I had a crush on her and finally broke up

With such a long list of names, as well as men and women, it is impossible for Ruan Yu to have so many exes.

These names are all characters in her pen.From his debut to the present, Ruan Yu has written only a few works, basically all of which are here.

Ruan Yu was a little surprised that Qi Lan could count so many names that he almost forgot.She suppressed the smile on her face, lowered her eyes and remained silent for a moment before saying, "So you know."

Ruan Yu sometimes thinks that Qi Lan is amazing. She thinks that Qi Lan should know what Qi Lan should know, but Qi Lan does not know; she thinks that Qi Lan has no way of knowing, but Qi Lan knows.

"How could I not know?" Qi Lan didn't dare to look at Ruan Yu, and buried her face in the pillow, as if she could avoid everything that was coming.

But when the first sentence was said, there was no need to hide it later, "In each of your works, there is such a teacher and friend beside the protagonist, who seems to be a guide. The protagonists still have to shine. And they often leave after they have used their usefulness, hiding their achievements and fame."

"Even ordinary netizens think that you must have such a white moonlight in your heart, how could I not know?" Qi Lan's tone was sour that couldn't be concealed, "As for Yan Shuang...I told you before, I I know your home address because of an accident, do you remember?"

"Ah..." Ruan Yu responded in surprise, "It turned out to be that time."

Qi Lan said before that she accidentally saw her walking by the side of the road one day, and she was in a bad mood, so she drove after her all the time, and only then did she know the address of her home.At that time, Ruan Yu couldn't remember that he had ever had such a time, so he didn't care.

Now she remembered.

That was when Yan Shuang decided to go abroad.

Where does this story begin?Maybe it starts with the winter when she lost her father.

Before that winter, Ruan Yu had a very happy family that everyone admired.The father is a firefighter who often appears in textbooks, and the mother is an ingenious full-time housewife. Maybe there is a little lack of money, but it does not detract from the atmosphere of this family in the slightest.

But after his father died, the family collapsed completely.On the one hand, this is due to the deep affection of the parents, and the mother could not accept the death of the father, which was too severe a blow; Support this little family.

Fortunately, my father was a martyr and left a pension. With the help of my father's leadership and colleagues, I used the money to open a bookstore in front of the school.

In addition to selling some supplementary books, the store also rents out some martial arts and romance works. At that time, the Internet was not so developed, and there were not so many entertainment methods. Students were very happy to rent a book for a few cents a day. Go to school, the business is not bad, barely able to maintain the life of the mother and daughter.

It's just that since the accident, the anger in the mother seems to have been taken away by the father.

She was originally a very interesting little woman who could do all kinds of handicrafts, knit sweaters of the same style for a family of three, grow flowers and vegetables on the balcony, listen to music, watch dramas, dance, even when her husband was not at home, she could Live a colorful life.

But now, she just sits behind the cash register every day.Some people said a few words when they came to see the book rental, and no one disturbed them, so they just stared at the door in a daze, not knowing what they were thinking.I don't even bother to prepare three meals a day, most of them are bought directly from outside.

For Ruan Yu's daughter, naturally, she did not take care of her as carefully as before.

Ruan Yu was already sensible at that time, and after encountering such an accident, he quickly matured a lot.After school every day, besides doing homework, I help my mother in the store.

During that long and boring time, she searched almost all the books in the store.It is precisely because of this growth experience that laid the foundation of her literature and prompted her to embark on the path of writing.

Qi Lan said that she grew up watching Ruan Yu's works, which is not an exaggeration.

At the age of 19, Ruan Yu wrote her first play "Xiangyang". At that time, Qi Lan, who was seven years younger than her, was still in elementary school.This script participated in a script competition sponsored by an online platform. Although it only won a dispensable award for excellence, the work was bought by the film and television company and cast into a TV series, which became an instant hit.

At that time, the person who picked her out of thousands of works with her discerning eyes was Yan Shuang.

She is Ruan Yu's Bole, who not only discovered her, but also personally guided her and gave her a lot of help.

Ruan Yu, a screenwriter from Ye Luzi who was not a major, was able to quickly gain a foothold in the industry and come up with excellent works one after another. In addition to his own talent, opportunities are also indispensable.And Yan Shuang is undoubtedly the biggest of all her opportunities.

During Ruan Yu's growing up, although her father's role was missing, the medal placed at home will always guide her like a bright light hanging high.On the contrary, the absence of a mother in life has a greater impact.

And Yan Shuang's appearance at that time, to a certain extent, made up for the existence of the role of mother.

Especially during the time when his mother passed away, Ruan Yu was depressed for a while, and it was only with Yan Shuang's encouragement that he regained his strength.

Ruan Yu's feelings for her are very complicated. There is not only trust in her elders, but also admiration for her excellence, which cannot be summed up simply as love.

Whether Yan Shuang knew about this or not, Ruan Yu actually didn't know either.But with her keenness, she should be more or less aware of it.But she pretended not to know, and Ruan Yu didn't intend to reveal it.

It’s just that as a creator, it’s inevitable that you will be affected a little bit and project it into your own works.

Ruan Yu never shy away from this selfishness.But he never expected that there would be another person who would see all this and care so much.

Many people know that she has a good relationship with Yan Shuang, but few know that she admires Yan Shuang.Probably only the manager Gu Chunzhi was aware of it.But Ruan Yu didn't mention it, and the two of them didn't develop, so she just pretended not to know.

But it turns out that Qi Lan already knew about it from such an early age.

Yan Shuang is a person who likes challenges very much. At that time, she probably felt that life in China was a bit boring, so she chose to go abroad.

On the day of the farewell, it was actually the same as today's gathering, there were a lot of people there.It's interesting to say that everyone knows that Yan Shuang and Ruan Yu have the best relationship, but in fact, the two of them seldom get along alone in private, whether it's a workplace where everyone can see, or a small gathering of friends.

Perhaps at that time, both of them chose to avoid too close contact.

Only that day, maybe because he drank too much, Ruan Yu didn't control his emotions well.After holding on to attend the party, my emotions broke down a bit after the show.She refused the hotel's car and wandered aimlessly on the street for a long time, Ruan Yu couldn't remember whether she cried or not, but the state at that time was obviously quite bad.

"I followed you that day." Qi Lan said, "I didn't know why you were like this at the time, and I only heard about Yan Shuang's going abroad later. You may not know, but before that, I admired you. In my heart, you are smart, beautiful, and powerful, and you seem to be omnipotent. But that day I saw another you, and it turned out that you would cry, be sad, and be so fragile. It was from that day that I gave birth to To be close to you, to protect your thoughts."

When Ruan Yu's fire of love was extinguished, a seed of love quietly sprouted in another person's heart.

But at that time, Qi Lan was still a freshman in high school.She knew that even if she walked in front of Ruan Yu, the other party would only regard her as an ignorant child and would not take her seriously.So she could only follow like this, and when Ruan Yu was tired from crying and walking, when she sat down to rest on the flower bed by the roadside, she went over to deliver a cup of hot milk tea.

When she was admitted to university, settled down, and felt that she was ready to appear in front of Ruan Yu, she found that Ruan Yu had already started dating Ye Siyun.

Only three years later, after she graduated from university, Ruan Yu and Ye Siyun also broke up.

"No wonder you've been in a bad mood lately. You already knew that Yan Shuang had returned to China, didn't you?" Ruan Yu understood after hearing this.

"She posted about air tickets on Weibo." Qi Lan admitted in a broken way, "The day she returned to China, you were also in City S. I... actually called you, but the phone was always turned off. At that time, I thought, you It was very, very sad to be with her. But then I found out that you came back to celebrate the New Year with me in a hurry, and I was so happy."

"However, since she is back, you will meet each other. I don't want to care about these things, I'm being stingy, but I just can't help it. I can't help but want to compare myself with her. Me and her, you Who will you choose?"

"Then why didn't you ask me?" Ruan Yu asked.

"Because I... am not sure you will choose me." Qi Lan's voice turned into tears, "If you don't ask, if you pretend you don't know, nothing will change. The one with you is still me. If you ask, I will I'm afraid I won't even have the chance to stay by your side."

Ruan Yu suddenly remembered that when she just moved here, Qi Lan was also sad because he refused to let her stay in the house over there.At that time, she said to Qi Lan, you can ask me anything, but Qi Lan subconsciously asked: "Anything is fine?"

At that moment, she only regarded Qi Lan's performance as a surprise, and didn't realize that she would subconsciously ask such a question, which in itself meant that she still had doubts in her heart.

Maybe at that time, Qi Lan already had a grudge against Yan Shuang's existence.

Ruan Yu couldn't help but sighed softly, and reached out to touch Qi Lan's face.But Qi Lan thought she would have no face to see her, so she stubbornly buried her face in the pillow and refused to lift it up.

She had no choice but to rub Qi Lan's head, feeling that she was so pitiful and cute, "I really don't know how many things are packed into your little head."

She thought about it again, "No, if it's just like this, then when you see someone today, you should know that we have nothing. Why are you still so listless?"

Ruan Yu's attitude was very generous, which completely meant "this matter has already passed", Qi Lan felt a little relieved, and became a little more courageous.She finally raised her head and looked at Ruan Yu with a pair of eyes, "I told you not to laugh at me."

"You said."

"You said before that you like Jiang Lie's type. I used to feel that I grew up after Jiang Lie, and I was very happy." Qi Lan pinched a pillow, "But I only found out when I saw her today. It turns out that she is Jiang Lie. Enthusiastic, generous, and decent, people can get close and like them unconsciously. I..."

She took a deep breath, "I know I shouldn't think of you so badly, but I can't help but wonder if I'm just her... stand-in for you."