An Accident in Broad Daylight

Back in Beijing, it was already nightfall.Xu Tangcheng followed Yi Zhe out of the station, keeping his head down and not saying a word.Yi Zhe looked back at him a few times, but didn't have a chance to meet his eyes, so he finally took a step and walked to his side.Holding hands on the street was too eye-catching, so Yi Zhe reached out and grabbed Xu Tangcheng's wrist.

I was going to take the subway, but when I saw people queuing up at the station, Xu Tangcheng shook his head: "There are too many people, let's take a taxi."

The driver who caught up was able to talk. From the moment they got in the car, the driver kept talking to them enthusiastically. After a while, they were asked where their home was, how close it was to Beijing, and where they were studying.Xu Tangcheng was supposed to deal with the matter, but today he changed people. Xu Tangcheng leaned on Yi Zhe's shoulder, wrapped his hands around his arms, and half-closed his eyes to listen to him talking to his master.

After a weekend, Xu Tangcheng still couldn't adapt to the upcoming parting.The most obvious manifestation of this inability to adapt is that he is not interested in anything, doesn't want to talk, doesn't want to move, if he doesn't have to face his family at home, he just wants to stay quietly with Yi Zhe, ignoring anyone .

He had been scratching Yi Zhe's cuff with one finger, there was a thread end that fell out, and he dragged him through countless turns.

"It's not always at school. Sometimes I have to do research, communicate, and measure data," Yi Zhe said to the driver, and paused, "For example, I'm going to Antarctica."

The line that was spinning at a constant speed suddenly stopped and turned around.Xu Tangcheng leaned on Yi Zhe's shoulder and looked up, realizing that he was also looking at him.

"Are you going to Antarctica?"

"Ah."

Xu Tangcheng was a little taken aback, and remained silent for a while.

"Why... didn't you tell me?"

Yi Zhe glanced at the driver, then took Xu Tangcheng's cool hand into his palm.

"It was just decided. I haven't had time to tell you, and I haven't told the teacher. The teacher told me about this before. At that time, I was hesitant to go. After thinking about it, I need these data very much. Yes, so I decided to go."

The news was so extraordinary that Xu Tangcheng didn't recover from it for a long time.He braced himself up and wanted to leave Yi Zhe first, but the moment his face left his shoulders, he suddenly felt great sadness and reluctance.

Antarctica...

It was a very strange, far-off place.

Why did you suddenly go to Antarctica?

Too weak to do it, Xu Tangcheng simply gave up the idea of ​​correct sitting posture and leaned back on Yi Zhe's shoulder.

"don’t worry."

Seeing Xu Tangcheng's blank expression, Yi Zhe couldn't hold back, raised his other hand, and touched his face.

The face is also cold.

"There will be no danger." Yi Zhe didn't know the situation in detail yet, so he could only try his best to reassure at the moment, "You should stay in the station at ordinary times and don't run around, so there will be no danger."

"How long will it be?" Xu Tangcheng asked after being silent for a while.

"A year, and I have to prepare for nearly a year before I go."

The taxi turned a corner, and the view changed.

"Master," Xu Tangcheng looked at the familiar building and suddenly called out, "Please, let's go to Gongti West Road instead."

Yi Zhe looked at Xu Tangcheng puzzled, but Xu Tangcheng didn't explain, but simply stamped on his lips.Yi Zhe was stunned and opened his eyes slightly, while Xu Tangcheng forced a smile and glanced at the driver—it was a pity that he didn't see it.

Yi Zhe felt that it was from this moment that Xu Tangcheng became presumptuous that night.

Xu Tangcheng took Yi Zhe to Des. Last time they came, they came to find Cheng Xu who was drunk.They took off all their clothes in the closet, and when they entered, they were all wearing only a sweater.Yi Zhe didn't know why Xu Tangcheng brought him here all of a sudden. He only knew that something was wrong with Xu Tangcheng from the very beginning.He was afraid that he would get drunk and be in a bad mood, so he was nervous from the moment he entered the door.Unexpectedly, Xu Tangcheng didn't ask for wine, and directly dragged him into the messiest and busiest dance floor.

While walking inside, he bumped into someone, and the hit person turned around, and then looked at Yi Zhe with interest.Yi Zhe nodded and said sorry, but the man suddenly reached out and grabbed his arm.

The person beside him waved the hand off, and stood in front of him expressionlessly.

"Yo." The man looked at Xu Tangcheng, rolled his eyes, and smiled.

It was a rare time for Xu Tangcheng to be fierce, and it was quite cool.He dragged Yi Zhe away to the center of the dance floor.

"Last time, I thought it was messy." Xu Tangcheng put his arms around Yi Zhe's neck, then raised his head, forcing him to bend down and put his ears close to him, "I don't think this is our world, although we are both Man, but we are obviously in love like ordinary couples, it's not like this."

Because the surrounding environment was too noisy, Xu Tangcheng almost shouted these words.Yi Zhe didn't know how much strength he used, but his voice sounded hoarse, which made him frown and look at him.

It doesn't matter if you look at it, for many years later, you will see these clear eyes in your dreams.

Xu Tangcheng didn't always want to cry, but his heart was filled with pain, and he couldn't avoid it no matter what.He used to think that the people here are too crazy and desperate, and that love is not like this kind of pleasure-seeking, and it’s not like this kind of self-indulgent desire to reveal to everyone who passes by him, so he felt suffocated and out of breath, because The shock and strangeness here.

He thinks that this is not his and Yi Zhe's world, the love between him and Yi Zhe is not this kind of presumptuousness in the dark, their sweetness is more than bickering, there is a lot of food, care and care.He wasn't used to this kind of environment, so he didn't want to stay for a second that time, and wanted to leave quickly with Yi Zhe and Cheng Xu.But now, like a deserter, he brought Yi Zhe back here.

Only then did he understand the night here.

How many people are crammed into this dance floor, and they writhed in various, not entirely graceful dance postures, and the lights and shadows of various colors hit everyone's faces, but no one could keep them.The people here are not all the same, some are escaping for a short time, some are simply giving up on themselves and sinking to the bottom, but in the final analysis, it is just difficult to get along in reality.

People only think that homosexuals are "monsters", but they never think about why they become "monsters", and they never think about it, even if it is indisputable, no matter what, being the "monster" in your mouth, that has never been done Can the "monster" of bad things live well?

Nature will not destroy a species because of "good or bad", but some people can use this to judge that a group of people should not exist.

Xu Tangcheng never confessed his love to Yi Zhe in a serious way, but when he was going to accept Yi Zhe and be with him, he borrowed the power of alcohol.But he didn't ask for wine today, nor was he drunk. He looked at the person he loved the most in front of him, and every time he blinked, he was extremely sober.

"Yi Zhe." Xu Tangcheng smiled, but there were tears that couldn't wait to join this grotesque relief.

He asked the same question as that night, and in Yi Zhe's view, it was the same as that night, like a colorful typhoon crossing the border, robbing his breathing and heartbeat, but giving him a dream.

"do you want?"

But today was different, Xu Tangcheng didn't wait for Yi Zhe's answer, but leaned over and kissed him after he finished asking.Yi Zhe quickly held his face, and while kissing back, moved his thumb, wiping away the tears on his cheeks.

A few people around cheered them on, a belated recognition from strangers.

"I want to." Xu Tangcheng said, "I want to kiss you, I want to take you away tonight, I want to go to a place where no one knows us, I don't care about anything..."

Love is so great, Xu Tangcheng has never evaded or feared his responsibilities, he has been a good boy for more than 20 years, never rebelled, never let his parents down, but now, he has a ridiculous idea, He wants to be desperate and fly away with his easy way.

Xu Tangcheng wanted to continue, but his words were overwhelmed by unrealistic and irresponsible dreams.He cried and fell beside Yi Zhe's ear, failing to say the most important thing - I want to love you forever.

Yi Zhe's eyes were also red. He kissed Xu Tangcheng from the center of the dance floor to the corner.Xu Tangcheng's hand reached into his sweater at some point, and Yi Zhe hugged this overzealous man in a daze, blocking the crowd, pulled down his collar, and kissed him from neck to collarbone and shoulder blades.

Xu Tangcheng snorted suddenly, then closed his eyes, and hugged Yi Zhe tightly.There was a slight pain in his shoulder, and Yi Zhe hadn't let go of that soft flesh.

With a red spot on Leng Bai's shoulder, Yi Zhe rubbed his fingers and rearranged Xu Tangcheng's neckline.He didn't know how long this mark could last. In fact, he should have taken a bite, which would bleed and leave a scar so that Xu Tangcheng could remember it when he saw it.

But he couldn't be willing.

Xu Tangcheng was shouting and venting all night. At this moment, Yi Zhe finally said the only sentence.

He hugged Xu Tangcheng tightly, whispering in his ear with a trembling voice——

"You can't forget me."

On the day Xu Tangcheng left, both of them stayed up all night.In one night, it is enough to say the instructions to eat well and pay attention to safety eight hundred times.

It was almost ten o'clock when the plane took off, and the sky was getting bright. Xu Tangcheng softly asked Yi Zhe, who was also looking at the ceiling with his eyes open, "Are you up?"

Yi Zhe was silent for a moment, turned over, and kissed him delicately and long.

As usual, they went to the breakfast shop next to the community to have breakfast.Yi Zhe wanted to pay, and touched his pocket, but stopped and looked at Xu Tangcheng.Seeing this, Xu Tangcheng smiled lightly, took out his wallet, and paid the money.

Seeing that Yi Zhe was carrying a suitcase, the boss asked while looking for money, "Are you going out?"

Xu Tangcheng and Yi Zhe didn't speak, and the boss looked at him strangely when he couldn't get an answer, so Yi Zhe nodded and said, "Yes."

"How long has it been since I've been out? I'll be serving fresh steamed stuffed buns in two days. My niece even gave her a wonderful name, Su Sansi'er. Remember to come and try it."

Xu Tangcheng bowed his head and moved his steps.Yi Zhe at the side said, "We're going on a long trip."

"Yo," the boss didn't expect it, and looked at the small box in Yi Zhe's hand in surprise, "You don't look like you are traveling far away."

Xu Tangcheng brought very few things. He didn't even pack a few pieces of clothes. He only brought some personal items, including a computer, which didn't even fill a 20-inch suitcase.When he was tidying up, Yi Zhe came to help him, and brought him some clothes that he usually liked to wear, and Xu Tangcheng hung them back in the closet.

"Leave it alone, don't take it."

Even though the reality is a foregone conclusion, he still superstitiously believes that they are together.

If you take too many things away, you won't be able to live together.

Yi Zhe didn't say anything, everything was up to him, but when Xu Tangcheng walked over with the computer, he found a small black bag in the box.He froze for a moment, picked up the black bag, and asked Yi Zhe, "Aren't you going to keep it?"

Yi Zhe shook his head, squatted beside him, and put the black bag back into the box.

"You..." He looked into the box at first, and after saying this word, he cast his gaze on Xu Tangcheng's face, "You can take a look once in a while."

Xu Tangcheng immediately understood what he meant - "You can't forget me."

It seemed that his response at the bar that night was not fully trusted.

He smiled, lowered his head, took out the camera, and zipped the case.

"I promise, I don't need a video reminder. Here," Xu Tangcheng pointed to his head and nodded again, "and here, I will remember it clearly. You still keep the camera, you..."

Xu Tangcheng was not afraid that Yi Zhe would forget him.He failed to give Yi Zhe enough sense of security, but Yi Zhe gave him too much.

Yi Zhe left the camera because he was afraid that he would miss him too much and be alone.

Besides...

Xu Tangcheng blinked his eyes, then raised his head worriedly and told him, "When you miss me, remember to read it."

Regarding the way to go to the airport, the two of them talked about it the night before, and they got along very well.Instead of taking a taxi, they set off early and took the subway to Wudaokou.Xu Tangcheng had never been to the airport in this way. He checked the route in advance and bought two tickets to Sanyuan Bridge at the manual ticket window.

Standing aside, Yi Zhe saw that Xu Tangcheng's fingers avoided a ten-yuan note in his wallet and took a 50-yuan note.

When he retrieved the change, Xu Tangcheng didn't put it in his wallet like before, but held it in his hand together with the ten yuan money he deliberately left behind.

"Later..." After walking out of the line, he raised his head and asked, "How do you go back later?"

Even though Xu Tangcheng paused briefly when he asked, Yi Zhe still felt that the question was too sudden.He pursed his lips hard and said, "Subway."

Xu Tangcheng listened, nodded, and then lowered his head to arrange the change in his hand.Yi Zhe was waiting for him, but unexpectedly, Xu Tangcheng stretched out his hand towards him suddenly, as if he wanted to stuff the things in his hand into his pocket.

This action immediately brought the issue of the return journey into reality. Yi Zhe felt pain in his heart for a moment, and subconsciously reached out and grabbed Xu Tangcheng's wrist to stop him.

Xu Tangcheng also stared back into his eyes in silence, froze for a few seconds, and then explained among the people coming and going: "I used it when I went back. You didn't bring your wallet."

There were too many people in the subway station, Yi Zhe felt that there were people passing by in front of him, but he couldn't even see a person's face clearly when he opened his eyes.

He still didn't let go, Xu Tangcheng took a step forward, and the clothes of the two of them almost stuck together.

"I'm afraid I'll forget to give it to you later." Xu Tangcheng covered Yi Zhe's hand, clenched it tightly, and patted it lightly.

Putting the money away for Yi Zhe, he felt in his pocket again to make sure he had the key to the house, then Xu Tang Cheng pulled out his hand and led him to continue walking.

The time was approaching the morning rush hour, and although the carriage was not crowded enough to be untenable, there was not a single vacant seat.Fortunately, they only needed to sit on the No.13 line for a few stops. Xu Tangcheng dragged Yi Zhe into the room and stood by the air-conditioned room.

Line NO.13 is a bit old, but it is a rare above-ground subway in Beijing.Yi Zhe's mind was empty, staring at the flashing street scene outside in a daze, Xu Tangcheng pulled the zipper of his down jacket with one hand, playing with it up and down.

"Hey," seeing Yi Zhe twisting his neck, not knowing where he was looking, Xu Tangcheng couldn't help but want to talk to him, "Don't you even look at me?"

Yi Zhe was startled, lashed his eyelashes twice, and turned his head.

"I'm afraid I'll see too much, and I won't let you go later."

In a word, Xu Tangcheng couldn't move.

Someone got out of the car and a seat was vacant. Yi Zhe gently tugged Xu Tangcheng: "There is a seat, you go and sit."

"No, I won't sit down anymore." Xu Tangcheng quickly grabbed him with his backhand and told him to return to his side, "It's good to stand here."

Xu Tangcheng didn't expect the transfer on Zhichun Road to be so far away. They walked along the passage, turned seven times, and went up and down five or six flights of stairs. Every time Xu Tangcheng thought that they were about to arrive, there was still a long road down the stairs. .What was even more frightening was that there was no elevator during the whole process. Xu Tangcheng saw a young couple on a certain high staircase.Turning his head to look at them, Yi Zhe was carrying his small suitcase, and didn't even put it down where he could drag it.

When he finally reached the last flight of stairs, more than halfway down, when he saw the shadow of the subway, Xu Tangcheng turned his head and said something leisurely: "This transfer is the same as transferring to No.13 line at Xizhimen."

Yi Zhe twitched the corner of his lips slightly, then turned to look at him: "It's pretty good."

What's good?

Xu Tangcheng was stunned for a moment and understood.

The transfer distance is long, and they can walk for a long time, which is really good.

But he thought again, what to do at that moment.When I came back, I changed directions, so I shouldn't need to take such a long transfer road again.

When I got down the stairs, the subway door just closed with a beep, and a boy in a red shirt and carrying a backpack kept waving his hands to the inside of the subway.They stood up, the boy in red turned and left, Xu Tangcheng passed him by, turned his head, and looked at his back.

The two of them stood close to the front of the train, probably because they didn't sleep well last night. When the subway started to move at a high speed, Xu Tangcheng was in a trance due to the rapid movement, a bit like when Yi Zhe took him down the slope that day. look.

The train sped away, throwing out the rear of the car with the red light on, and Xu Tangcheng's dizziness suddenly became more severe.He raised his hand to grab Yi Zhe's arm, and stared at the dark place in a daze, as if the two red taillights hadn't left yet, and the light was still shining on them.

"what happened?"

Yi Zhe looked down at him slightly, as usual.Behind him, the boy in the red shirt took out the earphones from his clothes, put them on, and turned to leave.

More people came on the platform, talking and waiting.

In his focused eyes, Xu Tangcheng suddenly thought of a song that he used to think was well written, but now that he really experienced the scene, he realized how thrilling it really is.

"Say the oath of giving your life, look back at the bustling world, love every moment of you, like a speeding subway."

He thought, those who did not run away in the face of parting were really great, and they could all withstand the torrent when their lover stood beside them.

They changed the airport line, got off at Terminal T2, and walked a long distance before arriving at T1.This is what Xu Tangcheng deliberately did when he bought the ticket. T1 is the smallest and the cleanest.

Xu Tangcheng's luggage was so small that he didn't even need to check it in, so they took the boarding pass and looked around, suddenly not knowing where to go.There was no rush on the way here, both of them wished they could walk slower, slower still.Now that the security checkpoint is right in front of them, and the time to board the plane is approaching, they have no other way to go, no more time to procrastinate.

Xu Tangcheng looked at the time, it was nine o'clock.

"Then..." He took a breath, "It's almost there, I'll go in."

Yi Zhe didn't speak, but nodded, and followed him along with the box.

There were not many people waiting for the security check, Xu Tangcheng glanced at them, basically there was no need to line up.

There was a sign at the entrance that said "Stop seeing people off". When Yi Zhe saw it, he stopped and looked at it calmly.

In comparison, Chinese is actually softer. For Yi Zhe, the English on the sign is more divided, as if unintentionally reminding him in a very official way that he and Xu Tangcheng will no longer be able to get along in the short term. Use "we" to call it-"PassengersOnly".

Such repeated cognitions made him almost numb, and he didn't know where to start to feel sad.

Xu Tangcheng also noticed the sign, and he pulled Yi Zhe's arm to divert his attention.Then slightly opened his arms, barely raised the corners of his lips, and asked in a low voice, "Hug?"

"I still want to say it again, we must pay attention to safety and come back safely." Xu Tangcheng hugged Yi Zhe and said.

"Okay." Yi Zhe responded obediently.

"Dress warmly."

"it is good."

"Don't run around."

"it is good."

"Eat well."

"it is good."

Xu Tangcheng said whatever he thought of, trivial to the point of being a mother-in-law, but no matter what, Yi Zhe complied.

The traffic on T1 is small, and it seems that most of them are people on business trips and pleasure.So in the entire hall, only they hugged each other and said goodbye seriously.

What should you say when you say goodbye?

Xu Tangcheng thought in Yi Zhe's arms.

"Yizhe."

After nagging until he had nothing to say, Xu Tangcheng remained silent for a while, bit his lip, and called Yi Zhe softly.

"Huh?" Yi Zhe responded quickly, as if without thinking.

Thinking of Yi Zhe's bewildered expression when he saw the warning sign just now, Xu Tangcheng's voice suddenly became hoarse.

Be careful, this is the last word.

He took a few breaths, calmed down again, and asked, "Do you remember how to get home?"

Yi Zhe leaned on his shoulder, at first he didn't speak, then he let out a muffled sound, as if he couldn't understand what he was asking.

"Ok?"

"Later... Exit from the left hand side in front, which is the way we came... Go straight along, go to T2, then get off the elevator on the right hand side, go down two floors, and go to the subway. First buy the Sanyuan Bridge Airport line, 25 yuan a ticket, the money has just been put in your pocket. Then you get to Sanyuan Bridge, transfer to Line 10, take to Zhichun Road, then change to Line 13, and get to Wudaokou. After you go out, you can take a taxi or take a Bus, you can walk back if it’s not too far away.” He resisted, let himself finish these words in a calm tone as much as possible, then tightened his arms, and softly asked the person in his arms, “Do you remember?”

There was no "wait for me", no "I'll be back", and no other provocative words. What Xu Tangcheng left for him in the end was just a way home.

Yi Zhe didn't understand why Xu Tangcheng said this, it was just the way back, he remembered.

Xu Tangcheng bypassed layers of partitions and passed the security check. During this time, he kept turning his head and waving at Yi Zhe.Yi Zhe just stood there watching, and kept waving at him.Yi Zhe didn't turn around until he moved left and right and couldn't see the figure no matter how much he stretched his neck.

The moment he turned around, Yi Zhe understood Xu Tangcheng's parting.

As if he had suddenly let go of all his strength and thoughts, Yi Zhe stood in the empty hall, feeling nothing but the growing soreness in his eyes.

He took two steps forward and looked around in a daze, only to find that there was a vast expanse of white around him, which was completely different from before.

original……

He really didn't know where to go or how to get home.

Xu Tangcheng's words returned to his head, and he stared blankly at the ground, stunned for a long time.

Oh, on the left... T2...