magnolia slow

Tang's face was tightly pressed against Wang Suye's clothes. The material of the work clothes was not very good, but it was comfortable and appropriate because it had been washed many times.This was the first time Wang Suye took the initiative, and Jiang Tang hoped it would be the last.

Wang Suye had to feel so much pain in his heart to make such a move.

Feeling Wang Suye's chin resting on the top of his hair, Jiang Tang clearly felt his chest heaving violently, and then slowly regained his composure.Then he heard Wang Suye's deep and soft voice sounding above his head:

"Yes. Anyway, I finally saw you."

After thinking for a while, he added: "This is the best thing that happened to me in five years."

Jiang Tang wanted to laugh but couldn't—

In my mind, the sound of the cold iron door being slammed shut after my father was imprisoned, the sound of mourning and joy when my grandmother passed away, and the harsh words from others echoed again at this moment.It turns out that they have never gone away, but have been dormant, waiting for a suitable time and a suitable person.

Jiang Tang cried until his whole body was shaking, he never thought that he would cry like this.He forgot how long five years is, enough time for a person to die until he is forgotten, enough time for a person to change his face, enough time for a person to become the deepest and deepest obsession in a person's heart, enough time for a person to change the people in the years into something else .

He is very grateful that the years have turned them into the one they embrace now.Fortunately, it's not too late.

In this person's arms, suffering is no longer suffering, Jiang Tang raised his tear-stained face and kissed him hard on the cheek.

is sweet.

He solemnly said:

"Meeting you is the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life."

The two hugged silently, without asking or saying anything, as if this would heal all the pain of the past and make up for the past years.

The silver and snow-white strands of Jiang Tang's temples were dazzling.Wang Suye gently stroked his temples with his fingers, and his heart throbbed again.

Wang Suye said in a low voice, "Did you take good care of yourself?"

"Yes. I have always been good to myself." Jiang Tang said.

Wang Suye didn't speak, just looked into Jiang Tang's eyes silently, trying to find the traces left on him by the past five years in his eyes.

Nothing at all.

The only word in his eyes is Jiang Tang.

The person in front of him, no matter how many years have passed and what he looks like, in his eyes, the word "Jiang Tang" will be condensed.

(Eight)

"Young couples come to accompany each other when they grow old."

The next day, Jiang Tang was woken up early by the biological clock.

Looking around, he saw four gray walls and faded wooden cabinets, and almost lost trust in his memory.The reality is too beautiful, so beautiful that it seems false, like the sweetness that the nightmare occasionally created to confuse him in the past five years.

The clothes were scattered on the quilt, he put them on neatly, glanced at the clock on the wall, and was just about to go out when he found a piece of paper on the table.I picked it up and saw that the handwriting was neat and beautiful, and a small line lay quietly on the paper.

"I'll pick you up after school today."

As always, ironing posts and warming people.

He hooked the corners of his lips, thinking about the unfinished kiss, thinking about the warmth in Wang Suye's arms last night, thinking about his steady and gentle voice, thinking about starting to regret that he hurried back to his post last night to deceive others.

He stepped out into the morning light and closed the door of the room.With a bang, it seemed that all the haze of the past was left behind the door.

"A student asked me a question, and I was delayed for a while." Wang Suye approached.

A call brought him back to reality.Jiang Tang raised his head, saw Wang Suye's face, recalled the memory fragment just now, and started laughing inexplicably.

With a smile in his eyes, Wang Suye asked softly:

"What are you laughing at?"

Jiang Tang smiled, holding his chin, looking at Wang Suye, his eyes seemed to have fallen into countless stars in the night.

"Be happy."

As Jiang Tang spoke, he began to gesture with his hands, smiling so happily: "Teacher Wang came to pick me up in person, I am very happy."

Wang Suye looked at sitting at the door of the security room, crossing his legs and smiling just like Wang Suye back then. He felt that the sunshine today was exceptionally good, and exaggerated the curvature of Jiang Tang's lips, just like back then, firmly occupying all his extra eyes .

Wang Suye's eyebrows and eyes were slightly stained with a smile, and he stretched out his hand.

Jiang Tang looked at the big hand with distinct bones in front of him, thinking in his mind that it was the hand in front of him that he was holding back then, so he held his hand without hesitation.

Warm and dry.

Jiang Tang didn't know what he looked like in Wang Suye's heart, he only knew what Wang Suye looked like in his heart.It can’t be considered shapeless: it’s the warmest and softest sun in winter; it’s the clear spring water that never dries up when he was 17; it’s the only place of peace of mind; Strong forever.

He could no longer imagine that anyone in this world would treat him so well.

Before Wang Suye appeared, after parents, grandmother, all friends and relatives left one after another.

The lines on Wang Suye's palm were clear, so he moved his fingers and stroked them one by one. Not satisfied with this, he turned his fingers in an attempt to get into Wang Suye's cuff, but in exchange for an elbow on his shoulder. .

"At school, you should pay attention."

Wang Suye looked around, then turned to him, and said in a low voice.

"it is good."

Jiang Tang said obediently, and leaned towards Wang Suye, "Give me the bag, and I'll carry it for you."

Wang Suye pursed her lips and smiled, then handed over the bag in her hand.

"One by one, did you go well in class today?"

Jiang Tang asked with a smile.

His tone is so familiar at this moment, as if it has echoed thousands of times in his heart, and it is so natural to say it from his mouth at this moment.

Young couples come to accompany each other when they grow old.

This word suddenly appeared in Wang Suye's mind.

The young couple came to accompany each other, Wang Suye chewed the word slowly, and a smile appeared on his face involuntarily.

(nine)

"Towards the long road that can never turn back, go forward, no matter what the cost, go forward."

When Wang Suye came back from class in the afternoon, Jiang Tang was already sitting in front of the north gate with his job in hand.

Wang Suye wondered: "Shouldn't you be off work at this time?"

Jiang Tang put the rice into his mouth, and said vaguely: "I can go to the cafeteria with you at noon, so I can't go to the cafeteria at night. I used to not go at noon, but go to the cafeteria at night, with only a few exceptions occasionally. "

Wang Suye nodded as if suddenly enlightened, and then said: "Then I'm going to the cafeteria, you eat slowly, don't worry." As if he had discovered something by accident, he stared at Jiang Tang for a while, and asked again, "Is Lao Zheng back?"

Jiang Tang was taken aback for a moment, and then said, "Not yet, probably until tomorrow. Why..." He said with a clear and dangerous smile on his face, "Do you want to come and live with me?"

"You think beautifully." Wang Suye tapped him on the head mercilessly, "Boil the hot water to help you clean up at night, and you don't pay attention to your image."

After Wang Suye left, Jiang Tang quickly swept away the leftovers on the table, and then sat at the door, looking at the needles on the big clock in the duty room from time to time. He never looked forward to leaving get off work so much.

At the shift change time at 07:30, Wang Suye was very accurate. When Jiang Tang opened the door and walked into 107, Wang Suye had already filled the hot water.Wang Suye was standing by the table and was testing the temperature of the water. There was an open cloth bag next to it. Jiang Tang quickly glanced at it—comb, shampoo, towel.

Jiang Tang stood obediently.Seeing him coming, Wang Suye stepped aside, stood behind him, and said, "Low your head."

Jiang Tang hesitated before sinking his head into the water, but Wang Suye had already poured water on top of his head with his hands, and the warmth from ironing his heart immediately spread from the top of his head to the bottom of his feet, which was a very suitable temperature.Wang Suye has always been so appropriate.

He closes his eyes.Feel Wang Suye's two-way fingers holding chalk and instruments massaging his scalp, inch by inch, with gentle force.He seemed to have sunk into a dream that would never wake up, and he seemed to have returned to his mother's warm womb.He remembered the word "drowning".He seemed to be drowning in this gentle but tightly wrapped warmth.

Water should be the thing that fits most people.And Wang Suye is the only person who can fit Jiang Tang best.

The shampoo lathers slowly on the top of the head.He hadn't used much shampoo—there were a lot of things in the world he hadn't tried.Except for the only Wang Suye in this world.

In the drowsiness, I heard Wang Suye's voice:

"Wash the wind and dust,

"Second washes away disasters,

"Three washes—" he seemed to pause, and continued to read,

"Wash away the you that I didn't know in the past, and leave yourself who knows tomorrow clearly."

Wang Suye's voice was slow and pious, as if he was really praying to heaven.

When Jiang Tang asked, Wang Suye was wrapping a large towel around his hair and wiping his hair carefully, only to listen to his patient explanation: "This is a local custom that I discovered when I visited Z in college. Bar."

The hand that wiped the hair paused, and Wang Suye smiled softly again: "I really believe in these illogical things, but sometimes, fate cannot be determined by science."

Life.

Jiang Tang opened his eyes, as if he was still looking at him through the dense heat.Jiang Tang said: "Fate determines science."

Wang Suye closed his eyes, thinking of too many things that science cannot explain, and thinking of the person in front of him who was envied by everyone in the first 17 years, but the mist and rain disappeared in the second half of his life.After a while, he only said two words:

"Yes."

The only thing he knows is that he doesn't need the permission of science - he won't let Jiang Tang go on like this.They will stand side by side and walk towards the distant and unpredictable future as they expected when they were young.

It is a road that can never turn back.

He chose this path 12 years ago.

Wang Suye had a faint premonition of uneasiness, but was covered by the person in front of him and the light he radiated, making him only see what was in front of him, making him think that what was in front of him was everything.

Still have to move forward.

Go ahead, go ahead at all costs.

(ten)

"Lonely. He heard the sound of familiar spirits blowing across the wilderness."

During the Ching Ming Festival holiday, the two took the green leather train together and headed for their hometown while listening to the whistle.

The two of them didn't bring anything, and Jiang Tang was even more empty-handed. This time, Wang Suye insisted on not letting him carry anything.

Among the bustling crowd at the West Station of W City, Jiang Tang suddenly felt a big hand wrapping his hand warmly. Jiang Tang looked sideways and found that Wang Suye held him with the other hand as if no one was there.Jiang Tang also shook back vigorously.

The station has always been filled with various accents, and the expressions of the people passing by are also different, but at this moment, it is just a thing outside of the body, coming and going is the business of others, what has nothing to do with him, and what does it have to do with the person he is holding in his hand at the moment.

The two people are closely connected again after a long time, and Jiang Tang seems to have found the connection point with the past time - it turns out that the connection point is Wang Suye.At this moment, Wang Suye led him slowly back to the past, as if he also stepped on the pain in the memory and crushed it under his feet.

The two walked along the loess road, as if they would never reach the end.

Jiang Tang saw the magnolia tree in full bloom from a distance, the rich and bright purple color, which was still the color he had seen when he was young.When Wang Suye was 14 years old, he didn't see a good color because of Jiang Tang's fracture.

Fast forward nine years now.

As we got closer, the strange yet familiar little mound in sight was covered with magnolia petals.His footsteps slowed down unconsciously, and he could clearly hear Wang Suye's sudden heavy breathing in the deserted mountains.

The feeling of being close to the hometown is timid, and things are different.

Standing alone.

He heard the sound of familiar spirits blowing across the wilderness.

"Old lady," Jiang Tang slowly bent down in front of the grave, his voice was a little trembling, but he still managed to make people hear a smile,

"A Tang came to see you."

Wang Suye stood quietly behind him.The young man bent down in front of the short mound and trembling back turned back into the proud young man at this moment, kneeling sincerely and docilely at this moment.

No, perhaps, the young man in his heart knelt down in an eternal posture after that rainy night, knelt forever in the world of mortals, and no one would help him and tell him :"this is not your fault."

Wang Suye did not do this.

The next moment, he also knelt down slowly, beside Jiang Tang.

He knocked his head in the dust.

他 说:

"Grandma, I'm by Jiang Tang's side."

他 说:

"Grandma, please rest assured."

Another head hit the ground heavily.

This time, it seemed to hit Jiang Tang's heart.

This man who has been silent and stoic for many years is now proving all his affection with his two heads on the ground—no need for him to prove it, why should he prove it again, he has only regarded this person in front of him as a god in his 20 years of life, he Nothing but him.

Tell me, people live in the world to die, come and go without any hindrance, who really owns anything?Is it wealth and power, or youth?

But Wang Suye and Jiang Tang are different, at least they own each other at this moment, fulfill each other, and swear with their hearts, isn't it enough?

What is forever, there is no forever.There is no eternity in Wang Suye's scientific principles, but Jiang Tang is eternity.

When Wang Suye wanted to take Jiang Tang home, Jiang Tang refused very firmly, saying that he was going to visit relatives and asked Wang Suye to go home first.

Wang Suye knew that this was just an excuse.What kind of relatives can he have after his family declines?

Over the past few years, the old house has become more and more dilapidated.He opened the door, and the cold air rushed in, the lights in the room were dim, and the sound of dishes clinking could be faintly heard from the kitchen.

Wang Suye walked in quickly and stood at the door of the kitchen.His father sat behind the stove, holding fire tongs to add firewood, his cold outline was illuminated by the fire; his mother turned her back to him, her hands kept moving, but her back was already bent.

"Dad, Mom, I'm back." He said, breaking the gloom.

"Hey, why is Su Ye back?" The mother immediately turned around, her face full of surprise.

He looked at his father again.

Rao, with his father's temper, was rare and gentle at the moment, and only said:

"Come back? Just come back."

The family sat around the table to eat after a long absence.He came back suddenly, the food was not rich, but it was the taste in memory, simple and kind.

At the dinner table, my father seldom opened his mouth. It was my mother who asked me all the time: how is the school food, how is the dormitory environment, and whether the students are embarrassing... He answered them one by one, and only picked some good things to say, so as not to worry about my mother.

After a series of questions, the mother was silent for a while, and he was not good at opening the mouth, so he just ate with a dull head.Unexpectedly, what was supposed to come finally came. My mother looked down at the job bowl in her hand and said softly:

"Su Ye, you are old and young. It's time to find a home as soon as possible. Have you met a girl you like? If not, tell mother, and mother will introduce you to one."

In an instant, Wang Suye felt like falling into an ice cave, but in the end he was wrapped in a warm blanket. He was both guilty and relaxed, which mixed into a feeling of compassion and fatigue, which made him powerless to resist.

Wang Suye picked up some food with his chopsticks in silence, and it took him a long time to say: "There will be, you don't have to worry..."

The chopsticks were slapped on the table with a "snap", and the father seemed to be drunk. He said harshly, "Your father, I am still waiting to hold my grandson! Don't try to delay it every day. Next time you have a May Day holiday, you must give I will bring a daughter-in-law back!"

Wang Suye didn't show any special emotion in the face of his father's usual toughness, but his mother's careful words afterwards made him feel ashamed instead:

"Son, mother doesn't want to do anything, she just wants you to start a family and have a baby, and someone will take care of you when you get old. Mother can't take care of you for the rest of your life..."

Wang Suye's thoughts were suddenly pulled back, and he woke up from the joy of reuniting with Jiang Tang.He turned back into a calm and rational science teacher.

How could he, how dare he.

He dared to bet his whole life, but his parents worked hard to bring him up, so he couldn't gamble with the rest of his parents' life.

Wang Suye moved his lips, and after a long time, he just said:

"I understand."

He suddenly lost his courage. He wanted to tell himself that this is human nature, the nature of people seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages.But he couldn't believe that his feelings for Jiang Tang were no match for reality.

He didn't know what others would think of him and Jiang Tang.

Jiang Tang could no longer be viewed in that way by others.

Human emotions are so fragile.

He has lost to his own imagination.

(eleven)

"The bright and splendid future falls and cracks like a glazed bead breaking its thread. From then on, Eternal Night."

Jiang Tang lowered the brim of his hat and kicked the stones on the side of the road.

Suddenly he heard someone calling his nickname from a distance in the field:

"A Tang—"

Jiang Tang subconsciously wanted to raise his head, but he suppressed it the moment before he raised it.

That person called Atang and Atang without hesitation, echoing over the fields over and over again, attracting the attention of people coming and going.

Jiang Tang gritted his teeth, turned around and responded.

I saw that person running far away from the ridge of the field. It was Jiang Tang's former sworn brother Er Hei.

Er Hei rushed to Jiang Tang excitedly, looked at Jiang Tang a few times, and said excitedly, "A Tang, you're finally back! Where have you been these past few years? Don't you come back to see my brother?"

The corner of Jiang Tang's lips curled into the same bright smile as before. Just as he was about to speak, Er Hei said as if he suddenly remembered something, "You have been away for so long, do you know that your father came back yesterday?"

"My dad is back?!"

Jiang Tang was taken aback.

Seeing his expression, Erhei knew that Jiang Tang didn't know about it at all, so he said carefully: "Your father was wronged back then. He was arrested by Bai for five years, and now he is released. , and compensated him a sum of money, now he should be in your original house..."

Jiang Tang couldn't take it anymore.Before he even had time to say an apology, he turned around and ran towards the house.

How can you do this?

How can you do this……

He closed his eyes abruptly, and he felt that his five years of suffering were all for nothing - he once thought this was the cruelest punishment from the heavens, but now he suddenly discovered that it was just a cruel joke.

A sum of money is enough?

How is it enough...

Half of his father's innocence, a complete family, and, and...

And his whole life.

Tears fell and were dried by the cold wind in the wilderness.

His whole life, his life, his dreams.

He suddenly remembered the touch of the 17-year-old Jiaoyang and Wang Suye's texture, and remembered the agreement,

"I want to take the exam with you in the same city."

The bright and splendid future fell and cracked like a glazed bead breaking its thread. From then on, Eternal Night.

The door of the house that was already unfamiliar was wide open in front of him, like revisiting an old dream, so that he didn't even dare to stretch out his fingertips to touch it.

His fingers landed on the mottled threshold, he slightly raised his voice, and shouted: "Father—"

father.

father.

It was a little strange, and he tried his best to pronounce the words clearly so that the person in the room could hear them.

The door of the back room was pushed open, and a middle-aged man with a stooped back walked out.

The two gray-haired people, who were far apart in age but the same, looked at each other from a distance.Across most of the yard, across the black iron gate of the prison that no longer exists.

Jiang Yi's lips trembled, and it took him a while to ask intermittently: "Why haven't you been here for five years...Father...Father has been worried about you... Are you doing well? I asked you to find your mother. Treat you well? You..."

Jiang Tang suddenly knelt down in front of him:

"Father, I'm sorry for you."

Jiang Yi was startled, and then heard Jiang Tang say:

"I didn't go to find my mother. I didn't take the college entrance examination, and now I'm just a school security guard."

Jiang Yi's expression turned cold suddenly, he raised his hand, as if he wanted to hit Jiang Tang, Jiang Tang had already closed his eyes and prepared, but finally he put his hand down.

"No, I don't blame you, I don't blame you...it's Dad's fault." Jiang Yi turned his head away, "Father just wants you to live a better life... How have you been in the past five years?"

"Father. I'm doing well." Sensing his father's sharp eyes, Jiang Tang suddenly hated his gray hair, always revealing his embarrassing situation mercilessly.

"Okay." Jiang Yi said, "The organization returned the house to me and compensated a sum of money. I will sell the house and we will go to S City, and we will have a new life."

Jiang Tang was startled, but heard his father say again, "You pack up quickly, we will leave next week."

A few days passed without knowing it after returning to school, but the conversation between the two gradually decreased, and there was only silent commuting to and from school and lunch every day.After Lao Zheng came back, Wang Suye never came to 107 again. Jiang Tang felt that Wang Suye was as preoccupied as he was, so he didn't bother.

All is well and calm.Just like their relationship for many years, when the wind and thunder strike, it will be violent and thunderous.

Both of them seemed to be waiting for the right moment, for the opportunity of a sudden change in the weather, for the point where emotional catharsis would erupt.

Wang Suye was washing his hands, when he raised his head, he saw the black jacket at the corner beside him, and said with a slight smile, "What a coincidence."

Jiang Tang just stood silently, not speaking.

Wang Suye was about to leave when Jiang Tang suddenly said:

"I'm leaving today."

Wang Suye was startled, turned around and asked, "Where are you going?"

"S City." Jiang Tang said with difficulty, "I will not come back... I will have a new life."

He raised his head, as if he saw everything clearly - including their inevitable failure in the future.He pondered for a moment, and said word by word what he had been thinking in the past few days:

"Wang Suye, we can't do this forever, you know."

"Yes, I personally destroyed my future back then." His eyes were so clear and firm, with the same indomitable spirit as before, "so I can never destroy your future again."

"Wang Suye!"

Jiang Tang suddenly shouted in a deep voice.He looked at Wang Suye, who was still dripping water in his hands, and was completely stunned. Those black and shining pupils were so deep, so deep.

"Let's separate."

No forever, no forever... These four words are firm and firm, echoing in Wang Suye's ears over and over again.He heard the sound of wind and water, the screeching sound of neatly cut chalk scratching on the blackboard, the voices of students chattering and discussing issues, the voice on the radio, and the birth and destruction of all things in the universe, except for Jiang Tang. the sound of.The voice that had been haunting his ears since he was a teenager.

Wang Suye suddenly fell into a kind of quiet despair.He stood quietly, as if nothing in the world could move him.

Persevere, persevere, he said this to himself for more than ten years, as if his life was just a marathon, and at the end of the road stood the glamorous Jiang Tang, with the same smile as when he was a boy, waiting for him.At that time, he could stop, take a breath, and start the rest that lasted for decades in the second half of his life - being by Jiang Tang's side was the only rest for him.

Then Jiang Tang stood in front of him now, different from what he had imagined, dressed in dust and dust, and said lightly: "Wang Suye, let's separate, I will have a new life soon."

Jiang Tang, does your new life not include me?

But, but my new life, without you, how can it be called life.

But to be alive.

Live, live, and die, as humans have done for hundreds of millions of years.

(twelve)

"Thank you. Go away."

The simple five words cut off the decades-long connection between him and the woman who gave birth to him, and it was also the helplessness he had with him back then.

The steel seal is covered.

He walked out of the gate of the Civil Affairs Bureau.The weather is great.

Many years later, Wang Suye would still recall the way he lay on the bed on the wedding night, looking at the magnolias in full bloom outside the window of the new house.That was the first time he really smelled the fragrance of magnolia, it was very faint, and the smell that should have been strong was eradicated and obliterated little by little during the years.

Since then, two people who have nothing to do with each other have been connected together.

He packed his luggage and looked at his watch. It was almost time.

"In front of the lonely grave in W City, the fragrance of magnolia bewitched him like this, bewitched him, knelt down, and made a promise that was never fulfilled. Since then, the two separated without warning...

"Ah, it's not that there are no omens. In that era, everything was an omen. Perhaps their meeting was an omen in the dark. The omen is approaching, and it is also an omen to leave.

"Farewell to my old friend, I will never leave forever.

"Later, he got married and had children. He, Wang Suye, has changed from a fledgling young teacher to a senior teacher who is now full of peaches and plums. His life seems to have been completed.

"Only he himself knows that his life will never be complete."

In the past so many years, the green leather train has long been replaced by high-speed rail planes, and Jiang Tang may not be Jiang Tang anymore.

Wang Suye looked at the field ridges passing by at high speed outside the window of the high-speed rail, and a text message popped up on his mobile phone, which seemed to be a sweet female voice saying: "Welcome to City S."

Today, 30 years later, Wang Suye is standing on the podium, and he seems to be able to taste the taste of Mulan in his memory from his smile.He said:

"I hope you can also have good memories related to smell."

He turned away, a regretful smile.Jiang Tang didn't want to see him, he came back alone, another year.Perhaps he was secretly experiencing the bitterness and loneliness that Jiang Tang had experienced.

This year's magnolia blooms exceptionally well.

He announces class.Suddenly a student said timidly, "Teacher, there are people outside the door."

Wang Suye turned his head.

(End of the article)

The author has something to say:

Did you guess it came back?

I guess back.After all, it is HE. (laughing out loud)

May they be safe and happy.

It's the same as the outside story.