when i used to love you

After moving to the clean and bright office, I greeted several colleagues cautiously, and sat in my chair, thinking of the phone call a year ago.

It was Christmas that day, and the students in the class got together to prepare for the Christmas party.I didn't go, I stayed in the dormitory alone.That night, almost all the students went out to have a carnival, and the huge campus was quiet, as if I was the only one.Just as I picked up the book on the table, the mobile phone that hadn't been turned on for a long time suddenly rang, and the cheerful music was a bit out of place.I glanced at the screen, froze for a moment, and got connected excitedly.

"Hello?" A nice voice sounded over there.Compared with Zhiyu's original voice, her current voice is much more mature.

"Hello, Zhiyu? Why did you suddenly think of calling me today?" I barely suppressed the excitement in my heart, and asked in a calm tone as much as possible.

"Ah, isn't it Christmas today? It's so lively here, what about you?" Zhiyu's voice was a little excited, and I heard the noisy voice. It seemed to be infected by the atmosphere over there, so I smiled slightly up.

"Well, we are having a lot of fun here, everyone is very happy." I lied nonchalantly and said with a smile.

"Really? But it's so quiet over there!"

"Um, I'm calling you right now, so I came out."

"..." Zhiyu suddenly stopped talking. I waited for a long time, and when I was about to speak, I vaguely heard a coquettish and timid voice, as if she was acting coquettishly with Zhiyu.Zhiyu also seemed to laugh and said something.

But I waited patiently, holding my phone motionless.

"Okay, okay...Hello? Are you still listening?" Zhiyu finally remembered, "I want...to say something."

"Ah, I'm still here, tell me, I'm listening." I smiled.

"Well, Xueqi told me just now that she felt that her boyfriend's name was a bit weird, and she was joking with me that we were like that - didn't she like to watch some men these days? So..." Zhiyu said with a smile, "We won't be called brothers in the future. It's a bit strange for her to say that, after all, we are not brothers, are we? So I will call you...well, senior. What do you say, senior?"

Then I heard a girl's unreal and coquettish words from the phone, and then I heard Zhiyu's doting smile...

Before death, people seem to remember some unforgettable things in life.But at this moment, in front of my eyes, it was like a revolving lantern, the things about He Zhiyu in the past were being staged one by one...

For a long time, I closed my eyes.

I don't know how many times, I heard myself say those hypocritical words in a nonchalant voice: "It's nothing, it's not a big deal, just call you whatever you want."

"Okay. Senior, I'll hang up first. Oh, and Merry Christmas."

The call is terminated.I watched silently as that patch of blue light returned to darkness.