An Accident in Broad Daylight

After disappearing for no reason, Brother Shan didn't give Yi Zhe a good look for several days.However, Yi Zhe was used to being treated like this. Apart from being careful not to make Brother Shan angry, he was safe and sound. He should measure data and verify data as usual, and he was not affected by this elder brother's bad face at all.It's pitiful for Xu Ren, it's not counted as a microphone between two people, but also teasing this and that, it's exhausting.

"What is this?" Yi Zhe asked, picking up the envelope and letter paper that Xu Ren had put on the table.

"A letter from home." Xu Ren said, "Brother Shan asked me to bring it over. We can each write a letter and send it from here."

Home letter?

Yi Zhe found it strange that he had never written this thing before.

"Write it quickly, Brother Shan said that I will write it for him in two days."

Yi Zhe turned the envelope over, turned it over again, and asked Xu Ren, "Why did you write this?"

"what?"

Xu Ren didn't answer this question, so what's the reason for writing a letter from home?

Yi Zhe threw the envelope aside casually.

Unlike his indifference, Xu Ren was so excited that he washed his hands before picking up the pen, saying that he wanted to write the first love letter in his life with a more pious attitude.But there was only so little ink in his stomach, even if he mixed it with water, he couldn't support a profuse love letter. Xu Ren's pen was sore, and he just wrote "To", without any follow-up.

"Hey, Yi Zhe." He stretched out his arms, knocked on the table, and called the person sitting next to him, "I want to write a love letter to my goddess, how should I write it?"

Yi Zhe was repairing a broken clock, his mind was immersed in the tiny parts, and he had long forgotten about a letter from home.He turned his gaze to Xu Ren, remained silent for a moment, and asked, "Do you want to write a love letter?"

"correct."

Love letters are also family letters.After discovering this problem, Yi Zhe felt that this activity was very meaningful.

"You write it too!" Xu Ren suddenly said, "Didn't you say that you are 'not separated' from your girlfriend? You wrote her a love letter from Antarctica. How romantic. Sweet as ever."

Yi Zhe didn't correct Xu Ren's name of "girlfriend", but was seriously thinking about writing a love letter.

"But what to do," Xu Ren worried, "I can't write it."

Seeing him plucking his hair again, Yi Zhe couldn't bear it: "Don't pluck it, write whatever you think."

"I think it's too simple, that is, I want to see her, and I like her very much."

"Then you can write like this."

"Write like that?" Xu Ren shrank her neck and frowned, "It's too straightforward, it's only a few words, and it seems that I am so uneducated. My goddess loves reading so much, she will definitely see through me even a famous book. Haven't even watched it."

"You're not writing a book..." Yi Zhe thought his idea was strange, but seeing that Xu Ren really planned to write this love letter, he respected his idea and didn't go any further.

He repaired the clock, adjusted the time again, and placed it in the center of the table for the two of them again.The second hand went down, causing Xu Ren to stare at the watch in a daze.

"Hey...you shouldn't have a clock like this," Xu Ren said, "I don't even know if it's nine o'clock in the morning or nine o'clock in the evening."

There was no sunrise for four months, and the cold was minus [-] degrees.

"It's evening."

Yi Zhe paved the paper, but stopped after writing a few words.

As Xu Ren said, let him write a letter to Xu Tangcheng, the content will be very simple.He didn't want to write anything, he didn't want to describe the life here, what the scenery was like, he didn't want to say how long he went through the maladaptive period, he didn't want to say that the extreme day and night made his sleep worse, he just wanted to write one sentence, I miss you.

No need to add adjectives, no need to say anything else, because Xu Tangcheng will understand.

Xu Ren squeezed out a few words for a long time, and showed them to Yi Zhe hesitantly.

"what do you think?"

Yi Zhe glanced at it, made some calculations and considered in his heart, and still said his feelings truthfully: "There is no blessing."

"Ah..." Xu Ren's head drooped and he knocked on the table, "It's too difficult."

Xu Ren couldn't write, and went to bed full of annoyance, while Yi Zhe stared at the empty letter paper for a while, and then peeled off the first page with a few words written on it.When I picked up the pen again, I changed my name.

The polar night finally passed amidst people's increasing anxiety, and the streaking event was held as scheduled.That was the most special sunrise that Yi Zhe had ever seen. Everyone at the research station came out of the house, screaming and running, or watching and cheering. At this moment, the boundaries of the country really disappeared. Everyone, It's all just an individual who has longed for the light for too long.

Brother Shan was standing next to Yi Zhe, and wanted to tease the figure of a very eloquent American, but when he turned around, he saw Yi Zhe's gaze crossing the cheerful people and meeting the thin sunlight in front of him.

"Aren't you going for a run?" Brother Shan bumped Yi Zhe with his arm.

Yi Zhe quickly withdrew his gaze, raised the corners of his mouth, and quickly said, "Forget it."

He is still not used to running naked.

The difference between his quietness and the surroundings is too obvious. Brother Shan had a guess in his heart, so he put his hands around his shoulders and strangled hard: "Homesick?"

I still have the bank card in my pocket, like a talisman.

Yi Zhe shook his hand lightly and nodded.

homesick.

"Then work harder. If everything goes well, we will be able to go back soon." Looking at the sun, Brother Shan also sighed, and repeated again, "The sun is out, soon."

Yi Zhe agrees with this statement. When the sun comes out, there are still three months before they leave.

"If you miss your family too much, just call back. Seeing that you are bored in the house all day, I am afraid that one day you will be bored and shoot these people with a gun."

Yi Zhe was amused: "Am I so gloomy?"

"That's because you don't feel it yourself. You can ask Xu Ren. How many times have you told me that you are unhappy. When people are unhappy, they will pretend to be fake. You are unhappy all over your face, scaring him to ask me every day. Do you want to organize some entertainment activities to enliven the atmosphere."

Yi Zhe looked at Xu Ren who was jumping up and down to cheer for others not far away, and was a little surprised.Thinking about it again, I finally understood why Xu Ren insisted on telling him jokes every day before going to bed.

In fact, Yi Zhe felt that he was not as unhappy as Brother Shan said. Missing him had become a habit, and he was no longer as painful and helpless as when he left at the beginning.At that time, it was rolling over like waves, but now, it is like water dripping from the eaves, quietly, but the dripping on my heart is enough to moisten it.

It is not uncommon to say that there are times when Yi Zhe suddenly thinks or thinks especially. For example, once Yi Zhe came back from the signal station and ran into a wobbly penguin. He stopped and waited for a while, but the penguin did not leave. , looking at him occasionally moving his head.Yi Zhe walked forward, and the penguin followed, and Yi Zhe stopped again, but it still stopped.At that time, Yi Zhe suddenly missed Xu Tangcheng very much.

As if possessed by a demon, Yi Zhe talked a lot to that penguin, why Xu Tangcheng took him to eat noodles, Xu Tangcheng gave him clothes, a watch, he got into trouble Xu Tangcheng wiped his ass, and even Xu Tangcheng likes the right hand when he sleeps. Lying on his side, gently holding one of his arms, finally, he said to the penguin: "I don't know if he can sleep well now."

"I think the curtains of their scientific expedition team are good, and they are more blackout than the ones I bought before. Do you think it's okay for me to buy a set with them? But the windows here are very small, should I buy a few more sets, and then set up."

Penguin looked at him and said nothing, and Yi Zhe asked again: "Do you think they sell it?"

"He... can't forget me."

After a while, Penguin Yue finally got bored with him, or felt that he had finished hearing the man's story, and left quietly when Yi Zhe lowered his head and repeated the last sentence.

With nothing in front of him, Yi Zhe stood up and turned around, but still couldn't find the audience.It was the first time that Yi Zhe felt loneliness so concretely, surrounded by glaciers, which made him too small.

He breathed a long sigh of relief towards the sky, and then he walked back slowly carrying the big box.

As for the phone, in fact, you can make a satellite phone here, and Yi Zhe also called once at Zhao Weifan's strong request, satisfying Zhao Weifan's curiosity.Not only curiosity, but also showing off - her roommates and girls in the dormitory next door heard that she was talking to people in Antarctica, and they came to visit one after another, but Zhao Weifan was suddenly called away, and Yi Zhe insisted on chatting with some girls she didn't know. 15 minutes.Since then, Yi Zhe has deprived Zhao Weifan of the right to call, and strictly limited the communication between the two to emails.

In fact, he really wanted to make a call to Xu Tangcheng, even if it was just to let him experience such a long-distance satellite phone, or to show off to others.But after arriving in Antarctica, it became impossible to even swipe a bank card. The two of them seemed to have completely cut off contact, and could only rely on one heart, thinking, and reading.

But that's good too, since he hasn't swiped his card for so long, Xu Tangcheng should know that he is in Antarctica.

The timing of Xu Ren's arrival was not coincidental. He started to experience the polar night within a month of his arrival, so after finally surviving the long dark night, he immediately clamored to go out to take pictures, to go to the pole to take pictures.Brother Shan got annoyed by his nagging for half an hour. He pointed in a certain direction and said, "Isn't the pole over there? There's a card there. Go, you two, go take pictures."

"No..." Xu Ren said, "The three of us are together, aren't we a team?"

Brother Shan wondered why he didn't hear you talking about the team when he was in charge of you.

Even so, Xu Ren still pulled one of them with each hand, dragging the two of them to the extreme.

Not to mention that, after walking there, Xu Ren looked at the American and British flags on both sides of the sign, took out three small hand-waving flags from his bag, and handed one to each of them.

Brother Shan looked at it and was happy: "It's quite well prepared."

"I won't take pictures," Yi Zhe said, "I'll take pictures for you two."

"Don't." Although Brother Shan is also a master who doesn't like taking pictures, after some ideological struggles, he still stood with Xu Ren, "Extremely, you take a photo here, and I will show it to your wife later." You can tell your glorious history to your wife, you're awesome, hurry up."

"Aren't the daughter-in-law and the wife the same person?" Xu Ren laughed loudly, "Brother Shan, you are so stupid!"

"Give your daughter-in-law and your children!" Brother Shan dragged Yi Zhe over and shouted at Xu Ren who was posing for the camera, "You're the one who talks too much!"

When the photo was frozen, Yi Zhe was being amused by Brother Shan and Xu Ren's bickering, so when Xu Tangcheng saw this photo from someone else's mobile phone, he also saw a smiling Yi Zhe who had been away from him for a long time.

On the day they went back, Brother Shan and Xu Ren were eager to return home, but Yi Zhe was nervous.Brother Shan thought he had stayed in Antarctica for too long, so he felt unwell when he got on the plane again, so he quickly asked if he should see a doctor.

Yi Zhe shook his head, the tip of his nose was sweating for some reason.

The plane took off, pulled up, and bid farewell to this extremely cold land where he had lived for a year.

They still followed to the United States first, took a short rest, and then transferred to Beijing.Getting off the plane and walking in the long corridor, Yi Zhe felt as if he had been in another world.The unpleasant atmosphere and crowd density make Yi Zhe feel that this is returning to the real world and ending the previous isolation.

Brother Shan turned around and asked if he wanted to let him go back, but Yi Zhe politely refused, saying that he still had to go shopping.Brother Shan has a fiancée, and seeing that he has reached the exit, his eyes are already flying all over the place, looking for the woman who will be entangled with him for the rest of his life, so he didn't force it, and told Yi Zhe to go back and have a good rest, and come out tomorrow to get together , Connecting to a few classmates in the laboratory, he treats them.

Yi Zhe randomly found home appliances at the airport, bought some food, swiped his card, counted it as reporting the itinerary, and then took the subway home as usual.

The fare of the airport line is still 25 yuan, and the No.13 line is still very crowded. In his mind... it is still the way home that Xu Tangcheng once said in his ear.

No one has been in the rental house for a long time, and the smell in the room is not very good. Usually, after coming back after a new year, Xu Tangcheng would change his shoes and mutter after entering the door: "Quickly ventilate quickly." So Yi Zhe is like Xu Tangcheng, I opened all the windows that could be opened, ignored the rest, and found a rag to wipe off the obvious dust that had accumulated.

It was really tiring to run around for so long. After Yi Zhe finished his work, he just wanted to lie on the sofa to rest for a while, but fell asleep unconsciously.

It may be that the heating at home is blocked, and the room is a little cold. Yi Zhe was woken up in the middle of the night by freezing.The unusual touch on his cheek made him react for a while before he remembered that he was in Beijing and he had already returned.

He woke up, got up slowly, walked around the empty room, and finally arrived at the door of the bedroom.

But after standing there for about a quarter of an hour, putting his hand on the doorknob twice, he still didn't open the door.

On the second night, Yi Zhe went to the restaurant that brother Shan had ordered according to the time.The people who came were all acquaintances, and their purpose was pure, to celebrate the three of them and clean up the dust.

Dinner parties, KTV, and the theme of "Auld Lang Syne" remain unchanged.Yi Zhe drank a lot while eating, and when he arrived at the KTV, he sat on the sofa in a daze, listening to a group of people crying and howling.Others are fine, but Brother Shan and Xu Ren, who fought together in Antarctica, insisted on not letting him go, and asked him to sing endlessly. Yi Zhe said no, and Brother Shan asked, "Do you think anyone can?"

After all, not wanting to spoil everyone's interest on this occasion, Yi Zhe stood up, went to the karaoke station and ordered "Sunny Day".The prelude sounded, the subtitles came out, and there was already a die-hard fan of Jay Chou clapping his hands and screaming.

"My favorite song! I want to sing along! I want to sing along!"

Xu Ren pushed the man down: "What's the deal, you can order later!"

Yi Zhe really can't sing.Just such a song, he had been practicing for three months.

It was because I thought that one day I would sing to Xu Tangcheng.

After a song was sung, before Yi Zhe had time to recall his sentimentality, everyone was already praising him for hiding his secrets.Xu Renqi coaxed him the most, and insisted on asking him to play another song. Yi Zhe smiled and begged for mercy, and hurriedly put the microphone to him to sing.

Yi Zhe rubbed his head and hid in the corner and sat down. Looking at the light and shadow in front of him that was gradually becoming blurred, he suddenly felt like a big dream.

A big dream, still a dream.

He seemed to see Xu Tangcheng leaning on his shoulder and singing the song along, wrapping his index finger around his little finger and moving it up and down.What was that feeling like for him?My heart beats faster and I feel anxious, but I am extremely nostalgic for this unreality.

Yi Zhe smiled at the colorful lights, that night was their beginning, a decision made by Xu Tangcheng made these dreams a matter of course, and there was a person in his life who was most worthy of showing off.

Xu Ren is considered to be the master of Mai, and he can sing well, which is not torturing everyone's ears.Yi Zhe had never heard most of tonight's song, even if he was familiar with it, he didn't know what it was.Xu Ren ordered a concert version of the song. Yi Zhe saw the singer's name and remembered that it was Xu Ren's favorite singer.At this time, someone shouted from below: "Awesome Xu Ren, Cantonese song."

Everyone laughed and praised, and Yi Zhe looked at them with his mouth bent.

Xu Ren stood in the middle of the private room, and sang the first line of the song with his eyes closed and the microphone in his hands, very affectionate.Someone knew that Xu Ren had successfully caught up with the girl he admired, so he held up his mobile phone and squatted in front of Xu Ren obliquely, wanting to help him take a picture of such an affectionate singing.Xu Ren couldn't escape his playful character, and made various lyrical gestures to the camera.

At the beginning, Yi Zhe was really watching the fun, he just heard this song familiar, but he couldn't remember where he heard it.It wasn't until Xu Ren imitated the man on the screen and said a sentence in Cantonese, and the music was a little stronger, that Yi Zhe suddenly touched a point in his memory.

He came back to his senses, the song just reached the climax, Xu Ren turned around and shouted to the author's row behind: "Thank you!"

Someone got up to shake hands with him cooperatively, but Xu Ren walked up to Yi Zhe, but Yi Zhe opened his eyes wide and stared blankly at the screen.

birthday song...

Yi Zhe got up suddenly, he bumped into Xu Ren in front of him, and the singing of the song was interrupted.

"What song is this?"

What song is it? He only looked at the singer's name just now, but didn't pay attention to it.

Xu Ren was stunned by his shoulder.

Yi Zhe asked again, "What song is it?"

Nervously, Xu Ren said a few words, and the hand on his shoulder slipped down suddenly.

"Sorry, I suddenly...something happened."

After speaking, Yi Zhe picked up his clothes and rushed out the door.

Why do you believe what he says?

birthday song?

Although the camera was kept, Yi Zhe didn't listen to Xu Tangcheng's words, he never opened it.He didn't dare to open it when he missed him, because he felt that seeing those pictures would only make him feel more uncomfortable.

Yi Zhe took a taxi back to the rental house and searched for the song on his mobile phone. After reading the lyrics, Yi Zhe felt that his two years of practice had been wasted.

He got out of the taxi, ran upstairs, and then dug out the camera from the cabinet and installed the battery.

He couldn't wait to verify his vague memory, but when he pressed the playback button, what jumped out was not any frame he was familiar with, but half of Xu Tangcheng's face.

His fingers paused, Yi Zhe suddenly realized something, and pressed the play button in disbelief.

The picture on the screen swayed twice, Xu Tangcheng seemed to adjust the direction of the camera, and then sat on the chair behind him.

I don't know if it was because I ran too fast just now, my nervous spirit relaxed, and Yi Zhe suddenly lost his strength.He sat down on the cold floor, looking at the small screen, that Xu Tangcheng from two years ago.

"Yizhe."

Xu Tangcheng unfolded a piece of paper in his hand and called him.

During the pause, Yi Zhe responded softly: "Yes."

Xu Tangcheng smiled and said, "Before I left, I wanted to tell you a lot, but I'm so sad now, I'm afraid I'm going to cry again when I tell you, and I'm affected by my family to some extent. , or it has something to do with personality. I am not good at expressing emotions directly. But there are many things I want to tell you, and I don’t want to leave you a letter, so I decided to record a video. There may be some... ... Mushy, you have to like it."

After talking about these previous stories and previews, Xu Tangcheng seemed to get to the point.Yi Zhe straightened his legs, found the most comfortable position, and began to listen to Xu Tangcheng's message.

"Yi Zhe, this letter has two themes, one is sorry, and the other is I love you. Let's talk about the first one first."

"We have been together for so long, in fact, I have always wanted to say sorry to you, to be precise, many times. Speaking of it, I am obviously older, but you were the one who approached me in the first place, and I didn't know How to respond to this feeling, so he hesitated and avoided." Xu Tangcheng smiled at the camera, "By the way, I really regret that I didn't sit next to you at the dinner party."

"There is still something to be sorry for, of course it is our temporary separation. A long time ago, I knew that my family would become a huge obstacle, but I'm sorry, Yi Zhe, I haven't thought of a good solution for so long. Because I have never been able to think of a way, so the confession has been procrastinating until it was discovered, and then I got fierce opposition. But Yi Zhe, the whole thing, the most painful thing for me was not the fierce opposition from my family, but my I have no position. I know my parents' traditions, but I don't know what to do. I find that I have been accepting these traditions. For more than 20 years, I took their traditional love for granted. I didn't My mother told me that your love is too traditional when she washed my clothes, delivered meals, paid for me, and even bought a car for me after I went to college. I want to be independent and live my own life. You don’t care about me. , Then I can't tell them that your love is wrong when I discover the bondage side of this traditional love, I am independent and free, and you should not use your love to control me. Always only come up with a set of theories that are beneficial to yourself. This is not independence and freedom, it is selfish. So I want to apologize to you. It is because I did not do well enough that we have gone through so much. Telling you this is also I want to tell you that I agree to leave, not because I care more about my family, I love you no less than my family, even, you are the more special person that I want to hide and treasure."

"That leads into the second topic, about I love you.

I love you, to what extent?In fact, I have been with you for so long, I always feel that I am not good enough for you, I always feel that I can treat you better, and even many times, I will feel that I am not good enough for you.I think so because you are so kind. After Xu Tangcheng finished speaking, he smiled at the camera, "It's really great.You are braver and firmer than me. I still have cowardice and timidity in my character, but you don’t. You will tell me directly that you like me and give me all the good things. You love me with all your heart. , no matter what.But I didn't do it. I looked forward and backward, and couldn't handle too many things. Every time this happens, I feel that I am not good enough for you.Even, I still need to take care of my family, even in this way I will feel that I have given you too little love.On this point, I will work harder in the future, you can keep this video and the letter in the camera bag as evidence, and assess me in the future. "

"I know you are afraid of separation, and so am I. I recorded this video because you were afraid. You told me in the bar, let me not forget you. Here I am going to criticize you, I made you so insecure How could I have forgotten you. But I also want to praise you here, because I never thought about it, I never thought that you would forget me. You made me feel that you will always love me, look, How great you are. So, here again, I did not do well, and I will correct your thoughts in the future."

"I want to say one more thing. I have to apologize for the slope you took me to a few days ago. Because I was too scared when I rushed down just now, so I didn't listen to you and accidentally opened my eyes .Then... I saw that you didn't really let go of the handlebars. Are you also afraid? Are you afraid of falling on me? Then let's make a promise this time, when I go back, you will take me there again That slope, if I don’t open my eyes at that time, you really let go of the handlebars and hug me with both hands. None of us should be afraid.”

"The last sentence, Yi Zhe, I love you, I love you very much, I can't express it, but I love you very much."

Xu Tangcheng is such a restrained person, Yi Zhe has never heard him say "I love you" before, but it's just that he hasn't heard him say it.If it wasn't just a video, Yi Zhe would have wanted to refute too much.

What are you not good enough for me?

Why do you give less love?

What is not doing well?

There is no one better than you.

But even if Xu Tangcheng was in front of him, Yi Zhe probably wouldn't be able to tell.Holding the camera and crying, he wiped the tears on his face with his sleeve in embarrassment, then continued to press the button and found the video in Blue Harbor.

He asked Xu Tangcheng to sing the birthday song with him. Xu Tangcheng hummed a tune and said that it was Ecuador's birthday song.

He actually believed it.

this liar.

He clearly thought about their future so long ago, he knew exactly what kind of dilemma he would face, but he accepted him, and he didn't say a word about the difficulty, and gave him the best years.

It was also obvious that he had told him so long ago that he was the love of his life.

The birthday song Xu Tangcheng sang to Yi Zhe is "Favorite in Life".

Alan Tam, 1991.