original love

Zhou Jinyu received calls from several people that night, asking him to persuade Yi Xiao, who was going back to Beijing early today, saying that Yi Xiao and Zhang Zi had started fighting, and it seemed that the trouble was a bit big, and the brothers could no longer persuade him. Living……

When Zhou Jinyu asked what happened, several people hesitated and couldn't explain clearly, but the answers seemed to be the same, they all said - it should have something to do with Chen Anhua.

Zhou Jinyu hung up the phone and lit a cigarette angrily. As the boring smoke circle disappeared above, he couldn't help but think with hatred, it's Chen Anhua again... the same birthday as last time, and this time again, why does it have to be Yi Yi's birthday? Xiao couldn't get down in front of so many friends, he guessed that Zhang Zi probably couldn't get used to Chen Anhua's lukewarm attitude, so he kindly reminded him a few words, just like himself back then, but Zhang Zi's personality was more anxious than himself, I didn't think about it, but I started.

Pushed to the meeting where they were socializing, Zhou Jinyu went straight to the airport after finding out the flight information, and waited for more than an hour before seeing Yi Xiao coming out talking something behind Chen Anhua.

And when the two walked out of the terminal building one after the other, they didn't seem to be communicating at all. Along the way, they saw Yi Xiao explaining something beside Chen Anhua like air, and Chen Anhua went straight Walking forward, he didn't give Yi Xiao any feedback at all.

Zhou Jinyu took two quick steps at the airport pick-up gate and came in front of the two of them. As if she couldn't see Chen Anhua, she only said to Yi Xiao, "Why did you come back a day early?"

Yi Xiao impatiently said to Zhou Jinyu: "You go back first, I have something to say to Anhua..." After speaking, he remembered again: "Fuck, I forgot to tell Chen Shen that the car is coming." Because he was too anxious, I no longer realize the swear words that come out of my mouth.

But Anhua just said indifferently in sign language, "I'll take a taxi", and walked down the elevator alone.

Yi Xiao anxiously reached out his hand to pull Chen Anhua back, but Zhou Jinyu blocked the way, "What are you doing? Are you breaking up?"

"You fucking get out of the way! You won't be able to catch up later!" Yi Xiao almost growled and pushed Zhou Jinyu aside, and at the same time he was already taking great strides to catch up.

"So what if you catch up? Can't you see that Chen Anhua is ignoring you now? With his character, do you think it's useful to catch up? It's nothing but more annoying?!" But what Zhou Jinyu said this time is also the truth.

The word 'more annoying' suddenly stopped Yi Xiao's footsteps. After thinking for a while, he turned around and asked for help: "What about now? What should I do?"

Reaching out to take the luggage in Yi Xiao's hand, Zhou Jinyu hugged the man's back and walked towards the parking lot: "Listen to me, calm down first, chasing him now is just adding fuel to the fire."

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Yi Xiao did not come to the company for another week. Zhou Jinyu went to see him at home almost every day. It was not the old house, but the same community as Chen Anhua. Zhou Jinyu had known Yi Xiao for more than [-] years, and had never seen Yi Xiao so lost. .

When Zhou Jinyu came to Yi Xiao's house with some food again that day, when he entered the room with the spare key and found the scattered wine bottles on the table again, he couldn't help pursing the corners of his mouth in distress, and after calming down his entangled emotions , before turning right and entering the bedroom of this small house with no more than [-] square meters.

After opening the curtains to let in the cool night air outside, Zhou Jinyu turned around and said to the person lying on the bed, "Get up and eat."

Yi Xiao finally opened his sleepy eyes, but his consciousness was still very chaotic. He actually had an illusion that today he just drank too much with a client. After waking up, everything will return to normal. He and Anhua are fine... ... But when he turned his head and saw Zhou Jinyu sitting next to him, some painful things swept over him like waves. He never knew that breaking up in love felt like this.

Yi Xiao turned his face to the other side, frowned and rubbed his temples that ached from the hangover, and asked, "What time is it?"

"It's eight o'clock." Zhou Jinyu answered simply.

Yi Xiao looked at the ceiling again, and after a long time, he slowly uttered a sentence: "At eight o'clock, An Hua should be off work..."

This sentence made Zhou Jinyu's heart stop with pain. He has known Yi Xiao for so long, and he has never seen this high-spirited person so depressed. After a long while, he could only let himself take a deep breath. Xu Cai said, "I really have you..."

After a while, Yi Xiao's eyes were not focused, he seemed to be talking to himself, and he said as if asking Zhou Jinyu to give some ideas: "I have thought about everything before and after going to Sanya these days. , I wondered what was wrong. It was fine before, so why did I go to Sanya? Anhua didn’t reply to my text messages, didn’t answer the phone, and stayed in the hospital for a few days to avoid me... ...Later I remembered that Anhua seemed to be wrong since the day I brought him back to the old house."

"Did you take him back to the old house?" Zhou Jinyu looked up at Yi Xiao from the movement of bowing her head, which meant that she was not the only one who knew this place.

Yi Xiao, however, was completely immersed in the logic of his own analysis, ignoring Zhou Jinyu's unhelpful question, "Just that day, the day after I drank too much last time, when I picked up Anhua from work, I felt that he I was not in a good mood, and I kept thinking that he was tired, but then...that night...he was different from usual." Yi Xiao finally turned to Zhou Jinyu and asked, "Did I drink too much the night before and didn't answer him?" Text message angry?"

Zhou Jinyu obviously froze when he heard this, because in the past two days, he also thought about whether the reason why Chen Anhua suddenly separated from Yi Xiao was because of the situation he set up that day, but he always had a thought in his heart, did Chen Anhua really like Yi Xiao? , so at best, Xiao Kai's matter is a scumbag, a small dose of blasting is enough to collapse the already precarious building... But now seeing Yi Xiao suffering because of this incident, he feels uncomfortable, and he can't explain clearly But now it's like this, he doesn't want to and dare not admit something, or from the beginning of doing that thing, he expects such an ending.

Zhou Jinyu lit a cigarette, tried her best to keep her voice undisturbed and said slowly: "If it's really because you didn't reply to the text message that you broke up, then it will be a matter of time before you two break up."

Yi Xiao shook his head in pain, "I've been fucking thinking about blowing my head for the past few days, but I can't figure it out, or did seeing these friends annoy Anhua? Or what Zhang Zi said that day made Anhua angry... …But no matter what, we have nothing to do, Anhua cares about me, I know, it’s just a tantrum now, it will get better after a while, when he is not so angry, I will go to him again.” Yi Xiao said to Zhou Jinyu comforted herself when she heard this, after all, this was the only motivation for him to continue to wait, instead of rushing to Anhua Hospital to find him immediately.

Some emotions have been accumulated for too long and have reached the verge of being uncontrollable. Zhou Jinyu looked at Yi Xiao, calmed her voice so that it would not tremble as much as possible and asked: "Yi Xiao, what is there in Chen Anhua that deserves this from you? You must Do you want to hang him on this tree? In fact, you have many choices..."

Before Zhou Jinyu finished speaking, Yi Xiao got up from the bed irritably and interrupted: "Can you give me some useful advice? Why can't I hope that An Hua and I can get along better every day? We have known each other for so many years. Why can’t I understand this point, I will only trust Chen Anhua for the rest of my life, and nothing else will work, so don’t you stop talking about Chen Anhua, okay?”

Zhou Jinyu's eyes followed Yi Xiao's back as he walked to the bathroom, and his deep eyes stayed on the smooth but with a shallow scar for a long time, and during this period, the light of pain and despair gradually came from Zhou Jinyu's sight. It slowly overflowed.

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"Chen Anhua!"

When he heard his name, An Hua immediately pulled his wandering thoughts back to the meeting, straightened his body forward, and turned to the direction of the source of the voice—Dean Liu.

Dean Liu was obviously displeased when he saw An Hua's distracted reaction just now, and asked with a frown, "What do you think about what Jiang Xu said just now?"

Chen Anhua leaned forward and slowly moved his hand above the keyboard, but he didn't type out his opinion as quickly as usual, but let his fingers just stop there silently, because he didn't hear anything just now.

It was Jiang Xu who took the initiative to make a rescue and said: "I caught a cold today, and my voice may be a little low. Let me repeat, this patient had undergone heart surgery two years ago, and now it is too risky to have a major operation with a thoracotomy, so minimally invasive surgery was introduced. It’s a safer approach.”

Looking up and giving a grateful look, Anhua took a moment to type a dull sound on the keyboard, but in the end, only a few words were displayed on the screen: 'I have no other opinions. . . '

Dean Liu exhaled heavily from his nasal cavity, and after looking at Chen Anhua for a long time, he said: "That's it, let's end the meeting today, and Chen Anhua will stay for a while."

When the crowd had dispersed, Dean Liu couldn't bear his temper anymore, and said to this person who had grown up and regarded him as his own: "What's going on these days? I'm always absent-minded during meetings! Two days ago You also almost prescribe the wrong amount of medicine for the patient. If the nurse didn’t find out, you would be more responsible. It’s not like your usual style at all. Do you know that a small medical accident is enough to ruin your life for so many years? Do you still want to be this doctor during your schooling career! Do you understand it or not!"

An Hua was so guilty that he never dared to look up to Dean Liu. How difficult it was for a dumb person to be a doctor, and how much pressure Dean Liu had to endure to get him a place in the heart surgery department. Why didn’t he know this? , so he has been working hard to avoid any omissions before, so he never complained when helping other doctors work overnight, but he didn't want to give Dean Liu a chance to be questioned and slandered.

But this week, he was in a mess. He saw Yi Xiao's text messages were messed up, and seeing the phone calls that were always on but never answered, was even more chaotic. Yes, a lot of things seemed to be clearer from the moment he said we broke up. The emotion he was accustomed to seemed to have changed, and it became the smell of the pajamas that were still hanging in the closet, and the smell that still remained on the pillow. The smell of cologne that Yi Xiao often used... All this made him lose his way, like the lighthouse that he could not swim but could always see suddenly changed its position, making him stop at the same place and panic, something happened The harder he dared to admit that he didn't want to face it, the more unavoidable the real result appeared before his eyes... and Yi Xiao's sentimentalism made him unable to tolerate and accept it, so some things just stuck there. Even if he wants to look calm on the surface, his heart is like the rough sea in a storm, and he can no longer be calm.

But he is a doctor, and it is his bounden duty to heal the sick and save lives. Regardless of his responsibilities, he will never allow Dean Liu to be criticized again. A line of words was typed on the screen: 'I'm sorry, Dean Liu, I won't make mistakes again in the future. '

Dean Liu saw Anhua's self-blame in his eyes, and shook his head quite unbearably. After watching the grown-up children, they naturally understand better. Anhua has studied well since childhood, and is strict with himself. He often made him jealous of how Lao Chen could pick up such a good son. Dean Liu couldn't bear the harsh criticism just now, so he calmed down and asked concerned: "Is there something difficult? It's because other colleagues in the hospital said something to you ? Or something happened at home? Are your parents okay recently?"

Looking at Dean Liu, he evaded for a moment, but An Hua quickly recovered his expression and said: "No, there is no other reason, it is all my own negligence, but I will never do this again in the future." '

Seeing Chen Anhua's reluctance to say more, Dean Liu could only sigh: "You have been like this since you were a child, and it's not like your family doesn't understand you. If the hospital has difficulties, you can always call me, but you just hold back everything. Why don’t you always communicate with others? You’ve been in the hospital for half a year now, do you have any colleagues you get along well with? With your current state, do you plan to live alone forever? Can you change your temperament.” Dean Liu held back these words For a long time, as an elder, as an uncle, he was worried from the bottom of his heart for Chen Anhua's sullen temper.

Anhua's fingers stopped there for a long time and he couldn't type, because he couldn't tell Dean Liu that he had tried to communicate with other doctors in order to integrate into the hospital environment more quickly, but after a long time, he felt like he was a child. It was the same at the beginning, everyone impatiently waited for him to express some of what he wanted to say and then inadvertently shifted to the next topic, so three months after coming here, except for Jiang Xu, he will be patient with him like ordinary colleagues. To exchange some opinions on medical skills, most of the doctors in the same department just nodded their heads and greeted him...Suddenly, Chen Anhua thought again, besides his family members, is the only person who is patient and can understand what he wants to say? Xiao.

'In the future, I will pay attention to getting along with my colleagues. 'Chen Anhua could only hit in the end.

Dean Liu looked at Chen Anhua again, and finally sighed and said, "I'm a little harsher with you today, but the environment in the hospital is as simple as it is complex, and I will retire in less than two years. , during this period of time, you must make yourself stand firm, even if I am not here, you can make others say nothing, understand what I mean? With your strength, you can do it."

An Hua looked gratefully at the old man who always helped him. He had always known Dean Liu's good intentions, and it was also because from the moment he was adopted by the Chen family, he knew better than anyone else how to repay his kindness. In the end, Chen Anhua looked at Dean Liu and nodded as promised.

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When it’s time to get off work, I turn on my phone habitually, and what I see are always dozens of unread message signs flashing on WeChat. After hesitating, Anhua still clicks in. Sure enough, Yi Xiao’s text messages account for most of them. His eyes are on this After wandering around the name for a long time, I finally deleted the entire record without even looking at it. After taking a deep breath, I got up to pack my things and prepare to leave work.

Just when he was considering whether to go home after dinner in the hospital, or simply go home for two days on the weekend to visit his parents, a text message from Chen Yixiao came.

"-Do you work overtime today? If you don't work overtime, come and have dinner at home."

Usually when going back to his parents' house, Chen Yixiao would say it directly, so when he didn't specify it, it meant his and Chen Xue's own small home.

An Hua looked at the text message and hesitated for a while, and finally replied: "-No overtime, brother, I will go there later."

When he turned around to change clothes, the notification sounded again, and Anhua put the white coat on the chair casually. Anhua picked up the phone again, and it was Chen Yixiao who said: "-Call Yi Xiao together."

Chen Anhua looked at the name typed by his brother on the phone and stood there for a long time. Whenever Chen Yixiao mentioned this name before, he felt extremely uncomfortable, and the feeling of being eager to push it out was always lingering in his heart. , but now, more sad emotions spread with Chen Yixiao's text messages, Chen Anhua couldn't help but wondered with a wry smile, how did Yi Xiao manage to make Chen Yixiao, who had only seen two sides, recognize him like this.

Because she still didn't know how to tell Chen Yixiao, Anhua just replied: "-No need, I'll go back alone."

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Chen Yixiao's legs were already healed before, but Anhua was afraid of his scars, so he brought him some homemade ointment from the hospital several times, and repeatedly told him when to apply it and how to apply it every day. After Hua took out some hot items from his pocket to repair his skin again, he shook his head with a smile and thought, since when did this younger brother take care of others more like an older brother.

Chen Xue is now more than seven months old. The doctor said that although the indicators are stable in all aspects, after all, she is already in her thirties and is the first child, so she should be as careful as possible, so Chen Yixiao asked Chen Xue to take maternity leave early to raise the baby at home. It is to take care of all the housework, big and small, not only that, even if he is very busy at work, he will make lunch together before going out in the morning, and sometimes he will be worried when he comes back from the company not far away at noon. I thought, Chen Xue must have done a lot of good deeds in her previous life.

Because the pregnant woman was afraid of getting tired after sitting for a long time, Chen Xue went back to the room to rest after eating, and the two brothers were left sitting at the dining table.

It was rare for An Hua to offer to drink some wine today, and of course Chen Yixiao accompanied him. Seeing An Hua's slightly flushed cheeks, Chen Yixiao went to the kitchen to make a pot of tea for him, and gently put it on An Hua's face. Hua Qian said back and forth: "It seems that you have drunk too much today, drink some tea to relieve the bar."

Looking at the green tea of ​​Longjing through the clear glass, Anhua remembered that the tea at home seemed to have not been changed for several months. For some reason, a wry smile slowly emerged from his mouth After getting up, Anhua picked up the hot teacup and drank it slowly, as if it could dilute some emotions.

Chen Yixiao watched An Hua grow up, except for some things that were deliberately buried deeply, he never noticed it. In this world, he is the one who knows An Hua best. Seeing that An Hua had something on his mind, Chen Yixiao asked: " Did something happen with Yi Xiao?"

Maybe it's because I'm too tired today and didn't deliberately hide it, maybe it's because some emotions are so hard to hide that I broke through the disguise I've been holding on these days and rushed out. Dingding looked at the table for a long time, but still stubbornly turned to Chen Yixiao's puzzled sign language and asked: "Brother, why do you always mention Yi Xiao?" '

Seeing that An Hua suddenly asked him for help as if he couldn't solve some problem like a child, Chen Yixiao suddenly lowered his head and smiled, without answering the question just now, he said: "Your temperament has not changed for so many years. , hide everything and don’t say anything..." Suddenly recalling something, Chen Yixiao looked out of the dark window and said lightly, "Do you remember that once in your third year of junior high school, your mother washed your school uniform. In fact, you have been doing it yourself since childhood. We never let us do the laundry on our own initiative, but at that time, my mother probably saw that your school uniform hadn’t been washed for a week, so she brought it here to wash it for you when you weren’t paying attention. The foot-long cut was simply sewn. We asked you how you made it, and you insisted that you accidentally scratched it somewhere else. I only found out when I went to your school. Some bastards have been bullying you for several years. Actually blocked you in the toilet and scratched your school uniform with a razor blade. How about you, you just go out and come in with your schoolbag on your back so sooner or later, afraid that you will be found out after washing and drying it, and you have been hiding it all the time. You only found out after a week of hiding it from us. That's why Dad ignored your objection and insisted that you go to their school in high school."

Chen Yixiao turned to look at An Hua and said, "You were actually afraid of what others would say to Dad, so you didn't agree to it before."

Seeing Anhua caressing the teacup that was still a little hot, Chen Yixiao moved the cup over, then raised her head and said seriously: "Anhua, I won't force you if you don't want to talk about it, why do you always mention it when you ask me? I can’t tell you about Yi Xiao, but it’s very strange. I just think he is a trustworthy person who can take care of you for the rest of your life. I don’t know if it’s because he waited all night before you went abroad just to ask for a phone call. The number, or because he carefully wanted to help you find your biological parents, or maybe he was just a little moved by the way he looked at you... So I intuitively feel that he is sincere to you..."

Although he drank too much, Anhua immediately caught something when he heard this sentence, and raised his head in sign language to interrupt his brother and asked: "Looking for my biological parents?"Brother, what are you talking about? '

Chen Yixiao remembered it when she was asked, shook her head and smiled before saying, "This is too bad, Yi Xiao has repeatedly told me not to talk about it."

Seeing Anhua's doubtful questioning expression, Chen Yixiao smiled and said: "I don't think it's nothing, but Yi Xiao is afraid that you will feel that the bamboo basket fetches water in vain and won't let me tell you. In fact, a few months ago, once he I asked me about your childhood and wanted to help you find your biological parents. At that time, I traveled to more than a dozen counties and cities, and it took me more than 20 days to go there. Those places were very remote, and Yi Xiao must have suffered a lot at that time. ..."

At that moment, Chen Anhua was stunned, his heart stopped beating, and something happened right away. For more than 20 days, Yi Xiao hadn't heard from him for more than 20 days. At first, he thought that Yi Xiao was tired of being silent and boring. The excuse for his daily disappearance was revealed with such an unexpected reason...

In fact, Chen Anhua never cared about the matter of his biological parents. Since there is none in the DNA bank, it means that he was abandoned when he was a child. Anhua has never put any affection on people who don’t even want his own children. For him, today’s father His mother is the most important parents in his life, but Yi Xiao secretly found his biological parents for him... At this moment, after breaking up with Yi Xiao for a week without any contact or meeting, these things sound like These absurd things hit the heart at this moment, and touched a fragile heartstring.

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