summer love

Shuilongyin · Resurrecting the old hidden

Song Cai Shen

Painted bridges and flowing water Taoxi Road, don't be beautiful in a pot.The night moon in the south building, the rain in the east window, and the golden lotus are drunk together.People are quiet in the corridor, hand in hand side by side, Yuzhi is fragrant.The sound of reciting the purple flute is broken, Wu Yang is dreaming, where are the people, and the flowers are empty.Leaning against the lonely and dangerous fence.Looking at the fairyland, the water and clouds are boundless.Yunfang Garden, come back to the empty lock, the ground is covered with moss.Things are different, people are different, Xiaochi is still the same, and there are two plays of colorful mandarin ducks.I think of Fengyue at that time, but now I embrace her with tears.

It is always a different feeling to revisit the old place. In the Song Dynasty, Lu You and Tang Wan revisited the Shen Garden and wrote "The Hairpin Head Phoenix" that has been passed down for thousands of years.How many people can have such talent, I can only write down the bits and pieces at that time, so as to recall the love between me and my brother.

In the past, every time my brother came to look for me, I always picked him up at the station.I don't want him to drive, because I am too tired to drive by myself once, and the time is not as long as it is convenient to come by train.He stayed in the same hotel, in the same room, every time he came.In the few years when there was no news of him, I would go back to school every September to see, think about us once, and try to see if we could meet him again.

The first thing we do when we come here is to go to the hotel where we often live and book the room we always live in.

Standing at the door of the hotel, I didn't recognize it. It could be seen that it had been redecorated and looked more warm.

"Sister Fan, I'm here again."

The middle-aged woman sitting in front of the counter froze for a moment, and said in surprise: "Is it Ziyu? I haven't been here for a long time. The change is really big. I have lost a lot of weight, and I can hardly recognize it." Sister Fan's age She is about fifty years old like my mother, and she is very sincere, and treats me very well every time I come here.

"You look old too, and the decoration of your home is better than before."

She said with a smile on her face: "Last year my son came back and said that our decoration was too old to attract young people like you. He designed and decorated for us and became what we are now. To be honest, the business is not much better than before. , It’s just my son’s wish.”

"It's called applying what you've learned, or else his architectural design would be in vain."

"You can't just talk, I'll give you the key and go to your room to rest. I'm going to buy groceries, and I'll eat at my place later."

I apologized and said, "Every time I come here, I cause you trouble, but your dishes are delicious."

Sister Fan smiled and said, "Why are you being polite to me?" She said and handed me the key of the room.

Looking at the house number on the key, I froze for a moment.

Sister Fan said: "You come here every September, and I keep it for you. I came a few days late this time, so I thought you wouldn't come. Go and have a rest." After driving for half a day, I was really tired. up.

About an hour later, Sister Fan came to call me for dinner.I lay in my room and recalled the bits and pieces of our stay here.

During the meal, there was one more person, and Sister Fan introduced to me: "This is my son, who hasn't gone to school yet. He will come back after the school is about to start for the whole holiday. He will stay at home for a few days before going there. "We said hello politely and didn't pay much attention to him.

Sister Fan asked me: "How did that matter go?" Sister Fan has experienced everything during her years at school.She can see our relationship, and we don't shy away from her.She also knows that my brother left without saying goodbye suddenly, and that I have been looking for him all these years.She is like my mother is a haven I can rely on.

I calmly said: "It's done, the person has been found."

Sister Fan asked with concern: "Is there something wrong?" Then Sister Fan looked at her son and said, "You can take this dish and go back to the room to eat." I left quickly.

I said to Sister Fan: "He left, and his wife told me it was a car accident." I only admit that Chenchen's mother is my brother's wife, and only I am his lover, and he only loves me from beginning to end.

The bowl in Sister Fan's hand dropped on the table, she was very surprised.He said several times in a row, "How could this happen? How could this be..." Then he said to me, "You have to hold on."

I said: "I'm fine, everything is over, I can see it. Although he's gone, I still know that he didn't abandon me, it's just that he has unavoidable difficulties. I'm fine."

"Well, yes. He has unavoidable difficulties." I watched Sister Fan frowned and she seemed to have made a very difficult decision and said, "There are some things that I don't know whether to say or not. Since he is no longer here, I'll tell you." Right. One day a few years ago, Long Tao came to me suddenly and said to me: "If you come over one day and ask me to tell him, and tell me to keep it secret, don't tell you." I thought you two had an argument, but I didn't think much about it Then you really came, I called him, and he came. I watched him live in the room next to you, and he followed you wherever you went, worrying about your accident. At that time You are depressed, and I don’t know what to say. I don’t know what happened to you. I believe the misunderstanding can be resolved. But it’s been a few years since you talked about it. He really likes you. Although you’re gone , but the feelings can’t go away.”

"Sister Fan, thank you for telling me this, I know he loves me. I'm full, let's go for a walk."

"Why don't you just eat this little, and eat some more. It's so hot, so go out after a rest."

I said: "No, I'll go to the school." After I finished speaking, I walked out, and Sister Fan hurried out and said to me, "You must come back for dinner."

I smiled and said to her, "Well, I see."

Walking into the gate of the school, all the buildings are so familiar, just like the saying "Things are things and people are no longer".A few years have passed, the students of the school have changed one after another, and the teachers of the school have changed one batch after another. Although the buildings are also changing, they seem to have remained the same relatively speaking, standing there solemnly, witnessing Follow everything that happens in school.Just like a thousand-year-old tree, witnessing the vicissitudes of life, only it stands still.

I also stepped into the gate of the school in the same way back then. I was so young at that time, as energetic and young as the children now.

Suddenly someone patted me on the shoulder, I looked back and saw a young man smiled at me, I sighed what a clean boy!He said: "My mother asked me to give you that bottle of water and walk with you. Fortunately, you didn't go far. If you go far, I won't be able to find you."

"Thank you, I'm sorry to trouble you on a hot day. Go back quickly, I'll walk by myself."

He said: "Let me take a walk with you. Speaking of which, I haven't visited here much yet. You can introduce me."

I said: "Okay then, if you don't mind the heat, you can go with me." I asked him again: "Shall I tell you a story? A love story, a love story of two men in love."

He said: "Okay, it's not easy for two men to fall in love. There are very few people in this world who like the same sex, and it's even more difficult to find your lover. But this world still can't tolerate them, it's true."

I really didn't expect him to have such an understanding at such a young age. It is said that children nowadays are precocious, really precocious.Speaking of which, he is not precocious, he has already gone to college, and it is time to mature.

I pointed to the building facing the door and said: "Look, that's the place where we met. The day I entered school, he was the instructor here to guide the students in his class to report procedures in the class. The first time I saw him I just fell in love with him, he is very handsome and sunny. But he looks very strict."

I talked to him as I walked, and I didn't know if he was listening. At this time, I just wanted to find someone to talk to.Nor did I notice that I had told him that I was the hero of the story.

Everything in the school is like magic, taking my memory back to when I just entered school.

"Look, the freshmen in the freshman year are doing military training, and I was also doing military training there back then."

"Did you see that building? I lived in that building back then. I wonder if there has been any change in it?"

"That's the bathroom of our school, next to it is the water room."

"That, that red building is the library, the same color as it, but not as grand as it is the teaching building of our department."

"Further forward is the playground, and further forward is the school's computer room."

Walking all the way, I said that I have reached another gate of the school without knowing it, and there are more and more students on the way.

Going out from this door is all about snacks. The students have finished their afternoon classes, so they are all gathering here.I have always disliked crowded places, but when I came here I still wanted to see if the place I used to eat was still there.I quickly turned around and found that those snacks were not there. Their business was extremely hot when we were still here.

I said to the boy next to me: "I'm sorry, I took you to walk with me for a long time, let's go back."

He said: "Well, okay. I didn't expect your story to be so exciting. I wonder what will happen to you after graduation?"

I showed embarrassment on my face, and said: "The future story, what kind of story can there be in the future. Things are different, there is nothing to say."

"Your story is so wonderful and simple, it's much better than some unrealistic Tanmei novels on the Internet. If you write it, there will definitely be a large number of readers."

I asked, "Do you also read Tanmei novels?"

He seemed to be hiding his panic, and said, "My classmates recommended a few novels for me to read, and I can read them when I have nothing to do."

"Oh, so that's the case. When I have time, I will write down our story and show it to you first."

He said embarrassingly: "Okay." At this moment, there was already a trace of doubt in my heart.

I looked around for a while, and suddenly found that the familiar restaurant was still there. It was the restaurant with the best environment around the school, and the dishes were not bad.I stopped at the entrance of the restaurant and was startled, only to hear him call me: "Brother, brother..." I came back to my senses.He asked me: "Did you remember something?" I said: "It's okay, let's go home."

When we walked into the lobby of the hotel, we found Brother Jie sitting here. I went up and gave him a hug. I really didn't want to let him go.Brother Tao is my eternal reliance, he is my lover; Brother Jie is my other reliance. He cares about me just like my brother. I don’t have a real brother, so I really want to have a brother.I treat brother Jie like my own brother, and he always treats me like his own brother.

Once, I said to Brother Jie: "You will be my godson for my parents? Then I will have an older brother, and I will have another person to take care of me."

Before Brother Jie could speak, Brother Tao immediately said, "No, he is taking advantage of me, don't think about it."

I said, "How did you take advantage of you?"

Brother Tao said: "If he becomes the godson of my parents, he will become my uncle, and he will take advantage of me."

I said, "Who said I'm going to marry you? It's a good idea."

Brother Jie said: "Okay, okay, don't make trouble. I am not the godson of my uncle and aunt, but also your brother. I will treat you the same."

When Brother Jie and I hugged each other, I felt a cold look behind me that made me shudder. I let Brother Jie go and saw only Sister Fan’s son standing behind me.His eyes looking at Brother Jie were so warm, Brother Jie and I looked at each other and said to him: "This is Sister Fan's son..."

Before I finished speaking, I just heard the boy say: "Hello, my name is Yang Huayu, this shop is opened by my family. Who are you?" Only then did I know the name of this big boy

I knew what he meant, and immediately said: "This is my brother, one year older than me is also my senior."

He said, "Why don't you look alike at all?"

At this time, Sister Fan had already come out, smiled and said to her son: "The two of them are not real brothers, they are better than real brothers. You have to make a few friends like this in school." Then she said to me: "Come back soon. Clean up the room and go out to eat." I made a show to Brother Jie and asked him to follow me back to the room.

When I got to the room, I said to him, "Did you see the way Sister Fan's son looked at you just now?"

He said: "I see, I am too familiar with that look. Look at the eyes of the third child."

"Is this how I usually look at him? I don't even know. I thought he was cold every time I looked at him."

Brother Jie said: "Don't worry, I have promised the third child to take care of you, and I will not be tempted by other people. Besides, I have always..."

I interrupted him and said: "Brother Jie, what's wrong with you talking so much. It's too late for me to be happy when someone likes you. You will treat me well no matter what, I know. Besides, you should find a partner, I see that The boy is not bad. But I have to tell Sister Fan about this."

Brother Jie asked me: "What do you say?"

I said, "Don't worry, I have my sense of proportion. I'm going to take a bath, do you want to rub my back?"

Brother Jie said: "I won't rub my back, I'll go and see what delicious things Sister Fan cooks." After saying that, he walked away.I quickly washed up and went out to eat.

Sister Fan made five dishes and one soup, all of which I like to eat.Stewed beef with potatoes, fried wheat with garlic, stir-fried cauliflower, ground three delicacies, scrambled eggs with pepper, mung bean soup.

Brother Jie said to Sister Fan: "Sister Fan, Huayu has been at home for a few days after all, how can you be so vegetarian?" Then he looked at me and said, "Every time I come here with you, I can only be vegetarian, and I don't Like you are a sheep. Sister Fan still prefers you."

As he was talking, I fed him a mouthful of beef and said to him, "Eat meat." To Sister Fan, I said, "Thank you for always being so kind to me."

Sister Fan said: "You are all like my own sons, I can't help you with anything, I can only cook some home-cooked food for you. Eat quickly."

I asked Sister Fan: "Where did Huayu go to college? I haven't heard you mention it before."

Sister Fan said: "Speaking of which, it is the same school as you. You were busy before, so you can't let him disturb you. In the future, you must take care of him when you are on your side. This child is just like you, shy and introverted."

"Don't worry, they are all our own, he is just like my own brother."

Sister Fan said to his son, "Hurry up and thank Brother Ziyu."

Hua Yu said, "Thank you brother." It was obvious that he looked at me with a lot of indifference.

At the dinner table, Brother Jie kept adding vegetables to me, and I also added to Huayu. It was a harmonious scene.

After dinner, I said to Sister Fan: "I'll clean up with you, let them both go and play."Sister Fan said, "Okay."

I was in a dilemma for a long time, and said to Sister Fan: "This is not a good thing, and I don't know whether I should say it, but I will feel bad if I know it."

Sister Fan was very surprised and said, "Tell me, what big things can happen."

I said, "I don't know if you have noticed the way Hua Yu looks at Jie Ge, I think Hua Yu likes Jie Ge."

Sister Fan was still washing the dishes skillfully as usual, and said: "I see, the child can do whatever he wants. I look at you and Long Tao, and I know that you really want to be together. It doesn't matter who you are with. Okay, as long as the child is willing, I can accept it. In fact, I knew it a long time ago, once I heard him quarreling with a man and breaking up."

I said, "I know how you cry in your heart. People like us don't want others to accept us, as long as they can treat us as normal people."

Sister Fan said: "You can't say that, there is no gender distinction in front of love, it's just that there are few people of the same sex."

I gratefully said to Sister Fan: "Thank you."

Sister Fan went on to say, "But I know that Shijie likes you. Now that Long Tao is gone, it's good for you to be together. Don't you want Hua Yu to get involved in your relationship?"

"Sister Fan, you misunderstood. My brother is gone, and my heart is dead. I know that Brother Jie likes me, but I always regard him as my own brother. Actually, I really hope that he will be with Hua Yu. They are loyal, shrewd, and capable. They are very good together. I tell you that I want you to be mentally prepared, and I am worried that he will not know how to speak or tell you suddenly that you are not mentally prepared."

Sister Fan held my hand and said, "My child, thank you, I am sorry for you."

I said: "We are all a family, don't say thank you or not. Leave the affairs of the two of them to me, but I don't know if it will work out. Brother Jie is too stubborn."

When I returned to the room, Brother Jie was sitting inside. Seeing me push the door in, he stood up and asked me, "Did you tell me everything?"

I said: "said"

"Is Miss Fan okay?"

"It's okay. She already knew about it. We were overthinking. But then again, you are quite suitable. I think the child is not bad."

Brother Jie held my shoulders and said: "Ziyu, you know my heart, I only like you all these years. I always thought I had no chance, but who knows... I am willing to spend the rest of my life with you."

I said: "Brother Jie, I know your heart, so every time you want to say something, I interrupt you. My heart has already been filled by Brother Tao, and besides, I am not qualified to be with you together."

Brother Jie said anxiously: "I love your people, no matter who you have been with, I am willing to love you and protect you."

I said: "Brother Jie, thank you for loving me, but I really can't accept you now. You still treat me like a big brother, okay?"

Brother Jie said silently for a long time: "I am willing to wait until the day you accept me."

That night, Brother Jie slept with me in his arms.This is the only man who sleeps on the same bed with me besides brother Tao, he cares for me like an older brother protects a younger brother.

But I couldn't sleep, I couldn't delay Brother Jie like this, so I made a decision.