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Chapter Four Discrete

At the beginning of the 28th year of the Republic of China, Ye Xiu went north and entered the imperial capital, and was ordered to carry out a mission.

Lan He's team returned to Nanjing and continued to cooperate with Yu Wenzhou and other teams in intelligence work.

This New Year, everything remains the same, but things are different.

They disappeared into each other's world like this, no one asked where the other was going, and no one thought about when they could meet again.

Even if we meet, so what.

As early as the separation two years ago, they should have understood that this is really an era in which they can't help themselves, their lives do not belong to them, and they don't have the right to make decisions on their own.Since they chose this path and gave up being ordinary people, there are only four words: life and death are impermanent.

Life and death are impermanent, why talk about love and hate?

It was originally a matter of fantasy, but fortunately, two years of reunion and side by side were stolen. Is it really greedy to be able to live forever?They chose completely different paths. Even if they once stood together by coincidence, it was the need of the country, not fate.

Now that the trust is gone, and the fate is irreversible, why should it be broken.

Falling in love is an easy thing that you love and I wish, but for them, after falling in love, they can't do anything.

Love is inseparable, open and frank, without guessing and jealousy, and never bears each other.

Since you can't do it, it's better not to see it.

"Ye Yu hijacked military personnel, opened a warehouse to release food, and finally killed Wang Shi."

"As expected of Ye Yu, Ye Yu is truly not afraid of death."

"I am willing to make a trip to clean up this matter for you."

"I believe in your ability, but when it comes to Yu Wenzhou, I hope you will proceed with caution. After all, he has a great role to play."

"Don't worry about this, I understand. Retire."

Open the door, the light in the corridor is a bit dim.Chongqing is also known as the city of fog, and it really deserves its reputation. It is so gloomy in broad daylight.

But what was more gloomy than the weather was Chen Yehui's smile.

The secret factory that produced bacterial bombs was destroyed, which was a major loss for the Japanese army and could not be rebuilt in a short time.

The upper echelons of the military department were extremely furious, and the responsibility was investigated step by step. Naturally, the Wang puppet government where Yu Wenzhou belonged was not immune.On the one hand, the Japanese launched a large-scale investigation in their own institutions, and on the other hand, they also conducted separate interrogations and reviews of senior government officials who may have access to classified information, with the intention of finding out the insider.

Although Yu Wenzhou was not directly involved in this incident, and did not leave any evidence for the Japanese, but because of his sensitive defection status and extremely high position, the Japanese side's suspicion of him has never been lifted.

This was also a headache for Yu Wenzhou.

After accepting inquiries in the morning, Yu Wenzhou attended a press conference at noon, and didn't have time to make up for lunch until three o'clock in the afternoon.

After work at 05:30, Yu Wenzhou's car stopped in front of a tea restaurant.

Just around the corner from this place is his home, so he told the driver to drive the car back first instead of coming out to pick it up.

The business of the tea restaurant is good. When it's meal time, the aroma of tea and coffee is slightly overwhelmed by the aroma of the food.Yu Wenzhou took a private look, and there seemed to be no free table, so he went to a person sitting alone in the corner.The man ordered coffee on the table, still steaming.

"Sir, are you alone? Can I share a table with you?"

Yu Wenzhou's polite and gracious smile made the waiter who followed him feel in a good mood.

"It's okay, sit down."

The man removed the newspaper on the seat opposite and signaled his permission.

"I will replace Lord Grim as the leader of the Nanjing Underground Party Action Group, and I will be assigned by you."

"Chen Yehui?"

"Yes. I will first convey to you the commendation from your superiors, and affirm your contribution in destroying the Japanese army's bacterial bomb factory."

"Duty." Thinking of this incident, Yu Wenzhou couldn't help thinking about the morning's questioning again, and smiled a little wryly, "But the Japanese still suspect me, so it's better to be careful these days."

"I propose that an action can be planned to help you get rid of suspicion."

"Do you have any plans?"

"You can organize an action team to carry out a realistic assassination attack on you. They are all old members of the Nanjing group. They are very familiar with the terrain and environment. They should be able to conceal people's eyes and ears and retreat completely."

Yu Wenzhou didn't answer right away.

He thought of someone.

This person is Huang Shaotian.

Huang Shaotian's existence is now in Nanjing, except for him and Ye Xiu, no one in China knows about it.Calculating the time, he should have come back from Henan, but the plan of the Communist Party cannot be disclosed to him.

This means that the person who protects Yu Wenzhou like a ghost at any time will really think it is an assassination.

No need to think about it, Yu Wenzhou knew the consequences.

"This is not feasible. Since I took office, I have basically been calm. If there is an assassination when I am under suspicion, it will attract attention. Let's take a long-term plan for this matter."

"Yes."

Yu Wenzhou came out of the restaurant, carrying two leather bags tied with ropes in his hand. Inside were two stir-fried vegetables and rice, one meat and one vegetarian.

The cook at home has returned to his hometown and will not be back until a few days later.Fortunately, he was alone these days.

It was already dark, and the shops on both sides of the street were crowded with people, and the smoke was already rising from the homes of the residents above. The aroma of various meals came out wave after wave from the windows with warm yellow lights, and it was so warm. very.

He was a little envious, envious of someone cooking, and envious of someone eating together.

So he thought of Huang Shaotian again.

The news about Zhengzhou soon spread to him, and he was really surprised when he first heard Huang Shaotian's actions.

I didn't expect him to be so ruthless, he did good deeds to the end, and didn't leave himself a way out.He is well aware of military command smuggling, reselling materials to make money, and even colluding with the Wang puppet government to make underground transactions, but his status is too special, and he has no way to intervene to stop these things.

But Huang Shaotian, taking advantage of the secret of his identity and not showing up in public, recruited the Green Gang to open a warehouse to release food.

It's not that he doesn't know the consequences of doing so, Yu Wenzhou understands that even if he knew, he would do it.

His young man has always been a just person who can be just regardless of the consequences.If one decides that one thing must be done, it will be regarded as costing one's life, and Huang Shaotian has to do it.

Then the worry was left to Yu Wenzhou.

Along the way, the military command will definitely send people to intercept and kill many times. With Huang Shaotian's skill, he may not be able to avoid it, but the impact of this matter will always exist. He will be wanted all the time, and he may be exposed to his own guns at any time. under the mouth.

Thinking of this, Yu Wenzhou then thought of Chen Yehui who he just met.

Before he came, Yu Wenzhou checked this person carefully.On the surface, he was sent by Yan'an to take over Ye Xiu's position and assist him in his work in Nanjing. In fact, he is a double-faced person, and he also has an important position in the military command.

The assassination plan he proposed just now was indeed not the best strategy, and it obviously ignored Huang Shaotian's existence.

Is it because he didn't know there was Huang Shaotian, or did he know that he didn't mention it on purpose?

According to the latter possibility, Yu Wenzhou felt the hidden threat.

This person actually came from Chongqing, and he planned to lure Huang Shaotian into a trap. In all likelihood, he came with the mission of eliminating Huang Shaotian.

After closing the door of the house, Yu Wenzhou went straight upstairs to his bedroom.

It was still as dark and lifeless as ever.

Taking advantage of the moonlight, he put the food on the coffee table first, and then went back to the door to turn on the light.

Misfortune suddenly happened.

In the darkness, Yu Wenzhou blocked the knife towards his throat with his arm, and then lowered his body to dodge the attack of the other fist.

It's a pity that he wasn't fast enough. He raised his hand to fight back, but was firmly caught by the opponent.

The temperature of the wrist seems to be able to flow into the heart along the blood vessels, warming the whole body.

Huang Shaotian let go of his hand, just about to say something softly, Wenzhou, it's me.

Unexpectedly, the moment he let go, his hand was held by the other party, and he was pulled into the embrace of that heartbeat.

No words came out because his lips were also blocked by him.

Yu Wenzhou held the person who had made him fearful for half a month tightly into his arms, as if he wanted to crush him in his heart.

The kiss also deepened, and it was the fragrance of scented tea just now.

"Are you hungry? Have you had dinner yet?"

"No……"

"Let's eat, it's still the packaged one."

"Huh? Since you went to Wenzhou, why didn't you eat there and then come back? Instead, you packed it up and brought it back. Did you know that I'm coming back tonight? This is amazing!"

"I didn't know you were back, but I'm sitting at home eating, and I can pretend you're sitting opposite me."

After dinner, both of them were tired all day, and after a brief wash, they were ready to rest.

Lying on the familiar bed again, blending into the darkness, Huang Shaotian could have had a rare and peaceful sleep.But thinking back to Yu Wenzhou's words before the meal, I really felt very uncomfortable.

"I'm sitting at home eating, and I can pretend you're sitting across from me."

For the past half month, I have been tossing outside very happily, and I only feel that the fact of being so chivalrous and righteous is dripping with joy.But for Wenzhou, he is probably worried every day.

His hands were wrapped in warmth, and the people around him seemed to have guessed that he hadn't fallen asleep.

"Shaotian, the work in Zhengzhou is well done."

Hearing these words, Huang Shaotian breathed a sigh of relief.

Fortunately, Wenzhou is not as angry as last time.

"It's just that you also know that after all, you made a big fuss about this matter, and the Chongqing side will definitely be angry. So now, even if you return to Nanjing, you still have to be very careful and try to go out as little as possible."

"Well, I understand. Wenzhou, will the matter of the germ bomb factory affect you?"

"No." Hearing his soft, sleepy voice, still worrying about himself, Yu Wenzhou's heart felt warm, and he leaned over and embraced him from behind, "Ye Xiu and Lan He's team did it together." It was clean and there were no traces left."

When speaking, the breath lingers in the ears, which is a rare stability and tacit understanding.

"It's just... something happened between Ye Xiu and Lan He."

"Huh? What happened to them?"

"I don't know the reason, but after the first battle in Tongcheng, they seemed to lose contact. Later, one came back, and the other went to Peiping."

"Could it be that Lao Ye wants to pull Lan He into the gang, but Lan He doesn't want to?"

As soon as Huang Shaotian said that, he regretted it.

The heart that was about to fall into a deep sleep suddenly became confused.

The investigation documents I saw at Huayuankou are now flashing back and forth like a movie, and I can't drive them away.

He should have believed in Yu Wenzhou unconditionally, and believed in his lover who had fought side by side for so many years.But after seeing those things, he really couldn't do it.To be precise, what he was terrified of was this unknown feeling.When it comes to feelings, Huang Shaotian is a simple person. Since they are in love, they have to go through life and death together, share fate, and treat each other honestly.

He simply hoped that Yu Wenzhou would do the same, and take this relationship as seriously as he did.

Yu Wenzhou is a scheming person, able to read people's hearts and pry into the world, and make correct and wise decisions in battle.So his nickname is the curse, as long as it is something he plans, or the people he targets, he cannot escape the curse of failure.

But Huang Shaotian firmly believed that to him, Yu Wenzhou was just that ordinary Yu Wenzhou with feelings.Their love does not require scheming, calculation, and there will be no suspicion and estrangement. They are the closest and most understanding people in the world. They share all the joys and sorrows and dangers in life, and give each other their backs. and life.

Can it always be like this.

"Shaotian," the voice next to his ear interrupted his thinking, still sounding warm and calm, "It's their own path to choose."

"Ah."

"Fortunately, we have always been together."

Huang Shaotian thought that there was nothing that could make him silent, so he voluntarily did not speak, let alone facing Yu Wenzhou.

But the words just heard, actually did it.

He quietly discovered his deep love for this person, so much that just this one sentence was enough to overcome everything.

This is a person who worries day and night when he is out and sleeps and eats when he is hurt.

I can't find another person who treats himself with his life like Yu Wenzhou.

Why do we still have these suspicions and doubts?

He didn't speak, but turned around, embraced him tightly, and fell asleep peacefully.

Three days later, the government office held a pre-holiday ball.

Yu Wenzhou was used to this kind of feasting and feasting scene, but it was nothing more than talking about people and talking nonsense when he saw people.

The only thing that made him feel bad was that that night, he interrupted Huang Shaotian's words with a sugar-coated cannonball and continued to hide his identity from him.

He didn't know what kind of existence Huang Shaotian meant.It's just that the concealment of identity is really not something he can decide by himself.Once Huang Shaotian knows, maybe he is willing to follow him to the first place, but this is not what he expected.

The current situation is in dire straits. Once the gangsters are captured by the Japanese army, they will either rebel or die, and there is no way out.But the military command is different. They have private interest entanglements with the top leaders of the new government. As long as interests are involved in anything, there is still room for maneuver.

If Huang Shaotian's identity is the military commander, even if he is arrested one day, with his own relationship, it is still possible to recover.

But on the contrary, there is no way to return to heaven.

Going a little further, one day the Japanese will leave. Judging from the balance of power, Japan may not be able to defeat the national army.Then, as a member of the Central Committee, he is bound to be unable to save the lives of the two of them.

He wanted Shaotian to have more chances to live, and wanted to give him more peace and retreat, so he couldn't pull him over and stand on the edge of the cliff with him.

As for cheating, it is an irreparable guilt.

In troubled times, there is always a trade-off. In Yu Wenzhou's view, it is the latter that makes him unbearable.

Ever since that night, Huang Shaotian, for some reason, remembered that Yu Wenzhou's phrase "Be careful, and try not to go out as much as possible" sounded weird, and felt very uneasy.So wherever Yu Wenzhou went, he still followed secretly, not daring to take the next step, for fear that something might happen.

Sure enough, there was a change, but this time Huang Shaotian didn't notice it, only Yu Wenzhou saw it.

The reason is very simple. At the regular reception organized by the pseudo-government, after the dance session started, the people who flashed on the second floor were the members of the underground party's operations team, which Huang Shaotian didn't know.

Yu Wenzhou's brain was running fast, thinking of what Chen Yehui said that day, as well as his identity, he roughly understood what would happen here.Chen Yehui didn't obey his order, but ordered the team members to deploy this "assassination" operation, but the gun should not be aimed at him, but to protect Huang Shaotian who appeared in public.

The scary and tricky thing was that he didn't know where the gun was or when it was fired.

Huang Shaotian, dressed in disguise, is now beside him, dancing on his arm with a female secretary in the government.

It was too late for him to retreat, people couldn't run away with guns.

But Yu Wenzhou is worthy of being Yu Wenzhou, and the plan in his mind has taken shape at this time.

Using the rhythm of the dance music, he drew closer to Chu Yunxiu who was dancing with him, and sent out a whisper without disturbing anyone.

"If something happens, take Shaotian to evacuate immediately without delay."

"it is good."

Yu Wenzhou guessed right, the shooter would not be found by him.

Chen Yehui was not in the ballroom at all, but was hiding next to the government building, aiming through the huge floor-to-ceiling windows.

He originally thought that this plan was perfect, so he hid in a place where no one could see and shot Huang Shaotian, trying to hit Huang Shaotian with one blow. Even if he accidentally missed, Chu Yunxiu, who was dancing with Yu Wenzhou, would make amends in time and win the battle. Take Huang Shaotian's life.

But he is a villainous villain after all, and the thousands of calculations to make Yu Wenzhou useless are still not enough compared to that cursed person.

As a member of the military command, Chu Yunxiu accepted his order to eliminate Huang Shaotian, but she was a special party member who had one-way contact with Yu Wenzhou, and Yu Wenzhou was the only one who really obeyed his orders.

The bullet in his gun was indeed aimed at Huang Shaotian's heart and shot out, but it was Yu Wenzhou who fell down in the end.

Huang Shaotian will never forget that look in his life.

The moment the gun rang, he subconsciously prepared to protect Yu Wenzhou. Unexpectedly, Yu Wenzhou reacted faster than him. Like a prophet, he adjusted his position with dance steps, blocked him abruptly, and was shot in his left shoulder.

The crowd exploded in an instant, and the people who were talking and laughing just now scattered and fled in all directions. There were collided and dropped handbags, broken wine glasses, and women's screams everywhere.

He was pulled tightly by Chu Yunxiu, and ran out with the crowd. Yu Wenzhou just fell to the ground, half of his body was bloodied, and his eyes met him.

He had never seen that look in his eyes.

It seems that seeking benevolence and gaining benevolence is a kind of relieved happiness.

He felt that Yu Wenzhou seemed to be celebrating, he was right about this matter, and helped him block a shot.This person is always like this, he likes to be smart and think of some ways he can't think of to resolve the crisis, and he would rather not know his own life or death.

I really hate this kind of person.This kind of person who takes his life to treat him well.

Since joining the military command, his instructors told him that if he wants to survive and defeat the enemy, he must first recognize himself as a cold-blooded weapon, and he only needs to remember who to kill and whom to obey.

Huang Shaotian did it, and he did it very well, but all the enemies he encountered had the same ending.Huang Shaotian, who was on the mission, was undoubtedly a terrifying killing machine. He didn't know where he came from or where he was going, making the enemy frightened.

But only Yu Wenzhou made Huang Shaotian have to admit that he is still a person with emotions and life.The better Yu Wenzhou treats him, the happier he is, the more he is like an ordinary person, afraid of losing what he has.Every time he encountered danger, Yu Wenzhou would do his best to protect him, even at the expense of hurting himself.

So he was very angry.

Since he was inferior to Yu Wenzhou in strategy, he was very willing to stand in front of Yu Wenzhou in a bloody battle and protect him from harm.But even so, this annoying person is still as always, trying to kick himself out when the danger is approaching, and kick him far away.

You are so smart, why don't you understand that I am willing to share life and death with you?

The bright red is dazzling.

He understands that he can't show up at this time, can't be with him, and evacuating is the best choice.The crowd was crowded, his body was dragged uncontrollably, and the distance between him and Yu Wenzhou was getting farther and farther.

But his eyes never left the person who fell in the hall, until he rushed out of the building, passed through the heavy traffic, and never saw him again.

Chen Yehui finally experienced the feeling of being hunted down.

It was Lan He who often killed people in the dark and fled in the dark that gave him this feeling.

Since Yu Wenzhou noticed that Chen Yehui's situation was different, he secretly informed Lan He. If there is an accident, he must be tracked down and he must not be allowed to escape.Naturally, Lanhe trusted Yu Wenzhou. On the day of the dance, he stayed near Chen Yehui's residence. If something happened and the team members came to report him, he would immediately intercept and kill him.

It's just that Chen Yehui, this double-faced man who walks between the military commander and the Communist Party, is indeed a difficult fox to deal with.

On the second night of the accident, Lan He locked onto Chen Yehui's location, and when he thought the news had passed and was planning to return to his residence to pack his luggage and move, he forced him to a corner in the warehouse next door.

His gun was in Lan He's hands, and he was stabbed in each of his legs, leaning against the cargo box and unable to move.

"Hey, who am I? You haven't voted for the Communist Party yet? It's not easy."

This sounded uncomfortable, and Lan He didn't bother to care about it, anyway, he was going to die soon.

"Jun Moxiao is worthy of being Lord Grim. I have learned from him when he was One Autumn Leaf. A powerful person like you can be used by him around. Fortunately, he is a ****. If it is a traitor, we will probably have already It's over."

There was only moonlight in the darkness, and the sneer at the corner of Lan He's mouth made Chen Yehui a little nervous again, for fear that this man covered in weapons would stab him in the leg again.

Fortunately, Lan He disdained this kind of tormenting effort, and only responded silently.He reaffirmed that the person under his feet today would surely die.Just because he knew that One Autumn Leaf and Lord Grim were the same person, even if Yu Wenzhou let him go, Blue River would not let him get out of here alive.

Although the contact was broken, the safety of that person still had to be taken into account.

Some things cannot be let go after all, Blue River admits.

Of course, Yu Wenzhou did not let go of his plan.After Chen Yehui saw the person walking behind Lan He and saw his face clearly, he knew that he had no choice but to die.

His shot hit Yu Wenzhou's left shoulder, which not only confirmed his evil intentions, but also washed away the Japanese's suspicion of Yu Wenzhou to a certain extent.

Taking advantage of the improved situation, Huang Shaotian was not around for the time being. Yu Wenzhou refused to be hospitalized on the grounds that his injuries were not serious and he was busy with work. He spent a day quickly arranging for the comrades who showed up at the ball to leave Nanjing that day. The informant arrived here.

He needs to confirm with Chen Yehui whether the military command has sent other people to Huang Shaotian's pursuit.

"Chongqing, let you get rid of Ye Yu, right?"

"That's right. Yu Wenzhou, how could such a cautious person bring out such lawless subordinates?"

Hearing the word "subordinate", Yu Wenzhou also sneered.

"He's not one of my men, never was."

Only when talking about Huang Shaotian, the quiet voice would have emotion.

"He's my love, so that's why you have to die today."

Confirming that he heard correctly, Chen Yehui looked shocked, and then let out a somewhat unbelievable and sarcastic smile.

spouse?It turned out to be a lover...

"Wenzhou, what nonsense are you talking to him, deal with it quickly and go back to rest!"

Yu Wenzhou didn't expect that Huang Shaotian actually came!

Chen Yehui was still laughing, laughing so hard that it made people feel hairy.

"Hey, hey, what about you, who is laughing so badly and disgustingly when you are about to die!"

"Naturally, I am laughing at you. One treats the other as a tool, yet they can still become lovers. Isn't it funny to see that you are still the one who is determined?"

Huang Shaotian was confused when he heard this, and his heart became inexplicably confused again.

"What do you mean?"

"You should ask your lover, Ye Yu, don't you know that the case eight years ago was thanks to him, and you almost died?"

Huang Shaotian was stunned.

Eight years ago, he and Yu Wenzhou were sent by the military commander to the Northeast to rescue a group of intelligence officers who were detained in prisons, but when they were rescued, they found that there were two criminals among them. If there hadn't been an emergency military situation that called him and Yu Wenzhou to the front line, the outcome would most likely have been a secret execution.

"Shaotian, don't listen to his nonsense, he is dying and wants to make a countermeasure."

"Hehe, Yu Wenzhou, to be honest, I wanted to kill you a long time ago. It's a pity that the shot you blocked was not in a good position and didn't kill you."

"So now it's your turn."

"Don't be complacent," Chen Yehui said with a smirk on his face, like a ghost haunting him after death, "There is one thing I think you need to know, Ye Yu was executed secretly, except for Chongqing, Yan'an to protect your safety , also gave me the same task! Now let me inform you, you don’t need to thank me, Comrade Soksar.”

silence.

Apart from silence, no amount of explanation is useless.

Once the code name of Soksar was exposed, Yu Wenzhou no longer needed to hide anything, because this code name was found out by Huang Shaotian eight years ago.The clues from that year came to an abrupt end here, when Huang Shaotian refused to doubt Yu Wenzhou.

Now, the long-buried deception has been unraveled, as if it was doomed long ago.No matter how much unspeakable suffering there was at that time, deception is deception after all.

Amidst Yu Wenzhou's silence, Huang Shaotian got an affirmative answer.

Chen Yehui's ferocious smile in front of him was forever frozen on his face, because the knife in Huang Shaotian's waist had pierced his heart.

It's weird not feeling the anger after being cheated on.

It's just that when the knife pierced the flesh and blood, it seemed to be inserted into his own heart.

The tip of the knife rotated in the body, tearing at the palm-sized organ, deforming and distorting it, and the blood spurted out. The crimson world in front of him was so scarlet, with a disgusting smell of blood.

Then there is a clear, pain that runs through the body, so painful that it stops breathing and a blank brain hums.

Memories from all walks of life meet unexpectedly.

They met in the military reunification special training class, and because of the complementarity of resourcefulness and force, they became partners.Then he was sent to many places to perform various dangerous tasks, walking side by side, giving his back and life.It is in this kind of struggle that they gradually walk into each other's heart, know and love each other, and become a part of each other.Then, on the Northeast battlefield, we will live and die together.Nanjing is lurking, and Huang Shaotian's sword protects Yu Wenzhou in the dark all the time.

They are the meaning of each other's existence, fighting, and all hope.

But these happy memories, looking back at this moment, are simply a kind of torture.

A torture full of ridicule and irony.

Perhaps Yu Wenzhou just needed a weapon to protect himself and a disguised identity.

And this feeling that he once thought could be learned from gold and stone may just be his play on the spot, and only he believes it is true.

He struggled for a long time with this kind of sharp and horrifying pain, and finally he was able to regain control of his body movements, and turned to face Yu Wenzhou, his eyes were frighteningly red.

Seeing Huang Shaotian like this, Yu Wenzhou knew that the moment he had been dreading had finally come.

It's too late to get out of the disappointment with the organization, so he has to face his lover who has been cheated by him for many years.

Although he decided to cheat at the beginning, he has not regretted it until now, but this kind of thing that he doesn't even have the right to regret really makes the people in it more painful.

He cherished the last sliver of luck, and hoped that Huang Shaotian would yell at him in a fit of rage, and it didn't matter if he did it, so that he could feel a little better.

But as wise as Yu Wenzhou, he also underestimated Huang Shaotian's injury at this moment.

The person in front of him didn't yell, beat anyone, or draw a knife or gun.

It's just that in the reddened eye socket, a drop of crystal tears fell.

Burning Yu Wenzhou's desperate heart.

Huang Shaotian has always been a strong person, at least for so many years of acquaintance, Yu Wenzhou has never seen Huang Shaotian shed tears.Whether it was military training that exceeded the limits of the human body, or later marching and fighting, or being injured during missions, tears were not his way of expression.

This time, what was called tears filled his eye sockets and ran across his face one drop after another.

He is indeed a very cheerful, active and talkative person. You think he can ignore everything, but he just doesn't say anything.Something that can make him cry must be extremely sad.

The person who is happy all the time is never happy anymore.

Yu Wenzhou felt that the sun in his heart would disappear and be replaced by real darkness.

"Young days..."

He didn't know what to say and still wanted to call out his name.

Hope the sun will come back.

"I don't want to say anything."

Probably, there is no coming back.

The early spring in Nanjing was rather cold this year, and there was not enough rain. The sun finally came in the morning, but before it warmed up, it was replaced by rain and haze.

Those who need to go out at night have to put on winter clothes again, and the hands holding umbrellas are stung by the wind.

But the person sitting in front of the window didn't care much about the cold weather. He was only wearing a gray shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the height of his forearms.The raindrops on the glass slipped from time to time, reflected on half of his face by the faint light outside the window, it seemed that he was crying.

Of course, he didn't shed tears, but just watched the rain outside for a long time.

When Huang Shaotian was not on missions and was not that cold-blooded and ruthless agent "Ye Yu", he was able to remain silent for such a long time. For Lan He, who had known him for a long time, it was simply a miracle.

But Blue River didn't take out his notebook to write down this paragraph, as a way to show off his experience to his teammates in the future.What he brought out was a bottle of good quality red wine.

"Young Master Huang...would you like some drink?"

The person occupying the windowsill of his house heard the sound and looked over, but shook his head and refused.

Sometimes getting drunk can really relieve the depression and frustration of being sober.But at this moment, even though Huang Shaotian was enduring the pain of being riddled with holes in his heart, he still always remembered that the situation he was in did not allow such meng lang.

What's more, he would wake up when he was drunk, but he hoped that he would not wake up after being drunk for a long time.

"Blue River."

"what?"

After being silent for so long, he finally spoke. Lan He secretly heaved a sigh of relief, and hurriedly answered.Unexpectedly, after this sentence, there was another moment of silence.

With Huang Shaotian like this, Lan He understands, but doesn't understand.

He was there that night two days ago and witnessed the whole process.At that time, Huang Shaotian's eyes were terribly red, and the moment his tears fell, not to mention Yu Wenzhou, Lan He felt a kind of chest-thumping sadness when he saw it.After all, a person who thinks he gets along day and night and is sincere has concealed his identity from himself for several years. During this period, a series of insincere deceptions are mixed in. These things are revealed overnight, which can easily push people to the brink of collapse .

That is the person who is willing to give his life and all his emotions. If he cannot be trusted, who else can be trusted?

Ye Xiu also concealed things like this, so Blue River understood.

But what he couldn't empathize with was that Yu Wenzhou and Huang Shaotian had known each other for nearly ten years.

Now, ten years later, the truth is revealed.And he is just someone who silently chooses to give up without even saying the word "love".

He couldn't help laughing at himself, but luckily he was interrupted by Huang Shaotian's words.

"How did you feel after you knew Lao Ye's true identity?"

This question is unsurprising, but the answer is not simple.

"Well, of course I feel cheated. After all, I have known him since the military academy, and I have never hidden anything from him. But the situation at that time was very special, and I didn't have much room to think about it."

Recalling when he suddenly learned that Ye Xiu was arrested, that Ye Xiu was One Autumn Leaf, and then the interrogation and farewell in the prison, Blue River felt sweet and bitter in his heart.

"At that time, we were just friends. I was honest with him, but it didn't mean that honesty was an obligation. After all, compared to his identity and mission, I was not qualified to ask him to put me first. But... he did his best later on. Protected me from being implicated, I am very grateful."

Huang Shaotian quietly listened to Lan He recall what happened at that time, listened to him talk about his own thoughts, without interrupting a word.

"I am honest with him and have no reservations about him because in my eyes he is a very good person and deserves me to do this. If he treats me the same way, it will be very good. If not, I have nothing to regret. "

"Later I chose to give up, but it wasn't all because of my father's deceit. It's just that I understand that my existence and my emotions may be a kind of restraint or even a threat to him. .Once this kind of emotion is known to the world, the military commander will not let him go, and probably will not accept him again. I don’t want to ruin his path because of myself.”

When he said these words, for some reason, the hug across the iron railing was always in his mind, and Ye Xiu sitting opposite him, snapping out the password to communicate with him.

【protect yourself】.

He is really a good person, always trying to protect him.Such a person, who wouldn't want to be with him?

There were faint tears in Lan He's eyes, as he gave up in desperation.

Love is good because love is hard.

He used to dream all the time, they understood each other