhou Sheng said, "Find it first! There must be a camera inside!"

Zhou Sheng's words pierced through Yu Hao's cognition in an instant, and Yu Hao said, "There are monitoring in its eyes! Yes! It must be!"

"It..." Chen Yekai said, "It should be right here!"

Chen Yekai pointed to the TV, there was a row of decorations on the low cabinet where the TV was placed, and said, "When I helped them move, I took it out and put it here..."

There was a sound from inside, as if something had fallen, and the three immediately turned around and ran towards the bedroom. Yu Hao thought they had found it, but it was Liang Jinmin who struggled to get up and fell under the bed.Chen Yekai hurriedly helped her up, Zhou Sheng said: "She is mentally unstable, Kaikai, look at her."

Zhou Sheng and Yu Hao returned to the living room, Yu Hao stroked his hair, helpless, and asked, "Where will she put it?"

"Wait." Zhou Sheng said, "Don't worry, calm down and analyze."

Yu Hao was silent for a long time, and said, "Why did Teacher Liang faint suddenly?"

"Because you mentioned that piece of evidence." Zhou Sheng said in a deep voice, "The existence of 'evidence' caused her to be beaten into a coma by Lin Xun in the end, and a conditioned reflex occurred in the spiritual world. Spontaneously recalled the moment when the blow resulted in a coma."

Yu Hao understood, and frowned, "It stands to reason that after the accident, Huang Ting sealed off the scene to prevent Lin Xun from going home. The things should still be there."

Zhou Sheng said: "He took it away, this is the only possibility."

Yu Hao: "!!!"

Zhou Sheng: "Before Lin Xun knocked Liang Jinmin unconscious, he already roughly guessed the existence of this 'evidence', so he hinted at her during the final blow, then searched the whole house and destroyed that evidence."

Yu Hao: "..."

Yu Hao was unwilling to accept it, but this was the only possibility, so he sat down helplessly.

"Will Lin Xun keep it?" Yu Hao asked.

"Impossible." Zhou Sheng said, "He will definitely destroy it completely. Wait, if it is a surveillance camera that recorded his domestic violence, will he use his computer to take a look before destroying it?"

Yu Hao said: "It will definitely be deleted after reading it, and it won't be kept."

Zhou Sheng: "Even if it's deleted, the data on the hard drive can be recovered, I'm afraid he doesn't need to use his own computer to read it... Wait, will she back it up in the cloud?!"

At this moment, the sound of a car came from outside the room, and the two suddenly became vigilant.Zhou Sheng opened the curtains of the living room and looked out. A car was parked outside the door. Yu Hao said, "Who? Passing by?"

"No." Zhou Sheng frowned, "There won't be passing cars here, Lin Xun must have returned."

"No way! What a coincidence?" Yu Hao said.

Today was the first day of Lin Xun's release on bail, and Yu Hao suddenly remembered that Shi Liang had returned home without warning, and was a little scared for a moment.

"It's okay, I'm here, what are you afraid of." Zhou Sheng said calmly, "Continue to drink his hidden wine and chat with him."

Yu Hao: "..."

The car outside the house drove away, Zhou Sheng went straight to the wine cabinet, and poured himself some more whiskey, when someone rang the bell outside the door.

"Jin Min." Lin Xun's voice said, "I know you are at home, open the door, I want to talk to you."

Chen Yekai walked out of the room quickly, the three of them looked at each other, and Chen Yekai said, "Mr. Liang is better."

Zhou Sheng signaled him to go back and leave it to him to deal with it, so Chen Yekai nodded.Yu Hao sat down on the sofa, Zhou Sheng took the wine glass to open the door, the moment the door opened, Lin Xun's expression was extremely exciting.

"Hey, Professor Lin." Zhou Sheng raised his glass to him, "I wish you good health!"

Lin Xun immediately regained his composure, and said in a deep voice, "It's you, Zhou Sheng."

Zhou Sheng let Lin Xun in, closed the door, and locked it.

Lin Xun knew what happened just by looking at the wine glass and ashtray on the coffee table, and shouted inside: "Jin Min!"

There was no answer, Lin Xun wanted to go in, but Zhou Sheng said, "Don't rush in, let's chat, I haven't apologized to you yet."

Yu Hao said, "Professor Lin, what would you like to drink?"

"I won't bother you anymore." Lin Xun said coldly, "It seems that Teacher Liang's academic salon has just disbanded, and you have learned a lot. Do you want to have a second half? I brought water, what do you want to talk about?"

"Talking about how you panicked and ran for thirty miles against the wind that day." Zhou Sheng smiled slightly with a hint of alcohol on his face, "When the college holds a sports meeting next time, Mr. Lin must sign up for the teacher's group. Quick!"

"It's an instinct for people to protect themselves in times of crisis, and it's normal." Lin Xun said frankly without feeling guilty at all.

Yu Hao said: "Even if it is confirmed that I have committed a crime, is it still like this in order to avoid legal sanctions?"

"I admit to breaking the law." Lin Xun said earnestly, "I have not withstood the temptation of money. Now the teacher has repented. After you leave the society, you must remember it and don't follow my path."

This is not the first time Yu Hao has had a face-to-face conversation with Lin Xun. Last time, he was pissed off by Lin Xun, and this time the situation is not much better.They came so close to finding the evidence that they just missed it.

"You are very poor, Yu Hao." Lin Xun said, "I have read your information, it is not easy to be poor, and your sexual orientation is not normal, this is a very painful thing."

Yu Hao took a deep breath, knowing that Lin Xun was provoking him, but Zhou Sheng glanced at Yu Hao, and said to Lin Xun, "It turns out that a few people are abnormal, so what about me? What's your comment?"

"Your family background is good." Lin Xun smiled mockingly, "The so-called 'children of the poor, walk around the street with unkempt hair, and children of the rich, with a monster shape and a coquettish manner, walk around the house with a coquettish voice, grow up, They are all turning around in the dark, like their father, or not as good as', Lu Xun described it very accurately on this point."

Zhou Sheng sat on the single sofa where Liang Jinmin sat before, lit a cigarette, and said, "Does Teacher Lin's academic salon always discuss this kind of topic?"

"Yes." Lin Xun said, "I am a realistic person, different from your teacher Liang. She likes romanticism, tragedy, classical genre, and likes to brainwash your teacher Chen, so that he even forgets who he is. gone."

Zhou Sheng was thinking about how to confront Lin Xun, but Yu Hao suddenly said, "You are not the first, Mr. Lin."

"Oh?" Lin Xun said, "What's the first one?"

"The first person to say that he 'advocates reality'." Yu Hao said, "They always taught me a lot of life principles, for example, in this society, the weak are prey to the strong, if you don't harm others, others will come to harm you; Take, you are an idiot, you will regret it sooner or later; life is meaningless, and everyone will die in the end..."

"Correction." Lin Xundao, "The last point of view is called 'nihilism', and it has nothing to do with reality. You need to read more books. When you read enough books, you will question the world. Form your own world view. Did you know, Yu Hao? Reading is to choose belief. You will come into contact with the whole wonderful world, which is full of many theories. With your life experience, one thought after another, one by one. Overturned by you, you believed this when you were 20, believed that after 30, and believed something else when you were 40. You will constantly doubt yourself, deny yourself, and then 'realize' a new law of life, there is no absolute Correct, there are only choices that allow you to live freely, and with power, you have the choice."

Yu Hao said, "I'm not as knowledgeable as you. I've read many books. My belief comes from self-examination of my heart. I think you may never have self-examination. You have strength and wisdom, but if you use it to do evil, it may be useless. People can punish you, and you can live with impunity. But your spiritual world has become a ruin, covered with dark clouds, the sun will not appear, and no life can grow on this wasteland, and you can no longer experience There are so many beautiful things in the world!"

Zhou Sheng: "..."

Zhou Sheng originally thought that he would have a fierce confrontation with Lin Xun, but he never expected that Yu Hao was more excited than him. This was the first time he met Yu Hao who would have such a lengthy debate with others, but Zhou Sheng didn't say a word. Can't tell.

He never thought that there are so many words in Yu Hao's heart!At this moment, the screen of the mobile phone on the coffee table lit up, and three messages from Chen Yekai in the bedroom popped up.

"I don't need to introspect." Lin Xun sneered, "I live a good life, I live a better life than you all, and I am more successful than you all. This is the life that my faith has brought to me. I don't need a student to point out Me, you two, even Nicky, Longsheng, you are just kids living in the mud. You have no right to judge me, no, you can say whatever you want, but it won't have even the slightest influence on me, I don't care. I don't care!"

"This is the inequality that makes you helpless. When you leave this campus and enter the society, you will find that there is more inequality in the world. This is what I call 'reality'. In the end, it is just like what I predicted today , I understand that this society is realistic and materialistic. You will definitely think of what I said tonight. This is a winner sharing the feelings of the losers. It is also my experience as a person who has experienced it. .”

"You are like a blind man." Yu Hao said in a deep voice, "From the day you started doing evil, you have lost the most precious thing that the Creator bestowed on everyone, and this is the price you paid for it!"

Lin Xun laughed and said, "Maybe, we couldn't convince each other, but the conclusion is obvious, you have already lost."

"Not necessarily?" Zhou Sheng suddenly replied.

At this moment, Zhou Sheng made a move that surprised Yu Hao. He put the wine glass away, moved it to the couch, sat side by side with Yu Hao, and took out the TV remote control from under the coffee table.

Yu Hao frowned slightly, and he turned his head to look at Zhou Sheng.Zhou Sheng tilted his head, responded to Yu Hao's glance, raised his eyebrows, and revealed his usual mischievous smirk.

Immediately, Zhou Sheng pressed the remote control, and the TV turned on with a blue screen.The AppleTV option pops up under the screen, mobile phone projection, video slide, click, select one of them, unlock the screen lock, set the horizontal full screen, and play.

That was Chen Yekai operating his mobile phone in the bedroom!

Yu Hao stared blankly at the TV screen, Lin Xun suddenly trembled violently, his eyes widened and his face was pale.

The 25 minutes and [-] seconds video begins with Liang Jinmin and Lin Xun arguing in the living room. Lin Xun walks across the sofa with his suit in his hand. Liang Jinmin grabs Lin Xun's suit. Lin Xun suddenly turns around and pushes Liang Jinmin to the ground.Liang Jinmin stood up trembling, Lin Xun dropped his suit, loosened his cuff buttons, dragged her over, and slapped her.

This was the first time in Yu Hao's life that he saw a surveillance video of domestic violence, and he couldn't help clenching his fists. Zhou Sheng took Yu Hao's hand and put his palm on the back of his hand.

Liang Jinmin couldn't help avoiding, Lin Xun grabbed her by the hair, dragged her back, and slammed at her temple.When Liang Jinmin turned sideways, she deliberately fled to the front of the TV. Yu Hao caught a glimpse of her crying face in pain. She fled to the door, but was dragged by Lin Xun, who pressed her head and slammed against the wall.When Liang Jinmin turned around and struggled away, Lin Xun grabbed her neck with one hand and slammed against the wall twice.

Liang Jinmin sat down along the wall with disheveled hair, his head hanging down.Lin Xun grabbed her hair, knelt down on one knee, whispered something in her ear, and finally pressed her head and hit her hard, Liang Jinmin fell limply to the ground and fell into a coma.

The whole process only takes 3 minutes.

Lin Xun kicked Liang Jinmin again, came back and sat on the sofa, glanced sideways at her, poured himself a glass of wine, and bowed slightly, as if thinking.He got up, carried Liang Jinmin on his shoulders, and went down the stairs at the corner to the underground garage. Two minutes later, he came back again, looking around, as if wondering if there was anything unusual in it.

Until the 7th minute, Lin Xun got up and judged the peculiarity of Liang Jinmin's behavior of hiding in front of the TV cabinet. From left to right, he began to check all the decorations.But only halfway through the inspection, he noticed the camera and reached out to take it off. The camera was facing to the side, shaking Liang Jinmin who was lying in the corner.After a while, the screen went black, and the surveillance video ended.

Lin Xun sank into the sofa as if petrified, and didn't get up for a long time.Zhou Sheng turned up the floor lamp, and Yu Hao saw Lin Xun's expression, like a dead person.

There was a noise in the bedroom, and Chen Yekai opened the door.

"Ms. Liang remembered." Chen Yekai said to them, "After going back that day, she installed a camera in the wood carving and uploaded it to an independent cloud account at the same time, but she didn't remember it for a while. I have already notified Huang Ting , they'll be here soon."

"What a turn of events." Zhou Sheng sighed, "Then...you may really be going to jail, Mr. Lin? Next to the interview, how do you feel now?"

Lin Xun didn't speak, Zhou Sheng looked at Lin Xun, and said seriously: "Mr. Lin, you are very 'realistic', so you think this world is what you understand, but don't forget, we also live in this world , we are also part of this 'reality'."

Yu Hao: "!!!"

Someone rang the doorbell outside, Zhou Sheng got up to open the door, Huang Ting came with his colleagues.

"Go back." Zhou Sheng said to Yu Hao, the two got up and came to the door, Zhou Sheng said loudly: "Mr. Liang, goodbye!"

"Goodbye." Liang Jinmin's calm voice came from the bedroom.

Liang Jinmin never came out of the bedroom, even if he took another look at Lin Xun.

"Goodbye, Teacher Lin." Yu Hao said to Lin.