fear of intimacy

Chen Shu is not a temperless person, but he is very patient with Zhou Xu: "I won't do it next time."

Zhou Xu refused to meet his gaze, and asked back: "Do you want to have a next time?"

"..."

Chen Shu leaned back in his chair and was angry silently, feeling extremely distressed when he thought of the hot coffee he had been abandoned.Xiao Peng gave his brother a sympathetic look through the rearview mirror.

All the way to the unit downstairs in silence, Chen Shu slammed the car door and went in.He was so depressed that he even forgot his mask in the car and only wore a peaked cap.A young woman walking her dog walked out of the elevator...

Chen Shu subconsciously took a step back and lowered his head.

Little Corgi skipped happily past his feet.The young woman stood up: "Huh?..."

A hand was stretched out from the side to clasp his shoulder, Zhou Xu turned sideways to block the young woman's sight, and quickly flashed into the safe passage with Chen Shu in his arms.

In the corridor, only the green indicator light was shining faintly, and the footsteps of the two people one after the other could be clearly heard.Zhou Xu stretched out his hand to hold Chen Shu: "...Thank you...you brought me a hot drink."

Chen Shu curled his lips in the dark, trying to pull out his hands, but he didn't move, and finally walked out of the stairwell in this awkward posture of holding hands one after the other.

The moment the corridor lights came on, Zhou Xu let go of his hand, and took a step forward to open the door.Chen Shu pressed down the brim of his hat in the direction of the camera.

There is no difference between Zhou Xujia and Chen Shu's previous visits, the traces of life are very light, the sugar oranges in the fruit plate continue to decrease and replenish, only the orange peels temporarily piled on the coffee table are less than last time.

Zhou Xu invited him to enter the study, and then he brought hot tea and fruit.Yo, Chen Shu whistled secretly, and the treatment has been upgraded.

The last class was arranged to popularize anti-hypnosis common sense. The appearance of Zhou Xu opening the computer slideshow overlapped with the previous image on the classroom podium. It was very similar to Chen Shu, who was the class monitor who gave him after-school tutoring in middle school. .

"Well, did you make a slide show?" Chen Shu asked vaguely, chewing on the orange meat.

"I used to help the elective teacher do it."

Zhou Xu pointed out the table of contents: the main points of anti-hypnosis - first, improve cultural quality, second, improve psychological adaptability, third, enhance self-awareness, fourth, seek help from a psychologist.

"My role is a spy hypnotist, why should I learn anti-hypnosis?"

Chen Shu asked.

Zhou Xu didn't answer quickly, he glanced over the contents of the slides and said, "You can spread the word to your colleagues so that your play-offs will look more scientific."

Chen Shu looked at him, thinking quickly, and smiled: "Did you lie to your teacher? In fact, the class is already over, but you want to take me from him..."

"The level of cultural quality affects the critical attitude, understand the essence of hypnosis, and don't worship blindly," Zhou Xu began to attend class with a deadpan face, "it will naturally produce resistance..."

During his 16-year school career, Chen Shu can be called a good student. Although he often asks for leave and has the privilege of late or even exempted from handing in homework, he never misses in class, has a good mind, and can rank among the top in the exam , but that was all when I was in elementary school. After all, the difficulty of middle school courses cannot make people just flip through a few pages of textbooks and get away with it.

The first time Chen Shu became aware of his own orientation was when he was in secondary school, when the monitor was ordered by the teacher to help the poor.Because he is at the top of the red list, he always holds a posture, occasionally looks arrogant, and most of the time is a confident and charming male class leader. He has many fans in his grade. Every time they study in an empty classroom, they walk through half of the corridor to pick him up. The team of girls in the water is extremely large.

After almost half the semester, the male squad leader resigned from the teacher.Everyone said it was because there were too many fans watching Chen Shu, which hurt the monitor's self-esteem.

But Zhou Xu didn't seem to care about Chen Shu's identity. Chen Shu felt that in his eyes, he was no different from those black leeks in the classroom.All the more because of ignorance they need to be carefully taught.Chen Shu has full admiration for those who can teach him, such as the monitor, such as Zhou Xu.

Before the class was over, Chen Shu finished eating the oranges in the fruit plate, and Zhou Xu frowned visibly when facing the scattered oranges in his hands.

Chen Shu smiled embarrassedly: "I'll go wash my hands."

Zhou Xu wanted to stand up: "Do you know where it is?"

Chen Shu gave him a standard wink: "Of course I know, a competent actor has strong observation skills."

Zhou Xu leaned back in his chair and raised his eyebrows.

Chen Shu washed his hands under the running water.Zhou Xu's bathroom is as simple and clear as his own, with easy-to-clean white tiles and neat cleaning tools.Although it is said to be a relative's house.

He looked up and saw a piece of paper by the mirror, probably torn from a notebook, and pasted on the tile with single-sided tape.

There is a table on the paper with three lines in the header—all-or-none thinking, examples that prove incorrect, and conclusion.

no friend.Li San is willing to be my friend.Long-term and stable friendships can be obtained.

No socializing.Cao Youcai invited me to be a consulting assistant.It's okay to socialize.

Lack of communication.The teaching assistant job requires a course on problem solving.Can increase effective communication.

and so on.Looks like a cognitive correction chart.Chen Shu browsed through, but didn't see his name.He searched through his pockets, found the ballpoint pen he forgot to return to Li San after signing, wiped off the water on his hands, and added a few more lines on the form——

no friend.Chen Shu is also willing to be my friend.

No socializing.Chen Shu invited me to take a hot spring together.

Lack of communication.I gave Chen Shu four lessons, and the customer feedback was good.

Before the word "good" was finished, a voice rang in Chen Shu's ear: "What are you doing?"

The tip of the pen flicked and the writing was crooked.

Being caught, Chen Shu lay stiffly on the form paper, tilted his head and smiled: "You can help me complete it."

Zhou Xu looked at him noncommittally, no joy or anger could be seen in his expression.

Although Chen Shu felt that maybe he probably did not make a mistake, he still apologized politely: "I'm sorry for reading your privacy."

Zhou Xu stood over and stretched out his hand to remove the tape, probably to change his "privacy" to another place.Chen Shu tilted his head slightly to get out of the way, and heard Zhou Xu calmly say in his ear: "This is cognitive behavior correction training, similar to the benign self-psychological suggestion recommended in the chicken soup article. It is used to correct inaccurate self-cognition."

Zhou Xu's hand holding the form was about to leave his eyes, but Chen Shu grabbed it lightly, and Zhou Xu looked at him. "Doctor Cao said... Are you a little afraid of establishing an intimate connection with others?"

There was a flash of emotion in Zhou Xu's pale eyes, which was too fast for Chen Shu to capture, but he knew that his heart was shaken.Zhou Xu pursed his lips, his eyes sharper than usual.Chen Shu thinks that although he looks cold and alienated on the outside, he is still a student who has never been out of an ivory tower and is as readable as a blank sheet of paper.

He continued: "What kind of intimacy would make you uncomfortable?"

Zhou Xu withdrew his hand, but was grabbed by Chen Shu again.

"A relationship in class? A relationship in hot springs together? A relationship in sharing secrets? Or..." Chen Shu took away the note paper with the other hand, grabbed Zhou Xu's thumb and rubbed it into his palm, and followed the big fish. Slip it into your fingers and snap it in place.Intertwined fingers.

Chen Shu leaned against his palm, and whispered in Zhou Xu's ear: "I was in class today, and I saw a female classmate write to you. Teacher Xiao Zhou is so popular."

From such a short distance, Zhou Xu's thin lips can be seen stretched into a straight line just by moving his eyes.Chen Shu thought to himself, it is today.He leaned over Zhou Xu's shoulder...

Xiao Peng was sitting in the warm car humming a song and playing Match 1786, thanking his brother for not taking him every time he went to class. His Match [-] had already been passed.The car clock showed that there was still half an hour before he should drive the car into the community, lest his brother wait downstairs for a long time.

Tuk Tuk Tuk, someone is knocking on the driver's window.

Xiao Peng was very familiar with this voice. It was the first time he drove into the community without a card, and that's how he was thrown out by the security guards.

"Oh, what's the matter, I didn't park randomly, this is the parking space—brother?!" His brother buttoned up his duck tongue, put on his coat and hat, and didn't even have a mask to walk across the community alone.Xiao Peng was shocked and quickly unlocked the lock to let Chen Shu in.

"Is it cold, my face is pale."

Chen Shu's voice was colder than the chill he brought in: "Shut up, drive, and go back to the set!"

The heater in the car gradually dissipated the cold, but Chen Shu's face was still pale and pale. Xiao Peng was peeping in the rearview mirror, feeling bad, don't be frozen.Chen Shu cast a horrified look from under the brim of his peaked cap, took out the mask in the storage bag, covered his face, leaned back on the chair and closed his eyes to sleep.

When Zhou Xu stopped him, his cold and stern eyes scratched his face like a knife, and it still hurts till now.

Repeat again and again, no third time!he thought angrily.

Chen Shu, who lost the freedom to go out to class, returned to the daily filming routine of Zhang Bosi and Xu Nanzhu, who opened his eyes and closed his eyes, and threw his mobile phone to Xiao Peng for safekeeping, fully immersive experience of the character's psychology.At first Xin Hong was so frightened that he poured out half of the water in the thermos bottle when he gave him a half-smile and half-smile look while walking, but now he has learned to fight back with Zhang Bosi's cold and calm gaze.

Like a smile but not a smile, if you want to refuse, you still welcome; deserted, vague.

Click.The director said, very good, this is used as a poster.

But Xiao Peng still felt something was wrong, his brother didn't even ask him for a cell phone anymore.Even if I occasionally stay in the lounge, I just read the script and memorize the lines. "Brother, you have heard a lot lately." Xiao Peng put the phone in front of Chen Shu suggestively.

"Just... Uncle Chen asked about your recent situation, and Teacher Xiao Zhou also had news..."

Chen Shu dropped the script, put his index finger on his cheek, and squeezed his throat to recite his lines: "Hey! It's such a blessing to have both beauty and wine!" Shi Shiran went to the show again.

After this dinner shoot, Xu Nanzhu borrowed wine to find Pei Jue to go crazy.Chen Shu was about to shake his wine glass, slumped three times and came to Jiao Yuting, who was in his arms, naturally. He cooperated with the actress and took out a microfilm from Jiao Yuting's pocket without anyone noticing it.

Holding the wine glass, Xu Nanzhu leaned back against the dining table, his black hair brushed behind his ears, revealing the drunkenness on his cheeks: "Captain Pei, it's really a blessing to have both beauties and wine."

The hall was full of wine and wine, and among the fragrant clothes and temples, Pei Jue was wearing a well-tailored velvet suit, with a young and beautiful female companion on his arm, and the drunkenness under his eyelids was rouged by blush, and he squinted at Xu Nanzhu: "Captain Xu!" Why are you alone?"

Xu Nanzhu toasted him with a wine glass: "I'm alone, so I came to find Team Pei to be a companion." Pei Jue briefly withdrew his arm that was resting on the elbow of his female companion.

The female companion quickly took something out of Pei Jue's suit pocket, and handed it to Xu Nanzhu from behind when the three of them were side by side——

A body warmer.

"Crap!" The director yelled, "What's going on, where are the props! What do you use to put body warmers in the pockets of props?!"

Chen Shu leisurely returned to the recliner and sat down, waiting for the staff to search for the prop film in the chaos.Jiao Yuting was also dumbfounded. He might have warmed his hands when it was too cold to take a rest, but he forgot to take it out.

Xin Hong was in the same posture as him, leaning on the reclining chair next to him, holding up the script and reciting words: "The state is good, keep working hard."

Chen Shu held hot wolfberry tea, very peaceful.

At night, Xiao Peng forced the phone into Chen Shu's hand: "Brother, I'm getting paid, I'm almost out of money to eat this month."

For a trivial matter, Chen Shu unlocked the lock screen and was shocked by the eye-catching red mark on the WeChat icon: "So many unread? Don't you reply for me?"

He forgot that he had seriously warned Xiao Peng not to return his private information on behalf of him. Xiao Peng was aggrieved but dared not speak.

Some of them are Dad's usual question about his food and clothing in the crew, and some are the live broadcast and variety show arrangements sent by Sister Zhan.More are Zhou Xu's unread messages.After being slapped in the face twice in a row, Chen Shu's temper also came up, and he didn't want to talk to him at all. Now he clicked on it and found that Zhou Xu was broadcasting the progress of Professor Xiang's troublesome resolution to him.

Of course, that Mr. Wu did not really bring Professor Xiang to court in the end. After all, the treatment records backed up by the professor are complete and detailed. He personally found the head of the School of Psychology of H University and the experts of the Mental Health Center of the Affiliated Hospital of the City’s Medical University to unanimously verify that the compliance is correct. .Most importantly, the professor promised to treat him free of charge for the problem of alcohol violence.Why not buy one get one free.As for Mr. Wu's family problems, according to Zhou Xu, his wife and daughter have chosen to forgive and understand, and will support Mr. Wu to continue receiving psychological treatment.

Although Chen Shu read the information carefully, he was still very unhappy.Zhou Xuda can go to Li San and Dr. Cao to discuss and discuss, why tell him about this casual acquaintance who can't even pass the cognitive behavior correction form.snort.

But when it comes to Professor Xiang, Chen Shu still has lingering fears.He really wanted to ask Zhou Xu if he had asked a teacher to find out about his mother, but in the bunch of messages Zhou Xu sent him, none of them mentioned himself.Thinking of this, he exited the chat interface in disappointment.

I don't know if it was because Zhou Xu's news reminded him of Professor Xiang, or because he took an extra melatonin before going to bed, Chen Shu had a very strange dream at night.

In the dream, he walked along a dark and dark corridor, just like what Zhou Xu told him every time he was hypnotized, he kept moving forward. There was a faint light in the endless darkness, and he knew that he could return to it after opening it. A door at some point in the past.He kept moving forward, but the door seemed like an untouchable mirage, and a familiar voice kept lingering in his ears.

"The Nancy School declares: 'There is no suggestion, there are only self-suggestions'. The suggestion of others should be based on the premise of forming one's own concept. In other words, the actions a person does are all from her own wishes."

"I didn't do anything. Even if I did, it only enhanced her self-awareness. Has Zhou Xu explained the concept movement to you? If the same suggestion is repeatedly applied, it will form an equiqual hypertrophy. She will In the self-suggestions that are constantly superimposed day after day, it becomes easier and easier to achieve a certain goal."

"So this hint must be something that is the most common and frequently used in her life. It may be an item, an act, or a sentence. If it is a sentence, it must be very concise and every moment What is on the lips, a greeting, may only have three words."

In the darkness, Chen Shu suddenly opened his eyes, and the hazy light of the silver moon outside the tall building leaked through the curtains, leaving only a flashing shadow in his eyes.All light and life are lost in silence.He heard the ravings of the devil—

"I love you."