original love

After that day, Yi Xiao never looked for Chen Anhua again. Not only did he no longer go to the school gate to wait to be picked up at night, even if he met him in the corridor during the day, he passed by him like an ordinary classmate, without any eye contact or greeting, because Some things were so strange that he couldn't figure them out, so he just didn't think about them, and simply pretended that nothing had happened.

But apart from Yi Xiao not being able to understand himself, Chen Anhua's indifferent behavior made him even more confused.

He didn't seem to mind at all that he didn't take the initiative to approach him anymore. Chen Anhua had his phone. He once snatched the phone from Anhua while he was typing, and he just dialed and saved his phone number. No text message was sent either.When I met the girl before, I would ask 'Are you busy these days', 'Can I meet up with you some time', etc., but after that, Chen Anhua treated him as if he was back before the two met for the first time, even in the school corridor In the moment of passing by, when he glanced at Chen Anhua from the corner of his eyes, he never saw Chen Anhua intending to communicate with him.

He wasn't sure if Chen Anhua was like himself, just pretending to be calm on the surface.

Yi Xiao was a little depressed. Although he didn't think about what would happen to Chen Anhua, how could he act so strange to someone who had already had a relationship with him, or...Chen Anhua had played like this before?Are you not the first?

This kind of thinking burned Yi Xiao's nerves, causing him to fight more frequently and smoke more fiercely in the recent period. He was not sure if he was the one who dominated the game, or if he was the one being played. that.

Recently, I asked my girlfriend to visit his house a few times. Dad is away all year round, and the nanny also rests early. At night, it is Yi Xiao's world.

After Yi Xiao got up from his girlfriend that day, he sat on the bedside and lit a cigarette.When the smoke filled his eyes, he knew that he couldn't lie to himself anymore. What appeared in his mind just now was the shadow of Chen Anhua again, just like the previous few times. Recently, he didn't let himself go even in his dreams. |Fine.

Have some things gone astray and can't come back?

After sending his girlfriend home that night, Yi Xiao suddenly remembered what Old Chen said, misleading others and himself.

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During the physical education class, Xia Peng and Yi Xiao went to the bathroom to urinate.

Xia Peng said suddenly: "Yesterday Li Linke called me crying and said that you were going to break up with her. Let me persuade you that you were fine a few days ago." Then he turned to Yi Xiao and asked, "Why?" What's the matter?"

"What's the matter? Is it the first time you see me breaking up with a girl? The points are divided. Anyway, the college entrance examination is about to happen, sooner or later." Yi Xiao said not too concerned.

Even though Xia Peng had seen Yi Xiao break up, he still felt that this person was not normal recently. He was definitely not a provocative character before, but these few fights seemed to be purely for venting. After looking left and right and no one was in the toilet, Xia Peng moved closer and whispered, "Don't tell me, I really like that Chen Anhua..."

"You fucking fart! I'm not gay, how could I fall in love with a guy?!" Feeling bad about being exposed, Yi Xiao explained angrily, pulled up his trousers and turned around to the sink.

It could be seen that Yi Xiao was in a hurry, but he didn't know whether it was genuine concern or curiosity, Xia Peng, facing the risk of being scolded, came over with a smile and said: "I didn't say you were gay, this is not for revenge on Lao Chen Is it just like this? Besides, the girlfriend you changed would have been beaten, if it was really GAY, it would have been revealed a long time ago, I just want to ask you if you are... new to that?" Xia Peng pushed Yi Xiao with his arm With a smirk on his back, he asked, "Tell me, isn't it different?"

It's better to say this than to reveal the truth, Yi Xiao pretended to be indifferent and continued to wash his hands without looking up, and replied casually against his will: "There is nothing new, just for fun, it's the same after entering."

At this moment, a voice came from the door: "Can't you go in! Don't go in and don't block the way!"

The moment Yi Xiao and Xia Peng turned their heads at the same time, they saw Chen Anhua being pushed in by a tall boy.

This was the first time the two of them met face to face since that day. Yi Xiao lowered his head the moment he saw An Hua. He hated why Xia Peng asked these questions at this time, and at the same time hated himself just now. Why do you have to say such ugly things for the sake of face.

You should... heard it.

Knowing that he was in trouble, he was embarrassed to wait any longer, Xia Peng hesitated and said "I'll go first", and slipped out along the door.

After the tall boy who came in just now also went out, Yi Xiao finally raised his head and met Anhua's gaze. He wanted to say "that's not the case", but he didn't know how to explain it after saying this, so he directly Say "I seem to like you"?But on the one hand, he hasn't decided to start this relationship, and on the other hand, more importantly, he doesn't know what Chen Anhua thinks.

Just when he was hesitating, Chen Anhua took out the small notebook that was always in his pocket, wrote a sentence with his trembling right hand and put it in front of his eyes: 'Since you don't like men, didn't you feel sick that night? '

Yi Xiao didn't move until he saw Chen Anhua turn around and leave the bathroom, because at that moment, he felt ashamed to catch up with Chen Anhua to explain things that he wasn't sure about.

And this moment of hesitation made Yi Xiao regret it for many years.

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More than a week passed after that day, and Chen Anhua hadn't been to school again. As the numbers on the school's remaining time until the college entrance examination number decreased, Yi Xiao's burden of guilt and longing became heavier.

The college entrance examination is coming soon, so why don't Chen Anhua come to school?Two days later it will be three models. Is it okay to miss this important exam?He went to Chen Anhua's class to ask, and the students didn't know what was going on. Sure enough, there was no one in the class who was willing to be friends with the mute.

He went to Chen Anhua to wait downstairs, but he hadn't seen anyone for a few days. Because of his relationship with Lao Chen, he couldn't go to the principal's office to ask 'where is your little son?', so he sent a few text messages to Chen Anhua, and the same I didn't receive any reply, and the phone call was still not answered at first, and then it was simply out of the service area.

The more this is the case, the clearer Yi Xiao's definition of this relationship is. He likes Chen Anhua, he is very sure, and likes to stay with him. What's wrong with the man? Through Chen Anhua's reaction these days, he was also willing to believe that Chen Anhua hid deliberately because he liked him and was hit.

He will apologize to Anhua and explain to him that maybe he was playing a prank at the beginning, but now the liking is not adulterated at all, it is all real.

And after waiting for another ten days and still not seeing Chen Anhua, Yi Xiao couldn't sit still any longer. This day, after seeing Lao Chen walking out of the community, he knocked on the door of Chen Anhua's house according to the information he got. .

A handsome young man opened the door, saw him and asked, "Who are you looking for?"

Yi Xiao smiled politely and said, "I'm classmate Chen Anhua, is Chen Anhua at home?" It should be Old Chen's eldest son.

After the man heard it, he smiled and said politely, "Oh, it's classmate Anhua."

"Yes, I see that Anhua hasn't come to school for a long time, and I want to ask him what's going on recently?" Yi Xiao said, his eyes unconsciously looking into the room, he hoped that Anhua would be at home, and he would be able to come to school after hearing his voice. Go out and have a look.

But at this moment, the man said something that Yi Xiao couldn't believe: "An Hua has gone abroad, he went to study in Canada."

Yi Xiao stayed there, his eyes fixed on the young man's face, and he asked in disbelief, "Going, have you gone abroad?"

"Yeah, I just left a few days ago. You are...friends? Didn't he tell you?" Seeing Yi Xiao's lost expression, the man kindly explained: "I'm his brother, and my name is Chen Yixiao. "

Yi Xiao was still a little dazed, he paused there, and after a few seconds he slowly said: "...Yes, he didn't say..."

Hearing this sentence, Chen Yixiao couldn't help complaining about her younger brother in her heart. Because Anhua couldn't speak, there were no close friends around. Even so, before Anhua left in a hurry, he still asked if there was any friend who needed to be notified, but Anhua Hua just told him 'I don't have any friends, it doesn't matter'.Seeing the disappointed expression of this big boy now, while Chen Yixiao blamed his younger brother for his lack of consideration, he was actually a little relieved, it was rare for someone to care about An Hua so much.

Chen Yixiao explained to the boy apologetically: "I'm sorry, Anhua may have left in a hurry and didn't have time to notify. I'll ask him to contact you later. What's your name?"

After seeing the boy still standing there in a daze and showing no reaction, Chen Yixiao felt that it was impolite to speak at the door like this, so she turned sideways and said, "Let's sit at home first."

But the boy turned and left without saying another word.

Yi Xiao has been so absent-minded since he came here that he didn't even notice the big red happy letter on the door.

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Zhou Jinyu took Yi Xiao's arm and asked drunkenly: "What happened recently? Didn't you say you broke up with that girl? Could it be that you were dumped?"

Yi Xiao didn't speak, but continued to pick up a bottle of Budweiser and drank it down. After putting down the empty bottle, he still stared blankly at the bar in a daze.

This is Zhou Jinyu's brother's place, otherwise they wouldn't let a few of their high school students come in. Zhou Jinyu is a child who grew up with Yi Xiao in the compound, and he has the best relationship with Yi Xiao. A while ago, he had been in contact with him to study abroad. He didn't come to school and only saw him for two months, but he felt that Yi Xiao seemed to be a different person, and he was very silent.

Xia Peng watched from the side, and didn't dare to move forward. Ever since he said those words last time and was hit, and then Chen Anhua disappeared, he felt that Yi Xiao was holding back the fire, and he had already become that guide| Huo|Suo, this time I don’t want to be gunpowder and blow myself into cannon fodder anymore, so I pretend to be stupid and drink beside me, and occasionally gossip about school with the people next to me.

Unexpectedly, Zhou Jinyu proposed at this time: "Hey, by the way, the last time I heard from my brothers that you were telling me how to deal with Lao Chen. You said that you were going to take his youngest son for surgery. What happened afterwards?"

Xia Peng felt dizzy when he heard it. He didn't dare to tell anyone what happened to Yi Xiao and Chen Anhua afterwards. Who knew that Zhou Jinyu asked about it this time.

After picking up the beer and downing half a bottle, Zhou Jinyu leaned back on the sofa and said, "But I don't think you need to do anything to that kid. I heard that he is not Lao Chen's own son, but an orphan taken in somewhere, so you can take revenge." Can't report to him."

"What did you say?!" Yi Xiao's eyes turned cold, looking at Zhou Jinyu with a frozen expression.

Zhou Jinyu was thinking about other things all night, a little too drunk, and a few friends were quarreling at the boxing game, but he didn't hear Yi Xiao's tone, but continued to say with a blindfolded eye: "Chen Anhua is also considered to be at school. Quite famous, good-looking but dumb, I know someone who lives in the same building as the old Chen’s, said that Chen Anhua was brought to the old Chen’s when he was five or six years old, I don’t know where he picked it up..." Micro side Looking at Yi Xiao, he said, "I've heard from my brothers that you blocked people at the school gate every day when I wasn't there. Why haven't I seen this new thing in the past few days since I came back?"

Xia Peng couldn't listen to it anymore, he came over and took Zhou Jinyu's arm and said, "Hey~ You have come back after a few days, and you don't know when you will come back after studying abroad in a few days. Let's have a good time. Later, take us downstairs to play billiards, and then go to rub a meal, and we will practice it for you in advance."

Zhou Jinyu couldn't help being happy, "Damn it, I pay for the practice, can you be more intentional? You have the least number of treats."

"You two young masters are here, do you need me?" Xia Peng said to Zhou Jinyu with a smile, but his eyes drifted to Yi Xiao's direction, staring at the reaction there from time to time.

He didn't know that Chen Anhua was an orphan, but he just talked about it casually when he first came up with an idea, and he didn't even think about how far the two of them could develop. Through Yi Xiao's out of control these days, he knew that this time the hornet's nest It's too big, now I just hope that Yi Xiao won't blame him for all his faults, he really can't bear the blame.

At this moment, Yi Xiao stood up suddenly, strode towards the door without greeting anyone.

Zhou Jinyu wanted to hold Yi Xiao when he saw it, but Xia Peng pressed down his outstretched arm. He looked at Xia Peng strangely and slightly drunk and said, "What's going on?"

Seeing Xia Peng hesitate to speak, Zhou Jinyu also became a little anxious, "Are you fucking talking? Recently, I feel that something is wrong with Yi Xiao. What's wrong with me during my absence?"

Xia Peng saw that the buddy next to him should have a drink, and he didn't take the movement here seriously. After hesitating for a while, he leaned into Zhou Jinyu's ear and said to Yi Xiao's most loyal buddy: "Oh, I guess Yi Xiao really fell in love with Chen Anhua this time, but Chen Anhua went abroad and left."

After seeing Zhou Jinyu's misty expression, Xia Peng said again: "Don't ask him, he won't let you talk about it, but who did Yi Xiao think about? Chen Anhua has been away for half a month and Yi Xiao has been tossing a lot, anyway. As long as you know it, don’t mention it in front of him again.”

There was still half a sentence that Xia Peng wanted to say but held back. He wanted Zhou Jinyu to say something nice for him, and don't let Yi Xiao blame him.

Zhou Jinyu used to be the best drinker, but he probably had a lot today, and it took him a long time to realize what Xia Peng meant.But Xia Peng, who was waiting to make up his mind, was a little surprised by his reaction after hearing the shocking news, that is, he didn't say, "Damn it!"My buddy was turned off', and he didn't say, "Is this why Yi Xiao fell in love with the guy?" '

But...

If Xia Peng read it correctly, he thought it was a happy expression.

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Yi Xiao came directly downstairs from the clubhouse to Chen Anhua's house. It was already midnight, and he knew that he couldn't go to Lao Chen's house at this time, and after seeing him, Lao Chen probably wouldn't tell him that he wanted to know Information.

So Yi Xiao waited downstairs in the old Chen's house in this not too hot May, waiting for the dawn.

Chen Anhua left, and from the moment he heard the news, he felt that something was wrong in his head. When he realized that he might never be able to see this person again in the future, Yi Xiao was extremely remorseful. He never said "like" to Chen Anhua, but at this moment, recalling that quiet and beautiful young man, he blamed himself and thought that he was the one who forced him to leave.Otherwise, why would he leave suddenly? A dumb person has no friends in China. Will he be able to study and live normally after going abroad?Chen Anhua, who is so indifferent to the world, why was he drawn into this vortex full of lies and deceit at first, disturbing his quiet world, and finally stepped on it severely.

Yi Xiao knew that he was a scum. He had known it since junior high school, and he knew how bad he was from the voices of those girls crying, begging, or cursing, but he had never regretted it like this. His regret was not because he did something to an orphan. Such a bad thing, but I regretted that I obviously liked Chen Anhua, and after trampling on Anhua's dignity, people left sadly.

Yi Xiao no longer wants to escape, he must let Anhua hear his voice, let Anhua know his true thoughts, and not let Anhua start a strange life in a strange country sadly.

When it was finally dawn, when Yi Xiao had stepped on countless cigarette butts, the Chen Yixiao who I saw that day finally walked out from the gate of the community.

Yi Xiao stepped forward and called out: "Brother Chen!"

After seeing Yi Xiao, Chen Yixiao immediately recognized this handsome boy, and asked in surprise, "Why are you here?"

Yi Xiao nodded and asked directly, "Brother Chen, he left in a hurry last time and didn't ask for Anhua's phone number. Can you tell me? Also, can you tell me the address of his current school?" me?"

Chen Yixiao stared in a daze at the big boy who appeared downstairs before seven o'clock, and after a few seconds of pause, she immediately said, "Okay, no problem, I'll write to you." Paper and pen were taken out of the bag.

As soon as Yi Xiao saw Chen Anhua writing a series of numbers, he heard a deep voice behind him calling: "Yi Xiao, why haven't you gone to work yet?"

The voice was familiar to both of them. At the same time, they turned their heads to look at the entrance of the community, and saw Principal Chen walking out of the iron gate pushing a bicycle.

After seeing Yi Xiao, Principal Chen stopped, raised the black glasses frame, and asked suspiciously: "Yi Xiao? Why are you here?"

The eldest brother of the Chen family hurriedly explained: "Dad, didn't I tell you last time that a student came to our house to look for Anhua, and you still asked me who it was?" Then he smiled at Yi Xiao and said, "It is He didn't have time to ask his name last time."

Principal Chen frowned, turned to look at Yi Xiao and asked, "Are you familiar with An Hua?"

Standing here at this moment, Yi Xiao is not afraid of being questioned by Lao Chen, even in front of anyone, but he is afraid that if Anhua's family sees the relationship between the two, it will bring trouble to Anhua, after all, normally , he and students like Chen Anhua should have no intersection.

So Yi Xiao reacted quickly and took out a notebook that had not been returned to Anhua from his schoolbag and said: "I picked it up on the ground of the school, and I haven't been able to find anyone to return it to him. I think there are many notes in it that should be useful, so I sent them here." It's over." Then he handed the notebook to Chen Yixiao.

Chen Yixiao felt a little strange. When she came to see An Hua that day, she obviously didn't say that, but she took it along.

Old Chen stepped forward and took the notebook over and flipped through it twice. After confirming that it was An Hua's handwriting, he said, "Got it, I'm going to study by myself soon, let's go back to class."

In the next few seconds, Yi Xiao's eyes were fixed on the piece of paper in Chen Yixiao's hand. He really wanted to snatch it away, but in the end he stopped because he was afraid of causing more trouble to Chen Anhua. Give up, after all, he has provoked too much.

In the end, Yi Xiao didn't say anything, but turned around and walked towards the school.

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