fear of intimacy

When he woke up the next morning, Chen Shu couldn't remember last night's dream.He asked Xiao Peng: "Do you remember what dream you had at night?"

Xiao Peng thought for a while: "I don't remember. Occasionally I remember, but it's very vague. What's wrong, brother, did you dream last night? I heard that hypnosis can not only restore memory, but also reproduce dreams."

Chen Shu was speechless: "I just asked you if you had a dream last night, why did you talk so much?"

Xiao Peng snorted, and asked again: "Then, brother, do you want me to help you get back Teacher Zhou's information?"

"Peng is not handsome!" Chen Shu jumped violently, "You understand too well, don't you know everything, you know everything and pretend to be pure with me!"

Xiao Peng suffered from his brother's shock, and covered his head in grievance: "I didn't. You put me in the car every time and I don't know where I'm going. All I know is that idols in the rising stage can't fall in love!"

Before he could finish speaking, Chen Shu's pillow smashed him on his back.

"Brother, have you forgotten how Sister Zhan told Sister Lanlan?"

Chen Shu certainly remembered those words. Sister Zhan had said those words not only to Ding Lan, but also to Chen Shu many times.But so far he is still very confident-it is true that he is not in a relationship, he doesn't even reply to Zhou Xu's WeChat.

Chen Shu didn't expect that one day he would be able to learn about Xiang Dong's recent situation from Director Huang—"I've returned to the United States," Director Huang whispered to Chen Shu mysteriously, "It was caused by his patient."

Chen Shu looked sideways in a strange way: "...so why did you tell me specifically?" He also learned from Zhou Xu's message that Professor Xiang's troubles were almost resolved, and he didn't understand what it was for a while. towards.

Originally, Xin Hong and Chen Shu were talking to each other, but seeing that Director Huang had something to say to Chen Shu in secret, he consciously moved away.There was only one Jiao Yuting who stood neither far nor near, and when Chen Shu gave him a look, he dimpled in a harmless smile.

Chen Shu: "..." Could you please move your nest too?

Director Huang whispered: "Because of using illegal hallucinogenic drugs, I heard that his patient took hallucinogenic drugs without knowing it. I didn't expect this to happen. You went to his class before ,Do you have……"

Chen Shu was dumbfounded.

Director Huang: "...No way?"

Chen Shu stammered, "It's almost, almost a month since I finished my classes..."

Director Huang: "That, that, should be all right?"

The two stared at each other in horror.

Hallucinogens, including LSD, hoodia, etc., cause people to have various strange perceptions of reality, and are used in some cultures as group religious hypnosis.Chen Shu vaguely remembered Zhou Xu mentioning it in his class.

Professor Xiang is a master's and doctoral supervisor of H University, and a full-time professor. When he returns to the United States, what will happen to the students who stay at H University?No wonder Zhou Xu has no news recently.

Jiao Yuting stretched out his hand and snapped his fingers in front of him: "Hey Brother Chen, why are you so absent-minded in front of the camera?" He smiled.

This person has been very strange recently, probably because he is often stupid on the set, and occasionally catches Chen Shu out of the situation, so he has to ridicule him lightly.What are you doing?Alleviate your sense of failure?

Before Chen Shu could speak, Director Huang came over and patted him on the shoulder understandingly: "It's okay, it's okay, I'll have another one after a rest." Then he whispered with concern: "Don't worry, I'll give you a break to go to the hospital for a checkup. "

It's not that I'm worried about this, after all, it happened a month ago.Chen Shu was speechless.

Going back to the lounge to ask Xiao Peng for a mobile phone, Zhou Xu still has no news.He thought about it, and finally compromised——

[Tell a story]: I heard that Professor Xiang has returned to the United States?

After waiting for a while, Zhou Xu didn't move.

hateful.Chen Shu angrily threw away his phone and prepared to go back to work.I met Xin Hong holding a small mirror in the corridor and scratching his eye sockets with his index finger while complaining: "It's too dry in winter, it's all chalky." Seeing Chen Shu, he also enthusiastically asked: "Drink more water to keep your skin in good condition."

"Drink," Chen Shu sneered, "you can't drink hallucinogens."

Xin Hong: "???"

Chen Shu didn't expect Zhou Xu to come back to the hotel to find him.When he remembered that Xiao Peng had leaked his address to Zhou Xu, he was in a state of desperation that he couldn't find the room card and mobile phone after searching all over his body.

"Damn," he couldn't help swearing, "Where did Peng Bushuai go?"

Zhou Xu's demeanor was a little different from half a month ago. He was wearing a black down jacket and leaning against Chen Shu's door. The invisible sharp blade is gradually cutting him out of the corners.

When Chen Shu appeared in sight, he stood up straight from the door.

"..." Chen Shu now regretted leaving all his belongings to Peng Chaochou for safekeeping, "Why don't you lend me your cell phone and call my assistant?"

Zhou Xu quietly walked in front of him, and said in a low voice, "I have something to tell you."

It's like fighting a tunnel, Chen Shu thought.

They stand in a dark safe passage, waiting to exchange an important and secret message.The sound insulation effect of the heavy fire door is excellent, and Chen Shu can even hear his own heartbeat in the silence that can hear the sound of falling needles.

"I heard that your teacher was found to have used illegal hallucinogens?"

Although the voice was lowered as much as possible, the exit still blasted into each other's eardrums like rolling thunder.

Chen Shu couldn't see Zhou Xu's face clearly, but he seemed to be taken aback for a moment.

"Who said that? It's not a hallucinogen." Zhou Xu said an unfamiliar medicine name.

Chen Shu: "...is there any difference?"

It seemed that they were back in class again, Zhou Xu was always patient with Chen Shu's questions. "That's a central depressant. It's commonly used in medicine for sedation and hypnosis. The most common form of diazepam falls into this category. And hallucinogens are drugs that can cause nerve involvement, emotional disorders, and in severe cases, depersonalization and psychological dependence."

Chen Shu felt that his brain was not enough, so he let out a slow "ah?"

"If he was using hallucinogens illegally, he should be awaiting sentencing now instead of returning to the United States."

"Then, why did he go back to the United States when he has nothing to do?"

"What we were told on the table was that because he claimed in academia that he did not use external forces to hypnotize, and now he was exposed to use suppressive drugs, APS questioned this and asked him to explain clearly in person. But we discussed in private that it may still involve Regarding the regulation of drug use, some western hypnotic drugs are not applicable in China.”

Zhou Xu asked him if he could guess how Mr. Wu found out that the professor was using drugs.Chen Shu shook his head, and then thought that Zhou Xu might not be able to see, but before he could speak, Zhou Xu seemed to have known his answer, and said calmly: "You still remember what I said before, the day the teacher attended the dinner party of your crew, there was Does it smell? I reminded Mr. Wu later that it is best to keep the room ventilated during the treatment and bring your own drinking water."

So Mr. Wu discovered the professor's secret.

Chen Shu didn't know what to say for a while, betraying a teacher is a big taboo for students, but he also thought partly that killing relatives is also a virtue.

Zhou Xu also fell silent.The green light at their feet illuminated the jaws of the two of them, and they could hear their breathing in the silence.Chen Shu used to think that at this time, silence is better than sound is just a kind of performance art, but in the silence that is as sticky as silence, he heard Zhou Xu's confusion, questioning, and struggle.

Chen Shu asked: "Then before he left, did you ask about your mother?"

Zhou Xu moved, as if he took a step forward, and the tip of his jaw was a little closer to Chen Shu.Under the premise of visual failure, Chen Shu was keenly aware of his breath before he spoke, and his heart skipped a beat, as if he had already foreseen the disturbing content.

"The teacher did hypnotize my mother. He knows her cause better than I do. Reactive depression is caused by obvious mental stress factors. For my mother, loss of job, loss of status, and loss of love all lead to pessimism and pain. , and the root of all this lies in her young son who is waiting to be fed and cannot be separated from his mother. It is not so much who killed her, in fact, every time I appeared in front of her during the 11 years of growing up, it might have stimulated her to want to go ..."

Chen Shu's cold palm supported the back of Zhou Xu's head, blocking his lips that kept leaking pain.

The warm breath was entangled in the darkness, Zhou Xu didn't retreat any more, he was like a static sculpture, allowing Chen Shu to climb onto his shoulders, softly inserted his fingertips into his hair, and kissed his lips and tongue over and over again as if comforting.Chen Shu pried open his teeth effortlessly, feeling the warm electric current spread all over his body to his toes.The clean and clear breath belonging to Zhou Xu filled his brain, making him lose his mind at this moment. He could only embrace Zhou Xu tenderly and compassionately, hoping to share a little bit of pain.

Zhou Xu lowered his head quietly, and put his arms around Chen Shu's back for a while.

A dazzling beam of light lit up.

"Brother Chen?"

Thunder exploded in the narrow corridor!The two who kissed were separated like an electric shock!

Chen Shu's eyes hurt from the bright light, he raised his hand to block half of it, and struggled to make out a familiar face behind the oncoming scorching light source——Jiao Yuting.

Jiao Yuting held up the flashlight and looked down at them, as if God descended in the light of judgment, about to strike down the thunder of arbitration on the lover who stole the forbidden fruit.

But this god still had a smile on his face: "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you." The light source of the mobile phone moved a little bit again: "Isn't this Teacher Xiao Zhou? Oh, it turns out that you two are..."

The warm current in his body disappeared in an instant, and Chen Shu froze in place with cold hands and feet. Not long ago, Xiao Peng's words seemed to have received a signal at this time and reached his ears lately—idols in the rising stage are not suitable for dating.Of course, this sentence cannot cover all artists unconditionally, but it must include gays. No matter what period of time, exposed homosexuality will face a terrible reality.

He tore away Zhou Xu who was standing in front of him, and said in the calmest tone possible: "Jiao Yu..."

Jiao Yuting immediately interrupted with interest: "Brother Chen, don't worry, I'm leaving now, you guys continue." As he spoke, he was about to open the fire door.

Chen Shu walked up the stairs quickly: "Stop!"

The door opened.Xin Hong leaned against the door with his chest folded, his head bowed, and his usual lady's cigarette was burning between his fingers.

Jiao Yuting who opened the door and Chen Shu who was chasing were stunned at the same time.

There is nothing more complicated than this.

Xin Hong guarded the door, put out the cigarette butt in the floor-standing ashtray, stretched his white and slender fingers towards Jiao Yuting, and said in a slightly hoarse but unquestionable voice, "Bring the phone."

Jiao Yuting took a step back reflexively: "Xin, Mr. Xin, why do you want my phone..."

Xin Hong remained motionless.

Everyone knew the reason, and even Jiao Yuting didn't have the nerve to question it.Xin Hong has long been out of the ranks of popular definitions of actors. He has made great achievements in his debut for many years. He holds real shares in film and television companies in his hands.

Jiao Yuting clenched his cheeks and froze for a moment, then handed over the phone.

"Unlock." Xin Hong simply ordered.

He stood at the entrance of the half-dark passageway and checked Jiao Yuting's phone. He might have deleted some content, but Chen Shu couldn't see it.

There was a slight sound behind him, Zhou Xu walked up the stairs and stood beside him, his voice was as low as a whisper: "I'm sorry."

Chen Shu only thought it was absurd. When he finally got his wish, the blessing he got was an apology, as if it was a matter of nature for him to fall in love.Even if there was a mistake, he thought, it was because I didn't know the timing.Chen Shu held Zhou Xu's hand tightly, feeling his palm sweating.

Jiao Yuting finally got back his cell phone which had been thoroughly searched, and angrily turned his head and left.

The two people in the corridor were able to see the sun, and when they passed by Xin Hong, Chen Shu sincerely thanked him.Xin Hong ignored him and only congratulated Zhou Xu.This is the first real blessing.

Professor Xiang's trip to the United States has not yet set a return date, and the School of Psychology of H University is still in a hurry. Zhou Xu met Chen Shu at the hotel and was about to rush back to school.Chen Shu continued his filming routine, the only change is that he will welcome a group of fans to visit the set.

The name of Chen Shu's fans is "School Bag", which is derived from the homonym of "Shu Bao". It may also be because Chen Shu looks fair and elegant, like an obedient student who has not yet graduated.Fans will send some letters and gifts when they visit the class. In response, Chen Shu will also buy some snacks and drinks for them.

You can’t go wrong with sending hot drinks in winter, even if you don’t drink, you can still warm your hands.Xiao Peng carried two big bags into the lounge: "I don't know if it's enough, I'd better go and count the heads."

There were more than one family of fans who came to visit the class today, but the average age of Xin Hong's fan group was older and they were basically office workers.I don't know if it is fate, but because of the homonym of Jiao Yuting's name, his fans call themselves "good students".

Jiao Yuting came to get close to Chen Shutao very carelessly this morning: "I don't know if a good student and schoolbag will be linked together hehehe." Chen Shu wanted to roll his eyes, this kid changed his face too quickly.

Chen Shu checked that the time was almost up: "Let's bring it up first, and make up if it's not enough."

He and Xiao Peng walked out of the lounge with a bag each.

According to past experience, when fans saw their brother coming from a long distance, the posters and calls for support began.However, the most exciting ones today are the "good students", who are already exchanging gifts with Jiao Yuting, like a big chattering scene. The "schoolbags" buried their heads in a group and whispered.

Chen Shu and Xiao Peng looked at each other with question marks on their faces.

A "school bag" saw Chen Shu coming and yelled, and the scene returned to normal, and the girls flocked to surround Chen Shu.

"Shu Bao look at me!"

"Zai Zai, how is the food for the crew? You've lost weight!"

"Wow, is this milk tea prepared by my brother himself? I'm so touched!"

The milk tea in the bag was divided up, and new snack gift envelopes were refilled.

"Shu Bao!" A girl asked while holding up her mobile phone, "There is a marketing account on Weibo saying that you were raped because you were too involved in the filming of Returning to Zero, and a picture of you and your boyfriend was exposed, is it true?! "

The scene was suddenly quiet.

The girl who asked the question was pinned down. "What's going on, didn't you say that this is a marketing account to make black-hearted money?" "Sissy, what are you doing, I promised everyone not to ask!" The girls complained in a low voice.

"But there are really photos. If not, just explain it." The girl looked at Chen Shu persistently.

The fluorescence of her mobile phone pierced into Chen Shu's eyes tenaciously through the heavy palms, causing him to fall into the cold cellar unexpectedly.