the city I love

10

Occasionally, he would also call Zhang Zhihuai, most of which were trivial matters in life, and often ended in a hurry with the crying of the child.

He said good night to that person softly on the phone that had been hung up. This is a habit Zhang Zhihuai cultivated when he just moved to Zhang Zhihuai's house, when Zhang Zhihuai began to sleep with him who was having nightmares.

Zhang Zhihuai was also the first to quit this habit.

What about him?He said "good night"

pause for a few seconds

Say "I love you" again

Later, a quarrel broke out between the husband and wife, and he heard Zhang Zhihuai say to him in a broken voice, Chuchu, can you come back for a while?There was crying and beating on the other end of the phone

Zhang Chu rushed back again. The man was very surprised to see him. At that time, he had not been back for two years.

The moment he saw Zhang Zhihuai, a great sense of grief tugged at his heart, making him want to squat down and cry out regardless. At this moment, he was so clear that time did not kill his love, he was too I miss him so much.Thinking of the past when there were only the two of them and they slept together, thinking of the past when he accidentally burned himself while cooking for him, but the man felt distressed as if he was hurt, thinking of the past, as long as he flew over, he would have a warm embrace, etc. Looking at him, I also miss the fireworks that frightened him, and the inferior Taibai rabbit toffee... Now, it's gone, everything is gone.

Zhang Zhihuai is only 40 years old, and he has already been tortured and exhausted.The child was ill, with severe kidney disease, and the family's savings were almost exhausted. At this time, the woman thought of him and his savings.But the man firmly said that he couldn't move, that was Chu Chu's, Chu Chu, Chu Chu again! She was fed up with the man's most important position in her heart, so at first it was just a quarrel, but later it got to the point of divorce.

Zhang Zhihuai was smoking on the sofa, he walked over and hugged him, he lost weight, his bones were a little bit crooked.

"I said you can't move, and you can only earn so little money." He is already familiar with the smell of this kind of smoke. When he was alone in the rental house, he dreamed that when Zhang Zhihuai woke up and found that he was alone, The ashtray is always full.

"Everything about me is yours"

Concealed and bold confession

The man didn't hear the meaning

He went back to the big house where he lived with his parents before, looked at all the places again, and said sorry in his heart every time he entered a room.In the end, when he handed over the keys to the intermediary, he looked back at the place where his family once lived, and felt that everything was like a mirror, and from beginning to end, he could not achieve consummation.

He handed over all his money to them. In his opinion, it was all due and belonged to men.

Zhang Zhihuai lost his temper: "Who asked you to sell it? You don't even want your home? I'd rather borrow and rob it than let you sell it!"

Zhang Zhihuai was unwilling to ask for his money, so he put the card on the table and sighed: "But this is my home, where do you want me to go? The child is still in a hurry to spend money."

He remembered that the girl was lying on the bed very weakly, and she still called him brother in a sensible way.

But Zhang Zhihuai said hoarsely: "I called you back just because I missed you."

His heart trembled, and he almost misunderstood, but he came back to his senses only for a moment

"I know, I know everything," Zhang Chu said. Zhang Zhihuai only misses him as a family member. He only has one heart, and he put it all on him before, but now he feels wronged because Zhang Chu misunderstood him.

I know, you just can't hold on anymore, you just want to talk to someone, I know.

The woman wiped her tears by the bed, Zhang Chu pushed him and let him pass.He stood at the door and watched Zhang Zhihuai hug her into his arms, comforting in a low voice, he was the only one left in the long corridor, he understood that he had completely pushed the person in his heart to others.

Soon after, the girl's health improved a lot, but she still had to take very expensive medicine.

He left again, and came to the station alone, still without him to see him off.He left quietly, while Zhang Zhihuai was going to the hospital to take care of the child, he greeted the woman, and left with his luggage alone, he was afraid that he would never be able to leave again when he saw Zhang Zhihuai,

He is full of travel and dust, and he can never find a home where he can spend the rest of his life.

It seems that he was born alone, walking from one city to another alone, not taking root in any place, and not staying there for long.

He will not go to the bar alone, and he will not party all night and let himself be intoxicated in false illusions.He works nine to five, and lives his life honestly.He knew the cruelty of reality a long time ago, and he didn't know whether fate was good or bad for him. He paid the price and met the person he loved, but they could never be together.

......

"I'm happy if he lives well." He ended his relationship with one sentence.

On such a rainy afternoon, Zhang Chu finished telling his stories of more than ten years

"What happened"

Wen Le knew that there must be a reason for suddenly confiding in others.

"I'm sick" he doesn't look like a sick person but he says "lung cancer"

The cycle of karma in everything is unsatisfactory. "Probably I can't bear to see me smoking too much." He said, another cigarette burned to the end, "Today is my last day at work, and things are too suffocating. It’s been a long time, and I really want to talk to someone.”

He said thank you for listening to my story

The man carefully picked up his book and said goodbye to him with an ashtray in his hand.