summer love

Missing is the hub connecting people's friendship.Whether you love someone or your blood relatives, you will miss them wherever you go.They are the spiritual sustenance of a person living in this world.

Brother Tao is my spiritual sustenance in this world, but it is not because I love him that he can occupy all of my heart, because I still have my parents.Love is not the whole of a person's life, love and family affection are the whole of human beings.Love needs to be recognized by family. This is the direction we should pursue. What Brother Tao and I have been pursuing since we fell in love with each other is to get the approval of our parents.Only parents are closely related to us, what other people think is irrelevant to us.Love may fade with time, but family affection will not. The fading part of love will be transformed into family affection, and family affection will become stronger and stronger.

This is a cemetery, and he is lying beside his mother. Even though he passed away, he is still the proud son of his mother, and will be the pillar of her mother's old age.

Brother, here I come.Su Shi wrote in his poem mourning his deceased wife: Ten years of life and death are boundless, without thinking, and unforgettable.Thousands of miles away, there is no place to talk about desolation.Even if you don't know each other when you meet, your face is covered with dust, and your temples are like frost.I don't know if my brother can still remember my face clearly.

What surprised me was that Chenchen's mother's name was not engraved on Brother Tao's tombstone (although I don't hate her, I don't like her either, so I won't mention her name again).I looked up at Brother Jie, and Brother Jie said, "This is what he told me. He just wants to be with you. I'll wait for you in the car. You have to be fine."

"Brother Jie, go and do your work, I can go by myself later."

He left quietly without saying anything.

I sat alone in front of the tombstone not knowing what to say.

"Brother, long time no see! Let me kowtow to Mom first."

"Mom, I'm sorry! Maybe I shouldn't call you that, but my brother and I really love each other. I hope you can accept me and my brother together in that world. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have a sudden illness. Now that you and my brother have gone there, my brother will definitely take good care of you. I will take good care of Dad and Chenchen here, don't worry."

I said to Brother Tao's tombstone: "Brother, you must let Mom accept us. You live well there, and I will be strong here. But I can't do without you. We haven't seen each other for so many years." , I finally understand your difficulties back then, but you are gone. You promised to protect me for the rest of my life, why can’t you fulfill your promise. I won’t forgive you, come and explain to me.” I was helpless, I didn’t know what to do How to vent your emotions.

"Brother, I love you! I'm used to you sheltering me from the wind and rain. How can I live without you? I saw the last letter you wrote to me. I've already written the reply. Read it yourself .”

brother

I did hate you, but I have always loved you, and I have already forgiven you.I will forgive you no matter what you have done, I just hope you can come back to me.I will never be happy without you, my heart belongs only to you.

May we meet again in heaven.

love you baby

I leaned quietly against his tombstone.The sun is scorching hot in September, but I don't feel the heat at all. Leaning on his tombstone is like he is hugging me.His body temperature can bring me warmth and also drive away the heat for me. .

I opened the letters he left for me and read them slowly one by one.

Dear Feather:

I'm sorry, I told my parents about the two of us.Mom was very excited. My mother and I had a big fight, and my mother was really angry.I originally wanted to call you to tell you, but after thinking about it, let me tell you after doing their job well.As a result, in the middle of the night, my mother suffered a cerebral hemorrhage and was hospitalized.The operation is considered a success. Don't worry, I will go back when Mom wakes up and bring you with me.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

I'm sorry, I'm going to marry Liu Qingtao, and I'll wrong you first for the sake of my mother.I dare not tell you, I know you will not forgive me.I will divorce my mother as soon as she recovers, don't worry.I will not disappoint you.

love you tao

Brother, I understand your helplessness.Even if you tell me, I will agree. You underestimate my strength, but you are worthy of our love.Maybe I didn't understand you at that time, but you should understand my heart and my helplessness towards reality. You really did sorry for me and him for this.

Dear Feather:

Mom passed away, I'm sorry for her, and I'm sorry for you too.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

I asked her for a divorce, but she didn't agree.But don't worry, I will let her agree.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

I went to see you at the school gate today, you lost weight.You need to eat more and take care of yourself.Don't hurt your body because of me, exercise more and not study all day.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

She turned out to be pregnant, I never remember sleeping with her, I had no love with her.I won't be with her... But how could she be pregnant?I don't know either, I'll look into it.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

It's summer vacation, what will you do in summer vacation?I miss you but I can't find you, I can only look at you silently.

love you tao

Dear Feather:

You moved away from our house, how are you doing?I heard from my classmates that you went back to the dormitory again.It looks like you've made it through that time.forget me, please.

I'm sorry.

love you tao

Yeah, I got through it.Do you know my torment during that time and what I did for you.I dare not go to your house to look for you, so I can only watch you coming in and out downstairs at night.Do you know what I feel like?Although it can be seen that you have no relationship with her, I can't see you abandoning me by the side of a woman.what do I do?What if I don't give up on you.

I've been asking for news about you everywhere, but I can't find any.All I know is that you got married and your mother died.Even Brother Jie is unwilling to tell me more news, I can only hate you, hate you, maybe hating you is the happiness of the rest of my life.

Dear Feather:

The child was born, and I did a self-identification, and it turned out to be my child.what do I do?I can't be with you in the name of marriage, and I'll be even more sorry for you.But now I'm filing for divorce...

I am no longer qualified to say I love you.

I am sorry.

Tao

Dear Feather:

Long time no see, don't know if I still remember.That year today was the first time we met, you looked so helpless, I wanted to help you, but you were accompanied by other people, it was inconvenient for me to go there.

After starting the military training, I found that you were actually in my training team.I decided to train you well and make your body strong.So the requirements for you are very strict, but military training is hard, and sometimes you deliberately turn a blind eye to your wrong movements.Every time during military training, I really want to chat with you, and I feel annoyed when I see you chatting with others.When I saw you playing with your phone by chance, I was very curious about what you were doing.You actually watched "Dream of Red Mansions" during military training, which really shocked me.In fact, I haven’t read the Red Chamber much. I usually listen to my dad’s lectures.

At that time, I would get drunk after several of our parties. After I was drunk, I didn't want others to help me, so I asked you to help me every time.I think you are a very warm boy, and I like you more and more.That time when I was drunk, you sent me back to the dormitory to kiss me secretly, and I also knew it, because I was pretending to be drunk and just wanted to be alone with you.It's a pity that those people in the dormitory were back when I wanted to kiss you.So I decided to confess to you.

A few years have passed, I am really sad to see you still waiting for me, and worried that looking for you will make you even sadder, so I can only look at you silently.

You have to be strong.

I still love you.

Zhang Longtao

I do not know some of the contents written in the letter, and I always observe you in the dark, I don't know if you will find out.You still love me, why don't I still love you.What I stick to is your promise to me, and I know you won't abandon me easily.

There are many more letters later, basically he wrote every time he saw me.Only then did I know that as long as he had time, he would go to the school gate and watch me silently.Our college is close to the gate of the school. He knows my work and rest patterns and eating habits, and knows where I will appear, so he can see me whenever he goes.

Although he was married, he didn't live with Chen Chen's mother, but moved back to our former love nest, which is to keep his promise to me.

These letters are also intermittent, sometimes more and sometimes less, and I have written hundreds of letters in the past few years.His handwriting is getting more sophisticated and more beautiful.

Brother, I forgive you!You are indeed sorry for me, but you have your reasons.I forgive you not because of your difficulties, but because I love you.In other words, I never hated you, but loved you more deeply.I hate you because you don't let me share all this with you, but I don't know that your protection didn't protect me well.

For so many years, I thought you knew me so well, but it was your over-understanding and protection that caused the misunderstanding between the two of us for several years and could not be resolved.Only after the yin and yang separated each other did they meet again frankly.

Speaking of which, we still need to explain when we exchange letters.Speaking of which, we still need to explain when we exchange letters.Thinking about our past, letters have become the glue for us to communicate with each other, and we also have a story when we write letters.My brother always disliked my ugly handwriting. In fact, I always felt that this was a way to torture me. He asked me to contact me to write.Personally, I feel that my handwriting is okay, not as bad as he said.

Whenever I practice calligraphy, I always feel uncomfortable when he reads a book leisurely by my side, or plays with his mobile phone.So I asked him: "Can you do something serious? I'm working hard here to practice calligraphy, so you can't be idle."

He had a gloating expression on his face, "Then what can I do? I don't need to practice calligraphy."

I said angrily: "No, I can't always write alone, you have to write too."

"What do I write?"

"It's up to you, anyway, you can write as long as I write, and you can't be lazy."

In fact, what does it matter if he writes or not.But he still chose to accompany me and write with me.After writing it for me to read, I realized that he wrote a love letter, which was the first love letter he wrote to me.Although the content is nothing, but I like that feeling.Later, also to practice calligraphy, we all gradually developed the habit of writing love letters.

Habits, love letters, longing, love.

I looked at it, and felt that the sky was getting dark. When I looked up, the sun had already set, and I couldn't see clearly when night fell.But I don't want to go, I want to be with him.At this moment, Brother Jie came. He saw the envelopes and knew the general contents, so he didn't ask much.Just say to me, "It's getting dark, let's go, you've been here all day."

I said, "I don't want to leave yet, I finally found him..."

Brother Jie said, "That's ok, wait a little longer. I just happen to have something for you."

"what?"

He took out his mobile phone and said, "Listen carefully."

It was Brother Tao's voice: "Ziyu, I'm dying, I can't write anymore. I owe you too much in this life. I used to be able to take care of you silently, but now I can't. I will hand you over to Shijie from now on. Yes, he has always liked you, you have to be good. I am sorry for you, I can only make it up to you in the next life, goodbye forever. "

It was his voice, it was his voice.I haven't heard it for many years, it is so familiar and warm.Brother Jie hugged me and said: "You heard it all, you have to live a good life in the future, and you can't suffer yourself like before." I didn't say anything, packed everything up and went back to Tao and me brother's home.I listened to the recording over and over until I woke up the next day.