Sustained high temperature

It was already June, and the college entrance examination was coming soon. Tang Yi called Lin Chuyan and told him that Mr. Yang would give his last class tomorrow morning. He would talk about some unofficial history to ease everyone's nervousness, and asked Lin Chuyan if he wanted to come.

Lin Chuyan thought that after Tang Yi graduated, he might not have the chance to listen to Principal Yang's class, so he quickly agreed and asked her how her studies were going.

Tang Yi said that his study status is not bad, and the exam should be no problem.Lin Chuyan asked cautiously, "Is Xu Qin okay?"

"He's fine. I guess he was too excited last time." Tang Yi glanced at Xu Qin who was helping him carry the bag, "He's fine."

Lin Chuyan was relieved: "Then you guys do well in the college entrance examination, come on."

"Then you go early tomorrow, and I'll reserve a seat for you." Tang Yi smiled on the other end of the phone, "I'll hang up first, and I'll be home soon."

"it is good."

Tang Yi stepped forward and grabbed Xu Qin's schoolbag belt: "Go slowly, I won't be able to catch up."

Xu Qin glanced at her short legs, smiled, and took a few steps back.

Tang Yi stared at him, Xu Qin took her hand again, and sang a song while walking: "Look at the sky one step, two steps, three steps, four steps, and watch the stars one by one..."

Tang Yi couldn't help but also laughed: "What are you happy about?"

"It's nothing, it depends on how stupid you are." Xu Qin just thought of Tang Yi throwing a pile of steamed buns on him as soon as he went downstairs to take out the trash that morning... Wangzai's little steamed buns knocked him into a daze for a long time.

Tang Yi stood there, full of momentum: "Come with me to class."

Xu Qin was still stunned.

Tang Yi threw another pile of steamed buns on him.She stood there like a little bird, lively and smart: "You promised me, you will not become what she said. Xu Qin, you said something angry yesterday, I don't blame you. You are my boyfriend , I believe you, but if you still act like a child today, I will smash you to death with a steamed bun."

Xu Qin was stunned for a long time, probably fainted by her, and he laughed after a while: "You beat me to death with Wangzai's steamed buns, it's quite ideal."

Tang Yi smashed him again: "Just say you are still angry?" She kept firing small steamed buns, as if using a unique hidden weapon, asking over and over again: "Are you still angry?"

Xu Qin had nowhere to hide, Tang Yi hit him firmly and hard, and hit him in the face when he saw it right. Although it didn't hurt, it was quite embarrassing.He covered his face with his arms, and responded to her helplessly: "Don't be angry."

Only then did Tang Yi stop, walked up to him, and tiptoed to stuff all the remaining buns into his mouth.

Xu Qin's mouth was stuffed, and he whimpered twice. Before he had time to crumble the little steamed bun and swallow it, he saw Tang Yi's tears streaming down his face.

She cried violently, tears dripped down to her chin like a waterfall, her neckline was wet, and she said sobbingly, "If you do this again, I don't know how to help you. I'm afraid."

Xu Qin was silent for a long time before taking out a tissue to wipe her face: "Why do you believe me?"

Tang Yi took the tissue himself, wiped his nose red, and replied in a low voice: "You are not a sinner, nor a murderer. I believe in the facts."

She looked up at Xu Qin: "As long as you believe that you are not, you are not. Everyone has evil thoughts, and the subconscious is not something you can decide." She grabbed Xu Qin's sleeve, "I have said this many times If you don’t listen, I really can’t do anything.”

Xu Qin bit his lower lip and asked again: "Tang Yi, if everyone says it's my fault but it's not, will you believe me?"

Tang Yi was so angry that he picked up a bunch of steamed buns from the ground and threw them on him: "Didn't I always believe in you!"

Xu Qin smiled even more happily, and walked forward holding Tang Yi's hand. After singing the song, he said to her: "Tang Yi, next time I see Li Lin, I will not be afraid. I will tell her well that I am not sinner."

Tang Yi also laughed: "Okay. Get up early tomorrow, sit in the front, and we will sit with Chuyan and listen to the class."

Lin Chuyan looked at Feng Qi who was sleeping in the flower field, took out his small phone and looked at it, it was almost nine o'clock.He had no choice but to push Feng Qi to wake him up. Feng Qi was in a daze, and kept calling him softly: "Chu Yan, Chu Yan."

Lin Chuyan's heart softened suddenly, and he responded.

Feng Qi took his hand and covered her chest, her voice was like a child's, aggrieved: "There is a dog running towards me."

Lin Chuyan laughed: "I'll drive it away for you." Then he lowered his head and kissed Feng Qi's forehead, "Don't be afraid."

Feng Qi suddenly woke up.

The four eyes met, and the affection in each other's eyes was too clear.Feng Qi turned her head stiffly, and took out her mobile phone from her bag: "My name is the driver."

No way, no one can accept sudden changes.The impact on the soul is greater than anything else, sweeping the whole body, in the chaos, the individual's will is insignificant.The sky is full of drifting voices, noisy and restless.

Lin Chuyan knew that he wouldn't feel too good in his heart, so he chose to be silent very considerately, leaving enough space for Feng Qi to digest everything.

Leaning on the back of the chair, Feng Qi looked out of the car window all the way.

Driving from the dark, quiet and peaceful suburbs to the brightly lit and noisy city, Feng Qi's mind was full of noise.He really wanted to say something to Lin Chuyan, so that the child would not feel uncomfortable being left out, but he himself was so blocked that he couldn't even say a word.

The despicable sentiments had been staged intensely and enthusiastically on him.Despair for the world led him to indifference. How this world has nothing to do with him, yet he has lived on for so many years.It's ridiculous to say that people have been tortured by the world over and over again, endured countless hardships and punishments, and still refuse to die.

He has already determined his destination, that is, he admits the sound of sea water in his mind and the ending set by his mother.But deep in his heart, he rejected the sea again and again.He stayed in the world where his relatives had left, he was looked at coldly and ridiculed, and loneliness swallowed him, but it didn't swallow him whole!

There is no convincing answer to which one is better, life or death.But in the depths of Feng Qi's heart, isn't the faintly flickering flame the desire for life?If not, why did he lie to himself to wait until the end of the contract?When the contract was over, he told himself that the sea water in July could wash away his sins?

This is ridiculous.What can be different about seawater in July?It's the flood season, and maybe it's raining cats and dogs for days on end, which can change the color of the sea water and make it turbid.

Feng Qi just didn't admit it, he set deadlines for himself again and again, but he was buying time instead.

At this moment, Lin Chuyan was pressing every step of the way, Lin Chuyan burned a hole in his heart, he had no choice but to fill the hole, and also had to face up to his own heart.

What is the definition of guilty and innocent?What crime did he commit?Who will convict?Who can conclusively convict him of innocence?

One question after another made Feng Qi's mind go numb.He was extremely confused and numb to the extreme.

He was used to escaping, so he evaded again.Escape is the best way to save lives. It is easier than anything else to think about nothing and go with the flow.

It was very late at night, Feng Qi walked into the next room, stood beside Lin Chuyan's bed for a long time before leaning down and kissing his forehead, whispering: "I'm sorry, Chuyan."

The next morning Lin Chuyan got up very early, bought soy milk and fried dough sticks and put them on the table, in order not to disturb Feng Qi, he left a note for him, and walked out the door lightly.

After getting off the bus at the bus stop, Lin Chuyan quickly ran to the security department, taking advantage of not changing shifts, she pulled Sun Bingzhi to chat coquettishly with her.

Sun Bingzhi rubbed his head: "Is there a lot of study pressure recently? If you can't read the books, don't bite the bullet and learn. If you are unhappy, come to grandpa, and grandpa will buy you chicken wings. Don't hold back. "

Lin Chuyan laughed hard: "Am I the kind of person who can hold back things? It's okay Grandpa Sun, I'm fine."

Sun Bingzhi sighed: "You just have to be good. Alas, a girl from No. [-] Middle School jumped off the building last night, and there was a lot of trouble. I don't know why, but such a young child can't think about it."

Lin Chuyan was surprised: "Jump off a building?"

Sun Bingzhi nodded, with regret on his face: "I heard that he has a bad relationship with his parents, and he is always excluded in school."

Lin Chuyan also sighed, and when she remembered, she hurriedly asked, "Have you been rescued?"

Sun Bingzhi shook his head: "I lost my breath when I was discovered."

Lin Chuyan was silent. It was embarrassing to lose a life in such a young age.He stayed in the security department for a while, then walked to Tang Yi's classroom.He has always been kind and soft-hearted, and after hearing this kind of thing, he is not very happy to listen to Principal Yang's lecture.

After finding a seat in the front row and sitting down, Lin Chuyan took out the exercise book from his bag and started working, waiting for Tang Yi to come.

After there were too many people, the classroom quickly became noisy.The children were all gossiping, and if something happened to a student, they all talked about it.Some lamented that it wasn't worth it, some complained that the child's parents and teachers didn't care about the child, some accused the classmates of being too bullying, and there were many who gave advice and talked about the brave and resolute outlook on life, and despised the girl who despised her life.

Lin Chuyan couldn't study with peace of mind, so she frowned.

Tang Yi and Xu Qin arrived late.The expressions of both of them were not quite right, especially Xu Qin's face was extremely pale.

Tang Yi sat down next to Lin Chuyan, watched him size up Xu Qin, immediately grabbed his clothes, and explained in a low voice, "They said that the one who committed suicide was Li Lin."

Lin Chuyan was so shocked that she almost subconsciously said "Huh?"

Tang Yi looked ugly, pointed at Xu Qin, and shook his head at Lin Chuyan.

Lin Chuyan clenched her lower lip, lowered her head, feeling depressed for a while.

Xu Qin sat next to Tang Yi and remained silent.Tang Yi kept looking at him worriedly, but he just shook his head slightly and said nothing.

Mingming also said last night that if he meets Li Lin, he must tell her that he is not a sinner, but now he has no chance.Xu Qin was bitter, and sat on the chair mechanically, all the voices around him were automatically blocked by him.

When Principal Yang walked into the classroom, the students were still discussing in full swing, and some even smiled and were proud of their wise remarks.

Principal Yang strode into the classroom, put his hands on the desk suddenly, and made a "bang".The students stopped whispering and looked at him.

The usually funny and humorous teacher frowned at this time, with a serious expression on his face.He stayed in this posture for several minutes, until the classroom was completely silent, and then slowly opened his mouth: "I just stood at the door for a while, and I probably heard everything you said."

Everyone looked at him.Some students' eyes are already a little subtle.

Principal Yang slammed the desk with all his might, and said in a rare voice: "Why are you mocking the person who committed suicide? No one has returned from the dead end, and no one knows what the situation is. Isn't it terrible? We are all afraid of death. , and they walked over there sadly and bravely, why do you ridicule them for being cowardly? You look down on suicides for their fear of reality and laugh at them for not even daring to live, but do you dare to face death? Life or death, which one is more important? Is it terrifying? And is it the proof of a true brave man that he is heading towards death or toward life?"

He threw out a series of powerful questions, and there was a dead silence in the classroom. Everyone held their breath and sat upright unconsciously.

Principal Yang stared longingly at the blackboard newspaper at the back of the classroom, where there was also the slogan of the college entrance examination oath: "The child is determined to go out of the country, and he will not pay back if he fails to learn."

He pushed down his glasses with his stubby fingers, and said in a deep voice, "You are all going to be adults, you are no longer children. You have been yelling all day long that you have grown up. Today, you are really going to be adults. The world is over, children." His expression was a little sad, "I hope that all of you are people with conscience and compassion, not learning machines produced on the education assembly line. Adults, don't lose their innocent hearts. I hope that everyone , all have the sincerity and kindness of a child.”

He raised his voice and asked again: "Who is to judge life and death? Is there a fixed standard for judging everyone's life and death? Can you distinguish the boundary between life and death? Do you know when to die and when to live?" ?"

No one was complacently indulging in self-indulgence any more, no one said anything, they all looked in front of them in silence.Lin Chuyan's throat tightened, and he was hit harder than anyone else present.

After a long time, Principal Yang's voice sounded again:

"Here, we point to one immutable rule: Everyone dies."

"Sooner or later we will go to death, and no one can escape. So we don't have to worry about whether it is more valuable to live or it is wiser to choose suicide. When facing suicides, we have no right to accuse them of cowardice. Facing the plight of reality , Some people choose to die, and some people choose to continue to live, which is a way to solve this dilemma."

"I think it's better to choose to live on."

"Because we will die sooner or later, and until then, there is no need to pursue death in particular."

"And when we face suicides, how do we treat them? We shouldn't tell them repeatedly how unworthy it is to die. We must give him a reason to live. We must let him recognize that living can also enable him to solve the problems he is facing. predicament."

He paused at this point. The old and respected headmaster pressed the corner of the desk, and his voice was heavy and full of persuasion: "However, everyone's life can only be responsible and decided by himself. I implore Gentlemen, respect suicides. Give them tenderness in life and peace in death."

After one class, Principal Yang walked out of the classroom with big strides, but there was still no one speaking in the classroom.After more than ten seconds, Xu Qinteng stood up and ran outside the classroom.Tang Yi quickly chased him out.

Lin Chuyan sat on the seat with cold hands and feet, buzzing in his head.But the blood all over his body flowed faster, as if it was burning, scalding his bones.

He murmured: "Feng Qi." He smiled again, "I know your secret. I know."

He quickly left the school gate and got on the bus, got out of the bus and rushed all the way home, but when he entered, he found that the house was empty.The soy milk and fried dough sticks were still on the table, untouched.

Lin Chuyan collapsed on the sofa, but his eyes were still shining, looking straight ahead.The wind blew up the paper on the desk in the study, flying it far away in sight.The lines are faintly visible in the flickering light, the structure of the house has been completed, it is a finished product.

The author has something to say: Everyone has a different definition of life and death. My thoughts at this age are the same as Principal Yang.It only represents my personal opinion, I don’t want to spread chicken soup, and I don’t want others to be like me.In the final analysis, this story is also very false. Many opinions and opinions in the article are mostly my own stubborn and superficial understanding. Don't believe me.Damn.