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Yi Xiao raised his head very slowly, fearing that his hope of auditory hallucinations would eventually come to naught, he just stayed there in a motionless posture, until the unfamiliar weak voice came again after a long while, and he turned around stiffly go.

And at that moment, he finally saw that Chen Anhua was looking at him with his eyes slightly open.

Chen Anhua whispered his name again, and these two words were the most beautiful voices Yi Xiao had ever heard in his life.

Yi Xiao stared at the pair of eyes that hadn't looked at each other for a long time with blurred eyes, and the surroundings were so pale that he could only see Chen Anhua's face. He didn't remember how he moved to the bedside, but he was looking back. Shen Shi found that he had already held An Hua's hand.

After staring at Anhua and confirming repeatedly many times, Yi Xiao trembled and asked cautiously like this person: "Anhua, are you awake? Anhua, I am Yi Xiao, you recognize me, right?"

But Chen Anhua just looked at him in bewilderment, and didn't respond all the time. It wasn't until a long, long time later that Chen Anhua slightly opened the corners of his mouth and said another sentence intermittently.

He said, "This dream is really good..."

One sentence made Yi Xiao burst into tears, which he was trying his best to restrain. He put Chen Anhua's palm on the side of his face, and said in a choked up voice with a strong nasal voice: "Anhua, this is not a dream, it is real, we are now At home, you have already gone home, do you know how long you have slept?"

Gently biting Anhua's fingertips to try to wake up this person, Yi Xiao stroked Anhua's forehead and continued: "Anhua, let's go home, I'm Yi Xiao, you recognize me right, you just talked Yes, you called my name, Anhua, you look at me..."

Chen Anhua was reminded repeatedly that his eyes were slightly focused. Looking at this man who was so close to him that his face was full of tears, he couldn't judge whether it was true or not. The white ceiling, the light gray wardrobe, and everything he could see It is exactly the same as that warm house, the only difference is that Yi Xiao finally no longer keeps his back to him and refuses to turn around as in the dream before, this time he finally saw the face of Yi Xiao who missed him so much, but even the palm of his hand Feeling the warm and moist tears, his chaotic brain still couldn't convince him that all this was true.

It must be because I miss that person so much...

Seeing that Chen Anhua's eyes were empty, and his weak blinking eyes seemed to be closed at any time, Yi Xiao didn't care about anything else, and directly hugged him and half sat up, letting Anhua's back support him to lean against the bed: "Anhua Hua, look, this is our house, the room is the same as when you left, look at the wardrobe, the previous one was broken, I asked Chen Shen to make it exactly the same as before, and the floor hanger, did you see it? Anhua, I Please don't sleep anymore..."

With tears in his eyes, Yi Xiao kept talking, holding Chen Anhua's hand and pointing in that direction to try to attract his attention, and then hastily lowered his head to confirm with blurred eyes, for fear that this person would fall asleep again if he didn't pay attention .

Later, he simply picked up Chen Anhua and went to the living room. After carefully placing him on the sofa, he staggered to the balcony to fetch a pot of flowers.

"And this one, this potted flower has always been there. The landlord didn't throw it away after we left. Anhua, do you remember that when you said you wanted to grow orchids, the two of us went to choose them together. It was still blooming a few days ago... …Anhua, are you awake? You are awake. This is not a dream. We are really at home. I am Yi Xiao. You still recognize me, right? You called my name just now..."

Chen Anhua narrowed his pupils and looked at Yi Xiao for a long time, watching the person in front of him call his name over and over again with tears in his eyes, and when he caught a glimpse of the same black and white ring on the hands that were holding each other, Chen Anhua finally slowly raised the corners of his mouth again, then he slowly raised his eyes, and said to Yi Xiao with a light smile: "It's really you."

The voice of the call stopped abruptly, and the moment when the weak but extremely clear sentence was passed into Yi Xiao's ears, the man was completely stopped there. The four words were like a spell that made the two of them break up every day. The moment quickly flashed through Yi Xiao's mind.The person who once thought that he was going to be missed in this life, after going around and going around, finally returned to him again.

Yi Xiao leaned forward slowly, took Anhua carefully into his arms, buried his wet face on Chen Anhua's warm neck, and finally let out the crying sound that had been suppressed for a long time. .

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In the hospital, after a comprehensive examination of Chen Anhua, the doctor lamented that it is fortunate that he woke up from a coma for such a long time without obvious sequelae. The slightly atrophied muscles can gradually recover through later rehabilitation, but the fracture of his right hand did not survive the car accident. Can be combined well, so it will be more difficult to engage in refined occupations in the future.After learning that Chen Anhua was a cardiac surgeon, the doctor looked at the patient and said nothing, but through the brief eye contact between the two, he knew that the patient had already understood, which meant that it would be difficult to go to the operating table in the future.

This fact is indeed regrettable, but for the two elders of the Chen family, nothing is more important than seeing their son wake up in their lifetime.When the over-excited mother Chen saw An Hua who had woken up for the first time, she kept crying and laughing like a child while holding her little son, while the moist-eyed father Chen kept asking An Hua repeatedly if there was any discomfort. To check thoroughly before going home.

At this time, he caught a glimpse of Yi Xiao who was standing by the side and looked a little nervous. This time, Lao Chen didn't immediately frown as usual, but only slightly nodded sideways at Yi Xiao after a light cough. down.

The fact that Chen Anhua spoke suddenly was an unexpected surprise for the Chen family, especially Yi Xiao, but it was difficult for the doctor to explain the situation. Since it was not his field of expertise, the doctor suggested that the family should contact experts in this field Better.

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This day, Chen Yixiao and Yi Xiao took Anhua back from the hospital to their hut. Before leaving, Chen Yixiao gave Yi Xiao a look with his eyes, and then the two of them came out of the house and came to the corridor outside the apartment. .

"What's wrong?" Yi Xiao asked, glancing back at the closed door behind him.

After Chen Yixiao paused, she suddenly raised her head and asked, "Yi Xiao, are you... single now?"

Unexpectedly, Chen Yixiao would ask this question, but Yi Xiao immediately answered truthfully: "Yes, after taking Anhua back to the country, he and the Li family have already broken off the engagement, but according to the Li family's wishes, they did not announce it to the public."

In fact, Yi Xiao has always been very grateful to Li Xiaonian for this matter. At that time, Li Xiaonian gave his father the energy of crying, making troubles and hanging himself, which he never bothered to use, so that the two of them ended their marriage contract early.

After Chen Yixiao hesitated for a while, she asked again: "Then what are you going to tell An Hua?"

"In the past few days, I have also been thinking, why Anhua didn't ask me, but I planned to make it clear to Anhua after I was discharged from the hospital that my marriage with Li Xiaonian was only to solve the Qin family's financial crisis. I believe that Anhua should Can you forgive me..."

Even though he said so, Yi Xiao's voice gradually became lower and lower, and he could clearly remember all the things he did when he broke up. Chen Anhua didn't mention these things after waking up, but from Anhua's occasionally avoiding eyes, Yi Xiao guessed that Anhua still cared about the past in his heart, so he planned to explain the matter to Anhua clearly after returning home this time.

"What I mean..." After Chen Yixiao frowned slightly, he directly expressed his concerns: "I mean, don't tell An Hua first, I have consulted with the psychiatrist An Hua suddenly spoke Because I am worried that this is only temporary, and he will stop talking one day. The doctor told me that the sudden speaking may be because he did not realize that he was awake at the time, and he said it unconsciously. Another possibility is that people feel that they are extremely safe to break through the psychological barrier of so many years."

Chen Yixiao looked in the direction of the door worriedly, and said in a low voice: "An Hua has just woken up now, and the injury to his right hand has already dealt him a big blow. I'm worried that if he finds out about your marriage again, he will be hurt again. stimulated."

Hearing this, Yi Xiao nodded at first, and then he suddenly raised his head and asked: "Is it about my marriage..."

"I never told Anhua," Chen Yixiao answered decisively, "At that time Anhua was in a bad mood, and something happened in the hospital. I knew he wanted to go abroad to hide, so I didn't tell him."

Yi Xiao looked at Chen Yixiao gratefully. Although he could no longer treat this person as an ordinary big brother after reading the letter, whether Chen Yixiao helped him persuade Chen's father after returning to China, or was it for peace? Yi Xiao thanked Chen Yixiao for Hua's careful consideration, and now he is even more thankful that Chen Yixiao helped hide that matter, even though he felt that sooner or later he would have to confess this matter to An Hua, but at this stage It's better to drag it on.

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Chen Anhua has been awake for more than a month. Due to the need to recover slowly, Aunt Wang stayed to help clean the room and cook during this time. According to Yi Xiao's instructions, she took care of Chen Anhua's daily life when he was not at home. Even though Yi Xiao stayed at home most of the time.

Two years may only bring some changes to ordinary people's lives, but for Chen Anhua who just woke up, this kind of change is too drastic.Without a circle of work and life, he can't be careful what the surgeon can do in the future. He can't think about all things when he is in a coma. Now he has to plan everything because he knows that he needs to face his future life by himself.

Because there was a signing ceremony that had to be attended, Yi Xiao repeatedly told Aunt Wang to leave home reluctantly.When the sun was at its best in the afternoon, Aunt Wang pushed Chen Anhua in a wheelchair to bask in the sun in the community according to Yi Xiao's instructions.

Aunt Wang is warm-hearted and loves to talk about family affairs on weekdays. Today, she has been laughing behind Anhua and talking: "Mr. Chen, I am happy to see Mr. Yi's appearance recently. I have not seen Yi since I have been here for more than half a year. Mr. laughed a few times, and recently he couldn't close his mouth from ear to ear, and his complexion has improved. Besides, he didn't talk to me much except for what he explained to me every day. He is so happy recently, Sometimes in the kitchen, he taught me how to cook..."

Aunt Wang talked a lot by herself, while Chen Anhua watched the children playing in groups in the community and was silent. When he touched the ring that had been worn on his finger since he woke up, he suddenly asked: " He was here every day before? Won't he go home?"

"Of course!" Aunt Wang said in surprise, "Why would Mr. Chen ask such a question? Isn't this your home? Of course Mr. Yi is here every day! I leave every day when Mr. Yi comes back from get off work, so at night Mr. Yi is taking care of you!"

Aunt Wang went on to say that Mr. Yi told her to remember to turn on the light every afternoon when the sky was cloudy, that Mr. Yi told her to cook a pot of soup every afternoon, and that Yi Xiao explained everything to her in every detail...

Chen Anhua felt that he had been lying down for too long, his feelings seemed to be more fragile than before, and his eyes were always wet from time to time. He suddenly recalled some things Chen Yixiao had said to him. How did Yi Xiao find him after learning the news of his death? At home, how did he cry bitterly in the study all afternoon, how did Yi Xiao get out of control and want to bring the ashes back after the two arrived in Africa, how did he find him in the hospital through the ring, and how did he take care of himself in every possible way for the next year... ...That fool must have suffered a lot during this time.

He doesn't doubt that Yi Xiao's feelings for him are still there, but at the same time, he also knows that some things are already established facts, and some endings may be irreversible.

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This day, Yi Xiao pushed An Hua for a walk in the downstairs community, and it was obvious that An Hua was not interested in many things after waking up, so Yi Xiao always tried his best to tell Chen Anhua what happened in the past two years , Sometimes while talking, I suddenly asked with a doting smile: "Actually, I told you something when you fell asleep, do you remember?"

Chen Anhua was silent for a while, then shook his head. He has not spoken for more than 20 years, so most of the time he is still used to expressing silently.

Looking at the silent man with his head bowed slightly, Yi Xiao patiently said: "Anhua, I asked the doctor, it's normal for you to wake up and feel uncomfortable, don't worry too much, after a while you'll be better, let's go on a trip , How about a change of mood?"

After being slightly startled, Chen Anhua nodded and said, OK.

Yi Xiao pushed Anhua to a quiet corner, bypassed the wheelchair and squatted in front of Anhua, raised his head and said, "Anhua, are you worried about your hands, afraid that you won't be able to perform surgery in the future, I have asked Zhou Jinyu for help I contacted the top neurorehabilitation experts abroad, and they will come to show you next week, it may not be as the doctor said, let’s try it first and then talk about it.”

Chen Anhua kept his eyes slightly lowered, and after a long time, he raised his head to meet Yi Xiao's gaze, and then replied with a smile on his face as much as possible: "Okay, got it."

Chen Anhua's voice is very nice, because the vocal cords have been protected for many years, which makes his voice sound more clear and gentle, but the number of times he speaks after waking up is still very small. In most cases, it is still Yi Xiao who is alone saying that he is listening Actually, Yi Xiao really wanted Chen Anhua to talk to him more.

"Anhua, do you have something on your mind? Can you tell us and we can figure it out together? I won't urge you. I'll listen to you whenever you want to talk, but I'm worried when I see you unhappy," Yi Xiao finally shook his hand Holding Anhua's hand, he hesitated for a long time before he dared to ask: "Anhua, are you still angry with me because of what happened at that time?"

Unconsciously, the strength in his hand became heavier: "I know that I did a lot of things that made you angry at that time, otherwise you wouldn't have gone abroad and these things that shouldn't have happened, but the letter you gave I saw it later, I knew I was wrong at that time, it was very serious, and I know it’s useless to say anything now, but Anhua, don’t keep holding back like this, just let it out when you are angry, beat me up and punish me It's all done, you speak out what you are holding back, don't feel uncomfortable, I don't want you to be like this."

During this period of time, Yi Xiao's heart has been hanging. On the one hand, he is worried about Anhua's hand. On the other hand, he is even more afraid that Chen Anhua will complain about him. This refused to forgive him.

Chen Anhua smiled and held Yi Xiao's hand back, wanting to convey some warmth and strength, he looked up at the person in front of him and said, "Yi Xiao, I won't be angry with you, not then, nor now, don't think so okay?"

"Really? Anhua, are you not angry with me? Forgive me?" Eager to get affirmative confirmation, Yi Xiao's voice trembled with excitement.

Chen Anhua rubbed his thumb on the back of Yi Xiao's broad hand. Although he had been in a coma for so long, as long as he touched Yi Xiao's skin again, the familiar feeling of peace of mind could still be awakened instantly. What should I do if I can't do without this person? Woolen cloth.During the day, as long as Yi Xiao goes out for a little longer, he is worried whether Yi Xiao will come back again, wondering if Yi Xiao is busy running between home and himself every day, and sometimes wakes up in the middle of the night and sees Yi Xiao sleeping next to him , while he breathed a sigh of relief, his heart ached, fearing that this was the countdown to the happy time.Because the report that was still fresh in his memory reminded him all the time that Yi Xiao was married and no longer belonged to him. The truth was so heavy that he was unable to reveal it. If this person stays with me for one more day, if he loves someone so much, how can he still have the energy to resent him?

Chen Anhua touched the side of Yi Xiao's face with his cool hand, and said with fascination, "I don't blame you, and I will never be angry with you."

And he couldn't say the second half of the sentence hidden in his heart to Yi Xiao——

I'm just sorry, but I can't make myself stop loving you.

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