Everyone is optimistic

That day, Liu Yiming kissed him, but he didn't react for a moment, his feet went limp, and he collapsed on the ground.Liu Yiming got up and hugged him, patted his back, as if coaxing a child to sleep.He didn't push away, this warm embrace.Patted and patted He Zhengyang and cried unexpectedly, hugging Liu Yiming, Liu Yiming's pajamas became the thing for him to wipe his tears, his shoulders were wet, he and him quarreled and made noise, such trivial things that were originally unintentional, how could they be magnified It's different. Looking at it this way, it seems that Liu Yiming has never been angry with him. Once there was a problem, Liu Yiming ran over to solve it with him immediately.Didn't he just walk over there?When did you come back?He didn't have time to care about these anymore, he just thought it was the advice of his seniors.He just needs to listen.

Probably a person will always help you when you are frustrated, so you must be very important in this person's heart.

He Zhengyang thought of everything purely, and the matter of the house really helped a lot.Also, his thesis was saved by the materials he helped send over. We don’t study a major, so it must be very hard for him to check these things.Who is the motion sickness pill that he always keeps in his pocket, the passenger, or me?There are many more, but his blood is surging now, so he can't remember.

During the years when He Zhengyang was randomly placed, he didn't feel anyone cared about him. His father hardly had any. Although his mother often called later, he was still alone in the end. It really doesn't feel good to be abandoned by the world with no one there.

He was late for the internship not long ago, so Liu Yiming would call him every morning, even when he was in the car and there was no possibility of being late, he still called him early.Why, he never thought of it before.Maybe it was that indifferent face that really made him want to have no illusions about him.

Thinking of this, he thought of that expressionless face, and loosened his arms.Stop hugging him.

The two of them didn't speak, He Zhengyang was crying desperately, what happened to Lian Mo had already made him unable to bear it any longer, he felt uncomfortable hiding it from Dapeng, and it was even more uncomfortable hiding it from Lian Mo.It's really a few big mountains pressing on me.If he didn't cry out, he would definitely suffocate himself to death.There are some things that I can't handle alone.But he didn't know who to tell, sometimes, it was himself who helped others and was wronged.There are lies on both sides, he is so tired.He didn't want to hide it anymore.He fell asleep crying and crying.Liu Yiming dragged him to the bed to sleep.He never closed his eyes again, he needed people by his side so much.

In the dream, he returned to his childhood.Everything is blurry.A little boy shouted in front of him.Can't see the face "Isn't this He Zhengyang who has no father and no mother? Your mother was beaten away by your father, and your father ran away with others. Do you think you are a disaster star? How unlucky. Let's go, let's not get along with you." He talks, and woe to those who talk to him."

A mother stood at the door of the grandfather's house with the child, "Can you take care of your child at such an age, even though you have no father, no mother, no upbringing, you can't beat people casually, we recruited you to provoke you? See It was for our children, and I will come to you if there are scars in the future."

He Zhengyang said "serve it right"

"Hey, how do you talk, kid? You don't have parents to educate you, so I will educate you for them..."

Grandpa is sitting on the sofa. "Yangyang, you should go to boarding school from tomorrow on, you have to take good care of yourself, you know, don't fight anymore, but if someone bullies you, don't be afraid, fight back hard, don't be afraid, but if you ask your parents If your grandma and I may not be able to go, if the teacher treats you differently from others, you can tell me that grandpa will settle it for you."

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A boy who was about the same age as He Zhengyang was talking, "Your parents are also divorced? Then we are the same kind of people."

He Zhengyang asked him, "Why? Don't you feel it?"

"How do you feel? No one cares about me. I think it's good. Don't look at how nice it is for them to have parents. Do you know that someone chatted with me a few days ago, and he was beaten by his parents. Mom said he was useless every day, and he said he wanted to kill his parents. Look how good we are, if we don’t need to kill people, we won’t have parents hahahaha.” The boy disappeared.

"Breaking news. A boy in Class [-] was hacked to death by his parents. He himself jumped off the building and died. He also wrote a suicide note saying that his parents deserved to die. It's an injury. It's so pitiful."

When this person is talking, the rest of the class is silent, why, are you also like this.

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"Zhengyang, do you have something to do on vacation? Come home with me, I'm afraid."

"what happened?"

"Strange people always come to my house, and they always touch me. My mother said it's okay, because she likes me. I can't say no to my mother. I want you to accompany me home and live in my house. I so afraid."

"Then you can move directly to the school to live."

"My mother won't let me. She said she has a family and still has to pay for the accommodation. She divorced my father and has no money now. Every month my father calls her to let her buy clothes. But I'm so scared, what should I do? I don't want to go back at all."

"But I still don't feel very good. I'm not going to check the dormitory at night and I should go to my parents. If something really happens, you can call me, and I will tell the teacher that we will go there right away."

The little girl was about to cry. Outside the dream, He Zhengyang was also crying. He didn't need to dream, he knew the ending. It was the closest he was to death.Also, accompanied by a lifetime of regret.

The next day, the little girl didn't come to school, and the classroom was still silent. The teacher was not in the classroom, so He Zhengyang stood up and quietly went to the toilet through the back door.After returning from the toilet, I heard a female voice and a male voice talking in the teacher's office, and there was another standing beside him.

"Then do you know who the deceased had friends before he was alive? Can you call them out for us to find out the situation? Also, can we know who was the last person the deceased saw yesterday?"

"it is good."

Before He Zhengyang could figure out what they were talking about, he raised his head and saw the teacher approaching, he bowed in panic, "Teacher"

"Zhengyang, the police uncle is here to find out the situation. If you know something, just tell me." After finishing speaking, the teacher waited beside him.

"What's your name?"

"He Zhengyang"

"Do you know Liu Xin?"

"know"

"What is your relationship?"

"classmate"

"Did you see her yesterday?"

"seen"

"So did you talk?"

"said"

"Can you tell me what you all said?" He Zhengyang glanced at the teacher, who gave him a look of approval.

"She said she was afraid, and she also said that there were strangers in her family who often touched her, and asked me to live with her. She said she was afraid and wanted to live in the school dormitory, but her mother refused,"

"Then can you tell me what the stranger looks like?"

"I don't know, she didn't tell me. By the way, Uncle Policeman, what happened to Liu Xin, she didn't come to class today."

"You'll know in a few days, go to class and study hard." The police uncle patted his head as he said that. He Zhengyang ran back to the classroom pretending to say goodbye to the teacher, and turned back at the door of the classroom.Eavesdrop behind the wall.

"Don't let other children know about Liu Xin's death, and ask the teacher to find an explanation to cover it up."

The teacher said angrily, "How could it be like this? How can such a fresh life die? It must be the stranger that the children in our class said, who always touches her. It must be him."

"We can't be sure now, because Liu Xin's family doesn't plan to pursue it, we just came to find out the situation. But at present we know it is suicide."

"She was clearly violated before her death, shouldn't she be convicted?"

"But the cause of death is indeed suicide. If the family members don't pursue it, there is nothing we can do. We first found out about this, and your condolences." After speaking, the police left.

He Zhengyang covered his mouth behind the wall and listened to this. In order not to cry out, his palms were covered with teeth marks. Their homeroom teacher had just graduated, a girl full of justice, but she saw death in the first class of them. .The door was open, He Zhengyang walked in and asked the teacher. "Teacher, is it true that Liu Xin is dead?"

The head teacher looked at him, came over and hugged him, "Don't believe it, she's fine. She just changed schools. Don't let others know, okay?"

He Zhengyang didn't answer her.

Woke up from the dream, with tears still in the corners of his eyes, Liu Yiming lay beside him and looked at him, "You're awake, then I'll sleep." He Zhengyang seemed to hear someone calling him in a dream just now, and he was very anxious, but at that time his head and body were in a state of confusion. , Even if you hear the shouts from the outside world, you can't respond.

Liu Yiming fell asleep in a second, he couldn't have guarded himself all night.Apart from this thought, he couldn't think of anything else, watching him sleep soundly.He Zhengyang sat up and said in a low voice, "Liu Yiming, were you serious about what you said yesterday, or did you discover something and wanted to make fun of me, or did you want to catch me? But, what good does it do you?"

Liu Yiming looked at him, feeling familiar for a moment.After thinking about it, I can see it every day now, isn't it familiar?He turned his head to look at the street through the gap in the curtains.

"It's not good, I just want to threaten you."

He Zhengyang turned to look at him, but he didn't open his eyes.He Zhengyang leaned over, and could still feel that he was looking at him through his eyelids. He got up and went out with all his wits.

Sitting on the bed outside, it's so hard.I just had a dream and remembered something from my childhood.Liu Xin?

"It seems that I am really lucky to be able to live for such a long time. It is not necessarily a bad thing to have no parents. I didn't realize it before, but looking at it now, it is pretty good." He Zhengyang lay down before he knew it.Sitting up abruptly. "This bed is really hard. I'll buy a mattress from the Internet later." He said, walking to the sofa, lying on the sofa as if throwing himself out, and looking for the link of the mattress.bought it.Living on the sofa is also pretty good. As soon as he closed his eyes, all he saw was the picture of Liu Yiming kissing him yesterday. He scratched his head and sat up again. The room, if you don’t go in, don’t go in, I’ll look for another place. I don’t believe it, there’s no place for me yet.” Browsing for almost an hour.He Zhengyang couldn't help feeling, "It's so expensive. I can't afford it. I want to go home. I miss my mother and my sister. But they probably won't miss me. Forget it. If I feel wronged for a while, I will move out in a few days." Walk."

I ordered takeaway at noon, brought an extra portion for Liu Yiming, and put it there for him, and he threw it outside after eating. He was afraid of being heard by him when he was eating, and he didn't remember until he was done eating, 'Why don't I go out to eat?Forget it, we've finished eating. 'I've been living cautiously for a long time.Until Liu Yiming woke up, he was playing games behind his back, and when he heard the sound of the door opening, he still had goose bumps all over his back.

"You. Are you awake? I ordered takeaway, can you make do?"

"Thank you, don't eat, I'll go out for a while. You look after the house."

"Oh. Good." The topic is over, let's pretend to be playing a game, when will he die again.

"Have you made up your mind?" Liu Yiming stood behind his sofa after taking a shower.

Liu Yiming turned around, "What?"

"Forget it, it's nothing, I don't force it, if you think the bed is hard, you can sleep in it first. I'm coming back late, don't wait for me."

"Oh, no, the mattress I bought will arrive tomorrow, I'll just make do and sleep outside today."

Liu Yiming paused for a moment, seemed very frustrated, and replied "Yes." This afternoon was He Zhengyang's one-person world.First I called Dapeng to tell if there was anything I had, and then I called my mother and told my grandparents that I would go back to see them if I had a holiday.After making the phone call, he was hungry again. He heated up the takeaway he just bought, and He Zhengyang put it down after eating a few bites. "It's not good for anyone to eat together." He kept playing games, watching dramas, using both mobile phones and TVs, and he didn't have any idle time, and he washed his clothes by the way.Put it on the balcony outside.

I smoked a cigarette on the balcony and then came back to play games. I was so sleepy that I took a shower and went to bed. I was faced with a difficult choice. Should I sleep in it? He said yes, but I have already refused, um, let’s use the sofa. It's also quite soft.Wrapped in a quilt, she lay there motionless like a caterpillar, and fell asleep with her mobile phone next to her head.

When Liu Yiming came back, he saw He Zhengyang lying on the sofa and fell asleep, his face was full of disappointment, he closed the door gently, washed and tidied up.Before returning to the bedroom, he looked back reluctantly.The bedroom door was left open, leaving a big gap.

After a while, Liu Yiming came out and walked to the front of the sofa. A princess hugged the sleeping He Zhengyang and carried him into the bedroom.He Zhengyang was also sound asleep, but he didn't wake up.He wrapped himself into a mummy, I'm afraid he will regret it.

Put He Zhengyang down and put him inside against the wall, Liu Yiming covered him with a quilt before going to sleep.In the middle of the night, He Zhengyang was woken up by his own heat, and he couldn't break free from the cage he designed for himself.Stretching out a hand to pull out the piece he stuffed himself into the quilt, he was considered to be unsealed. It seemed that he had to roll to the right, rolled out of his quilt, and bumped into something at the same time. After adapting to the darkness, he realized that He was in the bedroom, and he anxiously wanted to walk away, but he already had arms around his waist. Gently, He Zhengyang slowly took his arms off his body, slowly lifted the quilt and moved out little by little.

"Where are you going?"

He Zhengyang felt that Liu Yiming seemed to be angry, "Ah,,, I'm going to the bathroom."

"Well, come back soon,"

"Ah."

He Zhengyang got up and went out. In a panic, he said to go to the toilet. It's over, there is no need for the quilt, let's find two pieces of clothes to put on and cover it.

After looking for clothes, I shrank in the corner of the sofa.Pick up your phone and swipe casually to see where the logistics of the mattress you bought is.Tomorrow is here, so I don't have to sleep on the sofa.I yawned.With the mobile phone next to him, he was about to sit and sleep like this, and he didn't feel wronged for some reason.

Before he could close his eyes, he felt that someone was hugging him, like a princess. He slowly opened his eyes and saw himself being carried back to the bedroom, "Liu Yiming, what are you doing? Let me down." Struggling to get down.Liu Yiming hugged him even tighter, "Don't make trouble, go to sleep. Sleepy."

"I know you're sleepy, you put me down first, I'll go out to sleep, can't I not bother you?"

"No, you have to sleep with me."

"Why?"

"Then you can move out now."

"Where do you want me to go in the middle of the night?"

"in spite of."

"I'm a tenant, and I'm not here for sex,"

"You sleep here, I don't want rent"

"Ah, no"

Liu Yiming put him down and didn't speak for a long time. "Go out and don't come in again."

He Zhengyang went out and closed the door.

He covered his body with the clothes just now, and shrank in the corner.I pray in my heart, Liu Yiming, don't do this again, I'm afraid I really like you.

When I went to work the next day, the two walked separately, neither of them spoke, and the atmosphere was always awkward.He Zhengyang always wanted to say sorry to Liu Yiming.After thinking about it, it seemed that there was nothing wrong with him, and it was him who was wrong.He didn't speak all the time, his mattress also arrived, took it back from the security room, and carried it to the 15th floor by himself.Having been working overtime for a long time, He Zhengyang was so exhausted that he lay down on the small bed when he got home, not wanting to move.Anyway, it's a holiday tomorrow, so I won't take a shower today. He carries it on his back and waits for Liu Yiming to finish washing before going. Since that night, the way they get along is to avoid each other as much as possible, and each of them has their own space.

Hearing that Liu Yiming was going out, he lay on his back, or pretended to be asleep, trying to avoid eye contact, but he didn't pay attention to it himself, which instead made him pay more attention to Liu Yiming.However, the window betrayed him.The window of the balcony can see Liu Yiming walking past clearly at night. Of course, Liu Yiming can see him even when he turns around. Looking at him while working is also looking at other places. He can feel that it seems that the eyes were all looking at him before.

The more He Zhengyang looked at it, the more angry he felt, so he hadn't explained clearly to him what he meant by what he said that night, what happened when he kissed me and then hugged me, and he didn't talk to me all the time, because he wanted me to see it for myself Do you understand to take the initiative to move away?So no matter who he was that night, he would be like this, just because I happened to be there.OK, I get it, I'm moving out right away.

When the next rest day came, He Zhengyang had already packed his things quietly, packed up his suitcase and left after washing in the morning.When closing the door, he kept expecting the people inside to come out to stop him, and kept looking at the bedroom door, but there was no movement.

She quietly closed the door and stood there for a long time, not knowing what she was waiting for.But how can not move the feet.It's so uncomfortable, I can't breathe, I'm stuck in my heart, I actually understood the feeling of the ancients once.It's not easy.No, after I left today, I may not be able to see you in the future, I want to ask clearly.He brought the suitcase back again, threw the schoolbag at the door, and entered the house, the unhappiness in his heart became even heavier.

He knocked on the door, but no one answered, so he opened the door directly, but there was no one inside.He Zhengyang sat down on the ground in frustration again, okay, don't let me ask clearly when he leaves, then I, let's go.As soon as he turned around, he bumped into Liu Yiming who was running back.He Zhengyang was knocked back.He never had time to look at this face.

Liu Yiming spoke first, "Are you leaving?"

He Zhengyang just looked at his face in a daze. "Well, I'm moving out, so I'm here to tell you."

"Where are you going?"

He Zhengyang scratched his neck and looked to the side. Vino's posture has long since lost his previous posture. "I haven't made up my mind yet, but I think it's not convenient for us to live together. I want to live alone."

"What's inconvenient, is the location bad?"

"It's good, but I think I have caused you a lot of trouble, made you sleep badly, disturbed you often, and since I lived in the living room, you seldom move around, so I will definitely give you a lot of trouble. I am sorry Excuse me." No matter what, he was apologizing, forget it, let him tell him not to care.

"By the way, if you don't mind, I still want to know what you mean."

"what,"

Liu Yiming frowned and looked at him, his anger was too obvious.When He Zhengyang saw it, he stopped asking, "No, it's nothing, you have a good rest, I've sent you a WeChat message, this month's rent. I've already packed my things, nothing left behind, and, you remember to give it to you Watering the succulents is different for each one, but it is best to water a little every day. Also, remember to use clips to hang the clothes every time, otherwise the wind will easily fall off. Don’t always drink Cold water, it’s not good for the stomach, and the mattress I bought, you have time to try it, it’s still very comfortable, you can lie outside if you have time. I changed the air freshener yesterday, you don’t need it for now Change it again..."

While talking, He Zhengyang cried unconsciously again. He never cried when his head was broken when he was a child. How could he cry while talking? After wiping his tears, Liu Yiming came over and hugged him from behind, "What you said I don't care, you are not allowed to go anywhere, if you leave, I will throw away those succulents, anyway, those are yours."

"you."

"These are the ones you raised at school. How about it, let's compete for beauty"

"It's not, it's obviously a narrow escape" just like himself.He Zhengyang turned around and hugged Liu Yiming.