rely on fingers

On the first day of the new year, Jin Youzhen sat in the room cutting the newspaper and looked up at the watch. At ten o'clock, there was still no movement outside. Jin Youzhen was a little worried, went out and opened the door of her room, and saw that she was still sleeping wrapped in a quilt.

Jin Youzhen walked over and looked down to see her curled up body trembling quietly, her whole body was hot and hot, and her face was flushed abnormally. Jin Youzhen covered her sweaty forehead with his hands, and a scorching feeling came from under her fingers. I have a high fever.

Jin Youzhen pulled her up from the bed, put on her overcoat, and helped her unconscious to the hospital.

After lying in the hospital for a day and a night, she finally woke up from the coma with a high fever. Looking at the pure white ceiling, she was stunned. After a few seconds, she turned her head and looked around. The scattered thoughts were sorted out in her mind little by little. Clearly, her glazed eyes dimmed.

"What are you looking for? Don't you think that Do Kyungsoo or Byun Baekhyun will sit by your bed and shake hands and confess affectionately to you?" Jin Youzhen's teasing voice came, and she turned her head to look at her.

There was a smile on her haggard face, but there was a look of sadness in her eyes: "Forget it... just leave it at that, there's nothing wrong with it."

Jin Youzhen looked at her, paused for a few seconds, then she put away the notebook on her lap: "Let's leave the hospital, the hospitalization fee is too expensive."

"Youzhen, I'm hungry." She smiled and stroked her shriveled belly.

On the brightly lit street, in the cold and desolate scenery, she wrapped her coat tightly in her pockets and shuddered, her teeth chattered, and she pointed to a shop on the right: "I'm freezing to death, go in."

Finding a seat by the window and sitting down, she held her frozen face in a daze for a while before she straightened up. Jin Youzhen poured her a glass of water and said mockingly, "You're like a ghost now."

She turned her head to look at herself in the reflection in the glass. Her hair was disheveled, her face was pale and haggard, her lips were chapped and bleeding, and she felt like she had aged ten years after sleeping all night.

Powerless to refute, she picked up a cup of hot water to warm her hands, coughed non-stop, and took a sip of water: "My illness is not cured."

Jin Youzhen didn't even bother to give her a glance, and said while ordering food, "Are you talking nonsense?"

"Hmm..." She nodded, took a small sip of hot water with her cup in her hand, took out the mobile phone in her pocket, and unlocked it. Sure enough... there was no call or message.

The anticipation in her heart turned into disappointment in an instant, she lowered her head, ignored the mobile phone that Jin Youzhen took away, coughed and drank several glasses of water.

She drank enough without eating anything, and seeing all the tempting food served, she hurried to the bathroom.

After a while, she came out of the bathroom while grabbing her messy hair with wet hands. When she turned the corner, the road in front of her was blocked by someone. Stand for a few seconds before leaving.

She lowered her head and grabbed her not-so-soft hair, walked to the seat, and saw that the food was completely prepared, and a very bright smile appeared on her face.

"I'm going to start."

She picked up the chopsticks and ate her mouth full of oil and stuffed her mouth full of food. She suddenly felt that all the depression in her heart had disappeared in smoke. Happiness is so simple.

It's just that the guests at the table next to her ate more happily than her, and the atmosphere was very lively.

She looked up and saw that Jin Youzhen was not eating, but was looking at the side quietly. She followed Jin Youzhen's gaze and saw five or six people sitting at the next table laughing and making noise. There were men and women, and Baekhyun .

She slowly stopped chewing, and turned her head to look at Jin Youzhen with questioning eyes.

"It's really a coincidence." Jin Youzhen explained lightly, and continued to eat slowly.

The relieved complex emotions gathered in her heart little by little, she drank water stiffly, looking at the food on the table, she suddenly felt full.

Looking over again, I saw a petite and lovely girl sitting beside Baekhyun, leaning on him gently to ask for his warmth, brushing her curly long hair, she poured water for him, her fingers were slender and white, and her fair cheeks were stained. blushing shyly.

"Ah, compared to her, you are really far behind." Jin Youzhen had a teasing smile in his eyes.

She nodded undeniably, and licked her chapped lips. The light from the restaurant's roof illuminated her whole face, which looked even more decadent and haggard.

"You don't want it, there are so many people rushing to ask for it." Jin Youzhen gave her the meat that passed the test, his voice was quiet but very impactful.

Her surroundings were getting darker and darker, she put the barbecue into her mouth, and she bit the chopsticks hard.

During the laughter over there, I don't know what Bian Baekhyun said, the boy obviously didn't believe it: "Baekhyun, how can you not have a girlfriend?!"

Bian Baekhyun was smiling, and his fingers holding the wine glass couldn't help tightening: "If I fall in love, what will happen to so many girls who like me."

"Haven't you thought about finding one around you?"

Someone was asking, and she laughed and looked at the girl sitting on Baekhyun's body. She blinked her beautiful eyes, lowered her head and blushed in embarrassment on her pink face.

Bian Boxian was obviously out of shape, he was staring blankly, he was patted on the shoulder by his friend before recovering, and the smile returned to his face.

She grimaced, clenched the chopsticks in her hands, and felt an inexplicable sourness in her heart.Staring at the tempting and delicious food in front of her, she lost any appetite. She seemed to be trapped in a vortex. Her ears automatically blocked other noises, and she could only receive the sounds from the side.

"What happened to your hand?" The boy asked curiously, looking at the tightly wrapped gauze on Baekhyun's right hand.

Bian Baekhyun looked down at his right hand, he smiled nonchalantly: "It's nothing, I accidentally hurt it."

The girl wrapped the barbecue thoughtfully, and handed it to Baekhyun carefully. Baekhyun turned his head and bit it, and smiled at the girl.

"I'm going to the bathroom."

She stood up abruptly, walked to the bathroom two steps at a time, stood by the sink, she looked at herself in a mess in the mirror, her hair smoothed with water became frizzy again, her face without any blood was haggard and decadent, her face turned to the sky Too dirty to be seen.

What Jin Youzhen said was right, compared to that girl, she is really far behind. She is a gluttonous feast, but she is noodles in clear soup.

Discouragement, reluctance, jealousy, annoyance, and all kinds of emotions rushed into her heart. She was so irritated that she coughed non-stop, and kicked the wall hard. She came out of the bathroom with a frown, and almost bumped her head into the shoulder of the person in front of her. .

Who is so short-sighted? !

She raised her head angrily, and her eyes met. For a moment, she froze and froze.

Bian Baekhyun stood in front of her, looking at her quietly, the air suddenly stopped flowing, and the surroundings were so silent that only the heartbeats of the two of them could be heard.

Slowly, he showed a very friendly smile, yes, a friendly smile, but also a little alienated.It seems that at this moment, their encounter is as ordinary as ordinary friends, and they can pass by with a few simple greetings.

However, he didn't speak, just smiled politely at her, and walked sideways into the bathroom.

She stood still, her heart suddenly ached, her eyes turned red, she bit her chapped lips to hold back the soreness in her throat.

Only now did she truly realize, ah, so this is called loss.

It is no exaggeration to say that the person who has always been enthusiastic about you suddenly turns cold. It is no exaggeration to say that this feeling is as uncomfortable as falling directly from heaven to hell.

Back on the seat, she sat absent-mindedly, Jin Youzhen glanced at her, didn't speak, just lowered his head to eat his own.

Baekhyun came back after leaving for a long time, put on his coat and left the store with his friends who were waiting for him.

At the door, the group of people couldn't find where to go next, they were discussing with each other shoulder to shoulder, the girl stayed beside Baekhyun the whole time, chatting with him with a blink of an eye, trying her best to attract his attention.

Bian Baekhyun did not ignore her, and chatted happily with her with a smile, and his expressions became more and more colorful.

Turning around, she didn't look out of the window again, her eyes were red from choking on the water.

After paying the bill, when she was about to leave the store, the waiter gave her a bag, and she opened it to see that there were many medicines in it.

"Do you still give free cold medicine in your store?" Jin Youzhen teased with a smile.

The waiter panicked: "...a guest asked me to give it to you."

"Understood, thank you." She said in a deep voice, squeezing the bag tightly in her hand.

After leaving the store, Jin Youzhen was called away by the editor-in-chief.

In winter, when night fell, she was caught off guard. She stood on the street in a daze, not knowing where to go.

Blown by the cold wind, her chaotic mind gradually cleared up, and she started to walk slowly towards home.

In the dark street, she stood under the broken street lamp, looking at the thin figure standing at the door of her house at the end of the street, under the dim light, the cold night wind blew his clothes and messed up his bangs , hurt his frozen white face.

She stood on the street engulfed by darkness, he stood at the end of the empty street, she looked at him in a daze, and he looked at the locked gate, in a daze, for a long time, motionless gaze.

After a long time, he gently moved his right hand wrapped in gauze, turned around, walked into the corner at the end of the street and left, walking alone, his weak back was lonely and desolate.

She stood numbly for a while, then walked towards the house slowly, looked down and saw a bag on the ground at the door, she picked it up, it was also filled with medicines, but there was an extra piece of paper inside, on which was written when and where to eat Kind of medicine, how many tablets to take, which one to eat first and which one to eat later.

She was suffocated, her throat was suddenly sour, and her heart ached without warning.

She took a deep breath, turned her head to look at the empty end of the street, it was quiet and dark, she opened the door and walked in.

The gate was closed, quietly, people at the end of the street came out from the dark space, Do Kyungsoo walked to the gate again, looking at the lighted window with reddish eyes.

"Five...six..."

The night was getting dark, he stood in the cold wind, his frozen white lips moved slightly, whispering the number of times she passed by the window.

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