when i used to love you

Today is a sunny day.It was clearly early in the morning, but the sun could not help but come to the ground, illuminating everything so beautifully.I hesitated between the electric wheelchair and the crutches, but after making up my mind, I picked up the crutches and walked out of the ward as gently as possible.There were not many people in the corridor, and the whole building was still sleeping peacefully.But I couldn't restrain the excitement in my heart, and limped towards the ward where Zhiyu was.

Standing at the door, I took several deep breaths, but my heart was still pounding like a drum.I squeezed my sweaty palms, my eyes froze, and I knocked lightly on the door as if I were dying.I feel that these short ten seconds are as long as ten years.

Finally, a familiar voice came from the door: "Who is there?"

My heart tightened, and I tried to answer in a normal tone: "Zhiyu, it's me, Yang..."

Before the words were finished, the door was suddenly opened vigorously, and Zhiyu's face with a pleasant smile appeared in front of my eyes unexpectedly.

"Brother, I miss you!" Zhiyu suddenly rushed up with a bear hug, almost knocking me to the ground.My heart suddenly seemed to be filled, and it was filled with honey, which was so sweet that it was cloying.

"Hey, I'm not a child anymore, so nasty..." I habitually touched Zhiyu's furry head.

"Oh brother, why do you always touch me like a child!" Zhiyu looked up at me.Ignoring his bent waist, he is indeed shorter than me now.cough cough...

Being stared at by Zhiyu's shining eyes like a small animal, my heart was filled with complicated emotions.Seeing that there was no one around, I lowered my voice: "Zhiyu, let's go in, it's not good to disturb other patients."

Zhiyu nodded, grabbed my wrist and entered the ward with me.He had plaster casts on his legs and arms and a bandage on his head.I wanted to say something, but didn't say it.

Zhiyu actually lived in a single room, and the conditions seemed pretty good.He was about to say something to me when he saw the crutches I was leaning on and frowned: "Brother, your legs..."

I was taken aback, and coughed twice: "Eh, didn't you have a car accident before? I was a little anxious at that time, and accidentally fell..."

"Brother, I think you are a child, right? Why can't you even take care of yourself?" Zhiyu's tone was mixed with remorse, anger and concern.I was reprimanded by such words, but I was content with it, and smiled again and again: "Okay, okay, I will be careful in the future..."

Zhiyu stared at me, fell silent all of a sudden, and kept digging at the bed sheet with her fingers.After a long time, he said, "Brother, what happened to me? Why did someone tell me it was years later when I woke up? Why did I suddenly have a car accident? What happened before?"

I sigh.How could Zhiyu not have discovered it?But how on earth should I tell him?What to tell him?Tell him that our relationship has been indifferent in the past few years, so we have very little contact. Tell him that he has a girlfriend he likes a lot in the past two years, but I don’t like her because I like you?

But after considering it for a long time, I decided to tell some objective truth.Just as I was about to speak, the door slammed open.I turned around, but saw someone I hadn't seen for a long time——Xin Xueqi.She was obviously in a hurry, she only applied a little makeup, but she was also very beautiful.She looked very anxious, and walked straight to Zhiyu as if she didn't see me.Zhiyu was also obviously confused, but let Xin Xueqi bend down, and gently hugged him who was sitting on the hospital bed.

I turned my face away.My heart was still slightly sour, and I couldn't help but sighed lightly.

"It's a good thing you're okay...it's great..." Xin Xueqi sobbed, her voice was so pitiful.Zhiyu should be flustered, a little at a loss: "Well, Xue, Xueqi?"

"Great, you still remember me!" Xin Xueqi's delighted voice reached my ears undisguised.Unfortunately, I can't cover my ears...

"How can you not remember? But now you..." I couldn't help turning my head back and looking at the two of them.Even though Zhiyu experienced such a big thing, they quickly became friendly.

"Hey, since Miss Xin is here, I'm going back to the ward." I propped up my crutches and tried to let myself stand up naturally.

"Hey, bro..." Zhiyu called me hastily.The moment he called me, I clearly saw that Xin Xueqi's face turned pale.

"Well, Xueqi, my brother and I want to talk, you first..." Zhiyu was a little embarrassed, but Xin Xueqi smiled indifferently and walked out of the room.

Zhiyu, why are you bothering... I sighed silently in my heart, feeling sour and depressed.No matter how you treat me now, you will treat her a thousand times better than me in the future.

"Brother, don't be like this..." Zhiyu's handsome face showed an expression of anger and coquettishness that he often made to me in high school.Instead of being surprised, the melancholy in my heart disappeared all of a sudden.

"No, no, I just wanted to give you two some space." I smiled narrowly on purpose, which really caused Tiyu's cheeks to blush.It turned out that they were already at that time... As if I didn't see it, I yawned on purpose: "Okay, okay, I won't be glowing anymore. No matter how good a girl is, you can't ignore her again and again." Ah. I'm tired too, let's see you again in the afternoon, let's go."

"Ah..." Zhiyu wanted to say something, but finally just waved to me, showing a bright smile.

As soon as I went out, I saw Xin Xueqi sitting on a chair beside her.I nodded as a greeting to her.Unexpectedly, she stopped me, her voice was colder than ever before.

"Mr. Yang, let's talk." She stood up straight, her delicate face expressionless.

I was startled, nodded, and sat on a chair not far away with her.

"Mr. Yang, I guess you are the happiest when this happens." Before I could sit still, Xin Xueqi spoke aggressively, her eyes full of coldness.

"Miss Xin, how can you say that, would I be happy to see Zhiyu lying there covered in blood?" I took a breath that I almost didn't bring up, and continued, "How could I predict Could something like this happen?"

Xin Xueqi stared at me for a while, almost gritted her teeth and said, "Who can prove that you didn't do it on purpose? Maybe you didn't hesitate to let Zhiyu..."

I twitched the corners of my mouth, and my tone was full of sarcasm, interrupting her nonsense: "Yes, not everyone is like you, Miss Xin, who can abandon the person you like for some boring reasons. "

My words made Xin Xueqi's already pale face even paler.She seemed to have been sucked out of all her strength suddenly, she bent down dejectedly, and let out a low whimper.I was startled, with mixed feelings in my heart.This girl... really likes Zhiyu...

"No, it's not a coincidence." Xin Xueqi said softly suddenly, "There have been signs of such a thing."

"What did you say?" I was shocked in my heart.

"Probably a sophomore? A freshman? I don't remember the exact time. One morning when I had breakfast with him, he suddenly took out his mobile phone and said that he was going to call his brother. But at that time... "Xin Xueqi just smiled with an unknown meaning, and then continued, "Fortunately, I stopped him at that time, otherwise I'm afraid you will... Then this phenomenon will increase more and more. Sometimes his memory seems to return to high school, Either in the second year of high school or in the third year of high school, in short, it is always related to you. I really can't stand it! I can't stand it...he talked about you happily in front of me..."

Hearing this, my heart was already turned upside down.Xin Xueqi wiped away her tears and continued: "I want to tell him loudly that his memory is messed up, but I can't make him suspicious of the relationship between him and you now... I've worked so hard, it's really worked so hard... Then , and then there was a fuse, we started to quarrel... In order to get him back, I pretended to let him see me with other boys... I was so confident at that time, but the next day, he asked for leave Here... Sure enough, to him, the most important thing is not me after all..."

I didn't know how to comfort her, or just look on.For so many years, our gradual estrangement may have something to do with Xin Xueqi... But if it weren't for the distance in space, how could we have gradually drifted apart?

I sighed softly and said, "Go."

Xin Xueqi looked at me blankly, as if she didn't understand what I meant by this sentence.

"Isn't this a good thing? Zhiyu doesn't seem to remember the dispute between you for the time being. If I spend time with him, maybe..." My voice became lower and lower, and finally turned into a sigh.

"You..." Xin Xueqi was completely stunned, and just looked at me blankly.

"But..." I changed the subject, and slightly curled the corners of my lips, "Maybe we won't see each other again in the future. So, I want to stay with him, even if it's only for a few days. When he recovers, you can go away... "

I didn't wait for her response.He just stood up with his crutches, and walked to Zhiyu's ward step by step.After staying for a while, I left quietly.Although I already know that this is nothing but joy, I still can't help but have hope...