I exchange my innocence for ten years for your constant companion

From July 7th to today, July 15th, I have been in a very chaotic life. I don't want to read books at all, and watch dramas to pass the time.

The grades came out, and I only had to retake organic chemistry and still stubbornly failed.It's okay, at least the principle of chemical engineering has passed.This is the only subject I can't get enough of. I can't retake this subject next semester, and it won't delay my review and preparation for the postgraduate entrance examination.My grades are not enough, so when I retake organic chemistry in the second semester of my senior year, I will try my best to get a higher score in the exam, and I just need to pull it off.Organic Chemistry is a degree subject.

Since I moved there, I've been running to the dormitory every three days (even making excuses), I don't want to see the two of them, I'm so uncomfortable.

He also felt it, and knew that something was on my mind. On the 16th, after taking a shower in the gym, I was in the elevator.

He asked me: "Have you been worried recently? Where have you been today?"

I took a deep breath secretly, and tried my best to answer briskly: "Well, yes. Do you know? I didn't close my eyes last night, and I went back to the dormitory early this morning to catch up on sleep."

The elevator quickly reached the first floor, and quickly stepped out of the elevator door.

He: "Well, do you agree with the bed?"

Me: "Well, it's been like this since I was a child..."

Find a shared bicycle and unlock it.

On the night of the 15th, I didn't sleep all night, and I thought a lot.

I don't like him anymore!I really don't like it anymore!I really don't have to like him!He is not very good, although he is really good to me~

If he hadn't been so nice to me, I would have refused to share the rent with him at that time...

In order to watch Tanmei dramas, to play games with him, and to enter Bilibili, I specially applied for a QQ account.

I never liked playing games, but when he pulled me into the pit of the game, I agreed.Because I think I am playing with him, because I want to get close to him, and get close to him by playing games.In fact, I succeeded, and my goal was achieved.

After playing games with him, he talked to me more and more, although most of them were about games, but I was very happy at that time.I can't play games, so I took the opportunity to talk to him more, even if it was about how to level up quickly...

He changes the game very quickly, I think so, whenever I am almost proficient, he changes the game to play.The character in my game is always the support type, the name of my game character is always "Liu Muchen", and my trumpet is "Liu Muchen".I'm too lazy to think of a name.

Liu, is the homonym of my surname; Mu = love; Chen, is his name.

Although he always brought his girlfriend with him when playing games, his voice from YY language still made me very happy at that time...

That night, I changed the trumpet's name to "Liu Lichen".Glass=from, dust=morning.I want to stay away from him, don't want to see him, don't want to see them both.

In the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I watched "Moon by the Moon" on Bilibili, joined a very interesting group, and met a group of very interesting people.I bound my trumpet account to my large account, for the convenience of switching, and for the convenience of watching Uncle Yang's dynamics.I want to see if Uncle Yang and his little rabbit can make it to the end. I hope they can make it to the end. I wish them a happy life!

I log on to the trumpet every day, just to watch Uncle Yang's activities.

2018/7/17

When I came to my room in the morning, I saw my small folding mirror. I was washing the original pots and pans in the kitchen on the small balcony. I planned to cook and cook by myself during the summer vacation.

Chen: "Hey, your mirror..."

I know which mirror he's talking about: "What's wrong?"

Chen: "It's nothing, it looks a bit like mine...haha"

In my heart: "Your uncle! MMP, did you forget who gave me the link? Did you forget that I bought a similar mirror according to your mirror?!"

I replied lightly: "Oh..."

He turned and went out.

He really didn't care.

heartbroken...

In the evening, we went to RT-Mart to do some shopping together.

I followed the two of them not too far away, his girlfriend held his hand as if no one else was there, and so on and so forth.I turned my head, trying to ignore them, not to look at them.I try to pick things naturally, ignoring all displays of affection and dog food.

2018/7/19

Xing successfully graduated and started working.He is free at night and plays cards with his colleagues.I wanted to make a video call with him right after the exam, and he played cards for a long time.Once he finally finished playing cards early, it was nearly 11 o'clock, and he had to take a shower.They go to bed at 11:[-] in the evening, and they can't go to bed as late as they want like in school.I could only urge him to take a shower quickly, without mentioning the video at all.After work, you still need to play cards and socialize properly. I know this very well.Xing can't be as rigid as me. The teacher invited us to dinner, but I refused to drink.

Until today, Xing finally knew that he wanted to make a video with me.I am very happy.

At 8 o'clock in the evening, Chen asked me to go to his room, and he taught me how to play games.He's playing "Blade of Souls" now.I told Chen that I would have a video call later, and he asked me what time and how long it would be, and then said, it’s okay, your friend is calling, just go and answer it.

At 10 o'clock, Xing called. I turned on the video, but he didn't.

Me: "I want a video, I want a video... I want to see you, I want to see the living environment of your staff dormitory..."

He just turned on the camera.After looking around for me, the picture freezes on his face.

Xing: "Hey, that's it. It's not as good as school."

Me: "Is there a balcony?"

Xing: "There is a small balcony outside."

Me: "Oh, you didn't play cards tonight?"

Xing: "It's over, it's just over now."

Me: "Oh, how much do you play cards? How much is a card?"

I don't play cards, I don't play mahjong, I don't like gambling.My dad gambled wildly for a while, and the family couldn't persuade him, which made the whole family dislike and unhappy.I have seen it a few times, and I know something rough.

Xing: "If you don't play money, just play casually."

Me: "Oh, are you busy with work during the day?"

Xing: "It's very relaxing, otherwise how can you be in the mood to play cards at night?"

I understood in my heart, but I was still a little uncomfortable at that moment: "I don't know if I should call earlier..."

I said briskly, "Oh~"

Xing: "It won't be so comfortable starting next week. It's still in the training period."

Me: "Ooo"

Xing: "Okay, let's stop here, I haven't showered yet."

I looked at the time, it was 10:13: "Uh...let's talk for a while, let you go at 10:[-]."

Me: "You look like you've lost weight."

Xing: "Uh, it depends on when you compare it. Compared with the time during Chinese New Year, I'm thinner. Compared with the time in school, I'm a little fatter these days."

Me: "Oh, it's because I was working day and night in school to catch up on my graduation project."

Xing: "Well, during that time, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep well..."

The awkward chat lasted until 10:23, and I felt that I couldn't continue the chat, so I took the initiative to say: "That's it for today, I will chat with you after you go to the construction site, and see what you are doing. Haha~"

Xing: "Well, good. You know, after I take a shower, I have to wash my clothes by hand, and..."

Me: "Is she (Xing's girlfriend) still videoing with you every night?"

Star: "Yeah!"

Me: "Okay, it's fine. Goodbye, you go take a shower."

Xing: "Yeah, bye."