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"Hey, what a coincidence!" Li Ziwen smiled and waved to him.

Sinan was still holding on to the pack of cigarettes he had just bought, his mind was a little empty, followed by an irrepressible anger.

No matter how enthusiastic Li Ziwen was, he was choked by his expression and couldn't be more enthusiastic. He could only laugh awkwardly, scratching his head and looking at Chen Sen helplessly.

"Why are you here?" Chen Sen spoke first.

Si Nan only felt that something was stuck in his chest, choking all the way up to his throat, making him feel so uncomfortable that he couldn't speak.

A heavy loss.

"Guan Yan asked me to come over for dinner." Sinan's face became even uglier after saying this.

It's not that Chen Sen didn't notice it, but right now he can only pretend he didn't see it.

"Let's come back and get something."

you?

Simon couldn't control his expression.

"Where's something?" He sneered.

Facing his questioning gaze, Chen Sen moved his face away with some difficulty: "I didn't find it."

"Chen Sen..."

"Oh my god! It's almost twelve o'clock!" Li Ziwen stepped in embarrassingly, touched his stomach, and looked at the two of them, "I'm a little hungry, how about you? How about finding someone to eat first?" place?"

"..."

"..."

In this way, with the "enthusiastic help" of Li Ziwen, the three of them came to the hot pot restaurant they had made an appointment with Guan Yan and the others in a strange atmosphere, and then conveyed this strange atmosphere to everyone.

"Hey," Lin Shu touched Xu Xu's elbow, and asked in a low voice, "What's going on with the three of them? Why do I smell a love triangle?"

Xu Xu shook his head lightly, then turned his face and whispered, "I don't know."

"Come on, brother Li, our family Chen Sen has caused you a lot of trouble at school, thank you for taking care of him!" Guan Yan said pretendingly, picked up a bottle of beer and touched the bottle with Li Ziwen, Li Ziwen looked at him. Looking at the expressions of the two people next to him, the person who usually talked in a lively manner didn't dare to say anything at this moment, he just lowered his head modestly and smiled, and took a sip of beer with his head raised.

This sip of wine was a little rushed, Li Ziwen choked to death, Guan Yan laughed, and said that he couldn't drink enough.

"Brother, it's your luck to meet me today, come, brother will teach you to drink one!"

After Guan Yan finished speaking, he blew on the bottle.

Li Ziwen: "..."

My brother is so brave, chirp chirp.

Chen Sen was concerned about the people around him, so he didn't want to speak at first, but if Guan Yan, that idiot, really gets Li Ziwen drunk later, he will be the one to clean up the mess.He didn't want to drag a drunk cat back to the hotel, so Sinan would probably be able to beat Li Ziwen sober on the spot.

"He just pours a glass, you want to get him drunk and send him back to the hotel later?" Chen Sen gave Guan Yan a wink, hoping that he would regain his wits.

However, Second Master Guan is Second Master Guan after all, and if you eat three or two ounces of yellow soup, let alone expecting him to have a bright mind, expecting him not to speak blindly is already forcing him.

Guan Yan said: "Old Chen, you are so unreal! Your brother came all the way to see our mother, what a kindness! Even if he gets drunk and vomits on you later, then you can't dislike him! Let's talk , it’s rare for people to come here, I have to make people feel at home!”

Guan Yan has just grown up for half a year, and his hair is still half-shaven, but his speech is becoming more and more like his father's.

Hearing this, Li Ziwen complained in his heart, the eyes of the person next to Chen Sen almost stared at him, he only felt the god of death beckoning to him, if he had known, he would not have come to eat this meal.

It is useless to count on Guan Yan.

Chen Sen had no choice but to turn his attention to Xu Xu and Lin Shu again. Sure enough, with the mediation of those two people, the meal finally became less difficult to swallow.

Seeing that Sinan didn't move his chopsticks, Chen Sen said with a guilty conscience, "Shall I make you a seasoning dish?"

Si Nan gave him a cold look: "I have no appetite."

Chen Sen lost his appetite because of his words, but somehow he got up and made a fresh dish for him, and sat down in front of his eyes.

"Try it, the exclusive secret recipe."

Just one sentence brought Sinan back to the past.

Si Nan poked the coriander leaf with his chopsticks, turned his face to look at him: "Have you adjusted it for others?"

Chen Sen leaned over and said softly, "Where there are others, I only have you."

There was a group of friends sitting in front of him, Sinan seemed to have been burned to the tips of his ears by his words, and his face became warm immediately.

"Eat something?" Chen Sen asked again, and gave him a shrimp slip.

Si Nan ate obediently, and stopped moving his chopsticks after eating.

How could Chen Sen not know what he was awkward about, and he didn't care about eating, so he just focused on putting vegetables in his bowl.Si Nan ate whatever he put in. After a while, everyone at the table noticed it, and the atmosphere suddenly turned in another direction.

A table of people, everyone pretended not to see it, but Guan Yan was a person who didn't pretend to be serious and had no reputation in his heart, and said sharply: "Sinan, I didn't mean you, you are really getting better and better. Yue Niang is angry, you two are falling in love, you look so tired!"

It was originally a joke, but everyone at the table paused in unison.

It's such a time, even if Guan Yan drank too much wine, if he can't see anything, then he can really go back to the furnace and rebuild.

Guan Yan: "..."

What do you mean?My brother fucked my brother?

Chen Sen sighed in his heart for so long, but Si Nan was quite beautiful, and the anger in his heart when he saw Li Ziwen and Chen Sen coming out of the alley together disappeared most of the time.

"You...you..." Guan Yan stuck "you" for a long time, the pork belly on the chopsticks fluttered with his heart, and finally fell into his mouth and fell on the table .

Before the meal was finished, Chen Sen wanted to call Guan Yan out, but just halfway up his hand, the phone rang in his pocket.During this period of time, his mobile phone ringtone was adjusted to the maximum, because he was afraid that if the hospital called, he would not answer it. No, he took it out and looked, it was really the hospital's call.

Chen Sen raised his hand to signal Guan Yan to keep silent.

"Hello, Dr. Li."

Everyone only heard Chen Sen say this, and they didn't know what the doctor said on the other end of the phone. His expression changed immediately, he got up abruptly, picked up his coat and rushed out.

"Chen Sen!"

"Old Chen!"

"Oops, something must have happened!"

outside the intensive care unit.

"Go in, but don't talk for too long. We'll check the situation in the evening. If it's good, we can be seriously ill. The patient is currently showing symptoms of cough and shortness of breath. He may need a chest CT tomorrow." The doctor left after speaking.

Chen Sen walked in top-heavy, not long after, Li Nianqin opened his eyes and looked at him.

The moment Chen Sen saw her open her eyes, his heart seemed to start beating again, and his voice became hoarse the moment he opened his mouth.

"Mom, it's okay, my son is here!"

Li Nianqin didn't have the strength to speak yet, so she blinked, indicating that she heard.

Chen Sen looked at her with red eyes, and followed her gaze to the outside of the ward. Sinan was standing at the door, facing them.

Chen Sen stood up with difficulty, blocking her view.

The moment he got up, Sinan's heart skipped a beat.

There was just a "click".

Then he silently turned and left.

Si Nan walked all the way outside the hospital, but he couldn't hear the shouts of Xu Xu and Guan Yan, and his steps seemed to be floating, and he floated to the main road.

"God boy!"

With a cry of panic, Sinan was suddenly pulled back by an arm protruding from the side.

It was an aunt who pulled him.

The aunt wanted to say a few words about him, but when she saw Sinan's face, she muttered something that Sinan didn't understand, she immediately let go and turned away, looking very disgusted.

It wasn't until he floated back to the door that Sinan realized, oh, what the man said just now was: "Are you looking for death? How bad luck!"

There is no one at home, Chang Jian and Si Zhen are not here, so I don't know if they are on a business trip.

Sinan felt a little thirsty, so he poured himself a glass of lemonade, but when he drank half of it, he suddenly felt nauseous, and before he had time to go to the bathroom, he rushed straight into the kitchen sink and couldn't help throwing up.

After a hot pot meal, I vomited cleanly.

Bitter and astringent in his mouth, Sinan cleaned up the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, took out a can of beer, and threw a rock sugar into his mouth at the same time.

Li Nianqin was very seriously ill and might die.

If she died...Sinan drank his last sip, crushed the can as if venting his anger, and threw it into the trash can next to the desk.

Facing life, old age, sickness and death, how much courage can Chen Sen have left?Si Nan didn't want to think about it, and he didn't dare to think about it.

He picked up the materials for studying abroad prepared for him by his desk boss, Zhen Zhen, and after reading them for a while, he felt a headache like a villain jumping on a trampoline in his mind.

After taking a shower, Sinan wiped his hair while booking a plane ticket tomorrow morning to go back to school.

He'd never felt like leaving.

This time, he was the one who was afraid first.

Si Nan didn't sleep all night, he packed his luggage and sat on the floor in a daze, with the painting Chen Sen gave him in his hand.

Sitting like this until dawn, he left a note on the dining table in the living room, and then took a taxi to the airport.Just before the plane took off, Si Nan sent a text message to Chen Sen.

Chen Sen didn't see that text message until he was about to go to bed at night.He was busy all day preparing for the hospital transfer, Guan Yan asked for leave and ran to the hospital from school to stare at him and swallowed all the food he was busy with.

The content of the text message was not long, but Chen Sen seemed to have read it for a century. His empty hand trembled slightly, and then he clenched into a fist as if he couldn't bear it anymore.

The text message said:

—I'm back to school, don't want me.

It's been three months since he went back to school, and Sinan hasn't lost any of his part-time jobs.He was so busy that his feet never touched the ground, and he had things to do all the time. These things were like a sword hanging over his head. If he didn't finish it quickly, the sword might fall with a single swing.

He's so busy that he doesn't know what he's busy with, but he needs this numb, false sense of solidity.

During these three months, he heard that Chen Sen brought his mother to the north for medical treatment. He did not interrupt his studies, and it seemed that the only things left in his life were the hospital and school.

And this rumor came from Li Ziwen.

Li Ziwen found him a month after the start of school, and without Chen Sen in the middle, the two of them could sit down and have a good chat. Of course, the content of the chat was nothing more than Chen Sen's daily life.

Another month later, Li Ziwen called and told him that Chen Sen's mother was in very bad condition. Multiple liver metastases were detected just last week, and single brain metastases were detected this week.

"He has been unable to eat for the past two days, and has suffered from stomach problems several times. He is still on a needle at the moment, and he is guarding him in the ward every day... The school has a long vacation, and we don't know what to do. It's gone." Li Ziwen said in a heavy tone.

After making the phone call, Sinan went to the supermarket to buy a rice cooker and an insulated lunch box that day, and returned to the dormitory with a bag of rice and a box of fresh-cut fish fillets.The rest of the people in the dormitory looked at him as if they were insane, and they didn't know what he was playing.

When the meal was ready, Li Ziwen had to be troubled to bring it over. Sinan felt very sorry, but Li Ziwen waved his hand to signal that he was welcome.

"As long as he can eat it, it's okay for me to make two more trips. The point is... I'm afraid that if something happens to my aunt, he... I'm afraid he won't be able to hold on."

When Sinan heard the word "I can't hold on", his hands twitched nervously, and then he forced a smile and said, "No, I'm still there."

Li Ziwen also smiled: "That's right. Anyway, there are still you. When my aunt's illness improves a little bit, you... oh, I can only think about it slowly."

Si Nan had spoken, but he didn't know what he could do with him?

When Li Ziwen handed over the insulated lunch box to Chen Sen, Chen Sen froze for a moment.Open it, and there is steaming fish porridge inside. The aroma is very strong, and it goes straight into people's nostrils.

Li Ziwen didn't say where the porridge came from, and Chen Sen didn't ask, but he drank it clean as if he suddenly had an appetite again.

From that day on, besides going to class and working part-time, Sinan's third thing was to figure out how to use the rice cooker to make more tricks all day long.Even Wei Zhiyan, who was at odds with him in the dormitory, couldn't help but strike up a conversation with him once: "You used to be a cook, didn't you?"

It's just that Sinan just ignored him.

The summer in the north was extremely hot this year, and Sinan didn't go home during the summer vacation, but stayed at school under the pretext of preparing for the IELTS.In the middle, Guan Yan and Xu Xu made a special trip by train, and Sinan took the two of them around for a walk, ate something, and took some photos.

Sinan didn't know if it was Chen Sen, or what Xu Xu had said to Guan Yan. This time, Guan Yan seemed to have suddenly opened up and didn't ask anything, just like what happened in the hot pot restaurant last winter vacation Everything was just Si Nan's own imagination.

None of the three mentioned Chen Sen. After a week, Sinan sent Guan Yan and Xu Xu away.

When standing at the entrance of the station and watching the two leave, a thought suddenly popped into his mind: Does Chen Sen really exist?Or was it just his imagination?If it exists, why hasn't he contacted him for so long?

Thinking of this, Sinan suddenly felt boundless sadness, and it seemed that there was a big heart-piercing mass in his chest that was about to break out of the cage.He squatted at the pit entrance where people were coming and going, to see that no one was the one he missed.

There are thousands of people in the world with all kinds of faces, but none of them are familiar to him.

He finally couldn't help crying, for himself who was at a loss in this world of fireworks.

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