Sustained high temperature

Feng Qi walked on the gravel road, the uneven road made the soles of his feet hurt, but he walked back and forth numbly.

After hearing the sound of Lin Chuyan going out, he also went out slowly.He ran away, not daring to see those burning eyes.

The sun rose slowly, and the scorching heat from the ground hit his cheeks. He began to feel hot and felt his whole body burn.His eyes were sore, sweat dripped from his forehead, his eyelashes fluttered, and his eyelids rolled down and lifted heavily.

The golden sunlight casts mottled light and shadow on the gravel road through the trees. The morning light and the sunset are really good to distinguish.The light in the morning, with the smell of morning dew, is always fresh, and much brighter and clearer than other times.And every time the sun sets, the amorous setting sun always looks charming and weak on the ground.

Traveling in such a clean and warm sunshine, Feng Qi almost felt that there was nowhere to go.Lin Chuyan's aura seemed to linger around him, wrapping him tightly and tightly.No wonder it's called Chuyan, this name suits him too well.

I declare you acquitted.

Thinking of these words, Feng Qi even trembled a little.For nearly ten years, he has been burdened with sins.Can the past be completely erased with an understatement?

His past, the past he has carried on his shoulders for so many years, can he really let it go lightly?

It's not that Feng Qi doesn't know the joy of liberation, it's not that he is willing to suffer torture.But he couldn't believe that the past could be completely burned.He believed that Lin Chuyan had such power, but he didn't believe in himself!

Hitting the wall in front of reality hurts too much, he is afraid, he is not 17 years old, he has no courage, but Lin Chuyan brought courage to him.

Do you know what kind of thing it is to be revived?

It hurts to the extreme!

Feng Qi felt that his heart was being torn apart, the pain made him want to grab the ground with his head, the pain made him want to cry out in pain, the pain made him almost unable to continue breathing.

One day, I will stand on a mountain top, completely deny my past self, and completely overthrow all my past life.

Please believe it, that is not getting a new life, that is not the joy of suddenly gaining the power bestowed by God.It was a destruction like a blow to the bones, and it was a pain like rebuilding one's muscles and bones!

People are used to avoiding things.There is no other reason, facing yourself is the most painful and difficult thing in the world.After wandering through the world in a daze, I suddenly realized that my past was all wrong.The road full of thorns is in front of us, and traveling through the past is eternity.And behind it is the cliff, the half of my life that was created by mistakes and ignorance.

Both roads are hopeless.Don't think that eternity is such an incredible thing, eternity is illusory.

If eternity means endless, then eternity is only a moment.Moment has no end, moment cannot be measured, moment is eternity.

Am I living just for this moment?

Feng Qi's head was about to explode, Feng Qi's headache was so severe that he couldn't walk steadily, he staggered all the way, and he didn't know where he was going.

Feng Qi's heart was both cold and hot, as if he was at the junction of magma and sea water.When he looked up, there was a patch of white sunlight, which made his eyes go black, and he suddenly lowered his head, spitting out a mouthful of blood.

When Feng Qi woke up, she saw a pair of clear eyes.He was placed on a bench.

Seeing him wake up, Chu Yan unscrewed the cap of a bottle of mineral water and brought it to his mouth, "Do you want a sip?"

Feng Qi nodded blankly, and Chu Yan gently fed him a few mouthfuls.

The cool water flowed into the stomach, Feng Qi became more awake.He leaned back in the chair, propped his elbows on his lap, and buried his head between his hands.

Heart is very empty.Feng Qi didn't know what else to think at this moment.

He completely forgot about Lin Chuyan's existence, and just sank into a place that no one knew, it was empty, the surroundings were pure white, there were no windows or doors, and he couldn't get out even if others couldn't get in.

I don't know how long it took, but he felt shaken.When he opened his eyes, he saw Lin Chuyan holding a kite in his hand, and said seriously, "Brother, let's fly the kite together."

fly a kite?

Feng Qi blinked her eyes.

Lin Chuyan repeated it earnestly: "Fly a kite."

Feng Qi shook her head.

Lin Chuyan acted as if he couldn't understand the meaning of shaking his head, he pulled Feng Qi up vigorously, stuffed the coil of the kite into his hands, raised the kite without any explanation, and looked back at him with persistent and firm eyes.

Lin Chuyan lived up to his name, like a dancing flame, he was quickly ignited.Feng Qi is sensitive by nature, so he is too confused at this time, and he is quite easily infected.

When he was turning the coil, he was only in a perfunctory state, but Chu Yan trotted with the kite, his head kept turning to him, the expression on his face was so innocent, his eyes were full of encouragement, Feng Qi couldn't help but also ran.

When the wind picked up, Chu Yan let go of the kite, and Feng Qi speeded up.

The kite flew up, already flying very high.

Feng Qi didn't stop for no reason, he kept running with the wind whistling in his ears.

He heard his own heartbeat, pounding in his ears, indicating that he was still alive at this moment, a very young life.

Feng Qi kept running and running, he saw that the lake was full of cherry blossom trees, he heard tired birds returning to their nests, chirping and chirping.

There were ripples in the lake, and a huge weeping willow on the side stirred the water. He couldn't help but walk out from the sidewalk and stepped into the muddy land beside the water.

But Feng Qi staggered, and he fell by the lake.

Just a little bit, a little bit close to jumping in.

If you stay longer inside, Feng Qi will be able to go there.

go to that place.

The place that should have been.

Feng Qi.

Is that where you should be?

Chu Yan's screams rang in his ears, Feng Qi lifted his head up with his hands on the wet ground, he saw his own reflection in the water, sweat dripping from his forehead straight into the water.

His reflection was instantly blurred.

Chu Yan quickly ran over and knelt down beside him.Panting heavily, Chu Yan used all her strength to punch Feng Qi hard on the back.

Feng Qi slowly moved her head and turned to look at him.Feng Qi's eyes were full of confusion and confusion, as well as faint fear.

Such eyes are too challenging, but Chu Yan is not afraid.He has a firm will and rises to the challenge.From the very beginning, Lin Chuyan was determined to overcome this look, and he never gave up.

"Kites," Lin Chuyan looked into Feng Qi's eyes, "fly very high."

The coil in his hand was long gone, Feng Qi slowly raised his head.

The orange-red sunset dyed the horizon into a holy look, and two birds flew from two directions far away and were about to meet in the center of the sky.

Feng Qi trembled in his heart:

Their kite was flying right between the two birds.

Chu Yan stared at the kite above the high sky, and the sound was like a bell from afar, ethereal and solemn: "Those two birds are guarding our kite."

Feng Qi's nose was sore, his eyes were stinging, and his mouth was bitter: "That's just a coincidence."

Chu Yan turned to him again, those eyes were pitiful and holy, and the compelling light shot out from them, piercing the darkening sky, shining brighter than a white dove, shining straight into Feng Qi's heart.

Chu Yan paused every word, and was extremely firm: "No."

Feng Qi realized that he was trembling, he quickly withdrew his eyes, stared at the ground, almost outrageously, and said loudly on purpose: "That doesn't make any sense!"

Chu Yan didn't say anything else, just tilted his head, and called out obediently, "Brother."

Feng Qi felt that something in his heart was broken, and the sound of breaking spread in the valley of the soul, echoing for a long time.

He didn't know how to face Lin Chuyan's aggressive attitude.He didn't know how to treat such a thing.

Flying a kite is just a child's game.

What did Lin Chuyan want him to realize?Did he really realize it?Does the vast sky really reveal something to him in an almost magical way?

Feng Qi clenched his hands tightly, pinching his palms with his nails, he moved his head very slowly bit by bit, and carefully looked at the sky again:

The two birds flew back and forth around the kite, playing endlessly.

Feng Qi knelt on the ground, covered her face with her hands, and cried bitterly.

Lin Chuyan's voice came from above his head: "Brother, admit it, you really don't want to die."

Yes.Feng Qi can no longer deny that he loves this world, and standing under the sky, he wants to live more than anyone else.

But how is he going to survive?How could he not die.

Feng Qi's voice was dry, he had struggled with despair and hope for too long, his heart was overwhelmed, and he was about to be destroyed: "Chu Yan, you have ignited a fire in my heart. However, there is a boundless sea in the depths, and the fire can only be destroyed." can be drowned."

Lin Chuyan shook his head, his words were worth more than a thousand gold: "No."

He leaned close to Feng Qi and looked straight into his eyes: "I want to keep burning, I want that place to keep high temperature, I want to let the sea water evaporate willingly."

Feng Qi raised his head, looking at the deep blue sky above his head.The sky is high and the ground is far away, the sun is scorching and the cicadas are dry. Maybe the high temperature will continue.

To live is not for a moment, but for every moment, moment after moment.Is it true that God has given us eternity by letting us come into the world?

Bringing the past into the present is not making the past disappear.It's about acknowledging the past, and acknowledging that the past me has become the present me.

No need to make a choice.Living in the past, or living in the present or the future, is eternal.

The past will not change, only me has changed from beginning to end.There is no need to deny the past, deny yourself.Every moment of my life is eternal, so why should I be afraid of mistakes, life and death?

The author has something to say: (Yes, I beeped more today) First of all, some questions!Continued high temperature.Then, the kite scene was actually written first. When I saw it when I was playing in Xi’an, I wanted to write a novel, so I came up with this article. The story was poorly told and disorganized.In the end, the scumbag author knelt down, Feng Qi was a "problem" young man, and he was solving his problems along the way.But in fact, how could such a thing be easily explained?In addition, I am very superficial and naive, and what I say is nothing but nonsense.It is impossible for me to have any conclusions on the issue of life and death.This is a crispy-skinned duck about love, and I have no intention of discussing any profound issues. This is just my point of view at this moment.I write it here, mainly to give a message to friends who have read the conclusion. Everyone has their own ideas, and I respect everyone's ideas.In addition, there will be a chapter or two in the back.just sauce~