catch the dream

"So, what about the new school and environment?" Liang Jinmin asked.

Yu Hao knew what this meant. With Liang Jinmin's care, he took the college entrance examination again. As long as he passed the admission score line, with Liang Jinmin's help, the college would recruit him in, and the rearrangement of majors would go smoothly. More importantly, What's more, after finishing his studies, he can get a university diploma!

"I asked Zhou Sheng." Liang Jinmin said, "Zhou Sheng also gave me an answer, but he said that he is unwilling to influence your choice, so I want to hear your opinion first."

Yu Hao thought to himself, no wonder Zhou Sheng would suddenly say something like that today.

"Let me see Zhou Sheng." Yu Hao only took a short time to think about it, and then said, "If he wants to drop out of school and retake the exam, it's okay for me to change places. It's just... I don't think that going to this school doesn't mean the future. There is no way out, if I study well, I can also take the postgraduate entrance examination of a school."

For a long time, Yu Hao hadn't formed a clear understanding of his future, future, and ideals in life, but suddenly, all of this became clear.

"It's not that I don't have my own opinions." Yu Hao laughed, "It's just that I don't know how to express some things. Most of the time my thoughts are very similar to Zhou Sheng's, but he can speak more clearly. After we graduate, if If I have a chance, I want to apply for your postgraduate examination, and when the score is up, you will accept me, won’t you?”

Liang Jinmin smiled and said: "I understand. I have nothing to thank you. I just want to, at least try my best, to protect the two children who will be revenged by evil for protecting me."

"No." Yu Hao said suddenly, "You didn't understand, Teacher Liang."

Liang Jinmin was startled.

Yu Hao said: "Is this the end? You plan to make a clean break with the past, right? For the rest of your life, you will stay away from him, so in this way, you will forget the past and won't be hurt again?"

Liang Jinmin stared at Yu Hao in a daze.

Deep down in Yu Hao's heart, he knew why—Liang Jinmin hadn't defeated the metal monster occupying the city in his dreams until now.

"There must be some way." Yu Hao thought for a while, and said, "I think this may not be over yet..." His brows furrowed, and he shook his head. He always felt that there were some details that he had overlooked. And this detail may be able to reverse the current predicament.It's fine if he's really helpless, and it's not that he can't accept the reality when he is faced with giving up everything.

But he has a premonition that things will turn around.

If only I were as smart as Zhou Sheng... Yu Hao had discussed this case with Zhou Sheng many times over and over again, and each time the answers tended to be the same.

While talking, the waiter opened the door and Chen Yekai came in.

"Sorry, I'm late." Chen Yekai said with a smile, "I'm almost done eating? I'm starving to death, let me eat something first."

Liang Jinmin's expression recovered, as if he had been thinking about Yu Hao's words.Yu Hao gave the menu to Chen Yekai, asking him to order food.Chen Yekai is wearing the long-lost navy blue shirt and black casual shorts today. He has a nice smell of cologne, mixed with the warmth of his body in summer, revealing the downright sexy of an intellectual.

"What are you talking about?" Chen Yekai ordered the sushi, and said, "This sea urchin is pretty good, Yu Hao, try it."

"Just chatting." Yu Hao said, "It's nothing."

Liang Jinmin said, "Nicky, Yu Hao doesn't want to go to your alma mater to re-study undergraduate courses."

"I guessed it." Chen Yekai swallowed the sushi with difficulty, drank tea, and said, "In fact, I don't want to go back to my alma mater. I also decided to stay here, Mr. Liang."

"Ah?" Yu Hao said, "No, no, you must do whatever you want!"

Chen Yekai said: "Staying here doesn't mean staying in the academy. Ying City also has a copy, just to review and prepare for the exam. Who wants to take the graduate exam in this academy?" He added some tea to Yu Hao, and blinked narrowly.

"Then..." Liang Jinmin seemed a little depressed, so he nodded.

"Do you want to pack for Fu Liqun and Zhou Sheng?" Chen Yekai asked.

Yu Hao saw that this sushi was all 128 for a pair, so he hurriedly said, "No, Zhou Sheng must have eaten it before, just bring Fu Liqun a few hand pancakes..."

"Nicky." Liang Jinmin said suddenly.

"Yeah." Chen Yekai continued to flip through the menu, without looking at Liang Jinmin, and said, "Let me order, today I will treat you." He said and ordered the bill.

Yu Hao: "?"

After Liang Jinmin finished speaking, he fell silent again, and the three of them were speechless for a moment.After the waiter came over, Chen Yekai made ready to pack, then smiled and lowered his head to send a message to Zhou Sheng.

"Yu Hao, you..." The corners of Chen Yekai's mouth curled up slightly.

"What's wrong, Teacher Chen?" Yu Hao said anxiously.

"Don't call me Teacher Chen anymore." Chen Yekai said, "I've left my job a long time ago, so call me whatever you want. Anyway, I don't want to hear the title Teacher, I'm tired."

Yu Hao laughed, and suddenly noticed that Liang Jinmin was sitting quietly the whole time, and there seemed to be tears rolling in her eyes.

After the packaged food arrived, Chen Yekai said, "Let's go, I'll take you back."

Chen Yekai went to drive, while Yu Hao and Liang Jinmin stood under the street lights. In this business district, at night, all the office buildings were lit up, standing like crystals in the dark night.

"You're right, Yu Hao." Liang Jinmin said, "I don't understand."

Yu Hao turned his head and looked into Liang Jinmin's eyes.

"When I was in a coma, I saw an archangel with white wings and a black suit, and a warrior in armor." Liang Jinmin looked at the busy road and said in a daze, "The angel is yours." Look, another warrior, he wears a face-covered helmet. You carry lamps and show me the way in the dark... Maybe this is some kind of providence."

Chen Yekai drove, stopped on the side of the road, and said, "I'll pick up Zhou Sheng by the way later? He's not far from here."

Yu Hao was about to get into the car, but Liang Jinmin said, "Wait, Yu Hao, Nicky, would you like to come to my house for a drink?"

Yu Hao looked at Chen Yekai, and Chen Yekai was also a little dazed, wondering why Liang Jinmin proposed this invitation.

"It's the same as before." Liang Jinmin said.

"I can, look at Yu Hao." Chen Yekai said, "His answer must be to look at Zhou Sheng, I'll talk to him later."

Yu Hao said, "You know me too well."

Yu Hao got into the car, Chen Yekai drove, turned two intersections, and picked up Zhou Sheng in front of a hotel.Zhou Sheng was carrying a one-shoulder sports bag. He had just finished attending the reception in the hotel, and he said after listening, "Okay, Teacher Liang, it's the first time we meet. Please take care of me."

Liang Jinmin smiled and nodded at him. After Chen Yekai drove to the college, he crossed the road without street lights, and the bright moon in the mountains appeared, and the silver light filled the earth.

This is the small townhouse with a courtyard that the academy gave Lin to live in. It is separated from the academy by a mountain, facing each other far away.

The room is very spacious and has been cleaned by someone. Liang Jinmin turned on the floor lamp, and the room was filled with warm yellow light.

"What would you like to drink?" Liang Jinmin said, "Whiskey? Nicky will stop driving later, call an online car-hailing car back."

Zhou Sheng and Yu Hao visited the wine cabinet of Liang Jinmin's house, and said, "Hey, Mr. Liang, you really have a lot of wine."

Liang Jinmin said indifferently: "Open the wine you like and drink it. It's not as good as the wine you've had before, so just let it go."

Yu Hao signaled with his eyes, Zhou Sheng nodded, and said, "This bottle is more than 4."

Chen Yekai said: "I remember there is a bottle of Macallan, I'll just drink it, Master Zhou also want some?"

Yu Hao said: "I don't have much pursuit of wine, don't drink too expensive ones."

"Open this bottle of Canadian ice wine." Knowing that Yu Hao was afraid of wasting it, Zhou Sheng said, "It's not expensive, it costs a thousand dollars. I'll adjust it for you again, drink it sweet as fruit juice."

Yu Hao immediately signaled, let's just leave it at this, thinking that Fu Liqun was still waiting for his dinner in the dormitory... But he was here to accompany them to drink tens of thousands of dollars worth of wine.

Chen Yekai poured Liang Jinmin a glass of wine, and sat on the sofa with Zhou Sheng and Yu Hao.Chen Yekai and Liang Jinmin sat on the single sofa, while Zhou Sheng leaned on the couch, leaving a place for Yu Hao.

Under the warm light of the floor lamp, Liang Jinmin lit a cigarette and exhaled gracefully.

"To Takin." Liang Jinmin toasted slightly in the dark of the floor lamp.

"To Takin." The rest raised their glasses one after another.

"What does the teacher want to talk about tonight?" Chen Yekai shook the cup gently, and the ice puck collided in the cup, making a crisp sound.

Yu Hao took a sip of Zhou Shengtiao's ice wine. It was really sweet, but not greasy, and it was delicious. He kept his eyes on the decorations in the room, and remembered that Lin Xun was here to domestically rape Liang Jinmin, beating her to death. Seriously injured and unconscious, he dragged her to the garage, put her in the passenger seat, and caused the car accident.

After the car accident, Huang Ting immediately sealed off the house and investigated every corner in detail, but found nothing as expected.

Yu Hao thought to himself, will some details be left here, undiscovered?But with the professional quality of the police, after checking it once, there was nothing to gain, let alone myself.

Just as he was thinking about it, Zhou Sheng raised his foot and lightly touched Yu Hao, his eyes seemed to have something to say, Yu Hao immediately understood that Zhou Sheng was thinking the same thing as himself, and he didn't give up.

"Talk about my failed life." Liang Jinmin put down the wine and said calmly, "Talk about the vast world and the history of human civilization, as a human being who is a mayfly-like individual, understanding and feeling of fate."

"Let's start today's lesson with a Delphi oracle. In the Temple of Apollo, there is a famous saying: Know yourself. What is a man? The soul is born to be good, or is the disposition originally evil? We are in this world. Killing and crusade against each other online, as large as a nation and a country, as small as a family..."

Lights, wine, sofa... In this late night, Yu Hao can vaguely imagine that Liang Jinmin's late-night classes range from the bricks and axles of ancient civilizations to the guns and wars of the steam age; From Alexander to Genghis Khan; from Tutankhamun's Golden Sculpture to Napoleon's Waterloo...the flashes in the grand historical river are like dreams, vast and endless.

And the power of knowledge guides human beings to transcend the limitations of individuals, stand at the end of this river, and see many bloody storms in the fog.

Liang Jinmin talked about the birth of stars from the beginning of the universe in mainstream academic theories, and then talked about the energy released by nuclear fusion, the melting of ice into water, photosynthesis of plants, which provided the conditions for the birth of intelligent life on planets, and then about the birth of intelligent life in various civilizations. The legend of the sun god, so the ancient civilization worshiped the sun as the supreme god, and "light" was also considered the source of all things.

This is Yu Hao's first time listening to lectures in this way. Liang Jinmin retained the way of salon abroad, chatting with them, while Chen Yekai occasionally expressed his own opinions. Zhou Sheng was also fascinated by it. People forget what they are most concerned about, and are immersed in Liang Jinmin's knowledge.

Yu Hao suddenly regretted a little bit, and actually rejected Liang Jinmin's proposal to let him transfer to another school. If he studied with such a teacher, maybe he could really learn something in this life.

"...Under the influence of this phototaxis." Liang Jinmin finally said, "we live during the day, and sleep into a dream at night, and the dream releases the most primitive desires in our hearts, hidden in the undetected personality. This kind of personality The formation of life originates from our impressions of the world and ourselves formed in the environment in which we grew up..."

Chen Yekai added: "This is a relatively mainstream statement in the field of psychology at present."

"That's right." Liang Jinmin nodded and said, "Take me as an example. My family has been full of violence since I was a child. My father was an unsuccessful intellectual. Because his brother was studying in the United States, in the 70s , was strongly criticized and treated unfairly. My mother is a descendant of a landlord family. My grandparents fled Hong Kong with the whole family. Only my mother stayed behind for my father. You have not experienced that era, so you don’t know what does that mean……"

"I probably read some." Yu Hao remembered the reports he had translated, among which was the history of this era.

Liang Jinmin smiled and said: "My parents have two daughters. I am the youngest daughter. Since I was sensible, my family was full of ubiquitous violence. My father also suffered from severe hysteria..."

"Dissociative disorder." Chen Yekai explained to Yu Hao and Zhou Sheng, "that's hysteria."

Liang Jinmin said indifferently: "My father beat my mother and us all night long, and my mother accepted everything. My sister and I are always full of fear, looking forward to the morning when the sun rises..."

"...But every time the storm passed, my father returned to his intellectual and gentle image. He taught us to read and write, and urged us to study hard...I can't even tell which one is the real him. It seems that he is split Become a god and a devil, and when the sun goes down, the nightmare begins. In that era, mental illness was not taken seriously, and many people in the country didn't even have this awareness at all."

"Later, I thought that in the married life with Lin Xun, the psychological shadow caused by our original family may also affect my life." Liang Jinmin took out a second cigarette from the cigarette case, and Zhou Sheng took out a lighter , give her a cigarette.

"Of course, that's something to say later." Liang Jinmin added, "After growing up, my father's violent behavior has eased, and on his face, there is a kind of depression and desolation of a middle-aged man who is unable to change the situation. He was seriously ill, and when he was bedridden, he still called our mother to beat and scold him from time to time. One day, my eldest sister finally couldn't bear it anymore, and when she was washing the dishes, she put down the dishes, gagged my mouth, and used a belt He tied me to a chair, walked over silently, went to the bed, and smothered him to death with rubber gloves."

Yu Hao: "..."

It was also the first time for Chen Yekai to hear Liang Jinmin tell his past, and immediately forgot what to say.

Zhou Sheng said: "Your elder sister didn't want to drag you into the water, so she tied you up."

Liang Jinmin said: "Yes, but this incident did not cause much disturbance. My father suffered from a brain tumor, and he often thought that someone would harm him. In the last days, he had reached the point where he could not sleep peacefully. The news of his death spread When it was time, including neighbors and relatives, I could see that everyone was relieved."

"Later, the older sister got married, and the mother lived with the older sister. The grandparents who escaped to Hong Kong passed away. The two uncles found the mother and handed over a large inheritance to her father. This inheritance is enough for us to live well. I think I went to university and got to know Lin Xun, at that time he was personable, although his appearance could only be regarded as average, and his family conditions were not superior, but there was an aura about him that made me want to stop.”

"Bookish." Chen Yekai said.

"That's right." Liang Jinmin said to Chen Yekai, "The temperament of a scholar is also evident in you. This temperament has attracted many women."

Zhou Sheng said, "Looks like I don't have any."

Liang Jinmin said: "Attention, this is just a characteristic of a person. Whether he is kind or not has nothing to do with how many books he has read."

Chen Yekai said with a smile: "Every time righteousness slaughters more dogs, most of them are scholars who are ungrateful."

Everyone laughed.

Liang Jinmin said: "It is inappropriate to cover everything in any group."

"Just kidding." Chen Yekai laughed.

Liang Jinmin said: "In Lin Xun's body, I felt the romantic feeling that my father taught our sisters to read in the afternoon when we were young, the same temperament of frustrated intellectuals, and a kind of unspoken arrogance. Frankly, I have nothing, but I am always looking for freedom in my mind and soul..."

Liang Jinmin opened the drawer under the coffee table, took out a framed photo, and passed it on to them. On it was a photo of Lin Xun and Liang Jinmin, who had just arrived at Stanford University in San Francisco, in front of the school gate.