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Jin Youzhen, who worked late at night, returned home, looked at the hot food on the dining table, with a mocking smile on his face: "Change a man every day?"

"That's right, but it sounds uncomfortable." She handed the chopsticks to Jin Youzhen, lowered her head to drink the soup, she stopped the movement of her hands, looked up at Jin Youzhen, her expression became very serious, "I think I like Kyungsoo."

Jin Youzhen looked at her: "Think? How sure are you of this 'feeling'?"

"I don't know." She shook her head with a look of confusion in her eyes.

Jin Youzhen looked at her silently for a long time, and then said: "I asked you a lot of questions, but you never answered me without knowing. Do you know the reason? You have never seriously sorted out the relationship between the three of you. You said that you think you like Do Kyungsoo because he always gives you a sense of distance, which makes you very uncomfortable, so you think you like him and want to keep approaching him , to make discomfort more comfortable, this feeling is called desire to conquer.”

"So...?" As if something had been torn apart, she looked at Jin Youzhen in a daze.

"Compared to Do Kyungsoo, Baekhyun is much easier to deal with. If Do Kyungsoo always appears behind you where you can't see it, then you can always see Baekhyun around you because of you." I am too relieved of him, confidently feel that he will just surround you with a stern face, but have you ever thought that one day he suddenly leaves you and treats another girl like you, so intimate and enthusiastic, you will How? However, it's normal that you don't like him, who would cherish something that comes easily."

As if being poked by something, she clenched the spoon tightly in her hand, watching Jin Youzhen's eyes become serious.

"Maybe..." She took a deep breath, with a calm expression but imperceptible panic in her eyes, "I really like Kyungsoo..."

Jin Youzhen took a sip of the soup lightly: "Why?"

"Kyungsoo can cook, and he is careful, calm, restrained..."

"Well, he is a good candidate." Jin Youzhen pushed the chair away and stood up, "The cooking is indeed very good."

Jin Youzhen went back to the room, she sat on the chair silently and didn't move for a long time, her eyes were in a daze and chaos, it seemed as if thousands of troops were rushing past her heart, her usually peaceful heart became turbulent.

Jin Youzhen's words were like a hand tearing away the ugliest side of her, that side bared its teeth and screamed like tentacles.

In the end, I was still greedy and didn't want to let go of any of them, so I kept procrastinating without making a decision, and took it for granted that they were good to me.

Greedy, disgusting.

Her stomach suddenly turned upside down, she covered her mouth to swallow the surging nausea, picked up the water glass on the table, and drank a lot to suppress the nausea.

"Even I'm starting to disgust myself." She shook her head, stroked her chest, calmed down for a while, then stood up to clean up the dining table, and put the dishes and chopsticks into the sink.

Jin Youzhen came out of the room and said while wrapping the scarf, "Happy New Year."

She was cleaning the bowl: "When did you say Happy New Year?"

"Today is December [-]th."

"Thirty days?" She raised her head slightly and murmured softly to the wall, "Time flies so fast."

"I'm leaving." Jin Youzhen changed his shoes and asked again before going out, "Can I help you bring something back?"

She shook the water off her hand without turning her head: "No, goodbye."

She forgot that Jin Youzhen never talks nonsense.

In the white world outside the window, the snow was so thick that it hadn't melted for a few days, and now it was snowing quietly outside again, and the air became cold.

She watched TV for a long time, and found something to eat casually at night, but she didn't eat much before lying on the bed and sleeping, but just as she lay down, her stomach began to feel uncomfortable, and a wave of nausea gushed upwards.

She ran to the bathroom, climbed onto the toilet and wanted to vomit, but she retched a few times and couldn't vomit. She touched her stomach and murmured in bewilderment: "The food is broken?"

Back in the room, lying on the bed, she curled up and fell asleep in a daze, half dreaming and half awake, remembering that the door was not locked and the warm quilt, she didn’t want to get up, thinking that it was so late and it must be snowing No one would come, and after a while, she closed her eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

At some point, there was a slight sound in the room, she opened her eyes slightly, and vaguely saw someone beside her.

Maybe he didn't know that she was awake, so he bent down and kissed her warm cheek gently.

The room was dark and quiet, she didn't see his face clearly, half-opened her eyes, the moonlight seeped in through the curtains, she noticed that his wrists and fingers were clean, he didn't wear any jewelry, and when he approached her, there was a kind of The smell of cake flour.

"Good night." He patted her head.

She looked sleepy, not yet fully awake, and asked in a daze, "Why are you here? It's very late..."

"I want to see you." He whispered softly, with gentle fingers.

"You can... call me..." She couldn't speak clearly, and after she finished speaking, she fell asleep on the pillow again.

"If I can see you on the phone, I will call."

His voice was full of loneliness and bitterness. He caressed her side face and smiled lightly, very satisfied.

In the morning, she was woken up by the sourness in her stomach. She covered her mouth and stomach and rushed to the bathroom. She retched for a long time before wiping her mouth.

He walked back to the room in a daze, sat on the bed, wanted to lie down, but the corner of his eyes glanced at the delicate little box on the bedside table.

She opened the box with doubts, and there was an ordinary silver ring inside. She pinched the ring on her fingertips and looked back and forth. Although the outside was ordinary, there were a few letters engraved on the inner ring of the ring.

She read it softly one by one, and it took her a while to realize that it was the abbreviation of her name.

Yesterday... It turned out that it was not a dream. Someone really entered her room, stroked her hair and said that she wanted to see her.

She hesitated, and took out her mobile phone to make a call to confirm, but just after unlocking it, she saw a line written on the screen of the mobile phone.

"Happy birthday."

Birthday, it turned out to be her birthday today, she had forgotten it herself.

Putting the ring on her finger little by little, looking at her hand repeatedly, she smiled, it must be specially made for her.

She rubbed her messy hair and walked into the kitchen to drink a glass of water. She looked down at the cake on the table. She opened the cake box. The delicate white cake had no extra decorations on it. It was simple and clean, and it was indeed his style.

She put a little sweet cream on her fingers and put it in her mouth. She licked her lips, and a burst of acid reflux rushed up from her stomach.

"vomit--"

She covered her mouth and ran into the bathroom, spitting out all the clear water in her stomach. She felt that her internal organs were twisted together. She leaned on the side of the sink and looked at herself in the mirror panting. The expression on his face froze, and his eyes were full of panic and fear.

Today is the 31st.

Number 31...

She hurried into the room, took the mobile phone and dialed Jin Youzhen's number, it rang for a long time before she answered it.

"Hey?"

"Where are you?" Her voice trembled.

"On the way home." Jin Youzhen heard the uneasiness in her voice, "What's wrong?"

"Could you buy me one when you come back..." She paused, her fingers on her stomach tightened unconsciously, and she tightly grasped the clothes.

Jin Youzhen stopped in his tracks, looked at the pharmacy in front of him: "What?"

"Pregnancy test paper..." She said those few words so weakly and hopelessly.

"Postponed?" Jin Youzhen's tone remained the same, calm as always, "How many days?"

"It's been ten days... I've never been in such a situation before, and these few days..." She frowned, bit her lips hard, "I've been wanting to vomit."

After hanging up the phone, she walked around the room restlessly, her clenched hands were covered with cold sweat, she stroked her belly, she bit her pale lips, and bit a trace of blood.

After a long time, Jin Youzhen came back from outside, put something in her hand, and patted her violently trembling shoulder.

Her chest rose and fell uneasy, and she walked into the bathroom with a solemn and serious expression, as if she was about to be sentenced to death.

A few minutes later, the door of the bathroom opened. Before she had time to look at the lines on the pregnancy test paper, there was a nausea in her stomach, and she lay down by the sink and vomited.

The pregnancy test paper in her hand was taken away by Jin Youzhen. She lay on the sink and couldn't straighten up. It took a long time to suppress the strong feeling of vomiting.

"you are pregnant."

Jin Youzhen stood at the door with her pockets in her pockets, a faint voice came into her ears.

She was shocked, her face was pale and her eyes were wide open, all the blood in her body poured into her brain for a while, it seemed like it was about to explode, her throat was blocked by something and she couldn't speak.

She took the pregnancy test paper in Jin Youzhen's hand, and looked at the two blood-red test lines on the pregnancy test paper, her vision gradually became blurred, and her hands trembled so much that she could hardly hold things.

"Bian Baekhyun why..."

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