original love

After making the phone call, Chen Xue returned to the living room with the child in her arms, "Yi Xiao doesn't often work overtime on weekends, today just happened to happen, but he said he would be right back."

Seeing that Yi Xiao was still standing there, Chen Xue hurriedly put aside the children's toys on the sofa, and said rather embarrassedly, "I made you laugh, the house is too messy, you sit down first, I'll pour you a glass water."

When Chen Xue handed the teacup to Yi Xiao, Yi Xiao didn't intend to take it as if he couldn't see it. Since just now, he has been staring blankly at the table, sitting there with his back slightly bent, and his posture has not changed. However, compared with that time, they are completely different people.This reminded Chen Xue of the only two meetings before. At that time, she could see the importance this man attached to Chen Anhua, and she once wished them to be together from the bottom of her heart.But then the two suddenly separated, the reason even Yi Xiao didn't know, and then An Hua went abroad, and then that happened... because the blow to the old Chen family and Yi Xiao was too great, So much so that even after more than a year, she dared not take the initiative to mention and ask about it, especially Yi Xiao, who has been blaming herself for not stopping Anhua from going abroad.

While handing a toy to the babbling child in her arms, Chen Xue was thinking, why did Yi Xiao come here suddenly today?

The clock in the living room was ticking, and the atmosphere was a bit deserted. In order to ease the atmosphere, Chen Xue could only lower her head and tease the child in her arms and said with a smile: "Jiaer, this is Uncle Yi. You used to come here when you were still in mother's womb. Our family."

After watching Yi Xiao for a while, the child in his arms tried to push away from his mother's arms and crawl over there.

It can be seen that Yi Xiao is not in a good mood today, so Chen Xue gently took the child back into her arms and said: "This child is usually very serious, but today is rare." Suddenly Chen Xue blurted out: " Her name is Chen Jiaer, the name was chosen by An Hua..."

Even though Yi Xiao lowered her head halfway, Chen Xue was keenly aware of Yi Xiao's trembling mouth just now. She regretted accidentally touching the other's pain. It was obvious that Yi Xiao didn't let An Hua go, which made her hurt. With emotion, even after a year, if you mention the person you loved and passed away, you will still be unable to let go.

Yi Xiao was always sitting there dumbfounded. He had been trying to remember Chen Anhua's appearance since he entered the door, but why he couldn't remember it all of a sudden. There was a very small mole on Chen Anhua's forehead, whether it was on the left side or the right side, I can't remember why, why I deleted all the photos on my phone so cruelly.

So after a while, he suddenly asked hoarsely, "Can I have a look at Chen Anhua's photo?"

Chen Xue paused when she heard it, then nodded and said nothing, just got up silently and walked into the study, and came out with a photo album after a while.

After the person took it heavily, Chen Xue said empathetically, "Take a look first, Jiaer is also sleepy, I'll go put her to sleep, Yi Xiao will probably be back soon."

Sitting alone in the quiet living room, Yi Xiao slowly opened the photo album with trembling hands. The photos from Anhua's five or six years old were spread out in front of his eyes one by one. At first it was the face of a timid child, it should be When he was rescued and returned to Chen's house, he deliberately hid behind Chen Yixiao without confidence. Later, he saw pictures of Anhua's elementary school, middle school, and college abroad.

Turning to the last picture, the frame was fixed on Chen Anhua's slightly flushed but smiling face. It was actually the day when he was here as a guest last time. There was only Chen Anhua's profile in the photo. He didn't know if it was Chen Xue or Chen Yixiao who took the picture. He arrived, but through his reflection in the mirror next to him, he saw that Chen Anhua was smiling at him at that time, and it was himself.

His vision began to blur, and tears kept dripping down the photo album. Yi Xiao was afraid that Anhua's face would be spoiled, so he had to quickly wipe them off over and over. The lens can make people feel extremely happy, which is probably the reason why it was captured.

All of a sudden, the memories that were deliberately hidden by Yi Xiao were instantly opened. In early winter, the two of them watched movies on the warm sofa, arguing about the plot and often entangled with each other in the end, even though they told An Hua many times to go to bed early. , that person is still stubborn to keep a pot of hot soup for him every night... All he can remember are the sweet memories of the two of them in the hut, but why has he refused to admit it for so long, and deliberately blocked the happy past Let yourself be jealous and stubbornly let Anhua fall into such a situation for the sake of the so-called dignity and face. In fact, Chen Anhua loves him...but actually think about it, it doesn't matter if he doesn't, as long as he loves that person, Isn't that enough?

The door was opened from the outside. Knowing that it was Chen Yixiao who came back, Yi Xiao didn't look back. He was not afraid that others would see him in a state of distress, but he was afraid that some facts that he could not accept would eventually be torn apart at this moment.

The two sat in the study room, Chen Yixiao was silent for a long time, and then slowly said: "I should have known it... Actually, I have been thinking this year, when will you know, and if you know, will you know?" When I came here, I didn’t have any expectations for a while, because if a person has no place in your heart, it may not matter to you whether he is alive or dead. If this is the case, will you find it or not? What does it matter, but..."

Chen Yixiao endured the pain, but still couldn't hold back the tears that rolled down her face: "When I met you in the elevator that day, I was wondering if you would ask An Hua, and how should I answer if you asked, An Hua The last confession should I listen to it, but you left without looking back. At that time, I really couldn't understand how the person Anhua has been thinking about until his death, how could he not ask him when he had the opportunity? One word..."

Hearing this, Yi Xiao couldn't help himself anymore, he bowed his back and put his elbows on his knees, supported the weight he could no longer support, buried his face deeply in his palms and sobbed tremblingly.

Chen Yixiao continued to choke and said: "You probably don't know, the day you got married was the day Anhua went abroad, and I only saw it later on the news. Do you know what he told me before going abroad? He said, if Someone can't contact him, so I must give him his overseas number, Yi Xiao, do you know who An Hua is talking about..."

"He told me that the reason for your separation was his own. Let me ask you, Yi Xiao, what did An Hua do wrong? Even if it was a mistake, is it so unforgivable? Why are you willing to let someone who is all eyes on you wait for you?" The one who turned your back on you, the one who left with all the pain..."

"On the day I went to the funeral, Anhua's surviving colleagues also went. One of the Taiwanese had a good relationship with Anhua. He came to ask me why Chen Anhua's wife didn't come. He said that Chen Anhua always wore a ring. Yi Xiao Let me ask you again, Anhua has never had the habit of wearing jewelry, does that ring have anything to do with you?"

Chen Yixiao was no calmer than Yi Xiao, his collar was already wet with tears running down his chin. The thing he regretted most in his life was helping Anhua to go to such a dangerous place without telling his parents, while questioning Yi Xiao. When he was Xiao, he was also torturing himself in his heart, why he didn't insist on stopping An Hua at the beginning, why he thought it was only a short separation but it became a farewell in this life.

"Sometimes I really want to go to you and ask for Anhua, how can you be so unfeeling, obviously you said so well at the beginning, you said you will take care of him for the rest of your life, how can you leave him alone? He didn't give me a chance... But Anhua told me not to do this. He didn't want to burden you until he died, and he didn't want to disturb your current life until he died. I hope you are happy. Yi Xiao, what about you? Anhua treats you After all, what is it?"

Finally, sobbing, Chen Yixiao took out two letters from the drawer, "One was given to me by the person in charge over there, and the other was found in Anhua's room when I was packing up the belongings. Your name was on the envelope and I didn't Open it, and see for yourself."

After hearing the door behind him being closed with a click, it took a long time for Yi Xiao to raise his head from his stiff movements, staring at the envelope on the table with his red and swollen eyes, and finally mustered up the courage to stretch out his trembling hand turn it on.

The delicate and familiar fonts are immediately reflected in front of my eyes.

"Brother, everything here is pretty good. It's actually not dangerous. It's just that there are occasional gunshots in some places. The people who organized here suggest that you leave some messages for your family just in case, so when you see this letter By then, I should have been gone.

In fact, as a son or a younger brother, I am really incompetent. I have never fulfilled any responsibility for so many years. Although my original intention is not like this, I have been worrying you all the time. I am really sorry.Before going abroad, I put up a fund for my parents and Jiaer, and it was on the bookshelf of my rented house. This is my heart, you can give it to them for me.

Brother, I am sorry to make you and your parents sad again. Please help me tell them that the luckiest thing in my life is to meet such a good family as you. I often feel that even if I have biological parents and brothers, I may not be able to match you. Such to me.There is a secret that I have never said. Do you remember that year when I was fostered at home for a few days and then sent to the orphanage? When I arrived at the orphanage, even though I was so young, I still couldn’t convince myself to accept my fate. At that time, he made a bet in his heart that he would go back to that home no matter what.

It's a bit of a surprise, I was so young that I was so scheming enough to go on a hunger strike to achieve my goal. I'm sorry, I just couldn't let go of the warm feeling of home at that time. My mother would tuck me in the middle of the night when I lived at home. Dad Take me to the street and ask me all the time, do you want those dazzling toys, that is the warmth that I have never experienced since I was born, so I can't let go of it no matter what.

If there is a next life, please allow me to be your family again. If I can't repay you in this life, I will make up for it with all my strength in the next life..."

After reading the last paragraph, Yi Xiao suddenly saw his name.

"Brother, I know that you have resentment towards Yi Xiao because of the separation between me and Yi Xiao. In fact, the problem between the two of us lies with me, so don't be resentful and don't go to him. It's because I didn't cherish him that I missed him. And I would like to ask you for help, but it is probably a superfluous explanation, but if one day you meet Yi Xiao by chance and mention me, you can tell him that I have settled abroad. Is my younger brother a bit too difficult, Ming Knowing that you won't lie and making such childish and unreasonable demands, but when I'm self-willed for the last time, please help me again.

Brother, I hope you won't read this letter, but if something unfortunate happens, please remember that no matter where I am, I wish my family well in this life. "

After reading the first letter, Yi Xiao couldn't help crying, and the tears accidentally wet the letter. What he thought had a chance, came to an end as early as a year ago, when he didn't realize it. .Yi Xiao even used a lot of courage to dare to touch the letter written to him...

"Yi Xiao, I'm going abroad tomorrow. This time I'm going to Ethiopia to support you for three months. I'm afraid I won't see you today. I prepared this letter in advance. way to write it out.

Yi Xiao, I'm sorry, I didn't tell you clearly about many things from the beginning, that's why you felt cheated and betrayed later, even if you put it on anyone, you can't forgive it easily, so you should resent me.But there are some things that I really don’t know where to start. Maybe my dependence on my brother started from the moment he rescued me back to Chen’s house. Even if I am ashamed, I can’t avoid this relationship.

But later, you broke into my world unexpectedly, and many inherent habits began to change quietly. Gradually, I found that I became more and more dependent on your company, so I panicked and resisted for a while, so I often ignored you at that time. I also turned a blind eye to your wholehearted dedication. Thinking about it now, these will plant a dark foreshadowing for our future, so in the final analysis it is my problem.But at that time, I just didn't dare to admit that I fell in love with you so easily.

And you always tolerated everything about me, never cared about the hurtful words and indifferent things I said and did, and always stood beside me shining like that, illuminating many corners where I was afraid of loneliness warmly and brightly, slowly Slowly, my heart no longer wants to get close to you uncontrollably.

I don’t know if you believe it, but the days when I proposed to break up was actually very painful. Against my will, I wanted to convince myself that we were just passers-by in each other’s lives, but my heart couldn’t stop missing you, that feeling of wanting to give up but unable to control myself It was very torturous, until the misunderstanding was solved and I finally realized that you have long been an irreplaceable existence in my life.

During the days of aid in the Congo, missing occupied all my free time. The biggest expectation every day was the phone call with you. Since then, I no longer doubt my feelings for you. If I miss you all the time Man, how could this not be love.Later, you stayed by my side without hesitation, and every time I woke up and found you lying on the bedside, I would think, maybe all the painful experiences before were just to meet you.

Yi Xiao, you probably don’t know how happy I was when you took out the ring again after returning to China, and even started to plan our future life in private, how to introduce you to your parents and relatives, whether your family can accept me, and what will happen to me in the future? Don't adopt a child.It’s a bit silly to say these things now, but I can’t help but think, if I could turn back time and start over, I would recognize my feelings earlier, then I would never let this misunderstanding cause you today’s harm.Now that I think about it, the thing I regret the most is that I hesitated when you loved me deeply, and lost you because of not being honest enough after falling in love with you.

Yi Xiao, I was afraid that you needed time to calm down and I didn’t go to you again, but I never thought of giving up. I can make up for the mistakes I made before with the rest of my life. If you give me another chance, I will definitely cherish it with my life. I just want to write this letter to let you know that even if you can't forgive now, it doesn't matter, I will wait for one year, two years, five years or ten years, anytime you are willing to look back, you will find that I have been in the same place.

No matter what, Yi Xiao, thank you for everything you have done for me, because of your appearance, my ordinary life will be ignited with such gorgeous and beautiful fireworks. "

Chen Anhua

20※※year※month※day"

It was the date of the day before his wedding.

From afternoon to dusk, a man's suppressed choked sobs could not stop in Chen Yixiao's small study.

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