whose child is the sugar pile

Chen Shen held Tang Shanhai's hand, sat from sunrise to sunset, and waited until the sun was setting outside the window, the stars and the moon were shining, and the light of the sun and the moon passing through his eyes alternately.

He knew that there were many things waiting for him to do without delay.

The net has been laid, but his legs are as heavy as lead, and the blood flow in his body is not smooth after he hasn't changed his movements for a long time.

Bi Zhongliang's action has always been very fast, Li Moqun is used to judging the situation, Ying Zuo just waits for them to die, and then finds the next lackey effortlessly.

However, if he can't watch Tang Shanhai wake up, confirm that he has passed the dangerous period, and bear the reality with him, then everything will be meaningless.

Su Sansheng was very unwilling before leaving, but turned back and said to him seriously, "When the meeting room opened, he thought it was you, and when he was about to enter the operating room, he still wanted to see you..." Then he pushed the door and went out, closing it behind his back , said in a shy voice, "Chen Shen, don't be ignorant of cherishing it."

Standing there, Chen Shen finally gave Su Sansheng's desolate and lonely back a look, just like the first time he appeared in the Chinachem Hotel, like a hunting dog that fell into the water but was still fierce, with flesh and blood remaining in its teeth.

I originally wanted to be like him, wrapped in a frivolous painting skin with indifference, in hell, but my heart is harder.Time and sunlight are both luxuries, the gears stopped when he fired that shot, darkness filled his eyes, he couldn't see the way he came, and he didn't know where he was going.

Until—"The moment you pushed open the door, I seemed to hear the slight ringing of the second hand." Chen Shen looked down at the little finger that moved a few times in his palm, and laughed, "Watching you walk step by step When approaching me, here" Chen Shen held Tang Shanhai's hand close to his chest, "The heart belonging to the other half began to beat, and I carefully suppressed it all day long, always afraid of scaring you." Tang Shanhai was wrapped in frost and snow and the wind direction When he came, the clear smell rushed over him and pulled his dying body up from the mire. Tang Shanhai's eyes were full of warm and polite smiles. He clearly wanted to pretend to be a traitor, but he had such a Persistent and clear eyes.Such eyes, torture and pain can not cover a layer of dust, still clear to the bottom.

"I just understand now, how can you be scared so easily, you won't collapse like this." On the road of revolution, you and I have lost too much and are too heavy. Every time we look back, it seems that our backs are overwhelmed and crushed Even lower, but as long as you turn your head and face the stormy and turbulent country invaded by the Japanese invaders, no matter how many times you bend down, you will straighten your back again, never shrink back without fear.

"So, promise me, you will hold on no matter what. What we have lost now, we will get back from them ten times and a hundred times together. Every sacrificer will not give his life in vain like this." Chen Shen bowed his head and held Tang Shan Hai put his hand on his face, and looked at his half-opened eyes.

Tang Shanhai looked at him, pulled his other hand out from under the quilt, and slowly placed it on his lower abdomen. The pain there was no longer so obvious, but the feeling of blood connection disappeared.He just woke up, although he heard the words clearly, he didn't react for a while, until he held his lower abdomen, the place was empty, and the feeling of slight swelling and falling pain was gone, he finally understood what Chen Shen said they had lost.

Tang Shanhai's eyes were a little out of focus, and his face was blank for a while, as if he was looking at him, or looking through him at the dark night behind him, "It's still... not saved."

Stared at by his blank eyes, Chen Shen felt even more uncomfortable. It turned out that the joys and sorrows in the world tasted so heart-wrenching that he couldn't tell the difference between sweet and bitter. Facing Tang Shanhai’s mouth, he couldn’t find any more words. It turned out that the more he cared about a person, the more he wanted to take off his prosperity for him, and take off the disguise to show him his original self, “It’s my fault, I came late gone."

Tang Shanhai just shook his head, maintaining a nonchalant look, as if he wanted to vent his strength, but he was tired and weak, and he could only hold the quilt tightly on his lower abdomen with his hands, "Who would have thought which step went wrong."

"Shanhai," Chen Shen lowered his head, licked Tang Shanhai's dry and chapped lips little by little, carefully put it in his mouth, slowly pressed the tip of his tongue against the other's lightly biting teeth, and poked in, no longer as arrogant as before. And plunder, wandering in his mouth little by little.

So Tang Shanhai saw Chen Shen's arrogance hidden in the fields of debauchery and wine. Wine and women are his disguise, and his faith has been hanging there high, like a sharp blade; Under the daze, only the crazy desire for possession seems to be the driving force for existence.

Facing Chen Shen, Tang Shanhai chose to hold the hand he extended to help as a gesture of goodwill, and never intended to let go.There is not only love between them, but also the same belief and fighting direction. Isn't the best thing in a person's life is to know what to fight for?

As small as the family, as large as the motherland.

Chen Shen's kiss was comforting, and it had never been so warm. Tears rolled down from the moment Tang Shanhai was kissed, and the white pillow towel was covered with wet marks, which were still spreading.

Tang Shanhai just opened his lips slightly and let him kiss deeply, neither resisting nor pandering, his eyes were soaked with water.

Chen Shen's chest seemed to be hit hard by something, and the sudden sense of loss of control came one after another, and then he saw clearly Tang Shanhai's face that was weeping calmly and silently, and his heart seemed to be tightly clenched by his hands.

Is this the pain of losing a precious life?

Is this the unbearable pain of being sad for the person you like?

Why have I never been able to protect him well?

There was once a small life in Tang Shanhai's now empty stomach, and that was the life they should all take care of and look forward to welcoming.

However, before the faint heartbeat could be heard, it was irretrievably lost.

Chen Shen stood up slightly, lifted Tang Shanhai's head and pressed it into his chest, hugging Tang Shanhai tightly with both hands, feeling the warmth of his body.

"Shan Hai, don't cry." The words and actions were so pale, he couldn't comfort him, Chen Shen had never experienced such profound powerlessness.

Tang Shanhai has always been self-disciplined and resolute, creating an illusion of invincibility for others and himself, but it is so easy to smash this illusion.

He thought he could take it, but in fact he didn't even want to accept the fact that he thought it was just a nightmare, and he woke up sweating profusely, but the baby was still there.

Chen Shen pursed his lips and hugged him, "As long as I hold the gun, I feel very light. Human life and ants are the same in my eyes. I know this is not normal, but my blood that has been burning has gradually cooled down. But there is nothing I can do, I can only pretend not to know, and abandon the gun from now on.”

Chen Shen put his hand on the back of Tang Shanhai's neck, his shoulders were full of tears, "I know my blood is getting colder day by day, in order to adapt to this place, I must be more ruthless, because the more emotional I am, the easier it is If I fail, I can't afford to lose."

"I actually know that the darkness in my heart is getting bigger and bigger, but I don't know how to get rid of it. The more I want to change, the more I can't control it, almost desperate. It's you... When I was going to sink to the bottom, Shan Hai, you pulled me away. Bundle."

Tang Shanhai's eyes suddenly froze, something rolled down the back of his neck drop by drop, and slid down his shoulders to his back.

"You prevented my blood from freezing, accepted my abnormality, and taught another me to feel the heat of life... It's just that the price is too high." Chen Shen hugged him tighter and tighter, knowing that he must never lose in his future life. Tang Shanhai, "I don't even know how you have the courage to accept that me!"

After a long time, Tang Shanhai finally spoke. He said softly, "Chen Shen...you are crying."

"What..." Chen Shen stood there in a daze, thinking that he had heard wrongly, and stared at the white wall with wide eyes.

Tang Shanhai said again on his shoulder, "You are crying."

Chen Shen wiped his face with the back of his hand, and seemed to be frightened by the still warm liquid, trembling all over, "How could I..."

"Because you are really sad," Tang Shanhai's voice began to be clear, his voice still choked with sobs, as if he had just woken up, "Because you are in pain." Because a knife cut off his long-rotten wound, let fresh The blood began to flow again, allowing the texture to grow again.

Over the long years, Chen Shen not only painted a face on himself, but in order to hide his true emotions and protect himself and his comrades-in-arms, he unknowingly made himself more cruel. With the part of faith, that's why the darkness is kept in the deepest part of my heart.

But he didn't expect that the result of doing so was only half rotting, half in darkness, day after day and year after year.

Tang Shanhai hugged Chen Shen's back with both hands. It turned out that they already knew each other in this way, and Tang Shanhai could know everything he wanted to express in a few words.They are not only lovers, but also confidants, comrades-in-arms, and partners who dance on the tip of the knife. From that rainy night full of despair, they have been the only ones to rely on each other. "Chen Shen, when I first found out that I had a child, I actually I was at a loss and thought it was a trouble. When Su Sansheng imprisoned me, he even thought about losing his child to escape... Maybe it was because I thought about it that I lost it in the end."

"No, absolutely not, don't think like that!" Chen Shen didn't dare to make him think too much, and immediately cut off the conversation.

"I know, I know." Tang Shanhai sighed for a long time, "I was careless, Bi Zhongliang was obviously abnormal, but I still ignored it and let him take advantage of it."

"Shan Hai, leave the rest to me, okay?" Chen Shen said lightly, he raised the pillow on the bed, let Tang Shanhai lean on it, got up and took a step back, and knelt down on one knee, "I miss you Ready to be a qualified husband."

"I know I have a lot of problems with me, and I hate myself too,"

"But until I met you one day, I found that I still have the only advantage in me,"

"That is, I like a person and am willing to do everything for him,

"I've thought a lot during this time, and I've figured it out," he took out a silver ring from his pocket, "I don't know if you'd like to give me a chance to be mine..." In these words, Chen Shen It was the second time I said it, obviously because I didn't have a good draft, I got stuck for a while, looking up at Tang Shanhai, a little embarrassed.

"Mrs. Chen?" Tang Shanhai looked down, there were still some tears on his face, but the corners of his mouth were raised and he answered, "Aren't you too lazy to change the words?"

"I'm not... Speaking of which, I was actually a little sad at that time. I didn't intend to tell Li Xiaonan this story. Some people looked relaxed after I finished speaking and started drinking. At that time, it was only me. A person's heart is very sad."

Tang Shanhai tilted his head, and asked, "I remember Li Xiaonan rejected you, but he didn't wear a ring." Speaking of Li Xiaonan, Tang Shanhai was still a little bitter, he admired her bravery and determination, and suffered from her last move .

Chen Shen couldn't help being anxious after hearing this, and took a step forward on his knees, "Don't, this time I'm sincere." He took Tang Shanhai's hand resting on the quilt, and put the ring on without any further explanation, with an impatient look on his face. A little fierce.

The infusion tube in Tang Shanhai's hand shone brightly in the dawn, he raised his hand to look at the silver ring, and finally smiled at him in the twilight of morning light.

Chen Shen finally learned what it means to seize the moment.