at the end of the day

One day after a month.

Xiang Bai got up very early today. He thought about tidying up the house and was busy until noon.

The sun is particularly bright, pouring into the house through the floor-to-ceiling windows, it is warm and harmonious, full of sunshine, bright and majestic.

"Bloom of youth" on his phone is his favorite music.Who is not a person who likes to be sensational, but he is too embarrassed in front of others.

You put the music that makes your mouth rise unconsciously after listening to it, and put it in front of others, full of cautious expectations, and it seems that this is no longer a song, but yourself.Even if you always get unsatisfactory evaluations every time, you will still show it to others every time, and you don’t know how long you can be happy if you say “it’s pretty good”, and you don’t realize how cheap you are at this time. Maybe no one else found out.

It is always said that a bosom friend is hard to find, but in fact there is no one who understands me.That's why there was an inexplicable emotion at night, tears streaming down my face.

Xiang Bai was wearing super cute bear pajamas, turned on the TV, and played a cat and mouse show. He watched this cutely when he was a child. After sitting in front of the TV for a whole day, he watched cartoons. It seems that this is better.

The one that just appeared was an orange cat playing the guitar. The owner scolded him as a lazy cat for not being able to catch mice. The owner invited Tom, hoping that Tom would catch Jerry. Jerry danced and danced. Finally, he also danced. finished.Tom is miserable, trying his best to catch Jerry, and finally plays the guitar with the orange cat, which makes the owner half dead.

Xiang Bai hugged a bag of potato chips, giggled while watching the cartoon, and scolded Tom for being stupid, because he couldn't catch Jerry every time, and envied their friendship.

Half a month ago in the evening, when Lin Ziheng called, it was eleven o'clock in the evening and he was already on the plane.In a hurry, I can obviously feel a little panic, saying that my mother is seriously ill and is about to die.

Later, I kept coming to WeChat again, and for the first time, Xiang Bai felt that so many things could happen in just a dozen days.

On August 95th, Lin Ziheng's tone was undeniable tenacity: "Eat well these few days, I have to go home, and the company has granted me three months of leave. I remember it all, you are now [-] pounds, come back If I see you lose weight in the future, you are the only one to ask!"

On August [-]th, "Xiaobai, my mother asked me to go on a blind date. Although I didn't really want to go, she was not in good health. I never did anything for her, so I had to go."

August [-]th, "Baibai, I met a girl on a blind date today. She is so-so and cute. She looks a lot like you before. She also has deep dimples when she smiles. She is much fatter than you. You should gain weight quickly." .”

August 22, "Xiang Bai, my mother seems to like that girl very much, and that girl also likes me? My mother asked me how I felt, and I felt distressed when I saw her eyes. She always gave I'm worried, I'm over 30, it's time to get married, can you help me check?"

August 26, "Xiao Baizi, I may not go back. My dad gave me a certain job here. The monthly salary is very high and it is not very tiring. I really want to go back and see you. Also, I want to If you are engaged, you will be with the girl from before."

August [-]th, "Xiaobai, do you want me to go back? If you want, I will go back."

.........

Xiang Bai replied, "It's hard work here, isn't it good for you to work over there? Your fiancée is also pretty and virtuous, so you don't need to do anything for me. I've gained weight, and I'm a hundred and one now. All right, don't worry about it."

On September [-]st, Lin Ziheng called Xiang Bai, his voice was hoarse and nasal, and he felt like he had been crying for a long time. "Xiaobai, my mother is gone..."

"...Don't be sad, think about it, before your aunt died, you could be considered as fulfilling one of her wishes, didn't you?"

"I'll be back on the [-]rd to get my luggage. I just want to ask you, do you need me to continue to take care of you? If..."

Before Lin Ziheng finished speaking, Xiang Bai interrupted: "No need, I can take care of myself, it's fine. You have to take on the responsibilities of your husband and son, don't do it for me, an outsider. , not worth it."

"………value."

"Thank you for taking care of me for so long. I'll pick you up at the airport."

"Ah."

No one knew that Lin Ziheng locked himself in the room that night, heartbroken.He didn't know that Xiang Bai was on the other end of the phone, weeping uncontrollably.

"I don't deserve it, I don't deserve it now." Xiang Bai murmured in a low voice after hanging up the phone.

On September [-]rd, there were many people coming and going at the airport, there were separated couples, parents sending off their children, laughing friends, and the lonely Lin Ziheng.

Lin Ziheng rolled up his left sleeve and tapped his watch twice with his right index finger. It had been three hours and Xiang Bai hadn't come yet.I panicked inexplicably, could something happen?

He slapped himself in the heart, bastard!Don't expect people to be better.

Suddenly, while browsing Weibo, I caught a glimpse of a news about someone jumping off a building in the city's current affairs news. The blurry cover looked like a boy in a brown one-piece pajamas.

He was flustered, but he didn't care much, until the number called, and someone in Lin Ziheng's heart was yelling, heart-piercing, don't answer!Can't answer the phone!You will regret this!You will definitely regret it!Can't!No!

Gently swiping the screen and putting the receiver next to his ear, Lin Rongze's eager voice sounded, "I received Xiaobai's courier, two suicide notes, one for you alone and one for everyone, I am now Go to his house, where are you?"

The air seemed to freeze in an instant, and Lin Ziheng ignored Lin Rongze's repeated urging on the phone in a panic. After a long time, he said, "What did you write in the letter to me?"

He read: "I died on September [-]rd. I was selfish. I'm sorry. If you can, please indulge my selfishness. If not, forget me."

"Gone?"

"It's gone. Go to him quickly, hurry up, I'm in a traffic jam! Hurry up! Go to him! Hurry up..."

There was another deathly silence, and suddenly thought of something, Lin Ziheng clicked on the news and saw the live broadcast.

At the airport, everyone saw a man crying like a madman.