Sapphire case

47.

Gu Sheng hardly ever went out, so he didn't know.For more than two months, he has never thought of Jiang Cheng at all, and he has almost forgotten all the past that happened in this sad place in Jinzhou. Without Jiang Cheng, his life is peaceful and stable. He is very satisfied with this state, so he also Not wanting to reminisce, let alone knowing or caring about the complicated and unsolvable pain that Jiang Cheng fell into after he left.

Jiang Cheng's love for him became sick, and since the last time we met, that kind of damn longing had grown into tarsal maggots, and the pain of bone erosion made him struggle and suffer day after day.

Jiang Cheng experienced a long psychological struggle.

If the last time he rushed to the south of the Yangtze River because of Gu Sheng's life could be explained by "impulsivity", then this time his behavior was voluntary and had nothing to do with external forces at all.

After Jiang Zhiya was rescued by the doctors with all his strength, he also persuaded him to give up. At that time, Jiang Cheng blocked him with the excuse that "the three families of Song, Shen, Feng and the Japanese are also pursuing him", saying that even if he gave up, there would be other problems. People persisted, but he was not without a little wavering in his heart.

Later, I ran into Du Han in the hospital. This person always spoke for Gu Sheng, and he took out a set of Western psychological research results to preach to him——Du Han didn't know the whole truth, or he didn't know it. Dare to talk nonsense casually, so he is basically persuading him purely from the perspective of the crime of "Jiang Cheng's overlord forcing himself to bow".

Jiang Cheng really tried to think about it seriously, and just let Gu Sheng go free.

He armed his mind with the theories of Jiang Zhiya and Du Han, persuaded himself to let go of his selfishness and all his past, and tried to make his thinking develop in a direction that was good for both of them.

——But what is extremely desperate is that once he thinks that he will never have as close memories with that person as they used to in this life, his nerves are like being cut by a blunt knife, and the despair that destroys reason involves trapped animals Furious, he punched the solid wood desk.

Doesn't work, doesn't work.

Move it with emotion, and understand it with scientific theory. If you can't let it go, you just can't let it go.

As he thought about it, it was all about Gu Sheng and his past. The first time he came to Jiangnan was like drinking poison to quench his thirst. Every night, the face of that young man appeared.Time passed like water, not only did not wash away his paranoia and longing, but raised other things that were flying all over the sky and gradually covering the surrounding fields.

Jiang Cheng couldn't tell what it was with his insensitive discernment, he just felt that his initial feelings for him hadn't gone far, but had been slowly clarified under the wash of time and longing.

He made up his mind to go to the south of the Yangtze River, and he wanted to meet Gu Sheng again when he was conscious no matter what. He couldn't tell what the meaning of doing this was. Gu Sheng's hatred for him obviously didn't make him feel anything Room for a change of heart.

Drinking poison to quench thirst, the poisoning is deep, and I can't extricate myself and control myself.Jiang Cheng was in the state at that time, a yellow and thin smoker in a big class opium den, the pleasure that hits the soul in an instant came from deadly poison, but he was so devout when he enjoyed it.

Jiang Cheng wanted to find Gu Sheng on the day he came to Yingzhou, but he stopped when he knocked on the door.

His righteous blood cooled down, and what he did to Gu Sheng during those five days at the embassy filled his mind, forcing Jiang Cheng to be unable to breathe.

From the beginning to the end, he has been deliberately forgetting one thing, that is, Gu Sheng's revenge and killing have clear reasons and the price is fair.But he couldn't even find an excuse for plundering Gu Sheng.

In what capacity did he come to see Gu Sheng?

A plundering benefactor, an orphan whose family was almost wiped out by him, or an admirer who secretly protects and obsesses him?

Each one is, and each one is beyond ridiculous.

He used to be able to disregard, ignore all external things as long as Gu Sheng got his hands, but now, they have all their pasts, all kinds of dirty, horrible and unimaginable pasts, but he can no longer be like the beginning Unscrupulous.

Jiang Cheng stood outside the fence of the yard for a while, sighed deeply, and was about to turn around and leave, but when he heard the "squeak" sound of the door opening in the yard, he was startled, and hurriedly stepped behind the tree next to him, from the tree He looked through the gap with the fence.

The young man he had been thinking about for months was moving a chair out of the room, as if to stay outside for a while.

But Gu Sheng chose a position inward, which happened to be blocked by the shrubs planted outside the yard. Jiang Cheng almost looked straight away, afraid that he would evaporate out of thin air, and followed him to look in from among the leaves, and then saw him. He put a blanket on the chair, sat down with a book, and then took the other side of the blanket to cover it.

Gu Sheng looked like he was still wearing thick clothes, as if he was extremely afraid of the cold, but he ran outside again.Jiang Cheng couldn't help but worry when he saw it, he really wanted to climb over the courtyard wall and press him into the bed to settle down, but he endured and endured, and finally suppressed this impulse.

Although Gu Sheng's yard is remote, it's not that there are no pedestrians. Jiang Cheng didn't want to be discovered and he had to take into account the impact, so he went to find a telescope that afternoon, and found a good telescope in the house opposite Gu Sheng. angle.

Jiang Cheng also knew that his behavior was very similar to the mad bee wave butterfly disciples he had sneered at before, but he persuaded himself to only look at Gu Sheng when he came out—this is something that can be seen even if you take a little look outside the door .

What disappointed him was that Gu Sheng didn't come out in the afternoon, and the room was blocked by the courtyard wall, so he couldn't see it no matter how he looked.Moreover, Gu Sheng didn't seem to fire at all. In the past few days, he only saw one person go in and bring him some fruit or something.Jiang Cheng had no choice but to cherish the time of the morning and secretly envy the legend of the snail girl.

This day is rather special, Gu Sheng went out.

He has been taking traditional Chinese medicine to recuperate his body for the past two months, and the Chinese medicine has added a few extra bitter medicinal materials, which are so bitter that people will feel afraid after drinking it once. Gu Sheng is not a person who can bear bitterness. After a long time, he couldn't stand it, but fortunately, the medicine didn't conflict with the usual sweetness, so he hesitated for a while, and went to the market in person.

At that time, he was returning with a few ounces of candied fruit, and he just put a candied fruit in his mouth to satisfy his cravings. Half of his snow-white face was hidden in the raised cashmere collar, and he looked a little boyish and soft.

He walked to the door of the back room, and just pushed the door——

A familiar yet unfamiliar, tall and steep man turned his face following the sound.

Gu Sheng was taken aback immediately, as if reflexively closing the door!

The man strode over, grabbed his arm and dragged him violently towards the door!

The door slammed shut, causing the wooden hanging beams to tremble a little.

An extremely intense and familiar pain came from his arm, and the thick cotton coat didn't seem to weaken his strength in the slightest. Gu Sheng turned pale from the pain in an instant, and blurred and chaotic memories flooded in an instant.

These days, he has actually forgotten a little bit. From the few days when he was conscious, he vaguely felt that his memory seemed to be a little fuzzy and disconnected. It was just that the overwhelming pain and sadness in his memories caused intense physical pain, forcing him to He had to give up reminiscing, and then he took the initiative to stop thinking about it.

He vaguely remembered some things, but the characters in those pictures could not be named except himself, he forgot who those people were, only the crushing pain appeared with the appearance of those people, it seemed that he had once been brutal The land occupied a long period of his life, and even when the memory stopped, it seemed that there was more, but he couldn't remember it anyway and didn't want to pursue the details.

His body's memory of pain is more than his brain's memory of a certain person. Gu Sheng subconsciously wanted to run away from the man who had inflicted countless violence and threats on him. He felt extremely strong and embarrassing anxiety and frightened.

Gu Sheng made a sudden move, but he didn't shake it off. He raised his head and said coldly, "Let go! What are you doing here?"

Jiang Cheng stared at him with his head down, the expression in the eyes hidden under the deep eye sockets was cold and stern.

When Gu Sheng pulled his hand, he might have pulled an old wound. At this time, his face changed slightly. The expression of the man who had raised his eyebrows at him just now and wished he could get skinned and boned on the spot, suddenly collapsed like a river bursting an embankment, bringing Carefully let go of him almost slightly apologetically, and asked in a low voice: "Did it hurt you? Huh?"

...that voice was trembling, not to mention resentment, it was not even gentle, it was almost as humble as the dust.

Gu Sheng took a step back and looked at him warily: "What are you doing here? Get out!"

"It's okay, it's okay... I'll come and see you, I'll come and see you." Jiang Cheng said, at this moment he actually smiled, turned his head and touched the bridge of his nose, "You are more than I thought... ah ...I saw you, unexpectedly...unexpectedly..."

I can't even hate you.

Before Gu Sheng could react, Jiang Cheng exhaled and looked directly at him, pretending to be relaxed and nodded to him, and said, "I'm leaving now, I'm leaving now... I just want to tell you, I'm going to tell you about the matter of Jingbei." If you block it, you will... feel at ease."

He looked at Gu Sheng. At that time, there was almost nothing in his eyes other than sadness, and he was so heavy and oppressive that he seemed to be able to drown people on the spot.He just took such a deep look at the young man in front of him, as if he wanted to copy every detail of him into his mind, and then walked around him and opened the door——

Gu Sheng turned sideways, pressed his forehead, and said, "Actually——I don't really remember, what's the matter of 'Beijing North'. So you don't have to do anything for me anymore."

"No, I'm all..." Jiang Cheng turned around, hurriedly trying to explain.

Gu Sheng ignored him, paused for a moment, without showing any expression on his face, and said softly: "If you really like me so much..."

Jiang Cheng thought for a moment that he would make some request, so he hurriedly raised his head to look at him: "What?"

Gu Sheng smiled, but there was some cruelty in the smile, and he said, "That's your fate too."

... That kind of expression suddenly seemed like a dream, pulling Jiang Cheng's memory back to a year ago, when he saw Gu Sheng for the first time in Changfu Restaurant, which aroused strands of warmth, and that almost The cruel sentence shattered all illusions in an instant.

But he just listened to Gu Sheng continue to say indifferently: "...I had a sudden illness before, and my memory and physical strength were not as good as before. The Chinese medicine doctor here asked me to go to a big hospital. I knew that I might not live long. , I don’t want to suffer any more, so I won’t go.”

He turned his face sideways and raised his head, with a distant and indifferent expression: "Also, what's your name?"

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Haha I'm going to splash dog blood, hahaha I'll ask you if you're afraid hahaha (non-existent)