lemon balm

"Is the story over?" he asked, looking at me.

"En." I nodded, looking at his fair face, without a trace of blemish, it looked crystal clear.He suddenly smiled, and a lock of hair fell to one side. "What are you laughing at?"

"It's nothing, are you eating here tonight?" He raised his slender neck.

"Alright." I turned around, picked up the cup on the table, and found another cup of lemon tea. In fact, I haven't drank it for a long time. The lemon is extremely sour, and it is even more sour when it meets the boiling hot tea. At the beginning, it was him Often in the summer, sipping ice-cold lemonade and handing me the glass.Now that I drink it again, it's not so sour. Thinking about it, it wasn't necessarily sour at the beginning, but I still couldn't help but see a tear from the corner of my eye.

Unfortunately, it happened to be seen by Xiao Ning. He didn't seem to care very much. He stared at the tree outside the window in a daze. In those days, he leaned against the street lamp, with a blurred face and a faint youthful fragrance.

"Hey, autumn is here." He suddenly sighed.

"Yeah, it's already autumn." I thought of a young boy sitting on the playground with his clothes in his arms one autumn many years ago. "I've been at your house for several months."

"Well, you are about to be laid off." He smiled. "My mother enrolled me in a sprint cram school for the third year of high school, and invited teachers from the school to provide one-on-one tutoring."

"Oh?" I raised my eyebrows, "Then you will have a hard time in the second half of the year."

He didn't speak, just sat and drank his tea.After a while, Mama Li came to call for dinner.In the past few months, I have eaten a lot of meals here, but they have never been so rich. I am a little uneasy.Looking at the dishes on the table, I can only chew on the assorted eggplant box in front of me. Although Li Ma’s cooking is good, the taste is not the taste of local dishes, usually light southern dishes. This eggplant box tastes really authentic. The city's local dishes, the very clear taste of spices, made me almost cry out.It's so similar, so much like his cooking.

"Xiao Lin, today I specially cooked dishes for you, to reward you, you don't know, since Xiao Ning suffered a serious illness a few years ago, he has been depressed, and his father and I can't stay with him all day, In recent days, he has become a lot more cheerful. I hired a teacher for Xiao Ning next semester, but you still have to come and accompany him often, and auntie will cook for you when you are free." She smiled sincerely and enthusiastically, and the man next to him Mr. Wei also showed a gratified smile.

"I will, I have nothing to do at school anyway." He smiled politely.

"Eat vegetables, eat vegetables." She was busy picking vegetables into other people's bowls, but she didn't move a few chopsticks, with a greasy smile on her round face.I looked at Xiao Ning next to me, eating with a calm face, unmoved at all.

After eating and thanking the family, he escaped after all kinds of excuses.Finally, at the door, she enthusiastically said, "Can't you stop? Then Xiao Ning, you go see Brother Lin off."

It was a cold night in late autumn. I wrapped myself in a coat and looked at Xiao Ning in a big gray sweater. I was a little dazed, and I couldn't help but call out "Ah Jin?" A cloud of white mist came out of my mouth. Overlapped, I looked at his white and soft face, with a somewhat patient expression, and suddenly smiled and said, "Are you crazy, did you admit the wrong person?"

It was only then that I came to my senses and realized that I had identified the wrong person, so I had to say "I'm sorry, Xiao Ning, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Then I turned my head and stopped looking at him, but the scenery next to me was gray and very disappointing.When fall comes, that's it, everything looks gray and dirty looking.

After walking for a long time, I said to him, "Go back, it's cold at night." So I stood and watched him go back.I have also gone back, and I have walked this road many times, but I have never seen the leaves falling. When the leaves fall, it is very sad and beautiful. It is definitely not like the vibrant summer a few months ago. The summer is so eager and youthful. , but summer has finally passed, and the rest is broken autumn.

After returning home, it was intense and busy reviewing. The university exams were not so easy, especially for those students who didn’t usually work hard. The weeks before the exams were extremely tense and enthusiastic. Build a good relationship with the teacher, maybe you can mark the key points, even if you don’t plan, you can be more tolerant to yourself, otherwise it will be even more pitiful if your usual attendance scores are not up to standard.Moreover, there are many benefits to having a good relationship with the teacher. I heard that there used to be a senior who had a very good relationship with the teacher, and as a result, he directly got a full set of test papers.Also, some students have a good relationship with their class advisors, and in the end they were No.1 in every subject.This is what I heard two girls in the back row say in class. One said, those students?What else?The other one is back, monitor!

Autumn passed quickly, and the leaves fell off. In a short period of time, pedestrians had already put on thick cotton-padded clothes. A very sad mourning song.Looking at the pale winter day, it looks thin, and the exam is coming soon. Everyone is a little nervous, but the atmosphere is very light. After all, most of the colleges fail the exam, and there will be no situation where they fail the exam and fail to study. There are games where some people have no pressure, fall in love, and may fail again.

People, what is the meaning of life?People in love will talk about love, people who play games will talk about interests, hobbies, and even ideals, people who study will talk about progress and civilization, and those who spend all day in the student union will talk about life, which is complicated and realistic, but for success .what about me?It doesn’t seem to be the case, I seem to have lost the backbone of my life, I don’t play games, I don’t fall in love, my grades are not amazing enough, and I don’t know how to hang out in clubs. It seems that I have never lived for myself.In the past, it was for my mother, and later, it was for him, but when he is gone, who is it for?

In winter, it's so cold that it almost takes your breath away.Winter is just that good, it's cold enough that people don't have the mind to think about other things.When the white snow fell, the things in the school were basically over, and everyone was preparing to pack up and go home. I also moved back to the dormitory before the snow fell. In the noisy hallway of the dormitory, only a few students who couldn't buy a ticket to go home were left, looking bored at the gray dormitory.On this day, it was very cloudy outside, and it seemed that there was going to be another heavy snowfall.My mother is gone, and I am alone, and I don’t want to go back so early. My father is usually not at home, and it is boring to go home, so I simply stay in school for a few more days.

As he imagined this, he walked out. The gray sky was tinged with lavender, which looked very eerie. There were not many people in the school, only a few pedestrians with suitcases.I was walking on the road, looking at the empty campus, feeling a little irritable and a little scared.Walking to the restaurant, the restaurant was empty, without even a light, it looked very dark, and only one shop for milk tea was open, so I had to give up and back out.

Back on the road, the usual delicate flowers and emerald green leaves are all bare, which looks very ugly.Don't know where to go?Walking aimlessly, the streets outside are still full of traffic, coming and going in a hurry.Counting the bricks on the ground, where am I going?I don't know myself, just walking like this is really a bit boring, I want to find something to do, but I don't know what to do.The pedestrians on the street are very indifferent. I don't know if it's because it's too cold or because people's hearts are already cold.

I walked to a very familiar street. There were still sycamore trees on this street. Although the leaves had fallen off, the smooth bark of the sycamore tree was still eye-catching. Looking at the street where everything has changed, I remembered the old sycamore tree six years ago. That winter, there was heavy snow, and it was also an extremely gloomy day. Under the dim street lights, he and I were together.I don't know why, maybe it's because of my state of mind. There are snowflakes in the sky, and seeing the snow drifting by, my state of mind is different.

The snowflakes melted in the palm of my hand, it was cool, with a hint of chill, but afterwards, the palm of the hand was scorching hot, this kind of heat, like those summer evenings, when he leaned against me, his black and soft hair was full of fragrance, mixed with the air With the smell of spices in it, the temperature of midsummer will pass by in time.It was windy, with snowflakes in it, and it was a little cold, so he wrapped his coat tightly. He said that boys in coats looked the best, like the leading actors in movies.

Before I knew it, I walked under the street light.I don't know why, maybe the sky is dark, and the street lamps are on during the day. Under the dim light, the fluttering snowflakes fall, forming a swirl of astigmatism in the wind, which is as gorgeous as a beautiful colorful dress.I remembered that winter again, when he stood there under the street lamp, I told him, remember to call me, his thin body seemed to be made of paper, as if it would disperse when the wind blows, his face turned pale from the cold , with red lips, a soft long round face, and fine hair, she looks like an angel who can't eat fireworks.

Suddenly, seeing him again, I opened my mouth and exhaled clouds of white mist, but I didn't know what to say.He was carrying me behind his back, his thin body looked even thinner under the pure white coat, and his black hair was blowing in the wind.I blinked, not knowing who he really was.After thinking about it, Xiao Ning's family conditions, why should a student be hired as a tutor?Why did he have a bad relationship with his father?Are there really two people so alike in the world?

"A Jin?" I stopped him, and he turned around, revealing his slender neck, fair and soft face, the light in Danfeng's eyes was covered by long eyelashes, it was hard to tell what he was thinking, he looked It still looks beautiful.He was just shivering slightly, maybe it was cold in winter, I remember he was very afraid of the cold.

"All these years, are you okay?" He asked with a smile, in the vast expanse of white snow, the world was vast.