Everyone is optimistic

The hot pot is hot.But no one ordered food.Both were silent.

The water in the hot pot went down for a section, and the caring waiter came over to add it to them, to see that they didn't intend to cook.He asked softly, "Hi, if you're not in a hurry, you can turn it down to a low fire." He Zhengyang raised his head and smiled and said, "No thanks." The waiter nodded and walked away.

He Zhengyang glanced at Liu Yiming.

"Come here quickly, it's time to eat. What is a big man doing there chattering? You don't come to eat when the food is ready. Waiting for someone to feed you."

Liu Yiming heard his desperate clamor.He smiled instantly, "Isn't this waiting for you to feed?"

He Zhengyang stopped his hand for a moment.Pick up a cherry tomato brought by the waiter next to you.Involuntarily stuffed it into his mouth, "Come on, come on, I'll feed you, I'll hold you to death."

Liu Yiming smiled while staring at him. "Thank you sir"

He Zhengyang flicked his hair, and said unrulyly, "Why are you being polite, tell me, what else do you want to eat? You can order a few more. That's enough."

"Why are you still able to eat like before?"

He Zhengyang squinted at him, "What's wrong, I'm young and mad at you?"

Liu Yiming looked at him with disdain, "I think it has nothing to do with your youth because you can eat."

"What's the matter if I can eat it? No matter how much I eat, I won't get fat or get acne. Unlike some people, I will get angry if I eat too much spicy food. My mouth is full of ulcers. Tsk tsk tsk"

"You can't get an ulcer if you don't bite like a dog."

"You, Guan, I" took advantage of the situation and pinched my waist.

The two glanced at each other and giggled like two idiots. The quarrel just now was over.Laughing so loudly that even the waiter ran over to tell them to keep their voices down.

After the waiter left, the two looked at each other.Liu Yiming looked at him, "Stupid, the waiter told you not to laugh."

"You're stupid, she told you not to laugh."

"you stupid x"

"you stupid x"

Suppressing their laughter, the two leaned towards each other and leaned on their shoulders.

He Zhengyang panted heavily, his face flushed red from the suffocation.Softly say "I'm tired" whether it's life or whatever.I'm tired.

"Let's eat then"

After the two finished eating quickly, He Zhengyang got up to pay the bill.

The waiter said enthusiastically, "Hello. The total is 295. This is the dish you ordered. Please check it. If there is nothing wrong, you can pay. Oh yes. This bouquet of roses is left by a lady at the table next to you. Also Here is this piece of paper." After speaking, he handed over the rose.And a piece of red paper with a folded birthday card with happy birthday gilded on the front.After opening it, it was written with a black pen inside, "The mountains and seas that you love can be flattened." Many places in the font are sharp and strong.But I also saw that it was a girl's handwriting.He took these two things and walked back while looking at the 10 characters. "I was still thinking that some little girl might have taken a fancy to me, so I have to take it back and show it off to Liu Yiming. My charm is still the same as before."

Liu Yiming packed his things and came to pick him up.Seeing the flowers and cards in his hand, I still wonder if you are giving roses when you eat hot pot now?The closer he got, the clearer he could see the black words on the back of the card. He went up and snatched the card, carefully identifying it, "If you lose your love for some reason, you will live until you die."

Liu Yiming frowned slightly looking at those words.

He Zhengyang saw that he had a bad expression.He thought it was because he was jealous of other people writing love letters to him, and wanted to snatch the paper back.Liu Yiming glanced at him and put it in his pocket.

Go to the front desk "Hello, I would like to ask who left this paper"

The waiter seemed to be quite impressed, "It's a little girl. She should have come with their dormitory. The little girl seems to be celebrating her birthday, and she has a bunch of roses in her hand. It's the table next to you."

Liu Yiming thanked the waiter and pulled He Zhengyang away.

Liu Yiming didn't see the sentence in it, the mountains and the seas are the same as what you love.

He Zhengyang also didn't see the sentence outside, "If you lose your love for some reason, you will live until you die."

Two people have their own feelings in their hearts.

On the way back, Liu Yiming always acted like he refused others. He Zhengyang looked at him and thought that he might be jealous, and he was very happy. There were not many times when Liu Yiming was like this. He was the first to come over to persuade him to do it. Although this is what it should be, who wants to be kicked twice for no reason.Once there was a problem with the food sold on the cart, which caused the passengers to vomit and diarrhoea. They came to the flight attendant and asked them with swear words, "What the hell are you selling? You sold it to me after it expired. Now I have a problem with eating it." , you TM stop the car and take me to the hospital, 'Even at this time, he is kind and explaining to others that this is not their problem.The sellers of snacks are outsourced, they don't know.Passengers heard that he was shirking responsibility, pushed him, and yelled to find the driver.He also explained patiently with him.Everyone in the carriage was looking at them, and some people still had sneers on their faces, as if they felt that the commotion wasn't big enough.Everyone was filled with righteous indignation, as if everyone had been poisoned by this car.His eyes stared at Liu Yiming like fire.

Fortunately, other people rushed over quickly, otherwise Liu Yiming would have been rewarded with a fist by someone who rushed up.Later, the person who caused the trouble was called away by the leader and spent money to settle the matter.The seller of snacks is not much.It's just a kinship bond as thin as a pinhole, and it can be regarded as a firm stand at this time, not to mention the support of money.

The two of them arrived home in silence, when Liu Yiming's cell phone rang just after entering the door, he took a look, took off his shoes, went to the balcony and closed the glass door to answer the phone, He Zhengyang could only look at his back, lowered his head and continued to tidy up by himself.After he tidied up and wiped his head and came out of the bathroom, Liu Yiming hadn't finished his phone call, so he turned on the TV and played a random Qing palace drama to watch.Liu Yiming is always like this, occasionally one or two phone calls take a long time.But no one came to see him.He Zhengyang once pretended to ask him casually if he had a mistress, and Liu Yiming said seriously, "You are." playing games.

Time flies, especially during the holidays, when they go to work and come back.When He Zhengyang returned home, he was like a puppet without a soul, randomly placed on the sofa.Liu Yiming came in and closed the door and opened his mouth, "I resigned." His tone and expression were flat, as if he was conveying something that had nothing to do with him.He Zhengyang answered casually, "Resign, I don't want to go either." Liu Yiming glanced at him, knowing that he didn't mean it at all.I didn't mention it again.The calendar reminder on Liu Yiming's mobile phone rang, he took a look at it, raised his head and said to He Zhengyang, "I have something to go out later, what do you want to eat. Order directly or buy it for you?" He Zhengyang heard that he wanted Go out, "Where are you going?" Get up and lean on him, "Wife, where are you going, don't leave me here alone, I'm afraid." The more I watch it, the more my mind goes out of control.”

"What are you talking about, Chenqie is very sober. Chenqie just doesn't want to be separated from you." The voice is soft and soft like water, usually reserved and polite outside, but when she comes home, she looks like a lady who never knew where she came from.Liu Yiming looked at him laughing uncontrollably, raised his chin and kissed him for a while, "I might be back later, you can eat something first, don't wait for me to come back."

"No, don't you want your concubine anymore, can your concubine not sleep now? No, I will wait for you to come back."

"Well, good. Then what are you going to do for dinner?" Liu Yiming said to him with a smile.

He Zhengyang asked, "What day is it today?" "Saturday" "Then I'll go to Dapeng for dinner. I haven't seen him for a long time, and I miss him."

"miss who?"

"It's the one where you bought flowers. What's the matter, my buddy, I can't think about it, you go, go wherever you like, I'll sleep at his place today." After speaking, he let go of Liu Yiming's hand, and said He said, "I will live with him from now on, and I won't come back." The more I looked at him, the more I wanted to laugh.

"Okay, then I'll pick you up later." After finishing speaking, he closed the bathroom door.The sound of running water was right next to his ears, and he could still hear the man outside shouting "Dapeng, I'll stay at your place for the night", which was obviously for him.Liu Yiming smiled helplessly.

Liu Yiming knew Dapeng and had met him a long time ago.

Dapeng is a technical stream.Proficient in computer technology.Now I am doing data analysis in a company.Salary is above average.The place to live is also slightly better.For their dormitory, He Zhengyang was most reluctant to part with Dapeng.

The monitor of their class lives in their dormitory, and he usually looks down on others. As long as someone is better than him, he will go to the teacher to complain. What's more, when there was an exam, he would force the teacher he knew to fail the monitor of the next class. .If the grades are not up to standard, they are not eligible to be selected as outstanding cadres in their department, and they cannot participate in other selections such as poor students and scholarships.Fortunately, the teacher he flattered was originally optimistic about the monitor of that class, but his wish was not fulfilled, and he slandered the teacher in front of other students.Later, after discussing with the teachers in the courtyard, they decided not to give him any chance to be judged as excellent.In the past, the monitor of their class always went to the office to clean up the office for the teachers.At the end of the semester, he went to intercede with the teacher, and the teacher barely gave him a pass.Later, his nature leaked out, and the teachers didn't plan to let him hang around anymore. The grades were strictly checked, and the monitor hardly passed a single item.These are just for the teacher, not a big deal.There are life committee members in the class to manage the class fee paid by everyone, although it is not much, less than 1000 yuan.But it still caught the monitor's eyes.The life committee member went to the library, and he followed suit. He didn't take a book, and talked to the life committee about topics.The life committee ignored him, and the louder he spoke, the people studying next to him stared at him angrily.He acted as if he didn't see it, and he was sure that girls would not ignore these gazes.Later, when the Health Committee couldn't stand it and told him to go out, he almost sang in the library.The Health Committee asked him what was the matter. This squad leader is not a fuel-efficient lamp.Looking for her must be asking her for something.The squad leader wanted the Health Committee to lend him the class fee, saying it was something urgent.The Health Committee said, "I borrowed the class fee, so I have to ask everyone in our class to see if they agree." The class leader said, "You don't need to tell them, I will return it when I have money." I was anxious, "That's not okay, they just put the money on me, in case the school asks to pay or donate money one day, where can I find the money. You might as well let others borrow it, it's more reliable than this, anyway, you don't need it Thinking about the class fee, I have a detailed record of how much I pay every time, and I will send all the remaining money to the class group. If I can’t pay the money, don’t I have to take it out myself? Are you It’s absolutely not okay to treat others as fools. Don’t think about it. Don’t follow me in the future, it’s really annoying.” After finishing speaking, he went into the library.The squad leader was left to yell at the corridor in the library, "Idiot, I'm giving you shame. If you don't listen to me, I will withdraw you tomorrow, idiot..." It took more than a minute to stop cursing, with extremely ugly His countenance is gone.

The squad leader is still the same squad leader, so shameless that you can't imagine it.When the squad leader started military training, he tried every means to go to the girls' training camp.Find beautiful girls to strike up a conversation with, add friends, and have various hot chats.Chatting with a dozen girls at the same time, the people in the same dormitory have no envy but disgust.He used the slogan of looking for true love on his lips. In fact, after he became a friend, he hinted that girls would sleep with him every day. After seeing the hopeless ones, he deleted them. He confessed to almost all the good-looking girls in the college. In the end, a girl in my class agreed. he.The two of them stopped for a while at the beginning, tired and crooked.Not long after, the girls got acquainted with each other, and when they talked about it, they realized that the squad leader was so shameless that he always boasted to others that he was with a certain person, and that such-and-such person didn't even know about it.But he has never been separated from the one in his class.Just be together for three years.

Dapeng is a little chubby, known for his good temper, and he is surprisingly popular among girls. Many girls are willing to pick him up when they go out to play. It can be regarded as the central air conditioner.It is also a gold central air conditioner.

Once He Zhengyang posted a circle of friends, which was a photo taken by Dapeng of He Zhengyang setting off fireworks in the snow. He Zhengyang didn’t want to go home during the holidays, so he went to Dapeng’s house. Dapeng’s family was very enthusiastic and knew he was going. A few days before their return, they bought a new hardcover house for them to live in.He Zhengyang was also shocked when he arrived at his house, and Dapeng himself was also shocked.The new house is in a group of small villas, and there are many beautiful scenery nearby. Dapeng's hand that wanted to hold the camera began to itch again.But he needs a model, He Zhengyang is the only one beside him, Dapeng just smiles, and he is the only one.

It took almost a day to go back by high-speed rail, and the two of them couldn't wait when they saw the snow-white outside on the road.It was only when he arrived at the door that he felt the real snow in front of him. Dapeng took out the camera in the glass cabinet, pointed at it, and signaled He Zhengyang to take pictures.When the door was opened, a gust of cold wind hit their faces and they couldn't breathe. The two closed the door, put down their things and found a down coat before going out.Finding an open space for equipment in the community, He Zhengyang took out his mobile phone and made a lot of pretentious poses, but Dapeng firmly denied it. Later, they found a tree with thick snow on it, and Dapeng asked him to stand under the tree. He came up with a good composition, and especially told him to pay attention to his expression.He Zhengyang agreed, and Dapeng kicked towards the tree while he was not paying attention, and took a picture of the young man under the tree looking at people waiting in the distance before the confused He Zhengyang could react.Dapeng took a few pictures and thought they looked good, so he raised his head and said, I will wash them all for you.As soon as He Zhengyang raised his head and smeared snow on his face, Dapeng immediately realized that he paid so much attention to the photo that he forgot the snow that seemed to have fallen from the person next to him just now, and he still didn't say the word 'fuck'.He also helped He Zhengyang sweep the snow off his shoulders, and the two of them ran back trembling with their hats covered tightly.When I came back, I sorted out the photos on the computer and passed a copy to He Zhengyang. When He Zhengyang saw the photos, he was so excited that he was about to cry.There is a feeling of "I have been beautiful for so many years and someone finally discovered it".He looked at the snow outside, and the beautiful world was quiet. He took out his mobile phone to take a picture, and sent a circle of friends with himself in the snow.Putting down the phone and continuing to stare outside, I didn't want to do anything at once, just be so quiet.There are only him and Dapeng in the new house. Dapeng's parents are spending the winter in Hainan at this time, and they don't think about coming back.Everything in your new home.It's just that two people can't cook at all.Even if you want to order a takeaway on a snowy day, no one will take the order.Fortunately, my mother left them several jars of meat sauce, mushroom sauce, and chili sauce.Enough to feed two people for a long time.The two silently took out the instant noodles and ate them with the sauce.These sauces have more ingredients and less sauce, which is my mother's method and taste.He Zhengyang hasn't eaten it for a long time, tears fell while eating.

Dapeng's movements suddenly stopped, "Damn, did you get soaked by the sauce my mother made? I also think it's a bit salty. Maybe I put too much salt. I'll tell her in advance when she makes it next time." Put less salt. Only the meat is fine. What kind of salt do you want, don’t you want it?” Dapeng asked and answered here, and He Zhengyang’s tears flowed even more. He swallowed the meat sauce in his mouth, got up and said that he finished eating I went to sit on the sofa in the living room.He stared straight at the snow outside.Dapeng put down the instant noodles he had just eaten, poured a cup of hot water, and took it out.

Putting the water on the coffee table in front of He Zhengyang, he stepped back and sat on the sofa.Dapeng didn't know what happened, but felt that it was best to be by his side at this time.He Zhengyang stared at the snow outside, and Dapeng's eyes casually rested on the steam from the cup of hot water.

I don't know how long it will take, and the water vapor will disappear soon. Dapeng slowly got up and wanted to change a glass of water.

"My parents are divorced." He Zhengyang sobbed.He picked up the paper beside the table and wiped away his tears silently.Dapeng withdrew the hand he had just stretched out to grab the water.Adjust your posture to face him.

"When I was very young, my parents divorced, and my mother remarried. My father ran away with my mistress. I was thrown to my grandparents to be raised, and my grandparents were very kind to me, and they almost granted my every wish. , I am very grateful to them, but, you know, I only found out later that I have a sister, "

"Then where is she now?"

"Dead, beaten to death by my parents."

"..."

"Actually, it's not like that. My parents quarrel and often fight. They always say they want to beat someone to death. If you don't die, don't go out of this door today. Things in the house are often thrown. It's a new house. It looks like a broken house." The market. My sister wanted to stop the fight, but was thrown out by two people and hit the cabinet to death. Later, I don’t know how much money it took to settle the matter. My grandpa was so angry that he wanted to fight with my dad Sever the father-son relationship."

Dapeng just listened.He could feel He Zhengyang's fear when he mentioned his parents.

"I was born after my sister died. Because I was a boy, my grandfather was in a better mood. When I was just born, I was quiet for a while. My mother took me to kindergarten and played in various places. , was the happiest time for me. Later, my mother saw messages sent to him by other women on my father’s mobile phone, and the two of them started an endless quarrel. They had the foresight this time and locked me in the house. I heard the sound of the broken fish tank outside. There was a lot of quarreling, but I could only hear the breathing of the fish lying on the ground without water. Slowly, slowly. The breathing became weaker and weaker until there was no sound at all. No," Dapeng listened to his words, unconsciously slowed down his breathing, and finally almost forgot to breathe. After he reacted, he realized that he had been holding his breath for a long time, panting heavily, He Zhengyang glanced at him, He turned his head to look at the snow again, as if the movie he starred in when he was a child was being projected from a third-person perspective in the snow.

"I was the same as you at the time. By the time I realized it, I was about to suffocate myself. Then I gasped. I didn't know anything during that blank time. When I opened the door, there was silence outside, eyes full of All I saw was blood. Then I didn’t know anything. Later, when my parents divorced, my mother left with things and told me that she would come back to see me. That was the last time she hugged me and said Come to see me but never once, I think, I will never see again." He Zhengyang curled himself up on the sofa and hugged his legs tightly, as if he was reliving the feeling of hugging.

Listening to what he said, Dapeng didn't know what to say for a while.

"You know, in fact, I have always hated my parents. They killed my sister with their own hands, but they still gave birth to me like a normal person. They wouldn't

Do you feel guilty?Don't you feel like your daughter is dead?What is the purpose of giving birth to me? Is it to atone for my sins? It's ridiculous. Who will you show me to do these useless things? Sister, no, my sister doesn't want me to be born and die again.But I can't choose to be born by myself, really, why can I become a parent without passing any exams, why, when can they ask me if I want to be born, and since I was born, why did they abandon me. "

Originally, Dapeng had already thought of a general way to comfort others, "comparing misery", after hearing He Zhengyang's words, he couldn't find anything he could compare to.

"Since my mother left, my perception of pain has gradually become weaker and weaker." Dapeng seemed to hear something that could be answered, and asked quickly, "Why?"

He Zhengyang shook his head, "I don't know. After my mother left, I could always dream of the blood in my eyes that day. Obviously my mother left alive, but I always felt that my mother was already dead at that time. When my mother bleeds, it must be very painful. So in the dream, it seemed that I could feel the pain of my mother’s bleeding. After a period of treatment, I kept suggesting that my dreams were all fake, the pain didn’t exist, and everything was just my imagination. It came out. Later, for some reason, when I fell asleep, I couldn’t be woken up no matter how much someone screamed, unless I woke up myself. And, gradually, I couldn’t remember what dreams I had.”

Dapeng felt that the sad atmosphere should not last for too long, so he pretended not to care and said, "It's just that you slept too much and it was a big deal. Hey, that's right, let's go find your mother. Didn't you say it's been a long time?" Haven't seen her? It just so happens that we both have nothing to do during the winter vacation, so it's good to go out to play for two days, and it happens that my parents are not at home, otherwise I will have to wipe the floor for them."

"I... But I don't know where she lives, and I haven't contacted her until now. Will she forget me? "

"No, you believe me, you are his own son, and no one can forget you if you forget it. If she knows that you are so handsome now, she must be so happy. Let's play at my house for a few days, and you can change it Go in a happy mood. If you find it, you should question her first," Dapeng pinched his waist, "Why did you abandon me at that time, blah blah blah." Then she explained, "Let's go blah blah." You understand You are still her good son. I can't find it, and my mother is there. From now on, my mother will be your mother. My mother must be happy to have such a handsome son suddenly." Dapeng said vividly. He Zhengyang played two roles, dancing and dancing in a very funny way, which made He Zhengyang, who is both sad and angry, laugh.

"Thanks,"

Dapeng took advantage of the opportunity to pick up the cold water, "You are welcome, you are my half-brother's backup now. I have to treat you better." Dapeng took the cup and replaced it with hot water for him.Secretly heaved a sigh of relief.

He Zhengyang turned around and looked out the window, it was already completely dark.The light escaping from the window shines on the snow, reflecting a piece of white, warm even if it is cold.