underground river

Si Nan was woken up by the noise downstairs.

He just sat up from the bed and was still a little unconscious. Excessive drunkenness made his head heavy like a piece of pig iron.Looking around, the messy small attic is full of things.

He is still in Hongba.

There was a lot of noise downstairs, and Sinan held his head and stomach a little uncomfortable. He touched his body for a long time before he took out his phone. When he looked at the time, it was already ten o'clock!Startled in his heart, he stood up abruptly, so dizzy that he almost vomited.

Miao Ran just came up and tugged him: "Are you okay?"

Si Nan frowned and waved his hands.

Miao Ran burst out laughing: "Looking at such a big and tall guy, but it turned out to be a cup, you are really promising!"

"I remember I drank more than one cup, right?" Sinan clutched his stomach, his expression a little uncomfortable.

"Thinking about throwing up?"

"Ah."

Miao Ran passed him and walked behind the end of the bed. Sinan turned around, only to find that there was another door there, which opened to a toilet that couldn't be more cramped.

"Spit up."

As soon as he finished speaking, Sinan threw up in the toilet while holding onto the toilet.

Miao Ran stood by the door with her arms folded, smiling playfully: "It's the first time I've seen someone get drunk and sleep and then vomit. You can really stock up."

Si Nan had already vomited up, but when he heard the word "goods", his stomach felt nauseous, and he vomited some sour water abruptly.

"Rinse your mouth." Miao Ran handed him a bottle of mineral water.

After Si Nan rinsed his mouth and washed his face, he came out of the toilet and searched for his coat all over the room.

Miao Ran took it off the hanger behind him and handed it to him: "Let's go now? Aren't you going to play?"

"No." He said, got dressed and planned to leave.

"What are you going to do?"

Si Nan tugged at his collar and turned around.

Miao Ran shrugged: "I mean, what do you plan to do in the future?"

"I didn't think about it." Sinan said truthfully.

Miao Ran raised half of her eyebrows nervously: "Are you still planning to continue liking him?"

After hearing his question, Si Nan habitually took out the cigarette case, took out a cigarette, held it between his fingers for a while, but failed to light it.

"Frankly, I'm not sure if I'm gay or not? I've never liked anyone. But... I don't think homosexuality is a sin. Also, I like Chen Sen, and that's not my choice." He lowered his eyes, He pinned the cigarette behind his ears, and when his eyelids were lifted up, deep creases formed under his brows.

"Suppose, I am a homosexual, I came into this world with nothing, and I will leave empty-handed. I will not plunder, and I will not participate in attacks. I think the world should not be afraid of people like me, even if I am a Gay."

At a certain moment, this narrow space seemed to become quieter.

Miao Ran said nothing, as if immersed in an unspeakable emotion.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Sinan hesitated for a moment: "Then I'll go first."

"Sinan—" Miao Ran suddenly stopped him, "Can you give me a hug?"

Si Nan was obviously surprised by his request, hesitated for two seconds, and stepped forward to hug him gently.

He suddenly thought of Chen Sen, the indecent smile on that man's face all the year round, every silence and frown on his face.Was he also helpless?Ever panicked?Have you ever hated yourself?Wish someone could give him at least a hug.

Thinking of this, Si Nan felt as if his internal organs were being burned by a steamer.

Being hugged by Si Nan, Miao Ran had the illusion that he was actually very young.

Yes, he is still young, but he is not sixteen or seventeen after all.

The boy's arms are firmer and more reliable than imagined, and the faint smell of tobacco makes people feel at ease.He was a little moved, a little jealous, but after all, he was kind once in a while.

Miao Ran backed away from his arms, and asked with a smile with red eyes, "How does it feel to hug a man?"

What Sinan remembered was the sports meeting, the moment when Chen Sen threw himself into his arms.

What does it feel like?

It's more fun than picking up money.

The music downstairs was deafening, and Sinan watched Miao Ran being quickly dragged away by his friends. He rejected a few people who came up to strike up a conversation, pushed open the door of the bar and walked out.

It's raining.

He stood under the eaves and stretched out his hands. It was very cool, and there was a strong fishy smell in the air that was washed and evaporated.

Diagonally opposite "Hongba" is a flower shop.The store is very small and decorated very retro.The dark green narrow wooden door is full of fresh green plants on both sides of the steps, and behind the glass window is a colorful flower stand.The raindrops under the eaves beat on the extended green leaves like a curtain of drops, tick-tock, the veins of the leaves were washed out, as if the veins of life became clearer little by little.

He was fascinated by watching, someone passed by, pushed him lightly, and suddenly woke up, the sound of wind and rain all over the world poured into his eyes in an instant.It is at such a moment that I suddenly feel lonely.

Boundless and unpredictable.

He wanted to see Chen Sen, which came out of nowhere.

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the speed of the car was forced to slow down under the rain.The man glanced sideways at the co-pilot, yawned, and asked out of words: "Little brother, you are in a hurry to go to Dongshi so late, are you in a hurry?"

"Ah."

"My car usually runs the line from Fucheng to Dongshi. If you need to use the car in the future, just call me." The man fumbled behind the visor for a long time, took a business card and handed it to him.

Si Nan accepted it as he said, and leaned to the side a little tiredly.

His stomach was almost empty, he didn't eat anything from the afternoon to late at night, he drank a lot of wine, and got caught in the rain. If he didn't have some thoughts in his heart, he suspected that he might faint immediately.

The driver brother was yawning all the way, and Sinan was afraid of accidents, so he could only hold himself up and chat with him nonchalantly.Unexpectedly, people didn't appreciate his favor at all, so he said tactfully: "Little brother, I don't think your complexion is very good, why don't you sleep for a while? The more I chat with you, the more sleepy I am, and I'm about to fall asleep... ..."

"..."

Dongshi is not too far from Fucheng, and it will take three hours if you drive fast.

It was almost three o'clock in the morning at night, the rain stopped, and the car finally arrived at Dongshi County.

"Little brother, where are you going?" the driver brother asked.

Si Nan gave his name from memory, and got out of the car 5 minutes later.

Fortunately, the hotel still has rooms.

He chose a private room, fell asleep as soon as he entered the room, and not long after, he jerked all over and woke up nervously.

It's not until five o'clock.

It was still dark, but he couldn't fall asleep anyway, his stomach twitched with hunger, so he just got up to take a shower, tidy up, and went out to find something to eat.After walking for a long time, I found a breakfast shop that had just opened. Unfortunately, the fire in the stove hadn't even been lit just after the door opened.

Not wanting to leave anymore, he simply sat in the shop and waited, chatting with the boss, chatting, feeling sleepy again, and fell asleep on the table in a daze.

When I woke up again, it was already daylight.

Si Nan opened his eyes, and suddenly met a pair of clear eyes.He was startled, and sat up straight, only to find a kid sitting across from him, giggling and laughing at him.

He touched the corner of his mouth subconsciously. Fortunately, he didn't drool.

The boss came over with a bowl of porridge and put it in front of him, jokingly said, "It's the last bowl, I thought you were going to sleep from the time we open the door until we close the door."

Si Nan thanked him embarrassingly, and took out the phone from his pocket, only to find that the phone had turned off automatically.

what time is it now?

He looked around in the store but couldn't find anything like a clock. He happened to catch a glimpse of a small colorful watch on the child opposite him. He was a little embarrassed and asked cautiously, "What time is it?"

The little boy replied with a crisp voice, "32:[-]."

Seeing how cute he looks, Sinan couldn't help asking, "Where's your lord? Why are you eating here alone?"

Little boy: "My mother can't come back from work at noon, so I come to Uncle Li's house for lunch by myself."

Si Nan nodded, and pinched his face encouragingly, and found that it felt good, so he pinched him more.The little boy's eyes were surprisingly big, bright and dark, and he didn't cry, just watched him obediently and let him pinch him.

Sinan borrowed a charger from the boss to charge his phone. He drank a bowl of porridge in two or three mouthfuls, but his stomach was still empty.

The little boy sat across from him, and it took half an hour to eat a bowl of fried rice. He even turned to educate Sinan and said, "Mom said eating too fast is bad for your health, you eat too fast."

Si Nan couldn't hold back and pinched his face again, grinning and said: "It's because you eat too slowly."

The mobile phone has not been charged much, but it can last for an hour or two.He got up and paid for the meal, went to the nearby supermarket to buy a handful of lollipops and a box of chocolates, walked back, and placed them in front of the little boy.

The little boy's eyes widened slightly.

"Children, eat less sugar, and you will get tooth decay." Si Nan stroked his head and smiled.

"Thank you brother."

The little boy pulled the schoolbag over, opened the zipper, and carefully put the candies in one by one. At the same time, he listed the smiling little brother in front of him as his third favorite person.

Si Nan came to the alley opposite the Chen family.

At this time, there was no one passing by in the alley, the door of the Chen family was closed, and there was no one on the balcony on the second floor.

He stood at the corner, turned the phone on and off, hesitated for nearly 10 minutes, but the phone rang suddenly, startled him, picked it up unexpectedly, and didn't even see who was calling.

"Hey?"

There is no sound from the earpiece.

Si Nan glanced at the screen - Chen Sen? !

He subconsciously glanced at the balcony on the second floor of Chen's house, thinking that he had been discovered, but Chen Sen spoke slowly on the phone, sounding like he had discovered him, and then his heartbeat returned to normal. Calm down again.

"I didn't do anything, I just wandered around on the main road." Sinan said, staring at the balcony on the second floor of Chen's house without blinking.When he thought that the caller was not even 200 meters away from him, his heart beat nervously.

"You are a road idiot, what are you wandering around, you won't know when you go out of town later." Chen Sen joked on the phone.

Sinan always felt that he hadn't heard this kind of lazy, perfunctory voice for a long, long time.He felt a little sour and a little hurt, because he was moved by the phone call.He seemed to suddenly understand that he was aware of his own existence because of Chen Sen's existence.

Someone passed by on a bicycle, and the jingle of the bicycle bell was crisp and sweet.

Si Nan stared at a small rock under his feet in a daze, blinked suddenly: "I seem to have wandered out of the city."

Chen Sen: "...what is it like?"

Si Nan didn't reply for a long time.

He sighed compromisingly, and his voice unconsciously brought a touch of comfort: "Are there any obvious road signs or shopping malls around you? Report it to me."

"Let me see." Sinan took a few steps forward, rounded the corner, stepped back a few steps towards the middle of the road, and turned his back to the gate of the Chen family.

"I only saw one supermarket."

"Supermarket? What's the name? Is the store big?"

The sun was shining after the rain, Sinan raised his head and squinted his eyes slightly, and read aloud: "Wanfu Supermarket."

The phone suddenly fell silent.

About two heartbeats apart—

"Fuck me!"

Si Nan turned around, and the scenery suddenly appeared in his eyes.