Sustained high temperature

The cram school that Lin Chuyan attends is the same one that Tang Yi attends to study math at night, and the two meet occasionally.

After school that day, Lin Chuyan and Tang Yi walked outside while chatting. Tang Yi asked him, "Can you understand my notes? Sometimes I get sleepy in class, and my handwriting is very sloppy."

Lin Chuyan smiled: "The notes are written very clearly. It's easy to tell if you're sleepy or not. As you write in the notes, it turns into braised pork or roast duck."

Tang Yi smiled embarrassedly: "I guess I wrote it when I was hungry and tired."

The two chatted all the way, and walked to the bus station together.As soon as they turned a street, they heard terrified and piercing shouts: "You are a murderer! You killed me!"

Just as Lin Chuyan thought the voice was a little familiar, he saw Tang Yi rushing over there, and he hurried to follow.

Li Lin still looked hysterical, she stretched out her arms and pushed Xu Qin.Xu Qin didn't respond, and was pushed back again and again by her.

Tang Yi called out: "Xu Qin!"

Xu Qin didn't turn his head, instead he covered his face when he heard Tang Yi's voice.

Tang Yi turned to look at Li Lin, trying his best to suppress his anger: "Why did you vent your anger on Xu Qin? He helped you, is he wrong?"

Li Lin glanced at her coldly, then stared at Xu Qin again, without saying a word.

Tang Yi was even more annoyed: "Xu Qin ignore her, let's go!" She reached out to grab Xu Qin's hand, but Xu Qin avoided it.Tang Yi threw his hand away, and looked at Xu Qin in disbelief: "Did you forget what I told you? Don't believe what she said."

Xu Qin still covered his face, his voice muffled from his palm: "Don't look at me."

Tang Yiding stared at him for a while, while Lin Chuyan stood beside him in embarrassment, not understanding what was going on with the three of them.

At this time, Li Lin laughed wildly: "You know, right? You are guilty! You murderer!"

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Lin Chuyan couldn't help but said, "If he was a murderer, he would have been sent to the juvenile prison long ago, so why should you charge him?"

Li Lin pointed at Xu Qin and said firmly, "He killed me."

Lin Chuyan glanced at her like a madman.

Li Lin gritted her teeth and stared at Xu Qin, trying to restrain him with words like a mantra: "You killed me, you are a murderer. You are a murderer just like your father!"

Xu Qin's shoulders trembled for a moment, and then the trembling became more and more severe, until the whole body trembled violently, almost like sifting chaff.

Lin Chuyan walked over and just put his hand on his shoulder to ask him what's the matter when he was pushed away vigorously. "Don't touch me!" Xu Qin roared in pain.

Lin Chuyan stood still in a hurry, and looked at Tang Yi in surprise and bewilderment.

Tang Yi was almost in tears. She gritted her teeth and said softly to Li Lin: "Why are you doing this? Xu Qin's father is a murderer, but he has been sentenced and accepted legal sanctions. How do you Just hold on to Xu Qin? Is it Xu Qin's fault that you were excluded and bullied? What position do you take to punish Xu Qin?"

Li Lin shook her head, her hair was messed up, and she seemed to have not taken care of herself for a long time, she whispered: "It's his fault." Just after she finished saying this, she became angry again, as if her pain had been opened. Switch, she screamed: "How could I become like this without him? I'm a lunatic, and my parents don't want me anymore! No one cares about me, no one likes me, I'm so lonely, I'm going to die, He killed me!"

She gasped with excitement, and searched for something in a panic, but she picked up a stone from the ground and threw it at Xu Qin, "Murderer!"

Xu Qin was hit in the abdomen, but he didn't fight back immediately in anger.He was still trembling uncontrollably, his eyes were dazed and his lips were pale.

Tang Yi cried out in pain: "Please forgive yourself!" She walked straight to Li Lin, "Why are you torturing yourself like this?"

Li Lin stared at her: "It's you, don't let me go. You all harmed me, hated me, and bullied me."

But Tang Yi hugged her suddenly: "I hate you, why do you treat Xu Qin like this? I like him so much, I feel so uncomfortable. I know you are working hard, you are not happy in life, you find your own happy things Can’t you do it? Can’t you work hard to change it? You hold on to Xu Qin, but how will he compensate you? Has he ever hurt you?”

Maybe Li Lin has never been hugged like this before, she has always been hated.She squeezed the words out of her mouth stiffly: "Without him, I can still be an introverted student who has been rumored, and I don't have to suffer so many insults."

"His father killed the students. His father is the sinner of the whole school, but what does it have to do with him? Why put all the hatred on Xu Qin?" Tang Yi felt very uncomfortable, and couldn't figure out why this happened.

"He's so violent!" Li Lin began to accuse Xu Qin crazily again, "His father killed someone, and he still beats someone at school! He injured so many classmates, he is a genetic murderer!"

A cold and stubborn young man, he is pointed and pointed at everywhere he goes, and there are always people talking behind his back: "That's him! His father killed someone!" "He's not a good bird!" This kind of person can get closer!" "But he has good grades!" "Good grades are useless, but his quality is low!"...

His father was still waiting for the final verdict, and he was so upset that he couldn't calm down at all, so he beat people angrily, venting his distress ignorantly and childishly.His little heart is so sad that no one cares.And his words and deeds when he was stimulated became evidence that he "flows with the blood of a murderer"!

Li Lin pushed Tang Yi away abruptly, and shot Xu Qin with resentful eyes: "Without him, I can keep silent forever, I can go to a good university, I can put aside those rumors, and I can still..." Her voice Trembling, "I can still fall in love with other outstanding boys."

She sniffed and said loudly, "My parents won't give up on me, I won't play truant, and I won't become a lunatic." Her desperate gaze made Lin Chuyan's heart chill, and her hands and feet were cold.How could such a nice little girl become like this?

Xu Qin finally raised his head at this moment.His eyes were bloodshot and haggard as if he had aged ten years.His chapped lips moved, but he still couldn't say anything.

Li Lin's gaze gradually lost its sharpness, and she had the desolation that young people shouldn't have. She raised the corner of her mouth and looked at Xu Qin: "What do you think you are meddling in?" She lowered her head and said softly, "We They are all so lonely and annoying, why do you help me?"

Tang Yi smiled bitterly, and took her hand again.

"It's not easy for everyone to be liked by others." Tang Yi said, "I have never been a person who attracts people's liking. I have many friends around me. They are humorous and witty. They grasp all the hot spots of the moment. They are always around. It's full of friends who want to hang out with them. When a group of us walks together and the rest of us go to the likable people, no one talks to me."

"Especially when something is going to be discussed, everyone walks up to them and has a heated and joyous discussion with them. If I don't join in, I will be forgotten."

Li Lin looked at her without expression.

"But," Tang Yi continued to confess, "If I'm not interested, I won't join."

"In this world, many people are not so likable and have the ability to call friends."

"Even if you have a friend one day, you can't stop her and other outstanding people from achieving a deeper friendship with you."

"The people around you will be lost."

"Li Lin, it's okay. Most people in this world are lonely. When you try to taste loneliness, you will feel sad and envious of those who are not lonely. It's normal. But everyone will feel lonely , don't be afraid." She grabbed Li Lin's hand even tighter, and at the same time felt Li Lin's slight trembling.

Li Lin didn't break away from her, just kept silent, and Tang Yi continued: "Sometimes I would rather be alone. Because I really despise me like that-to avoid loneliness, put on a smile in embarrassment, squeeze into a group that is not Among those who like me so much."

"It's never easy to be liked by others. It's better to be with yourself to fight loneliness."

Li Lin finally spoke, her voice was dry and unpleasant: "You say that because you have someone you like, and someone likes you."

Tang Yi's eyes were very serious, and her voice was soft but firm: "Someone asked me, who is my favorite person. My answer will always be: I like myself the most."

A sneering smile appeared on the corner of Li Lin's mouth.

Tang Yi shook his head at her, and looked at her more firmly: "This is not ridiculous, not at all. It takes a lot of courage and strength to like yourself and get along with yourself. I appreciate this kind of myself, and I like it too. This kind of self. It is because I like myself bravely and confidently that I can be liked by others.”

"Li Lin," Tang Yi shook her hand, "As long as you be yourself and don't care about other people's voices, you can overcome rumors and ridicule. Don't hurt yourself like this, and don't hurt the person I like. You can ?"

Li Lin turned her head and looked at Xu Qin.

The two tortured people looked at each other for a long time.Xu Qin felt that his throat was so dry that he couldn't say a word. Just as Li Lin withdrew his gaze, he clearly saw her mouth shape, saying "murderer" word by word.

Li Lin broke away from Tang Yi and avoided looking into her eyes.She ran away quickly, and said: "Stop reading comics, little princess! You don't understand anything!"

Tang Yi wanted to call her to stop, but Li Lin ran away before she could speak. She hurriedly went to see Xu Qin: "Are you okay?"

Xu Qin stands still in the same way as a sculpture.Like sculptures, soulless, even dusty and dilapidated, they are waste materials that cannot be called works of art.

Tang Yi called him in a low voice: "Xu Qin, you are not the murderer she said, you are not."

"I am!" The word "murderer" pierced Xu Qin's heart like a knife, causing him to bleed, and he roared fiercely, "I want to kill her, kill them! I am a murderer." , I have killed them countless times in my heart!"

Tang Yi was shocked and horrified, she looked into Xu Qin's eyes in disbelief: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

Xu Qin gasped for breath with difficulty, his chest heaved, and he said sadly: "I'm home." After speaking, he was also like Li Lin, without looking at Tang Yi, and ran away quickly.

Lin Chuyan immediately chased after him.Tang Yi also ran after him, calling Xu Qin constantly.But neither of them had as good physical strength as Xu Qin, and soon found that Xu Qin had disappeared from sight.

Tang Yi sat on the ground weakly, looking up at the dark sky.

Panting heavily, Lin Chuyan couldn't help asking: "Xu Qin is so violent, why do you like him?" He probably understood the context of today's incident, and Xu Qin was indeed as violent as Li Lin said.

Tang Yi's expression became very sad: "Don't blame him. He tried so hard to become brave and defeat himself. He is obviously very good, he just needs a little time."

Lin Chuyan was persuaded by her for a moment. He thought for a while and said: "But, isn't it because he chose to do bad things that caused him to become like this? People become what they are. His own choice. He regrets it now, but he is still doing hurtful things over and over again. He keeps repeating, keeps denying himself, and finally becomes a complete loser." Hurt people use hatred to pack pain to hurt others. What a sad reincarnation.

Tang Yi stamped his foot on the ground suddenly: "That's not the case!"

She suddenly became very excited, and Lin Chuyan was frightened.

Tang Yi's eyes were very red, but he tried his best to keep his voice normal: "A person's personality is caused by many factors, and sometimes we cannot control the activities of the subconscious mind. From childhood, the environment has constantly affected us, and the behavior of people around us has produced The subliminal influence of the Chinese Communist Party is terrifying, but we probably don't know about it. Xu Qin has been working hard to change, and he is very serious about himself. He needs help."

Lin Chuyan was silent for a long time, and finally sighed.

Tang Yi went on to say: "I really feel very sorry. Like Li Lin just said about my little princess, I can't refute it at all, because I really can't empathize with her experience. Principal Yang has always emphasized that we must care for others, It’s really hard to be considerate of others.”

Lin Chuyan couldn't help asking: "What did Principal Yang say?"

Tang Yi said: "He said that each of us may have countless evil and terrible thoughts in our subconscious mind, don't worry about being a monster. The subconscious mind is not determined by ourselves, we cannot be afraid of it, we must face it and overcome it."

Tang Yi smiled, and said to Chu Yan: "You sound normal, right? Chu Yan, you are a very simple person, but you don't know that many people in this world are against you. I know some people sneer , but I know it's really difficult."

Lin Chuyan shook his head lightly.Tang Yi didn't know about his past. He looked sincere and innocent. Could it be that he was as clean as a piece of paper and grew up under careful protection?He said: "I know, I didn't sneer. I'm waiting for someone, and he's fighting against himself. He's breathing hard. My heart aches no less than you."

Tang Yi looked at him, but Lin Chuyan stood up and pulled Tang Yi to stand up too: "Let's go back first, the family will be worried at this late."

Both of them walked back to the bus station with a heavy heart.The bus Tang Yi was waiting for arrived first, so he said goodbye to Lin Chuyan and left first.

Lin Chuyan stopped at the bus stop for 2 minutes before a car stopped in front of him.The window of the car lowered slowly, revealing Feng Qi's handsome face, and his voice was also pleasant: "Get in the car."

With the yellow headlights shining on the front, Lin Chuyan stood in the darkness, a little thinned by the faint light, and he asked eagerly, "Are you here to pick me up?"

This question is no different from a nonsense sentence.Feng Qi took out a paper cup from the glove box, and said loudly into the mouth of the cup: "Come to pick you up, my little classmate Chu Yan."

Obviously the other party had heard it a long time ago, he turned his head around the cup again, and said to Lin Chuyan, "Listen to my answer."

Lin Chuyan leaned closer to his ear, and pressed the paper cup as if bewildered, the psychological effect was so strong that he thought that the cup still had Feng Qi's scorching breath.The mouth of the cup just touched Feng Qi's lips, and now it's against his ear again, just like Feng Qi kissed his ear.

Lin Chuyan got into the car, and kept her eyes on Feng Qi, not daring to look away.

"What's wrong?" Feng Qi asked with a smile, "Is there something on my face?"

"No." Lin Chuyan withdrew his gaze, "I asked for leave, let's go to see Lily tomorrow evening."

The author has something to say: There is a new article next door, "Mr. Fang is wild when you see it" (it's not a serious article when you hear it), cookies.Gentle scum attack × indifference on the surface and fiery love in the heart, interested students can see it in the author's column.