unexpected rain

After Lin Ji got home, he locked himself in the room.

He couldn't even cry. For the first time, he felt that his existence was so fragile and insignificant, being played by God so that he couldn't get rid of it.Whenever he was about to approach a ray of dawn, he was immediately kicked back, repeatedly.

Lin was neither brave nor strong. He endured for so long, and he gave up so much, but he was deprived of his relatives, his peaceful life, his mother's health, and finally, himself. .

Teacher Wu suggested that he repeat the study, but how could he still have the time and energy to repeat it?He needs money, he needs to pay off his debts, and he needs to treat his mother. No matter what he does, he can get money faster than going to school.

But in his current situation, he failed the college entrance examination and didn't have the name of a famous university, so he had no choice but to go to the club.

He doesn't want to be a waiter all his life.

Lin looked blankly at the light tube above his head. He couldn't see his future. There was a thick fog ahead. He had only two options: standing still and moving forward. He was unwilling to stop, but the future might It is the abyss.

This possibility, Lin thought negatively, is a certainty for me.

A cell phone rang.

Lin was dull for half a minute before taking out his mobile phone from his pocket. It was an unfamiliar number.

He pressed answer.

"Hello? Brother Lin, right? It's me, Song Guangfeng!"

The name Lin was a little familiar, but he didn't think of it for a while, and he said calmly, "Did you type it wrong?"

The other party replied loudly: "No way? Isn't your name... that Lin Ji? It's me, the one who pushed you in your clubhouse before!"

Lin remembered it, and then a burst of anger arose spontaneously, causing his current result to be a chain of causes. If this person hadn't pushed him down that day, then he would not have been injured and he could participate in the rationale. In the comprehensive examination, even if he doesn't have a recommended place in the end, he can still be admitted to Mian University!

At that time, he was even complacent about the compensation he received, but thinking about it now, he was really stupid to the extreme.

Lin Ji's voice became cold, "What's the matter?"

Song Guangfeng didn't notice the change in Lin Ji's tone at all, and he still said roughly: "I will leave Mianshi in two days, and I have been worried about you. It was Brother Song who made a mess that night. How is your injury?"

"Don't worry about it." Lin Ji clenched his fists, "It's just that he had a fever due to a wound infection during the college entrance examination, and he missed a test in the end."

"Oh, this is too serious, isn't it?" Song Guangfeng is an old man who graduated from junior high school. Since starting a business, he has become more aware of the importance of highly educated talents. For ordinary people, the college entrance examination is an important way to get ahead. He got drunk and messed up, messed up!

"Xiao Lin, Brother Song is sorry, just ask if you have any requests! Brother Song will try his best to help you!"

"Then can you go back to the past and punch that drunk you?" Lin Ji gritted his teeth to vent his anger, he would not fight, and the words he said were so ordinary that made people laugh.

He didn't want to talk to Song Guangfeng any more, hung up the phone and threw the phone at the end of the bed, turned over and sank into the pillow, whining in pain.

Half an hour later, Lu Qianran knocked on the door.

"Xiaoji, are you sleeping? I made sweet soup in the morning and chilled it. Come out and have a drink?"

Lin Jixiang seemed to lose consciousness, and it took ten seconds for him to react. He slowly got up and responded wearily.He patted his cheek hard until he felt numb and hot, then he went to open the door. Facing Lu Qianran, he must be the relaxed and calm Lin Ji.

Lu Qianran looked at him tenderly, and she could get great satisfaction just by watching him eat the sweet soup.

"Are you going out later?" Lu Qianran asked, "You haven't eaten at home for a long time."

Lin Ji paused and said in a low voice, "I have to go to work today."

He didn't see the deep guilt in Lu Qianran's eyes, she said: "You are too tired, my mother is really distressed, or I won't do chemotherapy..."

"Mom!" Lin Jiyang raised his voice, "Chemotherapy cannot be stopped."

"But..." Lu Qianran frowned sadly, her body was the biggest drag.

Lin didn't want her to fall into self-blame, so he changed the subject: "By the way, Mom, Teacher Wu called me today."

"Really? What did he say?" Lu Qianran asked.

Lin's tormented and desperate soul was forced into the water by a pair of hands called will, and he could not see the world.Like a robot programmed to be warm and smiling, he said calmly: "Mr. Wu said that my scholarship has arrived, and there is 5000 yuan. He also said that I will be able to report at the Mian University in September. It is... agronomy major."

"That's great." Lu Qianran's eyes were replaced by joy, and she was full of pride, "My son is going to be a college student."

Lin looked at her mother. Chemotherapy had made her hair thinner and her body was thinner than before. Her once well-maintained skin became pale and loose. She looked ten years older than her real age.

Lin Ji's eyes were sour, and his chest felt torn.He is very useless, unable to give Lu Qianran a comfortable life.

The turbulent soul gradually settled down.

No matter what he does, no matter how difficult or tiring it is, he will support him, he will protect Lu Qianran, this is the only person in this world who needs him.

In the days that followed, Lin Ji would receive calls from Song Guangfeng every now and then to inquire about his health. He was really guilty of Lin Ji, and he sent 1 yuan to the card he had given Lin Ji before, but Lin Ji didn't move.

"I'm not related to you, so there's no need for you to give me this money." Lin Ji said in a strange tone, "If you really feel guilty, stop calling me and let me keep recalling what you did. "

"Xiao Lin, Brother Song is inconvenient in other provinces. I will definitely invite you out for dinner when I go back." Song Guangfeng said, beating his chest and patting his feet. He said to himself, "You must take the money. It’s Brother Song who owes you, don’t let me ask for it if it’s not enough.”

Lin couldn't help but said harshly: "Who are you to me? Why should I ask you for money? Will you give me [-] million?"

Song Guangfeng said awkwardly: "Is [-] million too much? Why don't you do it with me? I can make money in this business, you..."

Lin couldn't take it anymore and didn't hang up the phone.

But as time passed, and August gradually came to the middle of the month, Lin Ji realized a serious matter.

In September, he was leaving home to fill up old lies with new ones.

But where can he go?

After Lin thought about it for a long time, the most conservative solution was to re-sign the labor contract with the clubhouse and officially become a full-time employee. Then he could be arranged in a staff dormitory, and his board and lodging problem would be solved.

but……

He really didn't want to be a waiter forever. This kind of life subverted the ideals he had received in the previous 18 years of education, and he couldn't accept it.

He wants to stand out, to succeed in his career, to have a brilliant and successful life.

The most convenient road collapsed, and he couldn't find the second one.

This kind of fear and anxiety caused Lin to suffer from insomnia for a week. He was originally thin, but when he was depressed, he became horribly thinner. Lu Qianran hurriedly replenished him with meat for a few days, making his pale face rosy. Just give up.

"School is about to start, what if I mess up my body again?" Lu Qianran worried, "Doesn't school start with military training? Look at your body, how did you suffer?"

Lin Ji gave a bitter smile, and then he tentatively asked with a little caution: "Mom, what if I can't go home because I'm busy with studies?"

Lu Qianran said: "Be busy, it's meaningful to be busy with your studies, don't act like it's for..." She paused, and then said another sentence, "Don't worry about me, I can take care of myself by myself. "

"How is your body feeling recently? Does your chest still hurt?" Lin Ji asked.

Lu Qianran shook her head, "It doesn't hurt, it hasn't hurt for a long time."

"That's good." Lin Ji said, "Mom, when I go to school, can I hire you a nanny? This way I can take you to the hospital and cook for you."

"Don't, don't!" Lu Qianran said in repeated voices, "Why waste all this money? I can do it alone!"

Lin Ji's attitude was very firm, "I don't worry about you alone, it's also good to have someone as a companion, I'll go to inquire tomorrow night."

"You child, how do you make it sound like you won't come back in the future?"

Lin Ji was startled, he lowered his head and ate a few mouthfuls of food, and said vaguely, "No..."

Lu Qianran looked at him tenderly, her voice was very low, mixed with sighs, "It's okay if you don't come back, after all, this family is like a blood-sucking bug..."

That night, Lin made up his mind and made a phone call.

"...Hello, I'm Lin Ji. What you said last time, is it reliable to make money with you?"

At the end of August, since school was about to start, Lin packed up his luggage early, one box at a time, simple and light.

Lu Qianran always wanted to stuff more things into his bag, such as toilet water, sunscreen, a well-wrapped red envelope, and the meat sauce she made herself.Since Lin only took the meat sauce, he quietly took out the rest when Lu Qianran was not paying attention.

Lu Qianran is going to chemotherapy in the afternoon. Their home is in the north of Mianshi, but Mianda is in the south, so the journey is quite far away. She has to go to the hospital in the afternoon, so she can't send Lin Ji.

She rambled on, "When you go to school, you have to build a good relationship with your classmates, take part in more group activities, and don't put all your extracurricular activities on part-time jobs, do you hear me?"

Lin nodded obediently.

Lu Qianran looked at Lin Ji, he had grown a bit taller, a head taller than her, and was about to catch up with his father. After being polished by social work, he looked much more mature, his eyes under the black-rimmed glasses were restrained and quiet, Not the shy boy he once was.

Lu Qianran's gaze was very deep, as if she wanted to imprint Lin Ji's shy and mature appearance between a boy and a man, which was at the youngest and most beautiful age, firmly in her heart.

"Xiaoji, you have to be good." Lu Qianran's gentle voice was choked with sobs, "I don't know how to give you the best...you have to be good, I really can't bear you..."

Lin Ji hugged her lightly, silently apologized for his lies, and then said: "Auntie Zhang will come later, ask her to do anything if you need to, take good care of yourself, and wait for me to come back."

Lu Qianran sent Lin Ji to the entrance of the community, and she hailed a taxi, "Go to Mian University."

She watched Lin Ji get into the car, and waved to Lin Ji, until the car drove out of sight, she reluctantly looked away, and walked back heavily and slowly.

In the taxi, Lin squeezed his temples, exhaled slowly, and said hoarsely, "Master, go to the airport."